Bonus

Sam's POV- Pack life

I have been the Alpha of our pack for nearly two years, and this is the first time I feel like a complete failure. There have been times in the past when I didn't always know the answers but this is so far beyond anything I can fix. I do not know how or what to do to help my brothers or my sister, my community.

I did not have a clue until now just how much Bella Swan was a part of our world. Sure, I knew she knew the secret, but her presence in our circle was far more reaching than I ever could have imagined. Until now.

There have been rumors for years that my father may be Embry's father; I never paid much attention, always thinking it was nothing more than local gossip. Now that he has phased it seems more likely. I could possibly have a brother. He has not brought it up and neither has anyone else though I know it is on everyone's mind.

He looks like a man on fire, his whole being is wrapped up in Bella, as a friend, a pack brother and now maybe a blood brother I want to help him, comfort him, make this better and there is nothing I can do. I feel helpless.

I watch as Embry's world crumbles with each hour Bella is not found.

They are so woven together it's like they are one person. His mind is hard to be in, but the love you see for this girl is like nothing I have ever witnessed. His whole being orbits around Bella. Paul and Leah told me they believe he imprinted on her at the dance.

I have to say despite everything that we have been told about imprinting and how it works, I think maybe they're right. What you see in his mind for Bella is more encompassing than I know how to describe.

Paul, he has always been so private. We all know about his family story, but none of realized Bella had become his only family. He loves her like a sister and is mourning the loss of family once again. She allowed him a chance to be a part of something that he thought had been lost forever. Hot headed Paul was forever changed by a tiny slip of a girl.

Leah, Bella was able to crumble the walls Leah had built. Leah became the girl we knew growing up, funny and sarcastic. She let Bella know her, and in doing so, became best friends with the girl she once called Leach Lover. Best friends and sisters.

How do go on when your sister is lost to you?

Seth has always loved Bella and Bella him. He stood up for her when the rest had our heads too far up our asses to realize how great Bella really is.

She spoils him just like she would if he were her own baby brother from birth. He feels the loss just as great as he would if Leah were missing.

Jared was never a fan of Bella. He remained distant but friendly when she was around, until Kim only survived her car crash because of the girl he once was so cruel to. He was never obvious with his affection but those of us in the pack knew he felt gratitude and respect towards her.

He feels great remorse for never showing Bella the kindness she showed all of us.

Quil and Bella had been close friends, and had been working on becoming friends once again. He fears for her and does not know how to help everyone through this. Quil is scared he may not get the chance to be the friend she was to him.

Jake, he is a whole other story. Jake's love for Bella was epic. He loved her too much and I think that caused them both pain. He has been coming to terms with the fact that she was never meant to be his. And learning to love her in a different way.

He is scared for the girl who he grew up with, became best friends to and loved more than he should have.

He is also dealing with Embry, once best friends, close like brothers. They have been working to mend their friendship over the last few weeks.

Jake does not know how to help Embry right now, none of us do.

He feels guilt for the pain he caused Bella and the grief he gave the two of them this last year. He loves her, but watching Embry, he has come to see even his 'epic' love for Bella does not come close to the way Embry loves her.

Emily and Angela mourn the lost friendship but accept that their actions ended it.

Knowing that does not mean their fear is not as great as anyone else's is.

They try to show their support with meals .

Charlie and Rene, how I pray to the spirits I never find myself in their place. Rene is a mess, and if it were not for Embry's mom Annie, I think she would be in the hospital.

Charlie always the brave cop has not shed one tear in front of anyone, but we can hear him late at night while we patrol. We see his eyes rimmed in red, his voice hoarse.

He has spent a lifetime keeping the people of Forks and now La Push safe, and his only child, his little girl is lost. He looks lost himself.

Annie, Embry's mom. She learned her son turns into a giant wolf and fights vampires the same day she finds out her sons reason for breathing is missing.

She does anything to keep busy. She is worried for her son, and scared for the girl she loves and knows one day will be her daughter.

Harry, Sue, and Billy lifelong friends of Charlie. They have all watched Bella grow from a baby into a woman. They all love her as their own.

Harry and Sue know with out Bella, Leah would still be lost to them and the familial love between Bella, Leah and Seth is amazing. They feel as though they have lost a child of their own. Billy, Charlie's best friend feels the loss as his. He does not know how to help Charlie get through this. How do you hold someone up when you are

falling down to?

Me, I was the one who found Bella when the leach left her in the woods to die, I can see her face in my dreams. She looked so lifeless, as if death had already claimed her.

She went months in a state of depression, barely alive. She came out of it when she started hanging out with Jake, while I was happy to see her beginning to live again,

when she learned the Tribe's secret, I was angry, I did not trust her. She loved the enemy after all. When she eventually started dating Jake, I should have been a good Alpha and lifted the order about imprinting; I should have been a better leader and never placed the order to keep Angela a secret. I made mistakes, never with the intention of hurting her deliberately but it did… I did.

I learned a few things about Isabella Swan. One she is one of the most trust worthy people I have ever met, she has never once betrayed out secret even when we betrayed her.

Two, she loves unconditionally and perhaps that is how she could love my enemy.

Three none of us gave her enough credit, and we are all realizing that now.

She has taught us lessons, we did not know we needed to learn, and perhaps when she comes home to us, we can thank her.

One little pale face girl, changed the lives of an entire town, became the glue that held us together in a world she was never supposed to be a part of.