Cadie
Three months. It's been almost exactly three days since whatever it is that is happening between Elliot and me has started. And I have to say I really love the man he is when we are alone, but then there is also the guy he is around everyone else and he is not so nice or maybe he doesn't even realize how the way he is treating me in front of others is making me feel.
He is always kissing me, pulling me into his arms, pulls me to sit in his lap or touches me no matter who is around and while I don't mind that in the slightest it's how he reacts when others ask who I am or what we are to each other that is so very humiliating. I know that I'm not his girlfriend, but god damn it then he shouldn't treat me as though I am in the presence of others. I tried to talk about it to him, but he just shrugged it off. Like he doesn't even care how I feel about it and the worst part is, I still can't leave.
I have thought about it so many times, but then I just can bring myself to do it and I feel like this is the real issue here. Me staying is making things worse, because it gives him the idea that I don't mind being treated like that. Or maybe he just doesn't care and I'm plain stupid for hoping that eventually, things will get better.
At first, I was hoping that with his divorce things would change, but he has been divorced for over a month now and it is still the same. Things are never going to change and he doesn't want to listen when I try to tell him that what we have is not enough for me. It makes me feel cheap and that is a feeling I hate more than anything else in the world. But why am I complaining? After all, I'm the one who has allowed him for the past three months to reduce me to feeling like his personal hooker.
And now, I'm hiding in my room because he has some old friends over and is having drinks with them. He asked me to join them, but I can do without being humiliated for a night. After a while, however, I'm really thirsty, so I walk into the kitchen and hear them talk in the living room while I get myself a glass from one of the cupboards.
„The girl makes great sandwiches." One of the guys says and winks at me, which I ignore and pour myself a glass of iced tea just when I hear Elliot say:
„Yeah, the only thing she does better than cooking is riding my dick... and that's all I need her for."
I cannot believe he just said that, in front of five guys I have never met and who are all staring at me now, while the big idiot that is Elliot Grey takes another moment to realize I'm even there, but before he can even say a thing I storm into my room and lock the door. That's it. I'm not staying here any longer. If I ever needed any more proof that he has no feelings for me than I have it now. All he needs me for is to fuck him on top of taking care of his kids, cleaning, cooking and doing the laundry, which all besides of looking after the kids is not even part of my fucking job and I still did all of it to make his life as easy as possible.
Not anymore though, enough is enough. I can't even cry, I'm just so angry and that anger rises, even more, when he has the balls to knock at my door after his friends have left.
„Cadie open the door? Are you sleeping? Why did you lock the door? Well, I guess you are not in the mood." I hear him mutter and want to run out there and smack him, but instead, I punch my pillow and listen to his footsteps walking away.
In the morning, I get the kids ready and make them breakfast. I'm still cooking when he walks into the kitchen, wraps his arms around me and kisses my neck, but I don't react.
„Everything alright?" He asks and if it wasn't for the kids I would have hit him with the frying pan, is he really that obtuse or just plain stupid?
„Sure." I mutter and help Jamie and Brianna with their breakfast, get them all in the car and drive Ava to her school before I return home with the kids, keep them entertained until they go down for their nap after lunch and start to pack my belongings and bring them to the car.
In the early afternoon, I take the younger kids with me to pick Ava up and drive to Bellevue. I have already talked to the agency that brought me to Elliot and they will send someone over to his place to replace me tomorrow. So, now all I have to do is say goodbye to the kids. When I get them out of the car I feel a lump form in my throat as I kneel in front of Ava and Jamie, while Brianna is still in the car seat.
„Listen, you two, I have to leave."
„When will you be back?" Ava wants to know and I have no idea how to tell her that I most likely will never be back.
„I don't know sweetheart... see, there will be someone else to look after you and your siblings."
„Why?" She asks quietly and it breaks my heart.
„It's difficult, but it has nothing to do with you or Jamie or Brianna... it's my fault, ok?"
„No, please don't go Cadie, please." She begs and I pull her into my arms.
