Aww guys I am SORRY for doing what I did but I HAD to do it...I have had it planned from chapter one also as much as I love a happy ending...There are a bigger amount of people who suffer in their lives than run off into the sunset...I believe that happiness comes to you in your own fate and it happens when you least expect it.

So yeah there are my reasons behind doing that...Thank you so much to everyone who reviewed the last chapter...I should have really warned you that you may need tissues.

THANK YOU TO ALL MY REVIEWERS...I CAN'T LIST YOU ALL BECAUSE MY INTERNET HAS GONE FUNNY but I love you all and the support you have given me throughout this poorly written story lol.

This is the beginning of what I would like to call 'Bella's spiral' I have never taken death very well in my OWN life and so she is going to turn into me for a while now...I am sorry no fluff at the moment...I need to have a chapter where I explore different areas of grief and so I am going to go straight to the funeral in this chapter...Tissues may be needed once again.

I do not own Twilight...I own AML.

Songs for this chapter: 'Fields of gold – Eva Cassidy

My Immortal – Evanescence

I'll remember you – No Secrets

Will you be there? – Michael Jackson

Will you remember me? – Sarah McLaughlin.

*~Bella~*

(2 weeks later)

It had been a dark couple of weeks...I had done nothing but lay on my bed and cry useless tears and the only time I had got up was when I had needed to go to the toilet or to have a shower...I was chained to my bed and my pillow was a small comfort for my heavy body. I had said probably about 5 words since I had come back home from the hospital a week ago....None of us knew what to say and none of us would dare to mention Alice because it would cause too much emotion. Edward had been popping in every now and then giving me his hand as a soothing gesture...I always pushed him away both physically and mentally because I couldn't bare having him touch me when I felt so bad about myself...I hated the fact that I could do nothing to keep Alice alive and I hated that she had to be the one to die when it could have been me.

If there was a sodding GOD then how can he have let Alice die? All-knowing, all-good? If you ask me it is all bullshit...I don't think I want to believe in someone that has the decency to make a deserving, promising girl like Alice leave the world...It didn't make sense...Nothing did.

Why not take me?! I don't have as much to live for as Alice did...She had a family of her own, a future happy marriage and considering how my life has gone I wouldn't be surprised if death stared me in the face today...Or even tomorrow if that's the case.

I just wasn't able to bring myself to get up or do anything...I was so upset and I cry all the time and I just don't know what I am supposed to do anymore.

"Bella?" I heard Rose whisper to me but I didn't hear my bedroom door open or close..That's if she was IN my room at all. I said nothing...I have no energy to speak just to think about how cruel the world we live in is.

"Bella, look you really must eat something...-" Rose started I clenched my stomach hard to try and put a lid on my anger and possible outburst..Why the hell would I care about eating?

The bed sank a little and my body automatically moved along with it I took that as an indication that Rose was in fact in my room and she was no doubt going to make this situation a whole lot harder...Go on Rose shout at me...Nothing can be any worse than this.

"Look...You are not the only one hurting, Bella...There was nothing that any of us could have done...You need to snap out of this" I could hear the concern and sadness in Rose's voice but I couldn't bring myself to say sorry and how I was clearly a disgrace to the family unit...I could never BE another Alice...I didn't want to be another ALICE...I am not connected to Carlisle or Esme by blood and they have lost the only person that was...I can never live up to being a good sister like she was..I wouldn't know how.

"Bella for god sake say something?!" Rose exclaimed...I felt the anger inside me...However what good would it do to have a go at Rose.

"What do you want me to say?" I muffled into the pillow...My throat hurt from all the crying I had done..Is it possible to go and hide forever in a cave or someplace where NO ONE ever goes?

"The fact that you just spoke makes a start..What is this I hear about you not touching Edward?"

What the hell...! Jesus this was going to be a long morning...Actually I didn't know what time of the day it was...It didn't really matter.

"Sorry if sex is not on my agenda, Rose" I said in reply.

