Really short chapter guys I'm sorry. I promised longer chapters and will deliver soon. Hopefully this is the last short chapter other than the possible epilogues. We are so close to the end, but I know the next couple of chapters will have you wondering how the hell is this the end...and I like that response, and will be looking forward to reading the reviews. ;)

Someone mentioned that it seems I switch the plot often in the story...its not true I promise. Donna can vouch that the story is going according the outline. I have known the way this would end from the very beginning, before I started the story...its the getting there thats the challenge.

I still haven't completely figured out how to incorporate Bella's sessions into the story without confusion. Everytime I write a flash back it seems theres a bit of confusion, and I don't want that. I will figure it, but if any of you have an idea that could help me pleaseeee feel free to tell me. I was going to post them on the fb group but alot of people were concerned because they don't have a facebook, and I don't want anyone to be left out because something read in the sessions may bring more understanding of the characters, and of particular situations...we will just have to wait and see how it goes.

There probably won't be another chapter til after the holidays sooo...Merry Christmas everyone! :) Hope you all enjoy this short chapter, and will stick with me through to the end. :)

This story is beta'd by Edwardsfirstkiss. Thank you not only for being a beta, a supporter, a cheerleader, a mentor but a friend. :)

I do not own Twilight. These characters belong to Stephanie Meyers.

EPOV

I'm sitting in a chair and the air around me is cold, frigid, and thick with tension. I am waiting not so patiently, with my elbows braced on my nervously bouncing legs, one hand behind my neck. I rub the spot trying to relieve some of the tension but failing miserably.

When I can no longer tolerate the sounds of my tapping foot or the low murmurs around me, I quickly shoot out of my seat in pursuit of the nurse's station.

"Son? Edward?" I hear my mom call as she follows behind me, but I don't stop. I'm losing my fucking patience with this hospital. It's been way too long since I've heard anything from anyone, and I want to know what the hell is going on.

"How can I help-"The nurse starts to ask, but I cut her off.

"I need to know what is going on. My girlfriend was taken through those doors…" I shake away my sleeve on my arm to glance at my watch. "Eighteen minutes ago." I finish with a dangerous bite to my voice. "No one has come out to tell me what is going on. I was told to have a seat, and I have been patient. However, if I don't hear news of how my girlfriend and daughter are doing right fucking now, I am going to barge through those doors and see for myself."

"Sir, we have regulations on patient privacy. We can't give out any information regarding your girlfriend." She replies with wide, fearful eyes, and she has a reason to be because I am fucking losing my mind here.

I open my mouth to yell at the young nurse that obviously doesn't understand the mental state that I am in, when my mom replies for me.

"Dear, we just need to know if my son was forgotten in the process. He should be with her during labor. She wouldn't want to be alone and my son is upset that she's alone at the moment. So if you could please help us out?"

She looks between us, and nods. "I'll see what I can do. Have a seat."

"I'll wait here until you tell me which room she's in." I tell her sternly, hoping she understands just how serious I am.

"Edward." Esme calls in a reprimanding tone. "Let's give her a few minutes."

Esme wraps one arm around my waist, hugging close, comforting me in the way that only a mother can as she slowly walks me back to the group. No one has made a move whatsoever, and everyone is just as stagnant as they were when Esme and I left.

"Did they say anything?" Jasper asks, and Esme replies for me again. Because I'm so stuck in my own swirl of thoughts, I can't form words to tell him how utterly fucked up I think it is that no one is letting me see my girls.

I ease into my seat, scrubbing both hands down my face slowly as a block in my chest prohibits calm breaths. I feel lifeless, and I know it's because my life is on the other side of that door, and fuck if I'm not scared out of my mind, going crazy with worry.

I feel a rather large hand on my shoulder, and realize it's not my mother. I look up, and see my father standing there, and so is the doctor. I practically jump out of my skin trying to get out of the seat.

"You have got to tell me something, Doc." I tell him, and he just nods, and starts towards the doors I saw him take Bella through.

"Come. You can see her now." I don't have to be told twice. I rush to follow him through the door, and that's when things are shoved at me, and directions are shouted, as a whirlwind of things happens all at once. I feel as though I am spinning, and I am panicking because everyone seems so frantic, and I still have yet to see Bella.

Once I scrub in, I listen to the chatter around me which seems like a foreign language because my mind just will not focus on any words spoken to or around me. I need Bella.

