Trigger warning guys! This one is a very sad chapter! Happy reading.
Also don't forget my pintrest account name is the cranberries and the pinboard is called Fifty Shades of Wonder.
Christian's POV:
I wake up next to Ana who is fast asleep and decide to pull a little prank. She sleeps like she's most of the time. Honestly, the first few times she stayed here, I was genuinely scared, but she warned me that it's normal. I slip out of bed and carefully pick her up and place her in the bath tub. She starts to wake up so I need to do this now. I turn the faucet on cold and spray her with water.
She opens her eyes and at first she's a little disoriented, but when she sees me she is not happy.
"Christian, what the fuck are you doing?!" She shouts.
"Waking you up." I say innocently.
"Did you have to like this?"
"Probably not." After this, she starts splashing water on me.
"Stop it." Fucking hell, the waters cold
"You're the one who started this." She does have a rather good point.
I run into the shower and hold the door closed to shield myself from the water, which was a stupid idea. She walks over to the control panel for the shower.
"What are you doing?"
"I think you need a nice cold shower." And with that cold water rains down on me. I use the settings inside the shower to warm up the water and run out of the shower and pick up Ana before getting back into the shower.
Since we are both soaking wet we start peeling off our clothes and I don't take my eyes off her the whole time we are stripping. I can't believe someone as innocent as her would love me. I can't resist her anymore, my hunger for her in burning me from the inside out.
I reach out for her and back her up against the wall of the shower. I run my hands through her wet hair. I kiss her lips, cheek, throat, and shoulders. She wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me in close to her.
"I want you now." Ana whispers into my ear and that's all I need. I pull my boxers off and unhook her bra before pulling down her panties as I fall to my knees and toss them to the side. I grab her hips again and push them into the wall of the shower and kiss at the peak of her thighs, which grants me a satisfying moan from her. I grab her thighs and spread her legs to gain better access of her sex.
I circle my tongue around her clitoris. She tips her head backwards and arches her back. She runs her fingers through my hair.
Ana's POV:
Christian's tongue is relentless on my clit, swirling around and around nonstop. The intensity of sensation I'm feeling is almost painful. My breathing starts to quicken, but he stops. No, why?
"Sorry, babe, but this has to be quick. I have a big meeting." He stands up and grabs my face with both his hands holding me firmly in place. He kisses me hard, forcing his tongue into my mouth. He grabs my butt and lifts me up and I wrap my legs around him. He moves swiftly, filling me instantly. I gasp and he groans. His fingers dig into the soft flesh of my behind. He slowly starts to move at a steady tempo. He speeds up and starts going faster and faster. Ahhhhh! Once again my head tips back. With each thrust Christian sends me higher and higher. I explode around him, spiraling down into and all consuming orgasm. Christian let's go with a deep growl, he buries himself in my neck moaning as he finds his release. Once we've both settle down, we wash off.
He squirts some of his body wash into his hand and starts with my shoulders and moves down to wash my breasts where he spends a little too much time. He moves to my stomach then down to my legs. I turn around and he washes my back spending a lot of time on my behind. Tsk tsk. Not that I really mind.
Next I squirt some body wash into my hands and I start washing his beautifully sculpted chest then down his wash board abs. I wash his thighs then calves. I turn him around and wash his back and arms. We both quickly wash our hair and step out of the shower. Christian wraps a towel around his waist then wraps a warm fluffy towel around me and dries me off then my hair.
I put on my dark blue lace matching bra and underwear set then decide to wear my two tone knit dress with my Christian Louboutin black platform pumps. I decide to do the tuck and cover hairstyle Kate taught me with my Deepa Gurnani Gold Teardrop Headwrap.
Christian wear his Contrast Collar Dash-Striped Dress Shirt & Micro-Medallion Silk Tie with his gray suit and black leather lace up shoes. Damn, he looks good enough to eat!
He bends over to pick out a watch and his ass looks fantastic in those pants. "Anastasia stop staring at my ass." Christian says and I blush and roll my eyes how does he know.
"And don't roll your eyes, my palm is starting to twitch and I don't have the time." Fuck!
He puts on his his Chrono Classic Swiss Army watch and pulls my into him for a kiss and I melt in his arms. So much for clean underwear... blush.
We eat a quick breakfast for granola and yogurt with a protein shake and ride to work together. Ugh, I still can't believe I can't drive. We drop Christian off at the office first since he's already late for his morning meeting due to our shower this morning. I blush thinking about it.
"I'll pick you up from work at five." Christian says and runs out of the car.
"Good luck." I scream out the window.
Charlie meets me at my office with a cup of black tea weak just the way I think it.
"Tell me about the up coming week."
"You have a meeting with Jasper the editor who is going to publish your book at 3 today. You're meeting with Mike Cohen about his manuscript and taking him on tomorrow. You have a stack of manuscripts to review this week and on Friday you have a meeting with Katie Fenriz about her publishing date."
"Thank you." I step into my office and see a lovely bouquet of flowers. I read the card, which says, "Have a good day at work my darling X." Awe, how sweet! Christian is a true romantic at heart I'm the luckiest girl to have him.
I sit down and get a call from Charlie.
"Sorry, Miss Steele, I forgot you have a meeting with HR, Roach, Christian and the other editors to talk about strategy for the company. This is a big on for me, I need to prove myself to everyone at this company.
By the time I collect the paper work I need I have to get up to the board room. Shit! Everyone's here already except Christian. At least I'm on time 10:30 on the dot. I sit down beside Lacy and Jasper at the end of the table, it's strange that everyone has their assistant with them.
