Average Everyday Seems Psycho:

The Girl who Ruined it all

Disclaimer: Do not own Naruto

Chapter 34:

He stood there dumbfounded as I closed my eyes before looking to him.

"You used me, how could you! You never really loved me did you?" I growled

"How dare you accuse me of-" I interrupted him.

"I heard you! Don't fucking lie to me" I snapped and he shut up. "Don't you dare fucking lie to me, you said you didn't want me to hate you, well you're doing a grand job!" I snarled

"I'm Kazekage, I had to help my village" He stated as I closed my eyes.

"So is this how you treat everyone? A Toy in your world? Gaara I thought you would be different" I whispered and pushed myself onto my bed and pulled my legs to my chest.

"Liz-"

"I don't want to hear it . . . I might be Baring your child Sabaku No Gaara, and I might be a monster . . . the way you think you are, and I might not understand a word of it . . . But don't you dare pity me!" I snapped and when I said my last word I looked up at him with harsh eyes. "I don't need it!" I added before looking back down and he walked up to me.

"Fine, you want the truth? You're the biggest thing in my world and when I heard that my village needed help and sleeping with you was the only way I was extremely hesitant. . . Baki wanted me to Rape you and I told him if he even tried to make me do it I would slaughter him where he stood. Then I realized that our ninjas are in few numbers and that we needed more and that relieving you of some of the power would be the only way to train some men and women to be prepared for war that would surely fall upon us . . . I had no choice. It was I do it or they would take the monster from you and surely kill you!" He explained. He took a breath as I looked up.

"Was that supposed to make me feel better?" I hissed.

"Well if you rather not hear my side of the story then there is no point in telling you what it meant to me that you let me do that to you" My body tensed as I bit my lip, letting go of my lip I looked up, keeping the tears from my eyes.

"So . . . What did it mean . . . To you" I whispered as I looked to the side.

"I'll only tell you if you stop looking at me like I tried to fucking kill you" My eyes burst open as I looked up to him as he glared back. I took a breath and closed my eyes as I looked down.

"You used me, how was I supposed to act? Like I like being used . . . I've been used all my life and the one person I thought liked me for me and not to get something from me, when he showed me, I was nothing but a Toy . . . Well, what did you expect?" I stated as he sighed and sat beside me.

"That night I was fighting it, I was going to tell you what they planned to do and that if you were to run I wouldn't mind . . . That I'd come after you as soon as I could. . . But you were smiling and happy and I just wanted you so much to feel me. . . I wanted to be apart of your happiness so much I forgot what it would do to you . . . You just let me in" He stated as I looked to him just slightly.

"And?" I whispered as he sighed and closed his eyes.

"And . . . Kissing you brought up emotions that burst and I just wanted more . . . and when you let me touch you I. . . I guess I was in love, because . . . Because . . ."

"Because no one else knew what you wanted when you wanted? And even if they did they would think you either didn't deserve it or didn't care enough to give it to you?" He jumped slightly and looked at me. "I know the feeling" I whispered.

For a few seconds we were silent, everything still as I took a deep breath.

"I can take the emptiness, and I can take the tears, Because I'm not afraid to cry . . . But wanna know what hurt me the most . . . It was being so close to you then finding out you were someone else and you didn't chase me!" Tears began to choke my words as I stared at the floor. "You didn't even chase after me!" I added as he sighed.

"How was I to know you wanted me too?"

"You always save me . . . And the one time I really wanted you to come after me and be my prince in Shining armor . . . You weren't there" I whispered and stood and pushed my hair from my face. "So come after me . . . When your more then The Kazekage, The man I know you are" I whispered and I walked away.

It hurt a lot.

But I had too.

He sat there and watched me leave. He didn't even know who he was fully, so I didn't expect him to be the man I needed.

He might never be him.