„I'm so, so sorry, sweetheart. But I want to show you something." I say and take her tablet that only has a few games on it from my purse.
„If you miss me, want to talk to me or need anything, you can always talk to me."
„How?"
„Here, you push this icon and then tab here where my name is. If you do that you are ringing me and we can see each other and talk, ok?"
„Can't you just stay?"
„No sweetheart, come here give me a big hug, you too Jamie." I say and hold them for awhile before I take a deep breath and bring them to the front door where the housekeeper opens the door.
„Hi, are Dr. and Mr. Grey home?"
„Yes, they are on the patio."
„Can you bring them the kids, I have to leave now, their father will pick them up later."
„Of course." She says and I stay behind, trying my hardest not to cry while also reminding myself that these are not my children, because otherwise, I would be following my instincts who are screaming at me to take them with me.
Instead, I get into my car, take another deep breath and then drive leaving Bellevue and Seattle behind me until in the early evening I arrive at my childhood home, get out of my car and walk towards the door.
I'm just about to knock when my Dad steps outside with his two dogs.
„Cadie, darling I had no idea you wanted to come visit." He says and when he pulls me into a hug I finally realize that this is it, I will never see the kids or Elliot again and in that moment I can no longer hold back my tears.
Elliot
It's been a week since Cadie has left and so far I haven't managed to get in touch with her. She is not answering my texts or e-mails and hasn't answered my phone calls. I don't even know where she is, she could be in Seattle or she decided to put as much distance as possible between us and has left the country.
It's driving me fucking insane. I miss talking to her, I miss listening to her beautiful voice, I miss hearing her laugh, I miss watching her with the kids and that she insisted on TV free family time every night, so she would make us paint with watercolors or play board games. Damn it, I even miss her telling me to get my horny ass away from her because she is busy.
And it's not just me, the kids miss her too. Especially Brianna, my little bug has been grumpy for a week now keeping me up half the night crying for her mama. I know Cadie isn't technically her mother, but she has been taking care of Brianna since she was born, so of course when it was time for her to start talking she called her mama and for some reason I liked it. I just felt so confident that things would just stay that way that I didn't take into account that I could drive Cadie away and put my kids in such a shitty situation as well.
In hindsight, I just didn't want to call what we had a relationship or admit my feelings for Cadie because I was scared things would turn to shit for me again, only that now I'm the one who has created the steaming pile of shit I have found myself in.
Since I have no idea where Cadie went I have decided to start with the place that makes the most sense, which is why I am now outside her childhood home, which happens to be a very impressive historic mansion. I knock at the door and a minute later an older guy opens, who I know is her Dad.
„Good morning, Mr. Danielson, my name is Elliot Grey..."
„Ah, Cadie's former boss, I've been meaning to call you."
„May I ask why?"
„Join me while I walk the dogs." He says and attaches the leashes to their collars before I follow him down the driveway.
„You see, Cadie has always been the sunshine of the family since she is back she seems very upset which is not something her mother and I or her siblings are used to. In addition, she didn't call us to let us know she would quit her job and come home, which is not like her at all. Do you know why my daughter left so suddenly?" He asks and I know he is not going to like my reply.
„I would prefer to talk to Cadie first, Mr. Danielson. This is a private matter between your daughter and myself." I say and he looks at me intently.
„I see, just how old are you exactly, Mr. Grey?"
„Thirty-eight, Sir."
„One would think a man your age knows better than to upset a girl to the point where she feels the need to run." He says not even trying to hide his rising temper.
„I'm fully aware of that, but I came here today to make things right, so I would really appreciate it if I could talk to Cadie."
„She is inside in the basement with some of her brothers who stopped by to cheer her up. Go back into the house, the basement door is by the staircase, they will be in the room at the end of the hallway. And Mr. Grey, I don't take it lightly when I see my daughter cry and I will hold you responsible if I find her crying again today." He says and I nod before I head back to the house. Well, that could have gone worse.