With the expression on the girls faces Christian has just entered the room. Christian places his things at the end of the table beside me. Oh fuck! Why did he have to be beside me?
"Welcome everybody thank you for meeting with me today. I will not be attending every meeting, but since I've just purchased SIP I need to understand everything that goes on around here. If I'm not mistaken this is the monthly meeting to discuss profit, strategy and marketing right?" Roach nods and Christian speaks up again.
"So do what you usually do and pretend I'm not even here." Fat chance, Adonis. We go around the table starting with Elizabeth who is sitting opposite me and share concerned ideas and strategies.
Once it get to me my mouth gets dry. It's not or never. Time to prove yourself to these people.
Once I start speaking everyone is very attentive of me.
"I know that I'm new to this, but I have some ideas. I've noticed that each editor specializes in something, but doesn't solely focus on it. I think that we should assign each editor a specific genre to focus on." Everyone nods their heads " I also think that we should maybe consider getting someone who specifically works on book covers because typically it's up to the author to do it, but we've had to reschedule multiple publishing dates because of this."
"I think that's a very wise idea." Roach says and everyone agrees. That went better then expected.
"Does anyone have anything else to say?" Christian asks and everyone nods their heads.
"Alright then I think were done here." I grab my stuff and rush out the doors and down the stairs. I know this is going to sting for Christian, but I really want to keep our relationship outside the doors of work. I rush out the doors leading out of the stairs and run a wall. Nope, not a wall just Christian.
A blush creeps up my face as I look into Christian's eyes. "Miss Steele, your office now!" His voice booms loudly.
I walk to my office like a kid who's just been sent to the principals office. I sit down and gesture for Christian to sit in the desk opposite mine.
"May I ask why you wanted to speak to me?"
"Are you embarrassed of me?" clearly I've bruised his ego by my little stunt.
"No, Christian why would I be embarrassed of you?"
"Why did you run away from me?" Ugh!
"I ran away from you because people look at me differently now that I have this job. I want people to know that I got this because I'm the best, not because I'm dating Christian Grey."
"Everyone knows you got this job because you were the best."
"Do they Christian?" He lowers his head like a puppy who just got in trouble. "People whisper in the office when I walk by."
"There's only one thing I can do then." He takes a long pause and I see a tear roll down his face. "Anastasia, I love you, but there is no way this is going to work out. I'll have Luke drop your things off at your place. Goodbye." What did he just say? He turns on his heel and is about to open the door when I say
"Are you fucking serious? Christian this isn't what I wanted." He ignores me and walks out. I run to follow him, but Jasper is here for our meeting.
"You ready?" I try and look past him, but Christian is gone.
"Yes, my office or yours?"
"Well were already at your office so.." Silly me. I eye every bone in my body and every ounce of willpower not to cry. Christian and I have come to far and this was what broke us.
Jasper and I have decided I'm going tot do the sketches for my book of poems and will be released the first week of December. A Constant Battle is going to be on the shelves in two week.
Your dreams are coming true, Steele! Yeah, but Christian is gone.
The day is over and when I get into the car I expect to see Christian and Taylor, but Luke is driving and all of my things are packed and in the truck. This is really happening isn't it? I stare aimlessly out the window of the car on my way home, but it seems foreign I've been at Christian's every night for weeks and now I'm going home to my old life to the girl I was without Christian.
I unlock the door step inside and wait for Luke to finish bringing all the things from the car. We say goodnight and once the door is closed I start balling. Everything that's happened is all my fault. I lock myself in my room with a bottle of Jack Daniels.
It's been months since I've done this, but I need relief. I pull out the familiar box and take out my razor. I place the blade against my skin and feel a familiar sense of relief. With every cut I felt my pain go away. I remember when I first started I thought it would be a one time thing, but the blood, the pain, all of it is so addicting. I cut until I can't count them anymore.
I run myself a bath place the blade on the counter grab a wash cloth and step in. I place the cloth on my cuts and apply pressure to stop the bleeding. I instantly regret what I've done, but then again I always do. An hour later I step out of the bath very light headed and start unpacking my things. With each piece of clothing I pack away the more real this becomes and my sadness slowly turns to anger and then back to sadness. How am I going to do this without Christian?
I'm done putting my things away and lie down on my bed and I fall asleep.
I am back in my old house with Morton and Carla. I just turned twelve and my only friend is Anthony, who lives back in Portland, where I want to be with my father, Ray. I run to school without breakfast like always. We never have food in the house and when we do, I have to be careful or else Stephen might cane me in-case he wanted it. I keep to myself all day, but Ashley is insistent on starting drama with me. I passed my math test with flying colours and I'm so happy! Mom said if graduate with all A's, I'll be able to move back in with Ray. I love my mother, but I don't love Stephen. When I get home, my mother tells me I can't go home for March break and I yell at her, which was a mistake because Stephen was still asleep on the couch and I woke him up. He comes in yelling and when he sees me his eyes look angry. I don't like when he's angry, he hurts me. My mom does nothing to calm him, she just stands there and watches. He grabs my hair and drags me into the other room. And throws me over the foot rest. "Not the cane, please, I'm sorry."
"I bet you are." He grabs the cane and strikes me with it. My eyes fill with tears, it hurts so much. Ten strikes this time. If I do something wrong I get ten, if its bad grades it's 15, and if he just angry at me sometimes for no real reason it's 20. I need to get out of here now.
I wake up drenched in sweat. I haven't has a nightmare in so long. Christian did so much more for me then people knew.
I throw on my work out clothes and trainers and go for a run. Work is going to be hell today.
Thoughts? I know a lot of people will be upset, but we need a little drama.