"Oh god that is not what I meant and you know it, Bella...He is scared to say anything to you is that really what you want?!"

"I want to hide...I want to be in here like this"

"How about spending time in the arms of your loving boyfriend? He needs you right now, Bella and I know that you need him too...You're just too low in self-pity to realise it"

"I don't...I don't want anyone"

"So you're just going to give up and live like a fucking hermit for the rest of your life...Alice wouldn't want you to be like this!"

"Alice wanted a lot of things...Now she will never have them"

"That's life, Bella...We have to stay strong for each other in times like these...It's the only way we are going to live through it"

"I don't have strength"

"Right, Bella when are you going to climb out of your lake of self-hatred and understand that your boyfriend AND your family need you...Are you that selfish that you refuse to do anything...Do you want the same fate as Alice, Bella because believe me that is what will happen you will either starve or try and kill yourself and I have been both those ways, Bella and I know how hard it is!"

"Leave me alone, Rose"

"Why...Tell me why I should go and I will leave..You know Esme and Carlisle have given you a wide berth but I am not fooled, Bella...This is a cry for help"

"What going back to Sandgrove...No fucking way I would rather kill myself"

"So you're not going to accept help from anyone...Is that it?!"

"Yeah"

"I am clearly not getting through to you...Let this be a lesson, Bella once you have decided that you want to live your life again we may not decide to help you"! The bed moved again and I heard the bedroom door bang behind me.

Everyone was upset...That's fine I could live with that...I want to go away...As far away as I can.

I had a thought then...One word came into my head...England.

Of course...I still had those two tickets...But then again I would only need one of them...I mustn't stay here...I can't stay here I will drive myself insane.

So that's what I decided to do... I would go to England and find myself again because there was no way I could do that here.

(A few days later)

"Bella?" Carlisle called me softly from the other side of the room...I was awake but I didn't want him to know that...I hadn't slept in over a fortnight because my mind wouldn't shut down. I stirred and moved my head to face him..Squinting my eyes to pretend that I had been asleep.

"Morning sweetheart, I have to let you know that it is Alice's funeral today..We will all be leaving here at ten this morning."

"Oh...Would you mind if I decided to walk? I really could use the air" I lied as convincingly as I could even though it broke my heart to do so...Carlisle had been an amazing person in my life and I couldn't say to him what I was really feeling in fear that I would have to go back and have more therapy...I have already done it once and I don't want to do it again. I would rather live my life by myself without anyone's help...It might help me learn for the future.

"Of course...Are you going to be okay by yourself though, Bella?"

"Yes...I'll be fine"

"Okay well I guess we will all see you there, then?"

"Yes" I said with a small smile...God this was hard! I watched Carlisle walk back out of my room and muttered the words 'I love you' and 'goodbye' quietly so that only I could hear them. I climbed out of bed slowly due to the stiffness of my body from being confined underneath my duvet for a while.

I walked into the bathroom and climbed into the shower...I turned the water to the coldest I could endure and washed my hair through taking extra time to lather shampoo and put conditioner in every part of it...If I was going back to England then I wouldn't be in close proximity of a shower or cleaning supplies for a while until I could find a place to crash as the Americans would say. I immediately took longer in the shower than I usually would and considering that it had already been light when Carlisle had come into my room

I hopped out and paced straight past the mirror...I had no desire to look at my reflection..I felt so awful so I knew that I also looked awful too so reflection-looking wasn't appealing. I sat down at the foot of my bed and took the towel out of my hair...Running my fingers through my hair when there was a muffled knock at my door. I watched it open and saw Edward walk through it...I grabbed the top of my towel and held it close to my chest...I had never felt self-conscious around him yet, now it was a whole other story for me.

"We are going now" He said simply...He was wearing a suit and he DID look good...Amazing actually I just wish that I could appreciate him a whole lot more right now...But I couldn't even look at my OWN self to notice him....God I hate my life!