I'm moved down a long hall to a very cold room with bright lights, and stark white walls, and I assume that I am in an operating room. What the fuck? Bella and I had planned on a natural childbirth, not this. Something must be wrong. I start to freak out, forgetting all of my techniques for control when I see her. Half of her body is shielded from me, but her eyes are what I'd been searching for. Her eyes will assure me that she is okay, and I will be able to stop losing my control, stop losing my mind, and be the rock that she needs me to be.

She is on an operating table and her arms are restrained, but she has a joyful look in her eyes, not bothered, completely worry free. She catches my worried glance, and grins at me. It warms my heart, and kicks it into overdrive.

"How are you doing, baby?" I run my hand down her cheek, and beam down at her angelic face.

"I'm not sure yet. Ask me in about ten minutes." Her voice is more melodic than usual, and I know it's because she is in such a great mood, but her eyes are anxious. Not fearful, not worried, she's anxious to see Lily. It's written all over her face. She'll do anything; endure anything to finally have Lily in her arms.

"You're doing great, sweetheart." I tell her, squeezing her hand reassuringly even though I have no idea what the doctor is doing to the lower half of her body. I know what a c- section is but hadn't researched it because I just assumed that we would be able to have a normal birth. We were not prepared for this, and nobody has explained why this is necessary.

"You're going to feel a bit of pressure now, Bella. It's normal." Doc says, but Bella is a bit loopy, so she only lovingly smiles up at me.

"Edward, I can't wait to hold her." She says to me, and I smile down at her as a tear rolls down my cheek.

"Soon, I promise." I push her hair back from her face and just admire all that is Bella. I am so thankful for this woman. All that she has put up with, and sacrificed and all that she's given me, I could never repay her, but I will spend the rest of my life trying to make her happy if she only will let me.

"How are you? Earlier you looked…" She trails off and I answer for her.

"Pissed?" I ask, and she stifles laughter. "It was because I didn't know what the fuck was going on."

I can see it flash through her eyes before she actually opens her mouth to mock me. She's in a teasing mood.

"Oh, mister control freak doesn't know what's going on; it must be the end of the world." She smiles at me, and I sigh, shaking my head at my beautiful little annoying girlfriend. "I'm having a C-section."

"I gathered. I just want to know why."

Bella opens her mouth to speak, but then a flurry of different things happens all at once. I hear the cry of my baby girl, the doctor says things, and the pediatrician replies, and moves about the room, but I am only focused on my daughter. I can barely see her, but I can instantly see that she has my crazy head of hair.

I smile, and glance down at Bella to see her eyes are unfocused. Then, I notice how pale her face has become, and my smile drops instantly as I breathe out her name to which she doesn't reply. In a daze, her name softly flows from my lips, but I know that she can't hear me because somehow I am once again being dragged away from her, with no explanation as to why.

This time, I don't sit. I pace a hole in the hallway of the hospital, trying to muster up my sanity so that I don't cause mayhem and end up being arrested. That would only further piss me off, and I don't think I can spend multiple days away from both of my girls.

"Edward, what's going on?" I hear Esme, but I don't look up to see or speak to her. I continue to pace the floor. "Son?" She calls, and I grip the hair at the back of my head with both hands, and bend back at the waist before looking down at Esme. I shake my head.

"I have no fucking clue what's going on. She had to have a C-section, and-"I suck in a deep breath. "I need to see them."

"Just breathe Edward. We are all here for the both of you." She tells me, and I nod because I know it is true.

Then the air shifts around us, tension leaves my shoulders and I hear audible breaths being sucked in around me. No one will breathe easily until we have received answers, but seeing the doctor is a step closer to those answers.

I meet him half way to the door he'd exited as he headed towards my family. He smiles reassuringly before speaking. "Mr. Cullen-"

"How are my girls, Doc?" I cut him off edging closer to him.

"Isabella is asleep at the moment and your daughter is healthy. She is six pounds and seven ounces."

"I want to see them." I exclaim, close to shouting at him for wasting my time speaking when I could have my daughter in my arms.

"Bella is asleep, but you can go in." He says, and I hear rather than see chairs shuffling as our family stands up to quickly follow.

"Just immediate family." He says, and still everyone except for my father continues forward. "Two at a time, please."

"I'm Grandma." Esme says and walks forward without waiting for anyone else to protest.

"Follow me."

The doctor walks us through the double doors and down a hallway until we reach another door. The doctor pushes the door open and allows us to enter.

