I don't own twilight or the characters..

I'm hoping too Alice won't be crazy like Edward.

There's going to be something that comes along soon in regards to Alice. Not pretty! Thanks to everyone who keeps reading this story!

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"Mm.. Jasper…." The sweetest sound I've ever heard.

"I'm here Darlin"

I kissed her hand and looked up at her. Her innocent smile fell.

"What's wrong Darlin?"

Her hand touched my face, tracing every inch of it.

"Your not sleeping.. And probably not eating too.. don't do this to yourself, please go eat.. I don't need you sick on me."

Does she really think I could stomach anything while she's laying here admitted in the hospital?

"Shh.. I'm fine honey, I've had some coffee and I'll eat when you don't have to eat through tubes okay? Don't worry, I'm fine babe."

I kissed her forehead and sat back down. Fighting the need to jump into the bed with her.

"How are you feeling Darlin?""I feel some pain but its bearable. I feel empty though. Its okay though, he or she is with your mother and we both know she will look after him until we can join him." She smiled at me.

"You have an amazing way of looking at it." I smiled back at her and rubbed her arm.

We sat in silence just staring at each other. After this whole ordeal we just needed to memorize each others face. Eventually, we started giving each other funny faces and trying to make the other crack up laughing. We both sucked. Cracking up every 5 seconds.

Finally we both fell asleep and the doc came back around.

Bella waking me up by stroking my hair. I lifted my head up and was faced with the smiling Doc.

"Bella you seem to be healing pretty quick. I think it will be okay to discharge you within the next 5 minutes. I need you to sign these papers. Here is some antibiotics and please, come in if you feel any sharp pains or anything outside of the norm. In about 7 to 10 days you will need to come back and get the stitches taken out.""Didn't I just get out of surgery Esme?"

Wow, I was thinking the same thing. That's odd."You did about 24 hours ago. But, you seem okay to go home. You aren't exhibiting signs of infection or anything. That and both Doctor Cullen's are working in this ward later today. Since you're no longer in the danger zone I think you should go home. Its quite alright."

She smiled at us both, kissing Bella on the cheek. The doc handed the clipboard to her and turned on her hell.

"Just sign these and drop them off at the nurses station before you leave. I hope to see you soon Bella, outside of my profession."

We were both happy. Bella signed the clipboard. I helped her get dressed and sat her in the wheelchair.

"I'll hand them these papers and then we're home free.. Stay right there Darlin"

"Hurry back Cowboy"

I took long strides, heading to the nurses station and dropped off the clipboard.

I took even bigger strides heading back to Bella's room. I wanted her home and home with me now, we spent too much time here.

I was about 3 feet away from the doorway of her room and I felt I felt a tiny hand grab mine.

I stopped and turned around, a tiny blur flung towards me, hitting my chest.

I caught her before she fell.

"Whoa now" My hands snaked around a tiny waist.

Good timing Whitlock, your about an inch from the floor.

"Sorry about that.. You alright miss..?"

Her face snapped into my view. Pin straight hair.

"Jasper!"

Her arms flew up and snaked around my neck. I stood straight up.

"Alice.. What's wrong?" I set her down on the ground. Her hold still around my neck, making me bend over her body.

"I'm sorry, I'm just so happy for you."

She jumped up and wrapped her legs around me smothering me in a hug.

Man, how hyper is she?

She began grinding her body hard against mine. I could feel everything. I mean everything. I began to tear her away from my body and she pressed her lips against mine.

What the hell is she doing?

Her tongue trying to work its way into my mouth.

She tastes good and she's really creating a lot of friction on my dick, which I know he loves.

God damn.

I involuntary groaned.

Kissing her back slightly.

Her friction was catching speed, making me groan again in excitement effectively making me even harder then I was.

God this feels so good.

Wait. What the hell am I doing?

Fuck, I have to stop this. Bella is the only person that can do this to me.

I ripped her from my body and set her down on the ground lightly.

"Alice….." My dick was pissed off. My Mind was pissed for another reason

"You liked it." her hand stroked my chest and put something in my pocket. "See you." she smiled and walked past me

I stood there dumbfounded. What the hell is up with me?

Get back to your girlfriend you jerk.

I know I couldn't tell her this happened. It would kill her. It's already killing me. Fuck.

I walked back into the room and my eyes met those beautiful brown eyes.

I began to feel extremely nervous… just breathe, keep your mouth shut and breathe. Nothing happened just then.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Its written on my face, good one Whitlock! Play it cool… just play it cool.