"Okay...I will be over a little later" I said with an attempt of a convincing smile...As Edward stood there I felt his hesitancy and the way that he had forced his voice to come out steady...He was breaking inside much like me and I felt very awkward in that moment.

"I will see you later, then" he said and turned around to walk back out.

"Hey..Edward" I called him quietly...He turned back around to face me...I bit my lip "I love you" I said...I wasn't going to be seeing him again and so it would be the best time to say it now.

"I love you too" he said sincerely as he walked out and closed the door. I put my head in my hand for a moment trying to shake the fact that I was going to be breaking his heart...I needed to do this for me..I need to escape and this was the best way to do it.

I dried my hair and intentionally didn't bother with my straighteners...I put on the most comfortable clothes I could find as well as dragging my suitcase out from underneath my wardrobe..I threw my clothes on and tied my hair up in a ponytail...I was about to take all of my clothes off of hangers when I thought that I would need to call a taxi service.

I ran as fast as I could down the stairs and went into Carlisle's office...I ignored the fact that he wouldn't like me being in there on my own and saw a telephone directory on the coffee table that no one ever used...I grabbed the book in both my hands considering the weight and stumbled over to his desk...I put the book down carefully not wanting to screw up anything on his desk and opened up the page to the letter 'T'.

I had a bit of luck...Once I got to the right section of the book there was a service that had already been circled in a red pen...This must have been the ones that the Cullens' have used on a more than one-time basis.

So after few attempts of trying to speak louder into the phone so that the person on the other end could ACTUALLY hear me and I hung up Carlisle's desk phone and put the book back on the coffee table on my way out. I had half an hour before I needed to be gone.

I went at lightning speed around my room...Throwing all my clothes and wash stuff into the case as well as remembering my own phone, the tickets, my passport and Carlisle's card in cases of GREAT emergency...I wasn't going to use it all the time because he still paid for it even though I was using it...I put these three items in the pockets of my jeans. I looked around the whole area of my room and realised I had packed up everything in sight...I glanced at my bedside table...I remembered that I had forgotten to put my diary away...However I had a thought as I glanced at the closed drawer.

If I left a note trying to explain myself then it wouldn't surprise everyone when they came back...Well it was a long-shot but I couldn't leave without making a somewhat goodbye and remorse for my sudden behaviour.

I opened the drawer and took my diary out...I opened it to a free page before sitting down on my bed and taking out the pen that I always kept inside the front cover in a sleeve.

To my AMAZING family

I have gone to England to shed some light on where my life is going...I have no right to say that I am doing this out of reason for myself because that is selfish...Alice's death affected me..A LOT more than I could ever realise and the fact that I wasn't able to save her has been keeping me awake for over the last two weeks. I need to do this for me..I understand if you never want to see me again after this..I would not blame you and I cannot condone my behaviour because I am so confused right now I lack proper reason and purpose for living life.

I love you all so much..And to whoever picks up this note will you please tell Edward that I love him...I realise that I may be breaking his heart because it is breaking mine to have to go but I know I have to...I also want him to read this diary, it has been kept a secret for most of my life but now it needs to be shared with the boy I love the most in the world...Perhaps it will shed some more light on my past life and why I am the way I am.

Please don't come after me...I need to find my own way right now.

I love you all and I am so sorry

Yours..Always

Bella X

I placed the finished note on top of the diary and stood up to put both of the items on the centre of my bed...I picked up my suitcase and walked down the stairs...I remembered as I put the case down and stretched my arm out that I would need cash for the cab...I went into the drawer of the little table beside the front door and saw a small amount of cash...I took it and put it in my pocket along with my other important items. I looked through the curtains and saw that my taxi was there waiting outside...I grabbed my coat that I had last worn and put it over myself I used that opportunity to look around the house one more time...I picked my case back up and opened the front door and closed it securely behind me.

This was it...I was leaving for a second time however this time I didn't think I was going to come back...Either I would CHOOSE not to come back or I wouldn't be WANTED back again.

