AN: Hi everyone, sorry for the delay. This one was a little hard to write. I got a little writers block on how Edward should find out about Katie and how he deals with telling Jamie. But I like how it came out. Enjoy.

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I turned and fell to my knees sobbing.

"You're not supposed to be here."

"It was my time."

"No! Not you!"

"It's alright Bella." I felt soft arms wrap around me.

The voice whispered, "Live each day like it's your last. Take care of all those around you. Take care of my little girl. Tell my little bunny-boo that her mommy said I love you."

"Katie."

EPOV

It had been 67 minutes since they took my wife from me. It had been 67 minutes too long. I paced and I swore I thought I was losing my hair. Every time I ran my fingers through it, my sister would say I needed to stop.

That was easier said than done. I insisted that she go home and rest. She, of course, refused. She wanted to be here when the doctor came out with the news.

"Mr. Cullen," I soft sweet voice said behind me. I turned and recognized a woman I had met before, Angela Weber. She worked in the Children's Wing of the hospital where I first met Jamie.

"Do you remember me, Mr. Cullen?"

I nodded. "Yes, of course please call me, Edward." She smiled but I notice it didn't really meet her eyes.

"I heard about Jamie's mother and came down to see if there was anything I can do to help Jamie."

What?

"I'm sorry, I'm lost. What happened to Jamie's mother?" I asked suddenly worried for who had become one of Bella's best friends.

"I'm sorry. I thought you knew. I thought that was the reason you were down here."

"No, Angela. I'm here because Bella just got into surgery. She's getting her heart," I explained.

Angela's hand covered her mouth in a gasp and a few tears escaped her eyes. "Oh god, I'm so happy for her. I thought…we'd lose her."

I nodded and I took her hand, squeezing it. "What happened to Katie?"

"She died a couple of hours ago. She had the night shift here at the hospital and collapsed."

My chest constricted. Oh god. She was so young. Little Jamie losing her mother at such a young age was devastating.

"How?" I asked still in shock.

"She died of an aneurysm. It's a good thing that her neighbor is watching, Jamie. It would've terrible if she found Katie."

Oh my god. I remembered what the doctor had said about the donor, dying in her early thirties of an aneurysm.

"Oh god, Bella's new heart was Katie's heart," I said sitting back down my seat.

Angela looked at me then at the operating room doors. Her eyes widened. "Oh wow."

I nodded.

Oh wow was right. Less than 3 months ago we had just signed ago papers giving us guardianship of Jamie if something should happen to Katie. She must have known something was wrong. She was anticipating what could happen to Jamie since her father died in Iraq and had no other family.

I sobbed for Jamie. I sobbed for Bella. I sobbed for Katie. I sobbed because despite that someone we loved had passed, a little piece of her would still live on. I sat in my chair in utter disbelief, sadness and joy. Katie would live on in Bella's chest, in our memories and in Jamie's. Bella and I would make sure Jamie would never forget her mother.

I had to find Jamie.

Angela said that she'd get the number for the neighbor from Katie's cell phone that she had in her locker. I nodded and spoke with Rosalie and Alice. We needed to make sure that it was one of us that told her about her mother.

Alice volunteered to pick up Jamie and bring her to the hospital first thing in the morning. I called the babysitter. She had already been informed of the situation and that Jamie was sleeping peacefully. I told her as soon as I could I would have Alice pick her up.

I sighed. How did you tell a child that her mother was gone?

***

My family and I waited patiently for some news. Charlie and Renee were heading here on the next flight they could find. I hated that they weren't able to see her before she went into surgery to say good-bye, just in case. But I put that thought out of my head. It wasn't good-bye. It was going to be 'good morning beautiful' when she next opened her eyes.

A little over an hour since Angela told me that Katie passed, a doctor came out dressed in scrubs. He smiled and nodded. I fell to my knees and thanked god. She made it through surgery.

The doctor proceeded to tell us that if all went well Bella would be in ICU for about 3 days then she'd be moved to a private room for about 10 to 14 days. She was currently already on anti-rejection drugs and the first few days they would cause her to become disoriented and nauseous.

I could see her in a while.

I waited with my family. I had to be patient. The nurse would come and get me when I could see Bella again.

Waiting is hard.

A little after eight in the morning, I sent Alice and Jasper to pick up Jamie. They were not to tell her what was going on with her mother; they were just to talk about Bella.

A nurse came into the room I was waiting in. She smiled and cocked her head toward the ICU doors. I smiled darted to her side. I wanted to see my Bella again. I needed to see her again, like I needed air.

