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It only took a couple of minutes to get to the lodge. It is a remake of the restaurant that Bella went to with Uncle Charlie. He loves it I guess and so does Jake so I decided it would be fun. They have the buffet so Jake can have as much as he wants and they have a salad bar so if I want to pick I can.

"I love you." Jake said. This time I knew it was because he actually did not because the stupid imprint thing.

"I love you too." I realized how true my words were. I was completely speaking what my heart wanted me to say.

"That is what I love to hear." He said while leaning his head near mine. I knew he wanted a kiss so I leaned and gave him a peck. He seemed fine with it. When we arrived at the lodge I remembered mom saying that something was in the glove compartment for me.

"Go ahead I will be right there." I said as he left?

"Kay, see you there." He said while going in.

I searched through and found what she was talking about. It was from my mom.

Amanda,

I know I haven't been there for you all your life. But I love you like I have known you. You are my little girl and I know that you love your family. Tyler tells me that you have been the one to keep your family together. And I am proud of you. I would have never been able to do that. But I want you to know that if you need anything I will be here. I know you want space and you are dealing with a lot but I think you need some help. And I am here to help. I support you in all of your actions. I know you have been dealing with the wolf and all of the things that are wrong. But I think that you are strong and can manage anything. So I am writing this letter to tell you how proud of you I am. I know about Riley. How he has the cancer and is not doing well. I know about how you feel. But don't be afraid to let it out. I am here

Mom.

I felt a tear go down my cheek. She knew? I never told anyone. I keep it to myself. I didn't even know until like a week ago. She was proud of me? Proud that I stayed in my room and that I felt like I should have never deserved anything I have, that I am not good enough. But she is proud. And I need her to know I love her. So stepped out of the car and went inside. I would call her in there.

"Hey," Jake said as I walked in.

"Hi." I sighed.

"You have been crying." He stated while whipping my cheek.

"Why?" He asked.

"No reason just tired." I lied.

"You lying." He stated again.

"How can you tell?" I asked.

"You never cry it wouldn't be over nothing." He stated happily.

"I am just tired, I haven't had much rest since I started aging." I lied again.

"Okay, whatever you say." He said as he pulled me to the table.

"Go ahead get what you want, I need-d to call my mom." I stuttered.

"I am fine go, I just want to see where she is." I stated.

"Fine but come back soon." He said as he watched me leave.

I got to the bathroom and made sure no one was there. The coast was clear so I called her quickly.

"Hello?" Her sweet voice filled the phone.

"Hey mom umm thanks for the letter." I said.

"Your welcome." She said happily. She knew I was grateful.

"So how are you?" I asked.

"Good, but Hun go eat I know you are out with Jake, enjoy it we can talk when you get home." She said with a laugh.

"Okay, I love you." I said as I hung up.

"Hey." Jake called from the table.

"Hey." I said with a happy smile.

"You seem happier." He stated.

"Yeah, now go eat." I said with a laugh.

"You too." He said while picking me up. We walked to the area and I grabbed water and a small salad. He grabbed two burgers and a cup of fries. I laughed because that was small for him. He always got triple that now that he is doing the double shifts. And running to La Push and back. I hated seeing him tired. I have been trying to think of a way to get mom to let us move to Forks, now that the Cullens went back for a while. I know Samantha misses having Jasper here to discuss books and literature. Dad loved to wrestle with Emmett and Johnny loved to talk to Carlisle. Esme and Steph were inseparable. Alice and Roselie loved to shop for all the kids. The whole family fit. Even Edward and Mattie got along. It was scary. Bella only really hung out with Sammy so it didn't matter for her.

"That's all." I commented.

"I am not really that hungry." He sighed, he loved to eat. He loved my sauce. He never could resist it.

"What about you?" he commented.

"I don't eat much anyway." I said with a laugh. I have been hunting almost every time the family does.

"I have been hunting a lot." I said with a sigh,

"Why?" He asked.

"It will make it…easier." I stated.

"Oh." He said with a sad look.

"Come on." I laughed and we sat at our table. I mostly just had some lettuce, I wasn't hungry. It made me sick to eat a lot, so I stuck with salad. Jake ate all the time. Not as much.

"Why haven't you been hungry lately?" I couldn't help my curiosity.

"I quit double shifts and stuck with watching the house." He sighed.

"You miss them." I stated.

"Yeah, but I can't leave you." He said sternly.

"What would you do if we moved there, well to Forks?" I asked.

"I would be happier than ever." He said with a smile with his head down.

"What if we moved tomorrow." I stated.

"Why are you asking?" He asked with a serious look.

"We might, I am asking mom tonight." He almost jumped out of his seat.

"But we agreed on the lane?" he said with a frown.

"We can come back." I stated unhappily. I remembered the lane. The beautiful lane. My lane. I will never be able to come back. I won't be able to read under my oak tree or play music on the braches. I won't be me…..anymore? It all seemed so bad and horrible in that moment. I didn't want to leave.

"Okay." He said happily.

"Yeah." I said sadly.

"What?" He asked.

"Well I will miss it here." I stated.

"We will come back." He stated.

"Okay." I said still unhappy. I know mom and the family will agree, so bye-bye lane. My world.

Bella's point of view.

I woke on my bed in the green room. The bed was torn and the headboard smashed. My bath suit was gone. I saw that Mattie was gone. I saw a note on the bed.

Izzie,

I will be back I went to hunt. I love you

Love always Mattie

The note made me smile. He loved me…that is what I have been longing to hear. Then, I felt my stomach growl. So I went to the kitchen. I tripped along the way. I felt dizzy again but I ignored it. So I ran and got some eggs. Mattie mad some and left it in the fridge. So I ate them quickly. They went down easily. But then I felt a twist in my stomach so I ran to the bathroom. I leaned over the toilet and let it come. I sat for a good 5 minutes puking and then another 5 waiting to let it pass. I went back to the room and lied down. I felt better, so I put on the fan and took a nap.

**

I woke and felt hands on my waist.

"Hi." Mattie said.

"Hello." I said with a laugh. He wiped the sweat off of my head.

"I am sorry you were hot. I will get another fan." When he said that my stomach twisted. I ran up and went to the bathroom/

"Excuse me." I said while putting my hand to stop from puking.

"Izzie?" he asked.

I stayed for another 5 minutes puking while Mattie held my hair. I finally was able to stop so I brushed my teeth.

"What is wrong?" he asked.

"I don't know." I said as I felt a kick in my stomach. I ran to the mirror and looked. I had a pronounced bump in my stomach. It is not possible though. I can't be. He is a vampire. He can't I mean I can't.

"Izzie?" he asked.

"Mattie." I said while crying.

"What is it?" he ran to me.

He looked down and saw my stomach. He felt the kick and dropped. "Mattie call…..Johnny."

He stood there and did nothing. I knew he could hear me. I heard his phone ring. I expected him to get it but he stood there so I went through his pocket and found the phone. It was….

Sorry guys I needed some suspense in the story.