Author's Note:

Hey guys! Sorry it's been a while. I went home this weekend and I got home earlier and started to write this, but then got distracted by the Oscar's. Who else was sad about Leo still not winning an Oscar? But Idina's performance was perfect, anyone see Frozen? Favorite movie right now, saw it four times!

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Don't you ever say that I just walked away,
I will always want you.
I can't live a lie, running for my life.
I will always want you.

Chapter Thirty-Three – Truth Revealed

I couldn't believe what I was hearing from Nik's mouth. Kol turned it off? That explains why he's been so distant recently. I knew that he was acting differently. He wasn't like that – especially when he was with me. He changed a lot throughout the years. He wasn't some sadistic asshole who would plan a kill. He didn't think ahead, he always lived in the moment. He killed whenever he wanted to. Random strangers, not have an elaborate plan behind it.

I couldn't exactly blame him for turning it off. I did twice after he left me. The ache that they leave in your heart is too much to bear. It's easier to just flip the switch and forget about all of the pain.

There was only one way that I knew he would turn it back on.

I vanished out of the Mikaelson mansion and outside on the lawn, Kol wasn't out there. I spun around trying to find him. I focused on my hearing and I could hear footsteps walking down the sidewalk. He was mumbling curse words under his breath. I used my speed and caught up to him, walking behind him patiently.

He took notice to my appearance but didn't bother turning around or saying anything. I huffed out an annoyed breath, "You know you could have just told me." I sounded annoyed. I was annoyed. Why would he keep this is secret?

He kept walking so I jogged to walk by his side. He looked down at me before glancing back up and walking down the road. He shrugged his shoulders, "I was under the impression that I didn't have to tell you anything."

I spun on my foot and stepped in front of him, he halted in place. I crossed my arms across my chest, "No, don't you dare start this with me. I am so beyond done with all of these damn games, Kol." He rolled his eyes and I slapped him hard across the face, "I told you that I loved you then you went and turned your humanity off."

He flashed us back to his motel room and I pushed him off of me and fell back against his bed. I leaned up on my elbows and sent him a glare, "You made it clear last night that you didn't actually mean it. And even if you did," He leaned down so he was hovering over me. His face was inches from mine and stared into his eyes, "I don't care."

"Yes you do, Kol," I pushed him off of me and stood up straight. "If you don't care about me then why are you trying to stop Silas from being risen?" He walked over towards his dresser and pulled out his scotch and poured himself a drink then started to drink it. He offered me his glass but I shook my head, "Why did you do this?"

I walked over to him and he leaned against his dresser and looked over towards me. "Earlier, you said you didn't want the cure?" I shook my head slowly and watched his facial expressions. I finished my glass of scotch and place it down onto the table top. "Why would you put your life in danger for something that you don't even care about then?"

I let out a long breath, "They are my friends, Kol. I would do anything to keep them safe."

His voice rose and grew pitchy, "You could die Kassandra!" I looked up at him and locked my eyes on his. His eyes were blank and cold, "I just-"

I cut him off quickly, "What? You just what?" He looked away awkwardly, "Exactly you can't tell me how you feel because you don't feel anything. You turned your emotions off when things were getting rough. Shouldn't we have learned from my mistakes?" I looked away from him but I felt his finger under my chin and he forced me to look at him, "Kol, let me do what I think is right. I don't need you to protect me anymore."

He chuckled at me shaking his head back and forth, "You think that after all the time we've spent together, that it should not be in my best interest to keep you out of harm's way."

I grabbed his face in my hands and stared up at him in hope, "Turn your emotions on, Kol. Please turn them back on for me," I leaned up and brushed my lips against his but he pulled away from me. "You can't do this to me!"

He pushed me against the wall forcefully by my throat and barred his fangs at me, "Do what? I made my choice and I don't regret it."

"Kol!" I pulled at his hand but he only tightened his grip. He was scaring me. "Kol," My voice grew smaller, "Let go of me. Please, you are better than this. This isn't you anymore, remember? We are better when we're together." He shook his head and manic laughter followed, he shot his hand through my chest and gripped my heart in his hand. My eyes grew wide and I groaned in pain, "Kol. Stop!"

He looked up at me and brushed my hair out of my face with his other hand, "Sh, darling. I am only finishing what I should have a century ago."

