Chapter 36 Talk About It
Kirishima POV
I saw them arguing and grabbed Katsuk yanking on his arm slightly as I pulled him into the other direction. He just let me pull him along, instead of fighting. "I can walk on my own Kiri let go please." I looked at imh and there was this saddle childlike expression on his face. That wasn't like him, he was supposed to yell and scream ast me to tell me that I need to get my fucking hands off of him but that didn't happen. I pulled him into my room and closed the door looking at him for a moment before I pushed him against the wall but he didn't fight back. I looked into his eyes and there was something broken in them. "Katsuki, baby what is wrong." His eyes started to twitch and he looked at me before shifting his vision to the floor. "I...I looked like a fool I shouldn't have broken down like that, I should have let it affect me like that I should have..." I let go of him and he rubbed his wrist ginerly before sitting on my bed looking at the sheets that were still ripped up. "You have been having nightmares because of that video right? I know that the others have said as much but you haven't said a thing about it." I look at him and sighed before walking over to him and kneeling resting my head on his left leg. "I dont have the right to complain about my lack of sleep I can only imagine what it was to be actually be there, so I was just not going to say anything."
He growl under his breath and his old fighting spirit came back for a moment "Shut up you idiot I have been the one that has been selfish you were waiting how many weeks without eating or sleeping to make sure that I didn't die. You tried to protect me you have been risking plenty for me and I doth think that the nightmares are from the video but from witness me almost die. Don't like about that we can, we should talk about it. I don't know why but I felt anger rise in my throat "Your one to talk about that, you didn't tell me about any of it and we have been doing our song and dance since the beginning of the school semester and even when we are intimate you don't talk about your problems you pretend like they are nothing and suffer in silence. You should take way more than me." He sighed heavily, he didn't even get mad at me he just simply nodded his head while laying his head back in the bed. "Come lay with me." I shook my head as he looked up at me this innocent look on his face, he seemed so vulnerable nothing like what I have seen before.I stood up grabbing a extra blanket that wasn't ripped up and jumped on the bed laying my head on his heart. "You said that you want to know the truth about t my life before you. Then fine but don't pity me and don't baby me I get enough of that from my family."
I simply nodded my head and he started to talk "After my sister body was taken out of my arm I was transported to the hospital where they told me that I might never become a hero because of my injuries. Of course those idiots weren't really trying to heal me, the government in all their glory told the doctor to say that so I wouldn't think about becoming a villain. In reality there was some muscle damage but no nerve damage. After that they injected me with some trank and I woke up in a dank dark cell. I can remember the cell, the smell of the some rotting corpse that had once been in the room. But that wasn't what bugged me, what they were saying about Anka when they were walking by my cell door about how they were glad she was dead. It want something that a 13 year old kid should have to hear but they don't really care. To make matters worse the day that I was thrown in jail was a couple of days before my birthday, so I spent my 14 birthday alone in a cell, with deep harraged wounds in my didn't seem to care that was for sure." His voice broke for a moment, he sounded so sad that it broke my heart who could anyone do that to him,to my man. I was getting angry just having to hear it. No wonder Aiden hated them. "After about a week thing started to get bad my family had left but they determined that i was a threat and I couldn't leave just yet. My parents knew, so did my uncle what they were really saying. We will tortue the kid till we decided he isn't a credible threat. They tried to break me, they beat me, waterbored me, electrocuted me, you think it, they did it. They had no problem torturing me hell they sent Aiden off to die in a war zone and he was someone they needed.I was expendable."
He snarled and I could feel something wet hitting my head when I looked up he was rubbing tears out of his eyes stubbornly. "Dammit! I said I wouldn't cry." I sigh and kissed his cheek where the tears hit. I rubbed his schuler supportively he hiccuped for the tears. "They even had some nut job poke around in my head replaying Anka's death all over again time and time again. A way to remind me what would happen when I stepped out of line like my sister or bother. After that they let me leave I made it out just in time for summer break to end and I had to go back to school. I was irritable and jumpy so the crowds of people cause me to become hyperfocused a way to keep all the background out.I really couldn't take being back to school so soon but I couldn't take time off. I almost break down a few times when it was mention so I had to leave class periodically. I had to isolate myself to keep sane. But after a while I preferred it to people, seeing Deku was definitely the tipping point for me. I kept my eyes on the prize sure but having to see his face pissed me off. He loved all things All Might and he killed my sister and they are either fine with it or obliviously so when you ask why I could hate him so much there is your answer. I spent a month in a military blacksite prison because of his hero. I doubt All Might remember but he recommended that I stay in jail a little longer, in fact, he is the whole reason that I went through all of that. He killed my sister and nearly got me killed. So when Aiden said that the military wants to talk to me I broke down. I don't want to have to go through that again." He sighed and I felt his shoulders shake as I wrapped my arms around his waist. I rest my chin on his chest so that I could look at him. "I'm so sorry that you had to go through that baby." He is smiled weakly at me "Wasn't all bad Im better than 90% of the 1st years, I met some cool guys most of them also students at UA but older and I got you, my man with the plan. Oh, and our idiots of friends so you know I'm pretty good. I think Angelfish might like me, think I might ask her out." He smiles wide he saw the angry expression on my face. "You're not funny you know that." He smiled wide at me as he laughed but it wasn't one of usually smailes, this was an unguarded brilliant smile that I hadn't seen before. He truly did look like a god in this moment.