"I'm just tired Darlin.. Its about time we were out of here.. " I walked behind her and pushed her along.

"I'm sorry. You didn't have to stay, you should've went home." Her hand grasped mine tightly.

I wheeled us to the car in a matter of a minute. I didn't want to run into Alice. it's the last thing I wanted to deal with.

"No, you are the woman I love so where ever you go, I follow. Don't sweat it honey. I can make up the sleep. Its you I cant turn around and get back if something were to happen. Now, brace yourself honey.." I walked around from behind the chair to in front of her. I kissed her forehead and put my arms around her body, lifting her up and putting her in the car.

"Thank you."

We drove in complete silence. The only sound that was breaking our silence was the engine as it revved when picking up speed.. We got to the house and I was about to get out of the car when she stopped me.

"I… I'm so sorry." "What are you talking about Darlin?"

"I'm sorry that I lost our child"

I moved closer to her, wrapping an arm around her."Darlin.. It wasn't your fault. Don't think like that. We just weren't meant to be parents yet, that's all. Don't you dare beat yourself up over this. Its not your falut."

She didn't say another word. I walked us into the house and set her in bed.

"Do you want anything to eat, or anything at all?"

"No, just lay with me."

I tore off my jeans and shirt.. And slid into bed, without moving too much to avoid hurting her.

I wrapped my arms around her and just began leaving kisses wherever I could.

"Don't fret love.. It'll happen for us one day. Just think, now mama has a baby to take care of up there for us. You know that was one of the many things she was good at… mothering." I smiled into her neck.

"I know. But I still can't help but think, its my fault. If we caught it early enough, the stomach pains, we could've saved our baby" She began crying. I couldn't have this. I felt like I was crumbling. Too much of the world was on me.

"Honey, you didn't know. Hell, I didn't know. We dismissed it as a symptom of the food poisoning. Its not anyone's fault here. Hey, stop it. If anyone's to blame it should be me. I should've taken you to get a 2nd opinion when the pains didn't stop in a few days. If you have to blame anyone, its me."

I closed my eyes and tried to will the hurt away. It was all my fault. I didn't do anything until it was too late. I failed.

Bella hovered over me, "Hey, open your eyes.. Look at me.." I began getting lost in my own personal pit of despair. "Jasper…. Open your eyes and look at me."

I opened my eyes to the angel looking broken in front of me. "Its not your fault. You can't know when I'm in pain, unless I tell you. Therefore its my fault. But like you said, we can try again and he or she is with their grandmother. That's a better place for them anyways."

She took a breath and I rubbed her back. "God just wanted their angel back. Stop feeling like this please, I love you. I promise. Once I'm healed and better We'll go to Esme and get the go ahead to do it, okay? We'll try again Jasper, I promise. I will make you a father if it's the last thing I do."

"Darlin, I wouldn't care if you couldn't. Right now we're both hurting and that's normal. But baby, I would never want another child if it meant I could lose you and/or the baby in the process. Its not worth it. I will never let this happen again. I love you too much to lose you." "Now, this should really hurt you… come on, roll over, lets go to sleep my silly, beautiful angel"

I helped her off me, laying her down on her side, moving her legs underneath the covers and putting them over her.

"I love you." that sweet voice, ever so lovely.

"As I love you honey. Goodnight" I kissed her forehead and rolled onto my side of the bed.

I slept for about 3 hours, only to be woken up, for whatever reason I don't know.

I tried to relax myself but nothing was working. Not counting sheep, deep breathing nothing.. I looked beside me, thank god. Bella was sleeping peacefully. She needed sleep more than anyone.

After about 2 hours of trying to sleep, I slipped out of the bed and threw on my jeans and I headed for the bathroom. I noticed my reflection in the mirror and cursed myself. "I need sleep. I think my brain is on meltdown.. My face looks worse." I splashed cold water on my face.

I remembered then Alice put something in my pocket, Crap. Gotta get rid of that now. I pulled it out of my pocket and opened the small piece of paper.

Just in case you want a little more of this.

She left a number to reach her.

I started my way down to the kitchen and poured some orange juice, drinking it in one gulp.

I began thinking about earlier today in the hospital with Alice. How her body flung into mine, how my arms snaked around her waist and most of all how she jumped me. It felt so good. Her soft lips dancing on mine, her tongue that tasted so sweet, how her body felt grinding on mine. It felt like I was on fire. The desire between us was so strong.

I put her number into my phone, and ripped up the piece of paper.

What was I doing? Why am I being an idiot? I don't know.