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Chapter 36 New Beginnings Part One

Kendall's POV

»Kendall? Can I ask you something? «

I looked up from the song lyrics I had to learn. Logan was standing in front of me biting his lips. I could tell that he was nervous.

»Sure, Logie. What's wrong? «

»Are…Do- Do you expect us to be intimate again like Carlos and James? «

I frowned.

»Why are you asking? «

His bottom lip quivered and he started to cry silently.

»I-I don't want t-to d-disappoint you…«

My heart constricted painfully in my chest. I jumped up and embraced Logan.

»Listen to me love: I could never be disappointed in you. And I don't expect you to do anything. If we make love again, I want it because you want it, not because you think you have to. «

I led him to our bed where we laid down with his chest tucked under my chin. I wanted to soothe him and so I started to sing his favorite song at the moment: Hallelujah by Panic! at the disco. After some minutes, he was calmer. I looked down at him. His eyes were looking back at me and his eyes were shining with a rest of tears. I caressed his cheek with my thumb, while my eyes never left his. I couldn't believe that I was so lucky to have such a perfect boyfriend. I smiled softly at him and he smiled back. Then we kissed. Just like every other kiss, it felt perfect.

But then Logan's lips started to move more urgently. His tongue sneaked into my mouth. I gasped and my hands traveled over his clothed torso. I didn't understand how Logan could be insecure about his body. Even though we were both clothed and "only" kissing, I was incredibly aroused. Logan followed my jaw with his lips and kissed his way down to my neck. I moaned as he started to suck on a particularly sensitive spot on my neck. His soft lips and his tongue felt amazing and when his mouth disappeared from my skin, I whined. Logan chuckled and looked at me with shining eyes.

»You are so beautiful, Kendall. I don't understand why you love me. «, he whispered.

I smiled.

»Have you looked into a mirror lately? And aside from your looks you have a beautiful personality. «, I whispered back.

Logan stared at me for a moment, before he gave me a bruising kiss. His hands were pulling my shirt frantically off. For a moment it stuck to my head before he could pull it off completely. Logan and I were laughing for a short moment and then we were kissing passionately again. Clothes flew everywhere and I don't know who was more quickly naked, but it didn't matter. At the end, I had a naked, aroused and hard Logan on top of me. I mean who wouldn't want that? Logan shifted on me and our erections pressed against each other. I groaned and Logan started to grind his hips into mine. We thrust and rutted against each other moaning and kissing open-mouthed. After a few minutes, I grabbed Logan's hips and stilled his movements.

»What? «

Logan's eyes were dazed, his cheeks were flushed and I knew I had to look the same.

»Don't want to come yet. «

I flipped us over, so that I was on top of my boyfriend. My hands were traveling over his creamy skin. I was kissing down from his navel to his erection. When I pressed a kiss to the tip, he panted:

»Kendall, turn around. «

I needed a few moments to progress what he meant, but then I shifted until my erection was in front of his face, but I was still facing his erection. I was peppering his erection with kisses, when he engulfed my cock and sucked hard. I gasped.

»Damn. You're too good at this. «

Logan chuckled and I could imagine his cheeky, crooked grin. And so I lapped at his erection, before I took it halfway down my throat. I had to fight my gag reflex, because to be honest it's been some time since I did this.

To my embarrassment, I did only last for a few minutes. Everything just felt too much: Logan's mouth on my cock, the scent and taste of him invading my senses, the feeling of his bare skin on mine. I felt hot all over my body, while pleasure was crashing me like a wave. Over and over again. And I just couldn't hold back anymore.

»L-Logan…«

I knew he understood. He stopped for a short moment, before he sucked me even harder. And after a few moments, I came with a strangled moan. In that moment I experienced one of the most intense orgasms of my life. I panted heavily and even though all my energy seemed to leave me, I somehow managed to bring Logan off, too. Because not much later, Logan came into my mouth. I swallowed and let my body drop lifelessly next to Logan, who turned around and faced me.

»You okay? «, he asked with that little twinkle in his eyes.

I smiled and murmured sleepily:

»I love you. «

»Love you too. «

I snuggled into him and placed my head onto his chest. We napped for some while and when I woke up we kissed softly and talked.

»I feel kind of bad. «, I said.

»Why is that? «

»I feel like I pressured you…«

»Nonsense. Kendall listen to me. I initiated it. And do you want to know something? «

I looked at him.

»When you were on top of me, I felt completely safe. I know you are worried about me, but you have to trust me with this. I know my own boundaries. Besides with you I feel constantly safe. «

I stared at him for a moment feeling shocked. I did not expect that. Then I pulled him into my arms, pressed him against me and buried my face in his neck.

»I love you so much. «, I mumbled into his skin.

»Love you, too. «

»And by the way you make me feel safe, too. «, I added.

Logan smiled and kissed me.

~Time Skip~

Three weeks later, after a lot of hard work, we were ready to start our tour. Victoria was in the 25th week of her pregnancy that meant we had three months for our tour. At first we would fly to Europe where we had a couple of concerts, and then we had 3 stops in Asia, next were Australia and New Zealand. That would consume the first one and a half months. The last one and a half months we would spend with concerts in North and South America with a final concert here in L.A.

Of course we were all nervous. It's been some time since our last tour. And it would be really hard for us to stay in front of thousands of people. But at the same time we were excited. And we knew that as long as we were together we would rock that tour.

I am not a big fan of this chapter, but I hope you like it. And I promise the next (and last chapter) will be better.

I feel like I am always promoting something I like… Anyway, you should definitely check out the song Hallelujah by Panic! at the disco. And don't forget to review please.