I rush to the side of Bella's bed. I inspect her entire body, letting my worried eyes roam every inch of her tangled up in the white sheets, hooked up to different machines as they monitor her.

I can hear my mother speaking to the doctor, but I zone them out focusing only on the love of my life. I run a hand down her face, missing the light from earlier, and the rose color of her cheeks. I miss her lively spirit, her fire, I need it to live...to breathe.

I bend down to speak into her ear. "I love you so much, Bella."

I see her eyelids flutter and I stand straight to get a better look at her. Her eyes lock with mine, and she looks a little frightened, her eyes are wide, and wondering. She opens her mouth to speak, but I stop her.

"I want you to rest, baby. I swear I will be here when you wake up. "I tell her, kissing her forehead. I let my lips linger there, and close my eyes tightly just reveling in the comfort her presence brings to me.

"I-" I hear her try to speak, but I place a finger over my lips and shhh her.

"Rest love." I say, and she nods; her eyes slowly blinking closed.

X

Bella wakes up sometime during the night, and is just as surprised as the nurses were when they saw me cuddled up to her side in the hospital bed next to her. She cups my face, and my eyes open; my smile has been permanent since Lily was born and I knew that Bella was going to be fine. When I realize she's awake, life is blown back into my body. Her features are darkened because there isn't much light in the room, but I can still make out the smile on her face.

"Are you allowed to do this?" She whispers, lovingly stroking my cheek. I turn my head and kiss her waiting palm, before taking her hand into mine, and kissing each of her fingertips.

"Don't know...don't care." I mumble against her fingertips, continuing as if she'd said nothing.

I feel her shake with laughter. "Was I out for long?" She asks, trying to sit up, but I stop her.

I nod, answering her question, before asking a question of my own. "Are you in pain? They haven't given you pain meds in awhile, ylou must be-"

"I'm fine." She effectively cuts me off, smiling as if to hide her pain. I know why she's unwilling to take the pain meds...well actually there are two reasons, and one of them is absolutely insane. I wonder which reason is flashing through her mind right now. She didn't have to say it, but I know her well enough to guess.

"Baby, she'll be here when you wake up in a few hours." I respond to her unspoken thought. I want her to rest up, and recover completely.

"Pain meds will put me to sleep for hours, Edward. I want to stop dreaming about her, and see her in person. I-" She stops short, and takes a breath. "Edward, did I tell you that my nightmares stopped?"

This news causes me to sit up, and stare intently into her eyes, reassuring her that it is okay to finish. "It's because of Lily, I'm convinced."

"Lily stopped your mind from reverting to a traumatic time in your life during your unconscious state?" I don't mean to sound like an asshole. I am really curious to know how she came to this conclusion, and how she knows that they are completely gone. If I remember correctly, just three weeks ago, she woke up screaming, and I held her until she fell back asleep. Within three weeks she's come up with a reason behind the absence of her nightmares.

"Yes. I have been having dreams of holding her instead. I need to see her. "Bella says, and something about the way in which she says it causes me to jump out of bed. "Edward." Her tone is chastising, but her eyes are amused.

"What?" I ask, as I try to maneuver around all of the machines she's hooked up to. I'd actually like to see my baby girl as well. I held her earlier, but I'd like her to sleep in the room with us so that I can hold her as long as I please.

"Where are you going?" She asks, and I shoot her my best "Isn't it obvious" look to which she rolls her eyes. She hates when I do that, but I can't help it. When people ask stupid questions they don't deserve a reply.

"That my love, was a silly question." I tell her, as I stretch, feeling a bit of relief in my back and shoulders. That bed is not one bit comfortable. I hope Bella is able to leave soon because I can't keep sleeping in this awful bed. But then again, I can't sleep without her body on mine so I'm effectively screwed.

"I didn't mean right now. "She says, and even in the dark I can outline the rise of her cheekbones into a glorious smile.

From my position at the end of the bed, I lean over her feet, resting my fists on either side of her knees atop the cover.

"Do you want her?" I ask a simple question, but because she's a woman, my woman, I know a simple answer will not be as easy to get in return. She ponders my question. "Yes or no sweetheart."

"I-" She stutters, but I see her head nod, which is all the indication that I need. "They aren't going to give her to you right now. What time is it anyway?" Her eyes search the room for a clock.

