Chapter thirty five

"So you're not even a little mad at them?" he finally asked, I hadn't wanted to start the conversation in case he didn't feel like talking about it.

"No, as one of them I really do understand how they're feeling. I wish we could have done it differently, but there really was no other way. I wish I could take away their frustration, but the fact of the matter is, no matter how nice I am I'm always going to represent the reason they can't get you. I know you don't understand how you can be so desirable, but trust me, we all want you" I ended my explanation with a little flattery

"Thank you for that" said, picking up on my last comment "I guess you're right, like always. I kind of want to be mad at them because I don't want them to hurt you. I just wish that even if they're unhappy with it they could just keep it inside, but I know that's not how it works. Let's not talk about it anymore, I just want to forget about it for a little bit" Dan requested.

"Sure, so what do you want to do, just lay here?" I asked.

"Well, we could just lie here, or we could do something else" his voice dropped an octave.

"What were you thinking?"

"I've been thinking, ever since our little thing earlier, I've been thinking about how easily you turn me on. Just you pretending to try to turn me on actually turned me on. There's so many things about you that make me practically drool" Dan started drawing circles on my back with his thumb and also running his hand up and down my thigh. The combination of his word and touch were driving me wild.

"Tell me. What is it about me that turns you on?" I asked lifting my head from his chest to look him in the eye.

"To start with, your eyes and the way they blink and look so innocent when I know dirty you actually can be" my cheeks flushed and I buried my face in his chest once again as he continued "When you read my mind and somehow know exactly what I want. Whenever you lean back in a chair, on a couch or a bed" he started tracing his fingers lightly un and down the side of my torso "The way you lick and purse your lips sometimes before you speak and how you lips part slightly when you're thinking. When you're nervous you play with your hair a lot and when you push it all to one side and all your curls align perfectly, I don't know what it is about your hair like that. Of course your whole body is to die for" I rolled my eyes even if he couldn't see me "And I know you probably don't believe me, and that's part of it. How you don't even know how sexy you are, but then when you occasionally feel really confident the way you carry yourself is also so sexy. You sway your hips more when you walk and sit more straight and push out your breasts more"

"Of course I look better when I try to look better" I sarcastically remarked.

"You know" he said thoughtfully, completely ignoring my comment "If you had shown yourself in the video my fans would probably be even more jealous then they are now. Those pictures didn't really do you justice. If they really got to see you they'd think 'Wow, she got Dan and she's really hot'. I know you don't believe me"

"No I don't" I agreed propping myself up on my one elbow and sweeping my hair to one side so it didn't fall in my face.

"See, just like that" Dan pointed out, and rested his hand on my hip, just as I was about to protest he continued, not letting me speak "you don't even know that you're doing it. When you do know that you're doing it though, ugh" a cheeky smile spread across his face and his eyes searched the ceiling as he thought and probably imagined things I'm almost too embarrassed to think about.

Again he continued before I could interject "When the bedroom door is closed and you take control. That's some of the sexiest shit I've ever seen. You do exactly what I'm wishing that you'll do, how do you do that?" he rambled "But I'd have to say the thing that turns me on the most about you is how much I can turn you on" he smirked that sexy smirk of his.

He knew what he was doing when his hand proceeded to travel down from its perch on my hip and cup my butt for a second before hooking around my inner thigh and pulling my leg up over his crotch.

"I saw this picture on tumblr that said 'I can't help it if I get a boner every time I see you, I can only apologize and hope that you'll touch it' and it reminded me of you, I almost reblogged it" Dan remarked.

"Dan" I whined knowing that letting him know his teasing was getting to me only meant he would tease me even more.

"What? I'm just being honest. You turn me on all the time and you don't even know that you're doing it. You're such a remarkable creature" he ran his fingers lightly down my bare arm. This was getting deep really fast. I almost enjoyed Dan's deep confessions even more than I enjoyed his playful, flirtatious, dirty talk.

"I have no comeback for that" I admitted.

"Maybe you don't need one" Dan countered bringing his hand to my cheek and then lightly guiding my chin till my lips met his. Softly he kissed me. My hand traced up his upper torso and neck, until I found his soft dark hair and curled it around my fingers. Dan's hand found my thigh again, this time to flip us over. Again I had one leg between his and he had one between mine. Slowly he grinded himself against me.

There was something different about the scene that night. There wasn't just the passion and lust, not that that was all there had been before, but there was something even more than usual. For me every time seemed like a new experience, but it was on a whole other level.

I was unsure if Dan was doing that on purpose, if he even knew what he was doing to me or if he felt the same thing. For once I decided not to question him about it. Something had started to build inside me and for some reason I knew that it would reveal itself to me at some point, at the right time.

That probably sounds incredibly weird to you as well, but you'll see what I mean.