20 November 2013
"So , how do you feel?" Noah handed her a glass of wine and sat down beside her on the couch.
"I feel good." She admitted. "But I don't want to jinx it." She took a sip.
They were quiet.
Cristina's last surgery had gone much better than the others. She had learned so much from her previous patients but she was beginning to lose faith , having lost so many.
But the young woman she had operated on earlier in the day , she gave Cristina some hope back. She just didn't want to get ahead of herself.
"Do you think this might be it?"
Cristina looked at him. "It might be." She smiled. "But I don't want to jinx it." She repeated.
"Okay." Noah smiled. "What do you want to do?"
"Just ... Sit here. At least until something goes terribly wrong or terribly good." She pulled his arm around her shoulders.
"Okay."
"It's might take a while." She warned.
He kissed the top of her head. "I'm perfectly content with that."
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22 November 2013
Cristina rushed down the hallway , halfway pulling on her lab coat and stopped in front of the patients room where Shane was waiting for her. "What happened?"
Shane stared at her.
"You paged me nine-one-one! What is it Shane?" She yelled.
He suddenly smiled. "She's awake."
The expression on Cristina's face faded. "What?"
"She's awake." He repeated.
They both turned to the girl in her bed , smiling at her parents. "She's awake?" Cristina looked more shocked than happy.
Shane nodded. "She's awake."
Cristina pulled open the sliding door and stepped inside.
"Hi , Dr Yang." Sarah greeted her from the bed. Wires were coming out from every hole and vein in her body but still she managed to look radiant and bubbly.
"Hi." Cristina smiled.
"It worked." The young girl stated , her dry lips extending into a smile.
Cristina pressed the stethoscope against her chest and listened , not saying anything.
Sarah grabbed her hand , making Cristina still and look into her eyes.
"Dr Yang , it worked."
Cristina smiled. "It did." She nodded.
They both laughed and Sarah's parents hugged Cristina , thanking her and then she had to excuse herself because she suddenly felt overwhelmed by emotion.
She walked pass Shane and he called after her.
She waved him off and made her way over to nearest on-call room.
She pushed open the door and closed it.
She turned around towards the beds and closed her eyes. She rested the back of her hand against her forehead and took deep breaths but it wasn't helping.
She suddenly broke out into a sob and crouched over , holding onto her knees.
It all came back to her ; the night Steven was killed. She thought about how she almost died herself. She saw Louise's face in her mind , the fear in her eyes. She saw Shane and his faulting bravery. She felt Steven's arms around her and then suddenly she was falling.
She sunk down to her knees as her cries overtook her.
Images of Owen with another woman found their way into her mind.
And then the many faces she had lost during her trial were suddenly in front of her.
Then she was back in the woods again with Noah and the dead wolf and she couldn't get out.
She opened her eyes but she was still there. They were still there.
Her ghosts never left her.
They were still there. They will always be there.
Somewhere in between her breakdown , Shane came into the room and pulled her into his arms.
He rocked her back and forth as they sat on the floor.
After what felt like an eternity , she began to calm down.
She opened her eyes , blinked and one by one they disappeared and then the woods cleared up and she was back in the on-call room and she could breathe again.
Her grip on Shane loosened but his didn't.
He still held onto her and refused to let go and she was grateful because she didn't want him to.
"I got you." He whispered.
She buried her face in his neck and closed her eyes again.
"I got you."
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Noah got out of the car as Shane pulled up.
Shane got out and Noah hurried over.
Shane walked over to the passengers side , opened the door and lifted Cristina into his arms.
Noah closed the door behind him.
Shane handed Noah the front door keys and he opened it and Shane stepped inside with her , walked down the hall and deposited her on her bed.
He pulled the covers up to her shoulders , looked at her one last time and then left the room.
Noah was waiting for him outside.
"What happened?" He asked immediately.
"She fell asleep in the car and I didn't want to wake her." Shane started walked towards the kitchen.
"No , I mean what happened today?"
"She finally crashed."
"What?"
"I knew it was coming. She was way too okay after that night and I knew it was coming. It just took that one thing and the dam burst."
Noah nodded. "Is she going to be okay?"
"She always is." Shane turned around and started walking towards his room. "Turn off the lights when you're done."
Noah heard his bedroom door close and then it was quiet.
He wasn't sure what to do with himself.
Was he supposed to stay?
Would she want him to stay?
He decided that she would probably want someone to be there when she woke up.
He turned off the lights like Shane had instructed and made his way over to her room.
He found his way to the bed in the darkness and climbed under the covers.
As soon he laid down , she turned around , her eyes still closed and hugged him to her.
He kissed the top of her head and pulled her even closer.