I followed the nurse named Betty, Bella's nurse during her stay in ICU. I passed a glass wall of windows until I stopped before going into the room.

Oh god. She looked so small and pale in that bed. She's still here I told myself. My angel. My life. My other half. She didn't leave me.

I walked into her room trying to stop the flow of tears falling from my eyes. I stood beside her bed and pulled up a chair. I stroked her cheek and her eyes fluttered slightly but did not open.

I looked at the nurse. "She'll wake up in the next hour or two," she said quietly. I nodded and sat beside her and held her small warm hand in my own.

Her hand was warm. I smiled. It might have seemed like it was no big deal to anyone else. But this one little change meant the world to me. It signified that just maybe we would be fine and move on from this, together. It signified that we'd return to normal.

Well, normal for a genius and a racecar driver raising two…no three children. I laughed slightly at the thought. If anyone can do we can.

Bella's eyes furrowed slightly and she mumbled something I couldn't make out. I leaned a little closer, her shallow breaths fanning across my ear. "Bunny-boo," she whispered.

Bunny boo?

The name made no sense to me. It didn't sound like something that came from her childhood. I was about to sit back down when mumbled something else. "Katie," she whimpered.

I sighed and wondered if just maybe Katie made a visit to Bella's dreams. I smiled at the thought just like Jamie's grandmother paid her visit to give her a message for me.

I sat back down and finally allowed myself to think about how much my life had changed in such a short amount of time.

I wrecked my car.

I met the most stubborn, infuriating and sexy as hell woman on the planet.

I found out that she was dying.

I didn't let that stop me.

I found out how much I loved her.

I made love for the first time in my life.

I won races.

I almost lost her because of both of our stubbornness.

I won the cup.

I married the woman of my dreams.

We decided to have children despite everything going on.

I had a home and it was with her.

Then I had to watch before my eyes her life slowly leave her body.

I held on to her despite all that.

I held on so death wouldn't claim my angel.

We lived a lifetime in less than a year. Now I sat beside her hospital bed and prayed that she'd continue living this lifetime with me.

Please don't leave me, my love.

An hour later, the nurse came back and started taking vitals and told me that Alice was asking for me. Since visitation was limited to one person at a time, she wasn't allowed in.

Jamie wouldn't be allowed in at all. She'd have to wait until Bella was out of the ICU.

I told the nurse I would send someone in while I talked with my family. But she had to call me the second Bella came to. She agreed and I walked back out to greet my family.

Everyone was sitting on the plush chair of the waiting room. All of them were in various stages of hope and happiness. All of their lives continued on while Bella was sick.

Emmett finally proposed to Rosalie.

Jasper and Alice announced that they are buying their first house.

My parents were now looking for a home, here.

Emmett decided to open up his own motorcycle shop.

Rosalie is going to be his head mechanic.

Everyone's life was moving on all around us despite that mine for the past couple of months had been by Bella's bedside.

Bella wouldn't have it any other way.

I watched them all for a few more moments. Jamie was sitting on Emmett's lap eating a donut. I couldn't help but laugh.

Yeah, sweetie Bella doesn't allow donuts at home. She's a health nut and all.

When Jamie saw me she gave me a big toothy grin. I couldn't help but to smile back. She placed her donut on a napkin on the coffee table in front of her and ran and wrapped her arms around my waist. I placed my hands on her back and little head.

"It's going to be ok, Edward. Mommy said it would be."

I let out a whimper as tears filled my eyes and I looked down at the little girl wrapped around me. God, she was damn smart. I kneeled down and I was met with her big blue eyes.

"Jamie, I'm so sorry."

"It's ok, Edward. Mommy knew something was wrong for a while. She said that one day she was going to go with Grammy and that I will become a big sister." She smiled despite tears filling her eyes.

I nodded. "You are going to be a big sister. Bella and I are your family and yes, so will the babies."

Jamie smiled and nodded just as her tears started to fall from her eyes. "Edward, um…did my mom…um was she in pain?" She placed her forehead against mine and wrapped her tiny hands around my neck. More tears fell from both of our eyes.

"No, sweetie. The doctor said it happened suddenly. She wasn't in any pain." Jamie nodded and whimpered slightly placing her head on my shoulder.

"I miss her already. But I know she's happy," Jamie whispered as I lifted her off the ground and walked over to my family.

"She is happy because she knows you're going to be happy." I sat with her in my lap in the waiting room. We both allowed ourselves to cry a little for our loss and our gift.