*~Edward~*

I stood outside the church with my dad and watched everyone as they walked in...The last two weeks had been the hardest of my life...Bella had barely been in the same room with me...The saddest part was that I had an idea deep down inside that she didn't actually WANT to spend time with me...I understood considering that she had been there for Alice on the day she died but then the other selfish side of me wants her to be with me...So I could be of some comfort to her even if I didn't have to say anything. I didn't want to see her in pain...I loved her so much when I realised I loved her but now I had fallen even more in love with her if that was even possible. I just hoped that she would be here with us later on to say goodbye to Alice. There I was standing at the church surrounded by everyone else in black...Everything was so bleak and I was still emotionally aching from losing my sister she was one of the best people in my life even though I never admitted it to her when she was alive. I turned to my dad who was shaking hands with a couple of old ladies next to me.

"Dad...Can I see Alice...Before the service?" I had registered that Alice's funeral was open-casket but I didn't want to say what I needed to say to her with everyone else watching me do it.

"Yes of course, son" my dad answered me as he tapped my shoulder...I walked past all of the gathering guests and various murmurs of Alice's name. I ignored the comments and walked inside the church there were a few people who were gathered and standing between the seats in the aisle who had all shot me sympathetic looks I gave them my most convincing smile back to try and hide my pain but I could feel myself crumbling inside...God did I need my Bella.

I approached the vicar who had given me a nod in greeting.

"Can I go and see my sister?" I felt stupid asking him but he nodded and gestured me to go to the back of the church...I walked away saying nothing else to anyone and I opened the curtain when I had reached the place I wanted to be and closed it behind me as far as I could so that I wouldn't have any people peeping through the gaps at either side.

There lay my sister...She looked beautiful under the candlelight even though there was no longer any life in her face...In a strange way she looked peaceful but then how can she be peaceful when she is away from the people who love her like her family and Jasper....Not to mention her son which she will never see grow up.

I fought back the sudden tears as I went to sit in the chair next to her head...I sat down and analysed her up and down...Esme had done the right thing in choosing one of Alice's favourite outfits to wear and she had also taken the liberty of doing Alice's makeup I remember her saying that she wanted Alice's beauty to grace the heavens but with a woman with a soul like Alice's you wouldn't need to LOOK good people would love your spirit for what it is and Alice WAS loved by a lot of people.

I leant forward putting my hand over one side of the coffin and wrapping my hand on both of hers which were together on her waist.

"Hey sis...It's me" I could feel my voice breaking but if I was going to be able to cry anywhere then I would be able to in here. No one would be able to see that I was weak and that I was broken.

"So it looks like everyone is here...You know it's weird I saw some people outside who spoke to you like once and now they think that they can be ALLOWED to come to your funeral" I felt inadequate especially when Alice had always spoken back to me and now she was silent...I ran a hand through my hair and took a deep breath...I put my hand back on hers.

"Okay...Erm...I have no idea whether you can hear me or whether you know this doesn't mean as much to you because you aren't here-" I trailed off...I let my tears fall...I took both areas of my lips in my mouth and bit on them before letting them go a few seconds afterwards.

"Alice I never really said how much you mean to me and how much I appreciated you...I mean...You were the one person in my life that I could speak to about anything besides mom...You wound me up to no end sometimes but Alice you need to understand..I never hated you for doing that and the fact that you had so much love for us and for life makes this so much harder to cope with" I was speaking through my tears now stuttering as I was almost on the verge of breaking down completely....I wrapped my whole hand around both of hers as I pushed myself further to get the words out.

"What I am trying to say is that I love you, Alice...I always will and you will have a special in my adolescent heart as you once named it....Your son is so beautiful and he is everything we hoped...Hoped he be and we will love him, Alice and we will.....Take care of J...Jasper too...I ne...never believed...tha...that you would go....If...If you can see me....see us then could you....could...you do me one thing...could you watch over B...Bella for me...She won't talk to me...she can't stand to be near...me and I don't know what to do...I l...love her Alice and I'm lost...I n...need you here to help me...but you're not" I leant my head down on my arm and let the sobs break through.

