(I've been i hospital so that's why this chapter took so long! Sorry about that guys, but I'm back now. Enjoy this chapter, there's some slight lemons in! :) Don't forget to review xx)
Edward Cullen.
Her words were like a thousand stings from a bee, all at once. She didn't want me...not even my help, and now I felt lost. I'd always imagined that when I met a girl I was completely head over heels in love with, it would be like finding the missing piece of my soul, and she would feel the same. It was different for our kind. We could only fall in love once, when we found our soul mate. But now I was faced with having to love someone who would never love me back, and watching her loving someone else. It was too difficult to bare, but how could I not see...just how wrong I was!
"Edward what's happening?" Sydney said, glacially pacing out, and standing beside me. She was the last person I wanted to deal with right now, and I made sure she knew it by glaring over at her. But something in my expression must not of been right, because she held her soft hand up and brushed my cheek with it. And suddenly my face lifted, and I felt something strange. A feeling that didn't last too long, and was closely followed by feelings of disgust.
"Don't do that!" I warned, pushing her arm away. She furrowed her brow and scowled at me.
"Gawd your such an asshole sometimes! No scrap that...all the time. It's always about you, and your problems when other people just might be more worse of that you. In case you haven't forgotten, there's a roomful of people in there frightened for their lives, willing to risk everything to try and save your family. And all you can do is stand out here and whine a bitch because the girl you 'love' doesn't feel the same way. Well boohoo! Get over it. Your not the only one whose ever loved someone and not had the feelings returned" She said so angrily I was a little taken a back. But even though I resented her for talking to me this way, a part of me knew she was right. I was being completely selfish.
"Look I just need a moment to myself ok?" I said crushing my head into my hands, and wishing they'd just come now and tear me to shreds. I didn't even know if I was going to put up much of a fight when they did come. What was the point?
"Just man up for crying out loud. Stop whining all the time, and look at the positives. You have an amazingly beautiful home, where you are free to do what you like, in this beautiful place. You have the most amazing family anyone could wish for, who love and care for you so much they'd give their lives for you. My whole family are dead...I have no one! Do you hear me complaining? No, because there are more important things in life to whine about. You need to get real Edward, otherwise this fight for our survival is going to be pointless. I understand how your feeling, truly I do, but you can't be selfish. Look at Rose...she's loved and lost so many people but has that stopped her kicking ass and fighting for what's right? No, because she knows what's important and what matters. If you pussy out like this every time something so minor doesn't go your way, then I can't respect you any more. I know your better than that, so don't prove me wrong ok?" And with that she left, leaving me to process her words. She was right, I was being a selfish moron, and my head was in the wrong place. Maybe I didn't have the love of my life, but I still had a family to protect, and people who I barely knew willing to risk their lives. It was at that moment I realised I had been searching for all the wrong things. I desperately wanted to find my soul mate, that I latched on to the first girl who flashed my way. Love didn't happen like that. It wasn't something you could find, or make happen no matter how much you made yourself think you could. Rose was right. I wasn't really in love with her, I was just lonely and desperate, and not thinking straight. She was someone I cared for, deeply, I always would, but I always knew there was something that wasn't right, like a missing piece. I had to get real, and stop this now...otherwise we would all die, and then the bad guys would win. That would not happen!
Rose Hathaway.
"What the hell are you doing here?" Jacob growled, baring his teeth and me, and clenching his fists together. I grinned mockingly over at him.
"That's no way to speak to a lady. Weren't you ever taught proper manners?" I taunted. His face clenched tighter.
"We warned you if you stepped onto our turf we'd take you out!"
"I'd like to see you try...but since I am half human, I thought I'd take the chance" I said brushing past him, as I walked into his home. It was small, and cabin like, but still quite homely. As I entered the lounge area I saw a familiar face sat on the couch.
"Oh...who is this?" The girl asked, her body tense and awkward.
"GET OUT!" Jacob screamed, grabbing hold of my arm. I jerked it away causing him to fall to the ground, and vibrating badly.
"Jacob!" The girl yelled, running over to him, and trying to calm him down.
"Get...out...Bella" Jacob struggled to say as his body vibrated more and more.
"Bella? Oh your the new girl right...well you were" I said remembering her from the first day me and Lissa had started at Forks' high school.
"Don't you dare talk to her!" Jacob spat.
"Oh calm down wolf boy, I'm not going to hurt her, she's a nice girl. My reasons for being here are beyond this little pathetic feud you have with the vampires. I presume your girlfriend here knows about it all?" I asked, watching as Bella flinched. She was incredibly shy, and awkward but was quite pretty. Her presence sort of reminded me of Lissa in a way, and I felt instantly connected to her. It was weird.
"Are you going to hurt us?" Bella cowered, hiding herself behind Jacob who had stopped vibrating.
"Not at all...well I can't promise I won't slap your fella around, but apart from that...no" I smirked.
"What do you want?" Jacob demanded.