He squeezed my heart tighter and I gasped out and my head fell forward, "Kol. Do you feel that? That is my heart beat. You have my life in your hands. You don't want to kill me, Kol. Ll-l-look," I lifted my left hand and showed my engagement ring to him. "Do you see this?" He looked over at it and I pulled it off with my other hand. I lifted his hand that was on my neck and pulled it down. I placed the engagement ring in his hand and closed his hand so he had in it his palm, "That is ours. Kol," I put his closed fist in between my hands and squeezed it gently.

I pulled my lips together into a small side smirk and caressed my fingers along his cheekbone, "Come back to me." He stared into my eyes and I could see his soften back to normal, I put my palm fully on his cheek and smiled at him weakly.

He looked down and noticed his hand was still wrapped around my heart, he pulled his hand out immediately. I fell forward and he caught me in his arms and petted the back of my hair back, "Kaddie. I am so sorry," He lifted my head up so I was looking at him and he pressed his lips to my forehead.

I shook my head and hugged him tightly, "I'm just glad you're back."

He pulled away after a few seconds and took my left hand in his hand and slid the diamond ring onto my finger. He pulled my hand and pressed his lips to the back of my hand, "I am truly sorry, darling."

I looked at him seriously and forced him to look down at me, "Listen to me, Kol. That wasn't you, I know you and you would never hurt me. Not ever again." He leaned in closer to me but I took a step back and hit my head against the wall, "Kol."

He took a step away and started to walk away, "I thought we were having a moment. It was my misunderstanding."

I crossed my arms across my chest and tilted my head to the side, "What just happened doesn't change anything between us. I'm sorry if I lead you to believe that. I am still with Jeremy, but I needed to get you to turn your humanity back on. You needed to flip the switch. The only thing I could think of," I twisted the ring on my finger, "Was our ring."

He laughed to himself, "So you used me?"

I rolled my eyes, "Kol. You've got to be kidding me."

He walked back over to me quickly and pushed me up against the wall forcefully, "Just admit that we still have something between us. I felt it. I know you feel it, it's all over your face," I took in a quick breath and narrowed my eyes on his. "Now you're doing that thing with your eyes that you do whenever I am right and you are annoyed. Kaddie, I know you better than you know yourself. Admit you still have feelings for me," I pushed him in hard in the chest away from me.

"No because I won't lie to you," I shouted into his face and he rolled his eyes. "I don't have feelings for you, I am with Jeremy."

He pressed his body closer to mine against the wall and I let out a light moan, "You sure there are no feelings?" He pressed his lips to my neck and started to kiss down in and I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the wall. He kept kissing down to my chest and pulled my plaid shirt open, ripping the buttons off of it.

I tried to push him off of me but it was useless, "Kol. Stop it," He ignored me and picked me up and flashed us over to his bureau. He sat me down on top of me and pushed me back so I was laying on my back. He started to kiss down my stomach and I gasped out and tangled my fingers in the back of his hair.

He pulled away and looked down at me with a smirked before walking away. I sat up confused and placed my hands on the edge of the bureau. "What the hell was that all about, Kol," I yelled and pushed myself off and landed on the ground. I stormed over to him, "You can't do that! Stop having feelings for me!"

He kept walking so I appeared behind him and pushed him up against the wall and growled in his face. I felt my veins forming under my eyes and he stared back at me, "How am I supposed to stop having feelings for you? Are they just supposed to just magically disappear after over a century?"

I shook my head furiously, "No. But you need to find a way. There is no reason for you to be acting like this?" I looked down at my ripped open shirt and he smirked and I put my hand to his neck and applied pressure. "Don't test me, love."

He chuckled when I called him love, "You've been spending way too much time with my family. Darling, let go of me," He looked down and I moved my hands away from him. "Not until you stop with the games," I pushed his chest hard and he caught them in his hands tightly.

He laughed darkly, "Do you really want to know the reason behind my motives?" I nodded my head hopefully, "I love you. I am so unbelievably in love with you," He yelled into my face and I forced my hands free and pushed him again, harder this time. "I don't want to even think of you with anyone other than me," He continued as he captured my hands in his once again. "Why would I be happy for you with the Young Gilbert?"

He let go of my hands so I pushed him again and he banged his back against the wall and groaned, "Well stop being in love with me. You can't do this to me anymore!"

"Do what?" He yelled back and the vein in his neck doubled its normal size, "Huh? What can't I do anymore?" My upper lip formed into a snarl and I lunged towards him once again, "Love you?"