"I love you so much, Alice and I miss you" I wailed leaving all other words behind and just letting the sobs break through and take me over...I needed to get these out...I wasn't going to cry like this where everyone could see me .

I sat with my head in my arm for a long time...Well at least it seemed that way...I was snapped out of my overwhelmed show of emotion by someone putting a hand on my shoulder. I looked up through my tear-filled eyes and saw my dad staring down at me.

"The service is starting, son" he said simply...I wiped my eyes quickly and released my hand from the coffin and stood up brushing my trousers down..My dad wrapped his arm around me and led me out to the front of the church.

Where was Bella when I needed her the most?

*~Bella~*

"Thank you...Keep the change" I said to the taxi driver handing him all of the cash I took from the Cullens'...I climbed out and took my suitcase out of the boot as I walked up to the entrance of the airport...There was no going back now...I had come this far and what was another five hours of my time?

I reached the lounge of the airport once my suitcase had been accepted and taken away...I felt naked because my hands were empty and I had nothing to carry...I saw the plane parked outside of the large glass windows..I also browsed the seating area to find that there were not many people flying back to England at all...I sat down in a row where there was no one else occupying the seats either next to me or opposite me...I didn't need to be stared down or studied like an animal in a zoo right now...

So began the torturous wait for the stewardess's to board the plane...I let my thoughts wonder once again this time to more happy times and of course the good times I had spent with Edward for the past five months of our relationship.

*~Emmett~*

I hugged mom's shoulders tightly as we stood in the graveyard...The service was amazing..So much better than I thought it would be it was also nice to see so many people who had come along to support us at this time. Dad and mom had made an amazing speech for Alice and there wasn't a dry eye in the house when they stepped down from the pedestal. I knew that mom was feeling the effects of the emotion that clouded all of us today...Her hands were lightly on my own her eyes never leaving Alice's coffin laying in the ground and the golden plaque bearing her name shining in the light. I then remembered something that I was meant to ask my dad about...I hadn't seen Bella for the service..How could she have missed it? She can't have fallen back to sleep again because Edward said that she was getting ready when he last saw her.

"Dad?" I whispered to him next to me...Trying to keep my voice down as the vicar was in the middle of the sermon.

"Yes?" he whispered back tilting his body to one side...Edward was next to him but he continued to stare down so either he hadn't heard us or he was pretending to have not heard us.

"Where's Bella?" I asked him in a whisper he frowned and looked around the small crowd gathered with us...He looked concerned more than anything...I saw him nudge Edward and the two of them began a silent conversation that I couldn't hear...I wrapped my arms tighter around my mom as her body began to rise and fall...She was shedding silent tears and sobs...I however was all cried out..I had done the majority of crying in the service but it wasn't over...I missed Alice already so badly. I looked at dad again as he leant back to me.

"Edward hasn't seen her...I don't think anyone has" he said.

The vicar finished in that moment and we had all taken the opportunity to throw our handfuls of soil to throw on Alice's grave the conversation wasn't picked up again until everyone started to go home. Dad and mom had gone to speak to the vicar and myself, Rose, Edward and Jasper were all still surrounding the grave..I had one hand in Rose's but her, Edward and I were staring at Jasper as he looked down at Alice's grave..Tears were falling down his face but he was silent. It was so hard to see him like this...I could barely stand to be here in such a private moment...I nudged Edward next to me and pointed behind me with my free hand...He understood and we walked away from Jasper as he shared his moment with Alice...We got to a tree and we all stood behind it the wind no longer blowing in our faces as we were sheltered by the tree.

"Edward...Bella isn't here...She wasn't at the service, either" I said looking at Edward he bit down on his lip.

"I never thought that she would miss Alice's funeral...It's disgusting" Rose cursed.

"Rose...She may have had her reasons" I tried to calm her but she looked like she was about to spit feathers and have steam coming out of her ear holes.