"Baby, if you want her, I'll go get her now. No one can stop me. I'm her father." I say proudly, and she rolls her eyes, laughing at me.

"Have you seen her?" Bella asks, and I nod, thinking this is absurd. She's attempting to distract me. She must think I'll cause a frenzy to get to my daughter...and she's right.

"Yes, I have. She's beautiful...just like her mother." I tell her, and watch as her face brightens the dark room. I can't help but smile back, because fuck, my woman is gorgeous. I round the bed, and bring my face down to hers, kissing her passionately. I feel her hand on my shoulder, and the wire connected there sort of freaks me out so I back away not wanting to set something off, or hurt her.

"I'll be back with Lily." I tell her as I exit the room, off to retrieve my daughter.

The next day, Bella's room is filled by family waiting with arms ready to snatch Lily up the first chance they can get. It's been hard to get around my mother though; she will not let anyone hold her too long without playing the 'I'm grandma' card. This card apparently can even be used against Bella and me, which we both find utterly amusing.

At one point, Jasper is holding Lily for the first time, and as I look on I am reminded of an earlier conversation that I had with Bella. I lean down to whisper in her ear.

"I agree with you." I tell her, leaning away to catch her expression. Her facial expression doesn't disappoint. She's so fucking beautiful, but this look quakes through my insides. She's not even trying to be cute or adorable, which only makes her that much more attractive. For a second, I forget the conversation I was gearing up for, as well as the fact that our family is in the room.

The urge to kiss her is overwhelming, almost too much to push aside; The longing...the craving that I have for her, her lips, her taste, her skin, it's a hunger that can never be quenched, never be pushed aside. Therefore, denying my lips the gentle touch of sweetness that is dotted in her kisses is out of the question.

She can see the hunger in my eyes, in my face; in my posture...women can always tell. However with Bella, it's different. She sees through me. She doesn't just see a man sitting before prey as other women do. She knows that this look is for her only, and my insatiable behavior is due to the fact that our connection is far beyond physical desire. Far beyond explanation. Far beyond mere attraction. We are soulmates; two halves of one whole.

Bella bites the corner of her bottom lip, letting me know that she knows exactly where my mind has veered. "Agree with what?" she brings me back to the present...the here and now, as I so desperately needed to be reminded that our family was still in the room.

I nod my head in Jasper's direction to see him handing Lily off to my father.

"You wanted Jasper as her godfather. I agree, and have no qualms with your decision."

Her eyebrows shoot up, and she beams brightly at me.

Whatever it takes to keep her looking at me like that...I'll do it.

I sort of miss what Bella says when she asks Jasper to be Lily's godfather, but I zone in when he mentions that one day soon he would also be her uncle.

Then the congratulations begin, and I freeze. He asked Alice to marry him? He asked my sister to marry him without talking to me about it? Isn't it too soon? It's too soon. It's too fucking soon. He was just in love with Bella not six months ago, and now he's engaged to my sister?

I am not happy with the direction my family members are taking, and it's time I do something about it.

X

BPOV

It feels good to be home. That is the first thought that I have as I walk through the front door of the home that I share with Edward with our newborn baby girl.

I can't stop grinning. My face is permanently stuck in this smile, this all consuming happiness that I feel is almost too great to fathom. Is this really my life? How can I possibly deserve this amount of happiness? I can't afford to think like this for too long, because I know for sure that after all that I have been through, I deserve happiness. I also know that I need to keep my spirits high in order to be the best mother that I can possibly be to Lily.

Edward takes her into the living room, where I have seated myself to check through my phone messages. The light keeps blinking which is annoying, and now that I have a chance to check it, I have taken it.

"Are you hungry baby?" I ask Edward, as he flops down next to me.

"No sweetheart." He speaks softly , but somehow it still rattles Lily. She awakes with a cry, and Edward is instantly on alert. My stomach growls seconds later as I put the phone to my ear to listen to the first voicemail.

I watch as Edward's face turns distraught as he glances between his girls trying to figure out which of us to tend to first. I help him out.

"I'm fine Edward, really. Can you change her?" I ask him, clicking away on my phone to delete a message that I barely listened to, but could tell it was a solicitor.

"Of course." He takes Lily, grabs her bag, and makes his way up the stairs.

I smile as I watch him with her, cooing, and kissing her face, her small frame in his big strong arms; I almost lose focus, and miss an important message.

"Miss Swan, this is David Rogers. I'm calling with information involving your mother..."

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