CHAPTER 36
Previously…
Joey walks on the dark street, seeing again and again the scene of Charlie kissing someone else than her. Her heart beats so fast with anger and her eyes are full of tears. She doesn't have the strength of washing them away and lets them roll on her cheeks. She can't help but think she deserves this but to see Charlie moving so fast hurts her so much. She never wanted a relationship since her sister's death but Charlie is the only one she wants. She can feel it and she won't let her go.
Now...
Charlie just left the club and is now on her way to Joey's flat. She feels so sorry for Joey seeing her with Jenny. Her heart felt apart when she saw Joey's look before to see her leaving. And now here she is on the street in the middle of the night looking for the only one she wants to be with. Charlie walks until to see someone sat on a bench. She walks slowly knowing it's her. She looks at her : her hair are on her face, her head on her hands.
Joey doesn't have any more strength. She can't think clearly about everything about Charlie. Sometimes, she wishes she never meet Charlie before to realise how bad her life was without her and how horrible it would be if she loses her. A small smile appears on Joey's face at the thought of Charlie being with her forever.
- "What does make you smile like this ?"
Charlie sits next to Joey. Joey looks at her surprised to see her.
- "What are you doing here ?"
- "I was looking for you"
- "Why ? I thought you would stay the night with your girlfriend"
The words came out more harshly that Joey wanted. Charlie looks away.
- "Jenny's not my girlfriend and she will never be. What…what you saw was a mistake"
- "I don't ask you anything Charlie. We are not together anymore, so just don't justify yourself. I don't care."
- "Joey, even if you don't want to say it, you can't deny it hurt you and I…"
- "Of course it hurt me Charlie !"
They eye each other, both surprised by Joey's voice, full of anger. Joey looks away, understanding how bad she just reacted.
- "I'm sorry. I meant yeah, it hurt me. It hurt me a lot to see you with someone else than me."
Joey looks in Charlie's eyes.
- "Charlie, I'm so sorry for what happened with Steph, you can even imagine. And that's why I can't be angry with you. I'm angry with myself enough and I know I'm the guilty one for the way things turned between us."
Charlie is now surprised by Joey's sweet voice.
- "I didn't know what love was until I met you Charlie. And like the stupid one I am I through everything away for nothing. I have a lot to learn about love Charlie and…I'm ready to do anything just to learn it with you."
Joey doesn't let her eyes go off of Charlie's blue eyes. She wants to show her how much she means every word.
- "Just tell me how Charlie"
Charlie takes Joey's hands on her and puts them on her knee. She looks at them before to watch again Joey's face. She can see tears all over her face.
- "Joey, please don't cry"
- "I'm sorry… I just can't help it"
- "I don't want you to do anything Joey. I just want you to be who you really are. You have a lot of different sides Joey. I don't know anyone of them yet but I want to. So stop trying to be someone you're not. Do it for me. Allow me to see what you hide."
Joey turns her head and looks away.
- "I forgave you Joey"
Joey looks at her not understanding what she means.
- "I forgave you the next second I saw you. I wanted to hate you but I just couldn't. I couldn't help but loved you. And I don't think I could hate you one day."
- "How can you say that after everything I did ?"
- "Just love"
Charlie leans closer and slowly kisses Joey. Her eyes close and she enjoys the feeling of Joey's lips on hers. Joey looks at her with a smile playing on her face.
- "You didn't answer my first question"
- "What question ?"
- "The first one I asked you when I arrived"
- "Oh…that one…"
- "Yeah, that one. Sooo, why were you smiling ?"
- "I don't know…I guess it was just because I was thinking about you"
- "Really ?"
- "Yeah, you're the one making this effect on me"
Joey kisses her, not resisting one more second.