Jamie pulled away and smiled at me after a several minutes and turned toward Emmett. "Can I finish my donut now?" I smiled and chuckled before nodding at her. She hopped off of me and ran back to Emmett's lap. He just laughed wrapping his large hands around Jamie and gave her donut back.

"Edward," a whisper said behind me. I turned and Renee was there looking so vulnerable. "Can I go see her?"

I nodded. "There can only be one person at a time. So go ahead for a while then we'll let Charlie see her." Renee nodded and walked inside the ICU doors. I sat down and let out a deep breath. I covered my face with my hands. I felt a warm hand touch the back of my neck.

"She'll be fine, son," my mother reassured me.

I nodded. "I know she will."

***

"Mr. Cullen, she's stirring," Nurse Betty informed me. I looked up at her just as Charlie walked out. I darted passed the doors and walked quickly toward Bella's room. I quickly sat down and took her hand in my own.

Her eyes fluttered open and she blinked several times trying to adjust to the light. She turned to look at me and whimpered. "Love, I'm here."

She nodded. "Jamie," she asked. I was a little surprised that she'd think of her when first coming to. But then I remembered that Jamie had said that she got a visit from her late grandmother.

"She's with our families."

"Katie," she whispered. I nodded. Bella closed her eyes and a few tears fell from her eyes. I stood up and kissed her forehead.

"She knew all along that something was wrong with her," I whispered in her ear placing another kiss under her earlobe.

Bella whimpered slightly and nodded slowly. "I love you, Edward," she whispered so low that it was hard to catch. I pulled away slightly to look into her eyes.

They looked so warm and inviting. So filled with love and yet sadness. I wanted to take that sadness away.

"I'll love you always," I reminded her and I pressed my lips against her petal soft lips.

Bella closed her eyes and sobbed, "Yes, always."

I smiled.

She was a believer now.

And so was I.

It was moving day. The nurses and doctors were bustling to move Bella out of ICU. Bella was happy and was desperate to see everyone, especially Jamie.

Bella's eyes were filled with excitement and anticipation. For the past three days, she had been in out of consciousness from the meds and just exhaustion.

"Bella, calm down," I said laughing. The way she was bouncing in her bed, you'd think she was Alice.

"I can't. I want to see everybody. I want to hear one of Emmett's stupid dirty jokes. I want to hear one of Jasper's explanations of the strategic battle decisions of the civil war. I want to hear all about Emmett's proposal to Rosalie. I want to hear about the house and job hunting for your parents. I want to hear about Alice's last shopping adventure. I want to put my hands on Alice's tummy and tell my babies that momma can't wait to hold them. And I want to see Jamie."

She said all that in just one breath and smiled at her accomplishment. She would've never been able to do that before. She said all that with tears filling her eyes, tears of joy.

That was the Bella I wanted to get to know again.

The happy one.

The content one.

The smart one.

The healthy one.

I nodded at her lists of wants that I wanted to make sure she was able to do. But I had to remind her.

"Just one thing at a time, love. You're still recovering."

She smiled widely and nodded.

A couple of nurses came in with a gurney.

"Are we ready to move out yet?" Nurse Betty said with a smile.

"Ah I see you can't wait to get rid me of huh?" Bella looked questionably.

Nurse Betty laughed. "Yes. Honestly, I'm not sure how you managed to have the nurses and doctors throw you out sooner. You questioned everything that they were doing."

Bella pouted sheepishly and blushed. "Sorry, it's in my nature to be inquisitive."

I laughed. "More like a nosy genius."

Bella scowled then she turned thoughtful.

Oh no, I knew that look.

The look that told me she was thinking hard about something.

Something profound.

"I need my laptop."

I shook my head no. "Why?"

"I'm going to look into medical school," she said with a grin.

I groaned.

She laughed.

The nurse laughed at us both.

"Mr. Cullen, now that's she's all good, you're going to have your hands full."

Bella snorted and muttered something under her breath that sounded like 'my ass and breasts'.

I looked and her and quirked a brow.

She shook her head blushing again causing me to glare at her.

Bella laid back down as per instructions of Nurse Betty. The nurses worked to move her monitors, wires and IV without causing Bella any distress. They lifted Bella off the bed using the strong sheet underneath her and placed her on the waiting gurney.

Bella grinned at me and motioned with her hands to get a move on to the nurses. They all laughed at her enthusiasm. I held her hand while they wheeled her out of ICU. I hoped it would be the last time she'd ever have to cross those doors.

Bella kept her eyes locked with mine and kept her smile on her face. She looked a little nervous and slightly nauseated. The nurse blamed the medications but Bella and I knew better. She was so scared of Jamie's reaction to her.

