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Part One : Confessions of a Virgin

CHAPTER 35

Ang and I had been busy for the past few weeks making the final preparations for college.

Our plan was to leave the day after graduation.

Sadly, Jake wont be joining us.

When we told him our plans, he said he had been accepted at a mechanical school in Port Angeles and planned on working with a friend he had near there.

I was sad because I had grown used to having him around constantly.

But I don't think he wants to live in the closet in our dorm.

He just came out of the closet, I don't think he'd like going back into one.

I snicker at the thought.

Ang still hasn't told her parents of our plans.

I know she's frightened.

She's told me shes terrified that if she told them too soon they tie her up and make her live under the stairs.

Read nothing but the bible and listen to gospel music.

Talk about personal hell.

I think that may or may not be a bit drastic, but I could understand.

She wants to make sure there's no room left for her parents to force her to UDUB.

I did however sit Charlie down and discuss it with him.

I had the note cards, pie charts, and graphs.

You name it.

I even practiced my speech in the mirror.

When it came down to it, my father told me how proud he was of me.

He hoped I would find what I was looking for in Texas.

He told me this would always be my home, no matter what.

I cried like a bitch.

Charlie looked uneasy with the emotions but it meant the world to me.

There wasn't much I wanted more than a better relationship with Charlie.

Maybe Edward buck naked tied in a bow, but hey, beggars can't be choosers.

~*.confessions.*~

I hadn't realized how much time had flown by when Ang told me our plans for prom.

It was in two days.

I had heard people talking about it here and there, but for some reason it hadn't registered.

Finals were next week, and then we graduated the following Monday.

Where had the time gone?

How did I let everything pass me by so quickly….

I looked back realizing how much had changed in the span of only a little over a month..

Just the fact the Edward not only realized I existed, but that we'd formed some sort of friendship….

It was baffling.

But it was real.

He was my friend, a real good one at that.

We'd gotten a lot closer with the amount of time we spent together at the hospital.

I knew things I only ever guessed at.

And while I was happy being his friend…. I knew I wanted more.

But I couldn't have more.

Not only because he had a girlfriend, whom he told me he 'loved' on numerous occasions.

Or the fact that I was a social outcast.

But I was in what I had feared as the permanent friend zone.

It was clear as day he would only ever see me as a friend.

And while that sucked, I was okay with it.

For now at least.

Don't be mad! She's just not ready for him quite yet. Remember sometimes the most important thing, is the journey getting there!

Leave me pretty things? Or shout at me how much you hate they're not banging each other right now.

I promise, I have a plan! It will all make sense if you think about it. She needs to love herself, or it wont matter what anyone else thinks.

RG