I slapped him across the face then all of a sudden, positions were switched and I was against the wall with his hand wrapped around my throat. "Kol," I managed to let out and he loosened his grip slightly but still held me against the wall. "You make my decision so much harder," I whispered and he removed his hand and I fell onto my feet flatly.

I leaned back against the wall and rubbed my neck, "What decision? You've made up your mind. You obviously love this mortal more than you ever loved me, you never even fought for me."

I laughed in his face and he furrowed his eyebrows together, "I never fought for you? Are you kidding me?" I kept laughing then my voice grew louder and more powerful, "I wouldn't have had to fight for you in the first place if you didn't keep leaving me! All you did was repeatedly disappear out of my life. Then finally when I think that I've moved on, here you come spirally back into it!"

He leaned in closer to me, so he was centimeters away and stared into my eyes, "You already know how deeply sorry I am about 1864." I squinted my eyes at him and clenched my jaw together tightly.

I swallowed hard and raised my chin so that I was looking up at him fully. He was staring back with a sorrowful expression, "What about when Mikael almost caught you? You left me there in that bar that night! Then you came rushing back to save my life."

He growled at me and I pushed him away from me, "Yes, exactly I came back for you because I realized what a huge mistake I made."

"You almost killed me!" I shouted and he pinned me against the wall again by my shoulders and I shrugged my shoulders free, but he didn't lose contact. I looked up at him and I could feel tears stinging my eyes, "Sometimes I wish you did! You would have saved me from years of misery."

He stared into my eyes and tilted his head to the side. He shook his head angrily and I swallowed hard, "Don't you dare blame that on me." His voice was shaky, "You were the one that cheated, if I do recall."

I pulled his off of my shoulder but we both stayed completely still, "I didn't mean for it to happen Kol." I whispered in defense, "I was in a rough place. I was easily manipulated," I complained, but he only shook his head.

"That's still no excuse and that does not pardon your offense," He tightened his grip around my neck and I gasped out. "If we're going to bring up all of our offenses, then what about you leaving me in that coffin for over a century? Tell me, now whose fault was that?"

I tried to push him off of me but he wouldn't budge, "Nik's! He was the one to lock you up in there, he saved me from you!" My eyes bulged out and he dropped me.

"Did I really hurt you that much that you can't forgive the wrong that I have done in the past?" He questioned sadly and I could feel tears welling up. "Do you hate me that much? Am I really the monster that everyone makes me out to be?" He stepped away from me and took a few steps away and towards his bed.

I let out a deep sigh before walking over to him and I grazed his cheek with my hand, "Kol. I don't want to fight with you. I just," I took a deep breath trying to steady my breathing.

He diverted his eyes from my contact and stared at the wall for a few seconds. He looked back down toward me and took a large gulp, "You what?"

"I need to come to the decision," I let my shoulders sink forward and he looked away from me sadly. I straightened up and raised my head higher, "Which will prove to be the hardest decision of my existence because as much as I want to let you go and move on, I don't want to lose you."

His head snapped over to mine and he nodded cautiously, "Kassandra, whatever decision you come to conclude." He gave me a weak smile, "Just be aware that through it all, I will support you."

He took my hands in his and ran his thumb across my knuckles, I looked down and his finger traced over my engagement ring. Our engagement ring.

"Kol Mikaelson, I do." I announced and he looked up at me with a quizzical expression present, "To answer your question from earlier." He tilted his head onto his right shoulder and I took one hand away and wiped the few stray tears that ran down my cheek. I took a deep breath trying to steady my breathing, "Earlier you asked me if, if I still loved you. The answer is that I do," I kept nodding my head.

My tears began to intensify immediately and I started to sob, he pulled me into his chest and hugged me. He wrapped his arms around me and had one hand placed on the back of my head and was petting my hair, "Sh, Kaddie."

"I do," I kept repeating into his chest and was staining his shirt with my tears, "I love you, I do still love you. I do, I, I-I, I do."

He kissed the top of my head and whispered, "I know you do Kassandra, I never lost hope in us. I never gave up."

I looked up at him and he wiped the tears away from my eyes, "I feel awful."

"Why, darling? Don't feel awful," He kissed the top of my head and I shook my head and put my hand over his which was still resting on my cheek.

My heart felt like it was about to jump out of my chest and kept beating like crazy. "I gave up on us when you never did," I bawled and he chuckled lightly, "I don't deserve you. You are such a good person and I'm not, I'm a horrible person."

