KAGEYAMA

I groan as I see the light peeking through my curtains. Damnit I thought I closed them all the way. I sit up adjusting them before laying back in bed. Man the sheets feel really good right now. I shift around a bit suddenly remembering that I'm naked, I usually don't sleep this way at all. I look to my left and see Hinata is still asleep. I can help but notice how at peace he looks in my bed. The left over alcohol on my breath is awful and I want to get rid of that taste right away.

I sit up as I start to think about last night and I feel like a complete idiot. I'm not talking about the sex, I'm talking about the party. I sigh remembering it. I don't know why I was so jealous of Lev. I mean the guy did rub me the wrong way, ex-boyfriend or not Hinata told him on more than one occasion to keep his hands to himself and he didn't. Although I was buzzed I don't regret punching that bastard in the face.

I get out of the bed and throw some clothes on, just sweats and a tee shirt. I head into the hall straight to the bathroom to wash up. I think about everything I said to Hinata last night. I love him. I love him with all my heart but I can't let this affect things in my life. That punch to Lee's face is a damn good example, it's something I would never do. I work hard to keep my record clean and stay out of trouble so I will have no issues when it comes to playing on the Olympic volleyball team. I finish up in the bathroom heading downstairs and I see my dad in the kitchen.

"Morning," he greets.

"Morning," I mumble.

"How did studying go last night?" he asked sipping his coffee.

"It was good," I reply knowing if I don't answer it will lead to trouble.

"Glad to hear it," he replied sitting down at the table. "Your buddy up there still sleeping."

"Yes," I replied. "Is mom going to be cooking her famous breakfast?"

"Don't you think I would be eating right now," chuckled dad. "She went to a hair appointment early this morning. You know that means we won't see her for a while."

"Alright, I might take my study buddy out for breakfast. It's the least I can do."

"Good host as always," smiles dad. "You should really learn how to cook." I smirk as I leave the kitchen because not even my dad knows how to cook. I don't even think he can boil water. I climb the stairs and head back into my room. I stand there looking at Hinata sleep for a little bit feeling like a damn weirdo. I begin to straighten up my room since there is stuff everywhere from last night.

I wonder if Hinata does want to have sex with me. Did me hitting Lev and acting like an ass last night turn him off forever? Ugh too many questions I can't answer right now. I sit down at my desk hooking up my laptop to do a bit of studying. Once I click the link to get on the internet I started to wonder how to go about having sex.

Sure most people know how men have sex but is there anything else I need to know. I blush just from thinking about it as I pull up google. I'm not sure how to go about it, I'll start with how to have safe anal sex. Then I begin to wonder if Hinata is a top or bottom? I start to think of him topping Lev. That guy seems to be too aggressive to take it up the ass but you never know. Either way properly knowing how to have anal sex is still something I would like to know about.

Hinata easily sleeps another two hours. I guess I wore him out last night. I did not plan to do what I did, it just happened. I figured sticking my dick between his legs would feel good and be the closest I get to be inside of him. It was wonderful and well worth the effort. His dick, ugh it was great. Does that sound weird? I enjoyed taking him into my mouth and making him feel such joy. I seriously love him, everything about him. I'm still a little shy but I feel open when I'm around him. I'm happy to hear him finally stir. I turn around to face him swing my desk chair around. He looks at my through hooded eyes.

"Hey," I say from my desk.

"Hey," he says. I don't know why but I suddenly feel panicky.

"Uh my mom stepped out this morning so I wanted to take you out for breakfast," I suggest.

"Okay," he says slowly. "I'm still tired. Is it okay if I just lay here a little while longer?"

"Sure," I tell him because he does still look tired. "You need anything?"

"No," he replied. "I would like to be held by you though." I can't help but smile. I'm glad to know I didn't freak him out last night, why else would he be asking to cuddle.

"That's something I can do," I say standing up. I climb back into my bed trying to wrap my arms around him when he turns over.

"I want to lay on you," he explains. I lay back on my pillows as Hinata curls into my side like a cat. I can tell something is heavy on his mind. I rub his back up and down as he relaxes into my side. I'm trying to think of what to say. I don't feel the need to apologize for last night and I'm not sure if he is up to talking right now.

"Did you sleep okay?" I inquire.

"Yeah," he said. "I slept just fine." He sighs. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Lev." I swallow hard.

"It's okay," I replied. "You have apologized enough. Care to tell me why you dislike him so much?"

"He hurt me," said Hinata still laying on my chest. "He played at our school for 1st year and transferred to one our opposing schools his last 2 years but we got along really well. He actually asked me and I remember being so happy. Being gay in the world of sports is still consider taboo. He was also the first guy to show me any interest. The fact that we both loved basketball just made us even more of a perfect couple. Everything was fine at first but then when he went off to college I started to hear from him less. I took the bus to see him one day. I probably should have called but I wanted to surprised him. I get to his dorm and I see this guy leaving out and he is at the door topless with his pants unbuttoned. Doesn't take a genius to know what happened." I can feel his back become tense. "I didn't even go over to him I just left. I stopped returning his calls or attempts to reach me online. He showed up to up at school when I was on my way practice demanding to know what my problem was. He had the nerve to try and deny what he did."

"I'm glad you decided to not let him date you anymore," I reply. "Most people would not do that when they love the person." Hinata laughs nervously.

"I didn't love him at all," he replies. "It didn't make it hurt any less." I'm glad to know he was not in love with Lev at all. I can tell I have nothing to worry about because he never brought him up until he had to. It's as if Hinata was acting as if the relationship never happened. "Although you punching him in the face was hilarious." I chuckle.

"I didn't like him touching you," I admit. Hinata lifts his head so he can look at me while still laying into my side. I see his face begins to turn pink.

"Do you really want to have um you know…sex with me?" God why does this have to be so embarrassing. I know I'm in love with him so it shouldn't be this hard. My face feels hot as I give him my response.

"Yes," I reply slowly before breaking eye contact. I feel Hinata shift his top leg covering more of my leg. My hand squeezes his back a little. "I was buzzed last night by the time we got back here. I was not drunk to the point of not remembering anything. I'm ready to take that step with you."

"Are you sure?" asked Hinata. I nod yes. I think of how to further explain myself. I'm very thankful that Hinata is not the type to press for sex. He just enjoys being with me as we are.

"Um I do plan to be with you," I replied. "Do you plan to be with me forever?" I can see Hinata shift uncomfortably.

"Forever is a long time," he states. "I mean anything can happen."

"I know," I replied. "I just want to make sure you're not going to get bored of me or decide you want something else. I know things can happen but I want to know you're going to try and stay with me."

"I will," replied Hinata smiling. He leans in kissing my cheek dodging my lips altogether. "Sorry, morning breathe." I laugh.

"I don't mind morning breathe as long as it's yours," I explain. I lean in kissing him and he allows me this time. I can feel him start to get hard against the side of my leg. I wish my dad wasn't here so I can take him right here, right now. Hinata pulls out of the kiss giving me a sweet smile. "My mom had a hair appointment and had to leave early this morning. Are you ready to head out for breakfast now?"

"Yes!" exclaimed Hinata. "Let me go wash up so we can head out. Can't head out with our essence left behind on my skin." I blush deeply as Hinata grabs some pants from my draw before walking into the hall and I'm glad he did. Last thing I need is dad seeing him without bottoms. I frown as I realize my parents will not be happy about me dating men, more so my mom. I'm in love and I'm not letting him go no matter what.