"No reason is good enough to miss this...I am going to kill her myself" Rose replied a look of pure venom on her face.

"Shut up, Rose...However angry you might be at Bella there's no reason to make a scene" Edward said..I looked at Rose who's face had began to straighten out...It was nice to see Edward defend himself and also his sister...I understood how he would feel awkward with Rose cursing at Bella when he was in love with her and was also going out with her..I would feel inadequate too if it had been Rose in Bella's shoes.

"So what do we do?" I asked Edward

"We wait until we go home...She must still be there" he answered and I nodded...Jasper was still at the gravestone. "This is awful" I added.

"Danny will be allowed out next week" Rose stated.

"I should talk to mom and dad...Maybe Jazz could stay with us for a while at least until he finds his feet being a single parent and all" Edward said.

"This world is fucking cruel!" I exclaimed rubbing a hand on my forehead.

"Is everyone ready?" We all turned around and saw mom and dad hand in hand behind us...Edward walked over to Jasper as myself and Rose turned around and walked towards mom and dad.

"Bella must be at home" I said to dad...He nodded there was a small part of me that was angry at Bella...We all found it hard to be here today but at least we were all able to say goodbye to Alice...She should have been too.

Edward came back over to us, then.

"Jasper is going to stay here for a while" he said we all nodded at him in understanding and all made our way back to the cars. Rose and I got in my jeep and Edward went in dad's car with my parents.

We all parked in the driveway and made our way into the house...I immediately released Rose's hand and ascended the stairs...I opened Bella's room without bothering to knock to find it empty...I panicked when I saw the door to her wardrobe ajar but there was no clothes in it...My gaze went to the bed and I saw a piece of paper on top of her diary...I took it and read it quickly...I ran down the stairs as fast as I could to see dad and mom look at me with concern on their faces.

"Bella's gone" I breathed out holding up the note...Rose and Edward came in from the kitchen.

"What?" Carlisle said...I handed the note to him and he and Esme skimmed it...They looked at each other when they had finished but I interrupted anything that they were about to say.

"I don't care if she doesn't want anyone going after her...I am NOT going to lose another sister"! I shouted looking over at Edward. "I'll try and bring her back" I said to him and he nodded...I could see his tears...How could Bella do this to him...To us? It was insane.

Carlisle threw me his wallet as Esme read the note again...I took out his cash and stuffed it in my pocket...Without saying anything I ran upstairs to grab my passport and my wallet before sprinting down the stairs again.

I hugged mom who was sitting on the sofa now...I shook hands with my dad.

"Try to bring her back, Emmett" he said to me and I nodded. I walked over to Edward and wrapped my arms around him to whisper in his ear.

"Stay strong" I said simply he shuddered as he let out another sob...I then grasped Rose's hand and she was fighting her own tears. I stroked her face and leaned to her ear.

"I love you so much my beautiful fiancé" I whispered...I leaned back to look at her and then kissed her passionately...I didn't know when I would be back and I would miss her a lot..She responded with her own desire but we kept our kiss short due to the prying eyes of my family.

I took my keys and ran to my jeep...I was not going to have Bella leave us now...Never mind if she didn't want to be here because of Alice but we ALL missed her...The whole world did not revolve around Bella alone and if I were to be completely honest I thought she was being incredibly selfish about how she attempted to escape her problems..ALL our problems.

I couldn't able to get Edward's face to shift out of my mind...How could she do this to HIM?! I don't know how she was able to pluck up the courage and just go like that with only a poxy note as a goodbye?!

I wasn't happy...Bella was going to know that soon enough.

I don't think I have EVER been so angry?!

*~Bella~*

I gave the smiley stewardess my boarding card...Relieved to not be waiting with only my mind to comfort me.

I got on the plane and found my seat easily of course I had a few almost run-ins with various people who had been putting their hand luggage above them. I was alone in a row of three so I took the advantage of taking the window seat so I could look out at the airport in front of me.

I fastened my seat belt and took a deep breath....I started to cry again too.