"Shall we sit down?" I suggested, placing myself confidently on his sofa. Jacob and Bella unwillingly came and sat down in front of me.
"Talk" Jacob encouraged, his face still careful and wary of me. But my smirk had gone. This was serious now and I couldn't joke around. So I told them the whole story, sparing no detail. I told them what Avery's plans were, and that she wouldn't stop until she'd destroyed everything and everyone.
"I'm not saying you have to fight with us, I'm just telling you that she will come after you at some point, and you won't be strong enough to fight her and her army off. I'm asking you, as a human, if you will consider fighting beside us. I know your the alpha wolf, and this is your decision, which is why I came to you. I took a big risk coming here"
"Why should we fight with you? What exactly is in it for us?"
"Survival. You don't know what Avery is capable off. It'd be wrong to let her win, she'd destroy the entire human race. You don't owe us anything, that much is true, but we need your help, and you need ours. We don't have to be best friends or anything afterwards, but some sort of truce...it couldn't hurt right?" I said truthfully. As much as the wolf pack annoyed the hell out of me, I respected them. They fought for what was right in the world, and protected each other and their families. It was an asset we could use. He thought about it for a second, studying my desperate expression carefully and then turned to Bella.
"What do you think?" He asked, his voice softened and loving. I watched as his arm closed tenderly around her back, and how he rested his head against hers. They were deeply in love. Something inside me hurt.
"I think we should help them. Avery scares me. Someone who can have that much control and power...we have to try and help any way we can. Don't you think?" She suggested. He sighed and nodded, kissing the tip of her nose and then turning back to me with a hardened expression.
"I will talk to my pack about it. I can't make any promises but if we decide to help you, we will be there. Do not expect us to protect you though, we will be there protecting our own, so don't mistake it as a favour to you"
"I wouldn't dream of it" I said smirking again. "Oh and Bella...if you want somewhere safe to stay, there's a few of us, who can't fight, staying in a safe house. It'll be protected by wards, and a glamour, so you'll be very safe there" I suggested, looking over at her sympathetically.
"I can protect my girlfriend thank you very much. She doesn't need the help of your bloodsuckers!"
"How can you protect her whilst your fighting? Without the magic protection from wards and a glamour she'll be in danger. You might not trust us vampires but we aren't the bad guys. I wish you'd see that, instead of constantly jumping down our throats" I said standing up and storming out before he could say another word. But as I waltzed back into the cold, icy woods I began to wish I hadn't left the reservation.
"Roza" A familiar, chilling voice said from behind me. Before I could even acknoledge that it was Dimitri stalking me from behind, his arms had forcefully wrapped round my neck, and with one slight snap I flew into darkness.
Edward Cullen.
"We will win this fight!" I said full of bravery and confidence to the whole of the room, filling everyone with hope and and energy that would help us through. I watched as the mouths of everyone curled into smiles, but only one persons smiled mattered to me at that moment. Sydney's. I smiled back over at her, happy that she had some sort of pride for me now. She had filled me with belief and hope, and I couldn't dislike her any more.
After everyone had gone outside to prepare, I went upstairs to where Sydney was resting, and knocked on the door.
"Come in" She called as I opened the door and walked in. She was lounging on the bed, wearing a thin vest top, and tight fitted jeans. I'd never really taken the time to appreciate how stunning she actually was. Stop it, I yelled to myself, dangerously coming close to losing my head again. I shook the train off thought out of my mind and tried to focus on the wall instead of her face. But it was still tattooed in my brain, and hard to focus.
"Is everything all right?" She asked looking up at me. A thick strand of her curly hair fell into her eyes, and I felt a huge urge to brush it from her face. Stop it, stop it!
"E..rr yes. I er I just wanted to come and thank you for earlier. You were right, I was being selfish" I said, looking at my feet. I felt her smile over at me, as though it were a beam of sunshine against my dazzling skin.
"That's ok. You just needed some strong guidance. Happy to help" She said still smiling. "But you better go get training with the others, we don't have long, and Rose still isn't back yet" She said.
"What you don't think I'm ready still?" I said a little too accusingly. She stepped off the bed.
"No! That's not what I said, but you really should be out there with them, instead of hanging around here" The loathing feelings returned again.
"I came to thank you, and this is what I get? Orders from a little girl" I spat. Her face pierced angrily. She came up in front of me, looking into my eyes with red fire burning from them. I could feel the heat radiating from her body onto mine.
"Little girl?! Little girl! Wha-" But before I could let her say another word I pressed my lips deep into hers. She protested for a moment, but then gave into it. Her hands passionately entangled into my hair, pulling my face closer to hers. I pressed my hands into her hips and lifted her slender legs around my waist carrying her over to the bed, as a tiny moan exited her mouth. Maybe I should be focusing on the war ahead, and maybe this was wrong, but why not spend the last couple of hours we had left making love to a beautiful girl? And one I was strangely, and frantically attracted to. And before I knew it, the clothes were off, and I was inside her, forgetting completely what was to come. (no pun intended).