He muttered, "No, no, no, no. Listen to me, you are a strong woman," He mumbled quietly as he stared into my watery, blue eyes. "I am so incredibly selfish and I made all the wrong choices in the beginning, but I changed. You changed me. You made me into the person I am today."

I grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him down to me and kissed him hard on the mouth, he reacted quickly and pushed me against the wall. My back was slammed against the wall aggressively and he kissed down my neck hungrily. I brought his lips to mine once again and I deepened the kiss.

I reached down his back and pulled his shirt over his head in one swift movement and threw it down on the ground. He picked me up with one arm and I wrapped my legs around his waist and he started to kiss down my neck again towards my collarbone. I let out a light moan and I could feel a smile pressed up against my skin. He flashed us onto the bed and scooped me towards the bedframe with one arm, I pulled him down to kiss me again.

I leaned up and he pushed the sleeves of my flannel off of my shoulders and pulled it off of me and threw it onto the ground. He moved his hand down to my waist and his hand grazed my bare skin, I tangled my fingers in his hair and pulled lightly.

"I love you," He whispered against my lips and I ran my hands along his back and dug my nails down, breaking skin. I switched positions quickly so I was dominating the situation and he smiled up at me. I leaned down and pressed my lips against his, I glanced over at his bedside table.

I pulled something off of the table and brought it back to me. I kissed him harder, "I missed this," I whispered and he pulled away and stared into my eyes.

"So did I, love," He replied sweetly and I kissed him passionately. He ran his hands all along my body and roamed around, I started to kiss down his bare chest and I heard him moan. I brought my lips back to his and kissed him slowly this time.

I shoved the dagger into his abdomen quickly and he groaned out in pain and I pulled away from him and stared down at him. He pushed me off from on top of him and I went flying back against the bureau and knocked the alcohol onto the ground. He pulled the dagger out of his stomach and bolted towards me, he pulled me towards him but I tried freeing myself. He flashed me back against the wall and he slammed me against the wall, I hit my head hard.

I groaned out and he barred his fangs at me and I gasped out trying to regain my breath, "Let go of me right now. Kol, let go or I swear to God-"

"What will you do? You can't do anything to me, I am an Original!" He belted into my face loudly and I slammed my eyelids shut tightly, not wanting to look at him. He let go of me and I pushed him away and started to walk away from him, "Don't walk away from me!" He screamed and I whipped around angrily at him, "I should have walked away from you decades ago!"

He pushed me back against the wall and I choked out and his eyes were darker than before. They looked almost as dark as last time, when he tried to rip my heart out, "What the hell was that for?"

I hissed at him, "You know exactly what that's for! You deserved that, you deserve much worse than that! You hurt me so badly. I didn't mean a word of what I said earlier. I fell out of love with you a long time ago, it was all only an act." I snapped at him and his jaw clenched tightly and his nose twitched angrily.

He chuckled at me darkly, "You're a fucking bitch."

I pushed him in the chest with all my power, "I fucking hate you! I can't believe I ever believed that you actually could have feelings for me!" I swallowed hard and exclaimed, "You are a monster and I hate you so much!"

He threw me against the wall again by my throat and he lifted me off of my feet, "I'm the monster?"

"Yes, you are Kol!" I screamed in pain, "You always have been and you'll never change. You bring out the worst in me, I was better off without you!" He tightened his grip around my throat.

"You're so worthless," He bellowed and I felt a pang in the pit of my stomach, "You don't deserve happiness. I hope you enjoy your brother murdering your boyfriend and I'll be gone out of your life forever, as you wish." He grunted and I let a breath out of my nose.

I freed myself from him finally, "Good, because you don't deserve to have me in your life. I hate you. You are a complete asshole! I hope we never cross paths ever again."

He punched the wall right beside my head and my eyes grew wide and I sucked in a terrified breath. His fist was centimeters away from me and I pushed myself off of the wall quickly. I stumbled forward before I turned to him and pulled the ring off of my finger of my left hand. "Here," I threw it at him, "I never want to see you again." He caught it in his hand and looked down, inspecting what it was.

Before he could respond, I flashed out of the hotel room. I started to walk down the hallway and I made it about four doors down before I collapsed onto the ground. I pushed myself up against the wall and pulled my knees to my chest and began to sob uncontrollably. I covered my mouth with my hand to try to muffle the sobs so he couldn't hear me.

Everything that happened in that room was a lie, I didn't want to do it. I only wanted revenge for everything he put me through. I still loved him and I wasn't sure if there would ever be a day that I didn't.