It was too late to back out now.

I just hoped my family didn't hate me...Because I SO loved them!

I also loved Alice...I missed her like hell. If only it had been me to die...I would have sacrificed myself for her ANYDAY.

*~Rosalie~*

(Later)

Esme and Carlisle had gone to bed...They had both cried so much today that it was only right that they go and get some much needed rest...I was about to go up to Emmett's room when I stopped on my way there and walked into Edward's room instead.

I found him sitting on the bed with his head in his hands...The room was dark except for the moon shining out of his window. He looked up at me the minute I closed the door behind me.

"Need a friend?" I whispered to him...He nodded at me through his tears...I walked over to him and sat down next to him causing the bed to move slightly...I wrapped my arm around Edward's shoulder and he leaned into me...I put my head on his.

"I am sorry, Edward" I said simply...What was I supposed to say?! I had never wanted to hit Bella so hard than I did at that moment...Not out of spite but she needed a reality check. She had a boyfriend who was currently crying on my shoulder because he has lost his sister but now he has also lost his girlfriend...A boyfriend who loved her and worshipped the ground she walked on and it wasn't as if she was ALONE?! She had us and if she had spoken more than just a few words since Alice died then maybe she would have known that we would have all been there to support her if she had asked for it...Bella has a problem and that was she escaped her problems instead of facing them and taking them head-on.

"I couldn't go after her, Rose...I wanted to..I still want to but I don't have the energy" Edward said threw sobs.

My heart officially broke for him...How could he still be functioning...If I were him I would have hit rock bottom a long time ago.

"I know, Edward" I soothed "You don't have to explain yourself to me...Your girlfriend is the one who needs to be explaining"

"I don't understand it, Rose...I would have been there for her if she had asked me...In a heartbeat I would have been there but she was so distant with me..All I wanted was her" Good god Edward was a genuine and honest soul..When I first met him I thought that he was immature but the moment that Bella had entered this family he had begun to change and I could only imagine that his change in attitude was all down to Bella...I had to give her credit because I was impressed at how honest Edward now was but also how he could speak to me now...Speak to me about life things not just how bad he guessed Emmett was in bed.

"Bella needs help, Edward...If it were me then I would give her a large kick up the backside" I said.

"Please don't talk badly about her, Rose...I am mad at her but it makes me feel awful when you speak about her in that way..She is my girlfriend"

"I am sorry, Edward you do have a point" I stated.

"I love her so much, Rose"

"I know...Edward believe me, I know..She is the best thing that has ever happened to you...To all of us. I just can't see why she would just leave us all like this"

"Do you think that she will come back, Rose?"

"I honestly don't know, Edward...I wish I did"

"This is gonna sound strange but can you stay with me tonight, Rose?"

"Of course I will" I said rocking him from side to side.

Edward needed someone and seeing as Emmett had gone I was the only one left.

I waited until Edward fell asleep before crashing on his floor....Not caring that I was still in my makeup and clothes.

Edward was more important right now than anything else...I couldn't have him going the same way as Bella.

Losing Alice was already hard enough to bear.

*~Emmett~*

I finally got on the plane and fastened my seat belt angrily.

God help Bella when I found her.

I couldn't lose Alice and lose HER....I would rather die first.

Go...Emmett....GO!

This chapter is short and sweet because I had written it before work but when I had gone to upload it..It didn't work! ...I just needed to have a short chapter to know where my characters were for the final part of AML.

I didn't describe Alice's funeral because I want everyone who reads it to picture what it might have been in your own minds...I am sure that they will ALL be amazing...Much better than my view anyway. Listening to the songs that I listened to writing this chapter will also help create any visual montages you may create of Alice's funeral.

I cried too much yesterday and I have had a busy day so I don't want to cry anymore lol...If you really would like me to write down my description of Alice's funeral then could you please say in a review or a PM...I need motivation.

I will update sometime tomorrow...Sorry if this chapter is poor in advance .

R+R my lovelies!

Lots of love

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