In the basement, I hear voices come from the room her father described and when I step inside I curse inwardly when I find her with no less than nine of her older brothers, who look at me questioningly while Cadie glares at me.
„Hello Cadie, it's good to see you, can we talk?"
„I don't have anything to say to you, Mr. Grey." She says coldly and I wince, she has not referred to me as Mr. Grey for so long, it's almost like she slapped me.
„Please Cadie, give me ten minutes, I came all the way here to see you..." I try and she gets up and walks towards me.
„What was it you said about me, all you need from me is to cook you food or ride your dick, I'm sorry, but I won't do either of those things ever again. Have a good day, Mr. Grey." She snaps at me and walks out of the room leaving me with her seriously pissed looking older brothers. Well fuck.
Christian
„Damn baby, this pregnancy seems to have its advantages." I smirk when she starts to stroke my dick again after we already fucked five times today.
„Yup, I'm one horny little pregnant lady and this is nothing compared to what I'm going to be like when I hit the second trimester... you better stock up on your vitamins, Grey." She smirks and we both groan annoyed when we hear Taylor's voice over the intercom.
„Your brother is on his way up the driveway." He announces and with a sigh, we get up and get dressed.
We have moved back home yesterday and while it's still our home, with the renovations it also feels new, like a fresh start, which we both enjoy a lot. However, I would have enjoyed it even better if it wasn't for my brother interrupting us.
When he walks in though both Ana and I run to him. „Oh my god, did you get into an accident?" Ana asks, but I know better, he has been in a fight which judging by his split lip and black eye didn't exactly end in his favor.
„No accident Ana, it's alright."
„Alright... you look like hell... sit down, I'm getting some ice for your eye and the first aid kit." She says and hurries off.
„So, you met Cadie's family?" I smirk.
„Funny, but yes... my new look is thanks to her Dad who wasn't as welcoming after his oldest son, who wanted to punch me told him what I have said about his daughter."
„Her Dad... Elliot, Robert Danielson is in his late sixties, do not tell me you got into a physical altercation with him?"
„Well, he did punch me twice, but I didn't hit him back... after all, once I have managed to get my ass kicked by all of her brothers and possibly her mom and the family dogs I'm planning on marrying his daughter, so I can't lay hands on him." He smirks... fucking hell, he just got roughed up by a grandpa and he is smirking.
„You think the fact that there are a dozen guys who want to kick your ass is funny?"
„Well, like I said, if I want to get back on Cadie's good side, I have to win her family over first."
„Did you even see her?" Ana asks as she returns and hands Elliot an icepack for his eye.
„Thanks, sis... yes, I saw her, but she didn't want to talk to me, she is really fucking pissed, which is good." He says and I frown.
„Why is her being pissed good?"
„Her being pissed means she is hurt and in order to be hurt, she has to care about me, which then means she has feelings for me. So, all I have to do now is grovel and show her that I'm serious about us, so that she is willing to give me another chance... simple, right?" He smirks and winces due to his split lip.
„Well, I guess that makes sense... so what are your next plans?"
„That's why I'm here. I'm sure her Dad won't let me into his house again, so I need to find a way to see her. Can you have Welch hire someone to follow her, I need to know her daily routine, so I know where to pop up to see her."
„Ok, consider it done... now let Ana take care of your split lip, so I can kick you out and have my way with my wife." I smirk at him.
When he has left Ana shakes her head. „You know I love your brother with all my heart, but he really needs to grow up. I mean who walks around grinning like a fool after being punched in the face repeatedly?" She mutters and I pull her back into my arms.
„Baby, he wants the girl back and believe me, if anyone would ever treat my daughter the way he treated Cadie, I would get some hits in too."
„I would hope so... of course, you would have to get in line, because I would get to that guy first." She grins and kisses me.
My brother might have a long way ahead of him, but I'm confident that he can win her back because if I could manage to get my beautiful wife back after everything that has happened between us, I know he will find a way out of his mess too.