"I'm here." He whispered.
"Owen." She called out , her voice filled with sleep.
Noah's heart sunk down into his stomach and remained there.
Instead of leaving like another man would've done , he scooted down and held her even tighter.
"Don't worry. You're going to be okay." He kissed her forehead and repeated his words. "You're going to be okay."
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23 November 2013
Cristina emerged from her room feeling like a complete mess. Her eyes were swollen and she had a headache from crying the night before , her hair was everywhere , and she was still wearing the clothes from the day before.
"You look great." Shane stated and then smiled.
"It's too early for sarcasm." She rubbed her eyes and then took a seat on a chair in front of the island.
"It's three in the afternoon." He said and then set a cup of coffee down in front of her.
"Fuck." She dropped her head on the table.
"Don't worry. I called in sick for you and told Keating to take over for the day."
Her head flew up. "Keating? She sucks!"
"No , she doesn't."
"Yeah , she doesn't." Cristina pouted and then picked up her coffee and took a sip.
She suddenly looked around. "Where's Noah?"
"He had a major surgery he couldn't reschedule."
Cristina nodded. "I feel like he's the only normal person in my life."
"I'm normal." Shane shrugged.
"But you're friends with me which makes you abnormal."
"He's sleeping with you." Shane said matter-of-factly.
"Yeah but I'm good in bed so it's understandable why he would keep coming back for this crazy."
Shane laughed. "Are you feeling better?"
She nodded. "I am."
"No more breakdowns?"
"No more breakdowns. Cross my heart."
Shane smiled. "Okay."
"Although , I might fake one now and then because I really love the attention."
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25 November 2013
Cristina was sitting on the desk in Shane's office , watching him fill in charts.
"You know , the other residents think I favour you." She looked around.
"I know." He didn't look up.
"Don't they hate you? I would've hated you."
"Not really. I think they try to use me to get to you , though."
She looked down at him. "Does that bother you?"
He looked up , thought about it and then shook his head. "No."
"Really?"
"No because it means I have people who try and kiss my ass by doing my scut. It's a sweet life." He smiled. "I mean , I have my real friends who don't give a damn but still."
"When did you become so evil?" She picked up his stapler and opened it up , removing staples.
He took it from her. "Oh , around the same time I met you."
"Ha-ha."
He smiled.
Someone knocked on the door , making Shane look up and Cristina turn around.
"Is this a private meeting or can anyone join?"
"Noah , what are you doing here?"
He walked over to her and kissed her on the lips.
"I was in the neighborhood." He shrugged. "What are we doing?"
"We're discussing why residents hate Shane." Cristina informed him.
"Isn't that just because he's a pain in the ass?"
"That's the main reason but there are many other reasons that stem from that." Cristina pointed out.
"Oh , I see. Very interesting."
"I'm trying to work over here." Shane tried to sound serious.
"Yes , of course." Noah turned to Cristina. "Let's go , my dear."
"Ew." Cristina made a face.
Noah stood up and threw her over his shoulder.
"This is very inappropriate for a boss." She pointed out as she hung there.
"Yeah , whatever."
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The three of them were seated on the ground around the coffee table in the living room , eating take out.
"When does Alex plan on operating on that little boy?" Noah questioned.
"When he's strong enough to ship to Zürich." Cristina shrugged. "Also , I want another surgery to be successful before I work on him." Cristina brought the chopsticks up to her mouth.
"Sarah's doing great." Shane stated.
"She is. She really is." Cristina shook her head. "Okay , onto something lighter."
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"So , anyway , George fucks up the whole thing , faeces is spilling out everywhere and he freezes. Burke ended up pushing him away and performing the surgery himself. And that's how George O'malley got the nickname '007' on his very first day." Cristina laughed.
"Well , that must've sucked."
"Yeah , but he got to perform surgery on a heart in an elevator during a power outage so he redeemed his name."
Noah nodded. He was about to ask another question when Cristina's phone on the coffee table vibrated and the three of them looked at it.
"It's Meredith." She announced.
The two men nodded and then looked away.
She picked the phone up and swiped at the screen. "Hey , Mer."
"Cristina."
Cristina knitted her brows. "What's wrong with you? Why do you sound so weird?" She rolled her eyes. "Are you calling because of what happened the other night? Did Shane call you?" She squinted her eyes at the man in question and he held his hands up in defense.
"Cristina." Meredith repeated.
"I told him not to call you. I'm fine. I just had a little break down. Nothing out of the usual. You need to stop-"
"Cristina!" Meredith yelled , cutting her off.
"Yes?"
Meredith was quiet.
"Mer , what is it?"
She heard Meredith inhale deeply before she spoke. "It's Owen."
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