Natsu's POV

The fire behind Zero grew bigger by the minute. The intense heat signifies that I'm not about to let him get his ways with Nirvana. All I have to do is distract him while Lucy does the rest. This is a piece of cake.

Zero hasn't moved nor complained about how hot the atmosphere had become. Something is going to happen. And I can tell that it's not gonna be pretty. I was happily forming a plan to defeat Zero that I only noticed just now that the flaming wall behind him started going down. There were dark shadowy souls coming out of the ground eating up my flames. What the hell are those?! I whined while pointing at those things.

He's not doing anything. Zero is just standing there lowering his head. If he's not gonna do anything, then it's my chance to attack.
"Sword Horn of the Fire Dragon!" I charged at full speed. My plan was to knock him down in one blow. That was the plan until...

Out of blue, I began to see darkness. Those dark souls where clinging on to me for their dear dead life. Everything was dark. All the cries of pain and loneliness filled my ears. These souls where whispering their deaths to me all at once that its starting to hurt my sensitive dragon hearing.

There was a flash of green light. Everything around me dissapered for seconds. I have gotten a clear image in those ladt 5 seconds of clear vision. Zero's eyes were burning red of hatred. He was in the zone to kill me without hesitation but there was that sinister look on his face saying that it's better to torture me first before he kills me. And just seconds, the world around me turned black.

"Dark Delete!" I remember this move from way back. I was about to use my magic when those dark souls came back again they sucked on me like they're preventing me from using my magic. Everyone of them used their hands to oull me further back into the dark depths of the underworld.

I tried to get free from their grasp but to no avail. If only I had Jellal's Flame of Guilt..then I can be able to use against Zero. But since I don't have it, I just have to find another way to break free. I'm not giving up. That's a fact.

"It's hard to break you...but I now know your weakness...it's a good thing Cherish told me about HER pathetic back story." Zero spoke. I can't tell where his voice is coming in my way is dark.

"Look at you...you're weak brat." Zero laughed at my attempt to break free. No matter what he says, I won't get affected by it.
"you're a weak brainless idiot...no wonder your comrade left you...what was her name again? Oh that's right..Lucy Heartfilia." That made my eyes open wide.
"she made the right choice to leave that pesky guild of yours..." how dare he talk about Lucy like that.
"hmmm maybe I should say it the around way around, yes...Lucy is a weak brat who doesn't have the strength compared to you wizards...she's a spineless, worthless and useless comrade...that's why you kicked her off the team isn't that right?..hehe" he snickered.

I may not be able to see his face but I can imagine his facial expression right now. I know I said that I won't let his words affect me but that...that just hurts.
"how cruel of you salamander...I thought Fairytail was a guild that cherishes their member's feelings, not break them more..hahaha." I felt a punch on my left cheek. I tried to punch back but these souls are holding on to me for dear life.
"you're right salamander...that wench doesn't deserve to be on your team..you're strong while she's just a defenseless weakling." The souls held me tighter every hit I get from the dark Zero.
"Lucy hates you...she will always hate you." Another punch this time on my stomach.
"don't you remember what you did to her? Can you imagine the bucket of tears she cried out?" I was punched and kicked multiple times in the darkness. No...I would never do anything to hurt her like that.
" and what did you do? You didn't care if she cried herself a river...you never..ever...cared." by now I was bleeding. I tasted the blood on my cut lip. Zero's words keep haunting me. I don't want to recall all those memories but it just played in my head like some movie.

I remembered..I remembered those heartbreaking words I had said to Lucy.

"Natsu..let's go on a mission together!" Lucy held up a flyer. I just rolled my eyes and continued listening to Lisanna's adventures.
"Not now Lucy..can you go with someone else?..I'm very busy" I went back to hearing Lisanna's stories. Lucy held her head down and walked away.

"Happy..let's go fishing..I know a great spot to find some awesome fish!" Lucy smiled
"Sure Lucy!...ne ne..I'll have to ask Natsu if he wants to come." Says Happy. He then proceeded to come over to me.
"Natsu..Lucy and I are going fishing, want to come?" Happy drooled thinking of fish.
"Happy don't you remember? We're going on a mission with Lisanna today...we have to get ready." I said while finishing the last piece of meat on the plate. Happy flew back. With my sensitive hearing, I listened to their conversation.
"sorry Lucy but Natsu and I are going out on a job today."
"Really? Can I come?" Lucy asked excitedly.
"Gomene Lucy but it's just gonna be me, Happy and Lisanna today." I waved at them. I saw Lucy's expression. It hurt her that we keep pushing her away.
"ohh...well okay..maybe some other time then?" she asked. Her voice was breaking.
"Yeah!" happy chimed in his usual happy self.

"Natsu! I made a yummy cake at my house last night..It's big so I didn't get to finish it. Would you like some? We can go over to my house and finish it." Lucy offered.
"sorry Lucy but I'm full. Lisanna and Mirajane were teaching me how to cook and well I ended up eating the whole food so I can't plus, I'm not in the mood." I reaslly wasn't in the mood to do anything right now.
"oh..but if you want some, you can come over.." Lucy was trying to sound happy but it was not working.
"how about you invite Levy or Wendy to your house? Maybe even Erza...anyone just not me..I'm really not in the mood right now to do anything." I brushed her off like dust on my shoulder. Lucy didn't say anything else and left.

I remebered everything. Every hurtful sentence I had said to her. I now know that they weren't nice, and yes I was being rude, and yeah I did hurt her alot. I also noticed that i've been spending too much time with Lisanna that I just ignored Lucy's existence.

I was a horrible friend. I left her with the most stupidest reason ever. I can handle being friends with everyone in the guild. So why is it so hard to handle being BESTFRIENDS with two girls. They say you can have too much friends, but there is always that one person who stands out of the rest. That has always been Lucy. I feel so guilty for leaving her like that.

These thoughts have been consuming me that I don't have the will to fight right now. I'm drained out of confidence. I'm beat. Zero has defeated, through brawns and words. I have my reasons for hurting Lucy but I can't tell you right now cuz I'm too busy sulking my own guilt. I don't know if Lucy will ever forgive me.

I don't care if she doesn't want to talk to me anymore, or see me, join the guild again or have anything to do with me anymore. I'm okay with just staying as aquaintants. As long as she's happy with her new life, then I'm happy too.

I was silently crying. Crying for my stupidity, crying because I'm an idiot and crying for hurting Lucy. The world around me has gone back to normal. Instead of meeting with an okay situation, I was greeted by a hundred rays of green light rays heading towards me. It spreaded around like a huge magic circle destroying everything in it's way. It even hit the control tower. I hope Lucy is okay.

I screamed in pain. This pain was combination of both physical and emotional.