She feared that Jamie would blame her for her mother's death. She feared that Jamie would eventually resent her. She felt that Jamie would never love her again. I tried to calm her. I tried to reassure her but nothing I said soothed her fear.

She needed that sweet little girl to set her fears aside. That little girl loved Bella like no other. I was sure in time Bella would believe that she deserved that love.

The family was waiting for us in the room they had set up. Bella smiled as Emmett held the door open for us. She smiled when she met the eyes of each one of our family members as the nurses helped her into her new room and bed. She smiled when Alice walked into the room with Jamie by her side.

Jamie and Bella's eyes met and instantly filled with tears. Jamie ran from clear across the room and jumped on the bed careful of Bella's monitors. She knew what was tolerable and what Bella could handle. She crawled along from the foot of the bed to Bella lap. She looked at Bella awaiting permission and Bella nodded her consent. Jamie gave her a toothy watery smile and sat in Bella's lap and laid her head on Bella's chest.

Bella sighed as silent tears fell from her glistening brown eyes and rested her head on top of Jamie's. She ran her free hand through the little girl's hair humming an unfamiliar tune. Jamie smiled against Bella's chest and sighed.

"Bunny-boo," Bella whispered.

"Yes," Jamie replied.

"Your mommy told me to tell her bunny-boo that she loves you."

Jamie smiled wider. "Mommy told me last night in a dream that she loves you, Bella."

Bella sobbed a little causing Jamie to do the same.

"Love you, girly," Bella chuckled and tickled Jamie's side.

"Love you too, smarty pants."

Bella chuckled again and kissed Jamie's forehead.

"So, what do you want to do once I get sprung from here?"

Jamie sat up making sure that she was gentle as possible. "I'd say Disneyland but I'm sure you've done that to death. So how about we just go home." She looked at Bella with wide questioning eyes.

"And where is home now?" Bella asked quietly unsure of what we were going to do or how Jamie felt living with us.

Jamie smiled at her sweetly.

"Silly, Bella. Home is wherever you are."

Bella nodded and more tears fell from her eyes.

Jamie kissed her cheeks and held Bella's gaze. It seemed like they were sharing something that no one else was privy to. At the same time Jamie reached to touch Bella's heart with her tiny hand and Bella placed her hand over Jamie's heart.

They both smiled as Jamie leaned in and kissed Bella's forehead.

"Now Bella, Edward told me you don't allow doughnuts at home." Jamie sat up straighter and crossed arms across her chest. "Is that up for negotiation?"

Two Weeks Later

"So Jamie, you like the Jonas Brother's I see," I asked slightly amused as I helped put up posters up in her room.

Jamie blushed a little as she nodded, turning away quickly as I unrolled a poster of me. The blush of her cheeks reddened and she groaned.

I chuckled slightly and asked where she wanted this poster. She scoffed at me with a glare that matched Bella's intensity and thumped my head with a Twilight poster.

I dropped my poster and put my hands up in defense. She shook her head and unfurled a poster ignoring me.

Bella was asleep in our bedroom exhausted from a long morning since we had just arrived from the hospital less than a few hours ago. I looked around to what was our guest bedroom that has now become Jamie's bedroom.

There were several moving boxes throughout the living room that came from Jamie's apartment that she shared with her mother.

I remembered when my family and I helped her pack up her belongings. Everything she didn't need any longer was donated to the local Goodwill. Alice and Rosalie took Bella's credit card and bought everything a little girl her age would need. And much more.

Katherine was laid to rest four days after her death, but Bella was not allowed to attend. She was still too weak and her immune system would not be able to handle if she exposed to a virus while outside the hospital walls. We felt bad that Jamie was having to sleep at her neighbors, or with various members of our family until Bella was released. But it was the only way to make sure she was being watched.

My father recommended that Jamie and Bella both start some kind of grief therapy. At the time it seemed unnecessary, but one night that I managed to spend the night at home, I found her crying in her sleep.

It would take time to heal or at least to move on.

Bella called me from the bedroom while I continued helping Jamie decorate her bedroom. I smiled and winked at Jamie who laughed and shook her head. I went to the bedroom and Bella was sitting at the edge of our bed waiting for me to give her a hand.

She smiled at me when I entered the room and puckered her lips. I rolled my eyes and walked over to her. She placed one of her arms around my waist while I wrapped an arm over her shoulder helping her up. Her limbs and joints were a little weak so she needed a hand to move about.

After a few steps, she stood up more upright and squeezed my waist tighter. I leaned down and kissed her soft pink lips. With the increased circulation, her cheeks were always tinged pink as well as her lips which were redder.

I loved it.

I was looking at a new and improved Bella.

I didn't think it was possible.

"You know I just realized what the date was," Bella whispered as we walked over to Jamie's room.

I looked at her curiously unaware of anything important coming up. Bella's smile widened when she realized I had no idea what I was talking about.

"Silly, it's your birthday on Monday."

I rolled my eyes.

"What do you want for your birthday, Edward?" Bella asked which caused Jamie to quirk an eyebrow toward us.

"I have everything I'll ever need," I said kissing her lips again.

Jamie snorted. "Someone is sucking up."

Bella chuckled. Two against one; I was outnumbered.

"Really Bella, I don't need anything else. You, Jamie, my family and our children are everything I'll ever need."

Jamie sighed. "Well Bella, I guess that means you have to put up the island for sale."

I snapped my head toward Jamie who started pointing at my face and laughing. Bella joined her, taking a seat on Jamie's purple comforter on her bed.

"Island?"

Bella smiled and winked. "Yup, I bought you an island. It's really beautiful. That's where your parents went for me last week for a few days. They went to close the deal."

I stumbled backward toward the bed and sat down. My head was reeling.

Just how much money did my wife have?

She fucking just bought me an island.

Hell yes.

I looked at her and smirked. "I guess it's time to shop for bathing suits."

Bella slapped my arm and Jamie snickered.

"Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you, Happppy birthdaaaaay to Eddie…" Emmett belted out as Jamie and Bella walked out with a race car cake made perfectly like my car.

I was surrounded by my family and friends.

Alice was round and bumping into everything. She was passing out plates and forks for everyone so we could enjoy the chocolate cake Bella and Jamie worked hard on all morning.

There was about seven weeks left until Alice's due date and the doctor said that our children were healthy and just the right sizes. He didn't anticipate any problems besides possibly going to labor much earlier than September 5th.

The nursery was breathtaking. My mother and Alice did an amazing job. They created the perfect little place for us to take care of our children. The center piece was a large custom made circular crib with soft sheer fabrics suspended from the ceiling that draped over the canopy of the crib.

I didn't even want to know how much it cost.

Especially when my Bella wanted everything to be earth friendly.

She was still trying to save the world one tree at a time.

Bella, Jamie, and I were sitting down in the short perfectly trimmed grass around the headstone a few weeks later. A cool breeze ruffled Bella's and Jamie's hair as they sat hand in hand talking to Katie. They have been doing this since a few days after my birthday every day.

I didn't mind. Jamie would regale the current events of the day. I found that Jamie was smart and loved to read. Just like her mother and like Bella.

She spent hours reading daily and when we got to the cemetery she would read a chapter of the latest book to her mother. Bella would just sit beside and stroke Jamie's hair and listen.

Therapy started the previous week. They were attending together and Bella or myself would sing Jamie to sleep every night.

Today Jamie was spending the night with Emmett and Rosalie. We got approval from the doctor to… um…well, have relations. We dropped her off and went to have a nice dinner at Spago's.

"Edward," Bella whined when I was a little too slow to remove her dress. I chuckled and continued my tortuously slow removal of her clothing.

I kissed her little toe of her left foot after removing her heel. Bella tried pulling her foot away but I didn't allow her. I kissed her cute little ankle and then licked a trail up to…the back of her knee. After placing careful attention to her other calf and knee, she was squirming under me. Her hands were tugging at my hair roughly trying to move my mouth to where she wanted me most. But I wouldn't be having that.

I grabbed both of her wrists and held them in one of my hands and held them over her head. I kissed the length of her neck down to her chest. I wrapped my lips around one of her hardened nipples earning a soft moan.

Then the phone fucking rang.

Yup. Cock-blocked.

Bella started t giggle and picked up our cordless phone on our bedside table. She looked at the caller id and her eyes widened.

"Alice," she said in low whisper as she answered.

She held out the phone so we both could listen. "Bella, it's me Jasper. It's time. Her water just broke."

AN: Ok I hope I didn't disappointment that I didn't dwell too much on Bella's recovery. I felt that wasn't necessary because they have already been through so much why add more anguish. Anyway the timing for her recovery is accruate according to four different medical sites. Let's see there are still a few things left unresolved:

1. The GreenGo race

2. The birth of their two children

3. A belated honeymoon

4. Future plans

Ok I need two names. For a boy and a girl. Some suggestions would be very good. Also what would you like to see before the end.

Please reivew!!!

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