Camille - '' If you hoping that I tell you all this were a mistake then you were mistaken of person. ''

I bit distractedly at the back of my pen as I was trying to finish the test on time. I realized I had been late on some issues lately and even if it really bothered me, it had to be done. So I laid there flat on my bed while I swung my legs back and forth in rhythm to soft music blasting through my speakers at a low level while my attention was focused on my duty to history.

Who was still interested in the Cold War seriously?

I was really grateful to have the facilities or I honestly thought I would never have gone unscathed through all those years of torture. So where was I?

The Cold War is multi-dimensional, more driven by ideological and political differences between the superpowers by territorial ambitions. She has strong repercussions in all fields, particularly economic and cul ...

I let a frustrated sigh before throwing my pen in my pages as I sat up on my elbows slightly with a deep frown.

'' Why do I have all the time you find with a frown when I come to your room? '' Called out Kendall took me by surprise as I composed my expression just to see him shut behind him before quickly making his way to me. He dropped heavily on all my homework making me throw a little shine before shaking my head in his adorably innocent expression. Damn him and his dimples. '' So ... what are you doing ? ''

''My homework. You know, those things that we get to do at home as working staff. '' I replied with a sarcastic smile instantly collecting a teasing look of blond.

'' You're too sarcastic for your own good, you know that ? '' Replied Kendall removing my duties under him who began to interfere before turning his head to look me in the long brown eyelashes brushing his cheeks. ''And too serious. ''

I rolled my eyes, taking my chin in my hands since I was leaning on my elbows slightly hovering above the blond's face and gave him another sarcastic look. '' Sorry I want to support my education.''

The blond slightly tugged on one of strands of hair, rolling his eyes in turn and I soon narrowing my eyes at him before doing the same with his shaggy blond locks with a mischievous smile.

'' Hey! '' Moaned the blond is dramatically into the place where I had pulled his hair and I pulled his hair again, raising my eyes. '' Stop it right now! ''

'' Where else what ? '' I defied mischievously before quickly repeat what he had just banned me.

'' You asked for it ! '' Exclaimed the tall blond immediately making me sit up in apprehension only was he fast. Before I could get out of bed, Kendall had suddenly grabbed my wrist causing me to fall back against his chest before starting to tickle me.

My reaction was immediate as I exploded into a laugh uncontrollably while kicking in all directions hoping to get out of his reach. In vain. The blond was definitely a great hold on me and I laughed more unable to control the tears of laughter now in the corners of my eyes and I knew I had to get out really fast blond now. I never lost a fight to tickle let alone face of Kendall.

I knocked his hand out of my side in a new attempt before decide to play dirty. I attacked my turn his sending the sides in a crazy-laugh and I took advantage of the distraction of the blond out of his grip before climbing astride him to continue my attack.

Kendall dropped more laughter loud and raucous in hysteria and I tried the best I could hold on him since he was writhing in all directions. He was certainly stronger than me and I really had trouble holding him in place.

'' Okaaay ... ... jaaaaaacks. stoooooooop ... pleaaaaaaase jaaaaaacks ...! '' Kendall chuckled at full speed as he threw his head back before suddenly hit one of my arms heavily laid on him making me breathless.

Unfortunately, I realized just how much our position now seemed incredibly intimate. I now had my nose buried in the crook of his neck where his pulse beat rapidly from his laughter and I had to swallow hard as the natural and attractive smell of Kendall invades my nostrils. Kendall also seemed to have became aware of our position as he had suddenly frozen under me leaving only his rising and falling chest making contact with my own. At that point, I was just unable to make the slightest movement and I was not sure it was for the best.

His hot body under mine now gave me a new sensation in my lower belly that I had never felt before and that his belt was rubbing partly against my bare skin was not worse. Not to mention that I felt almost fall into a trance to the intoxicating smell of blond. All I wanted to do was nestle deeper my nose against the warm soft skin of his neck to get over the smell. In fact, I wanted to do more than that, I wanted to taste his pulse point so strong right now that I had to swallow to keep me from doing anything stupid.

Only Kendall seemed anything but make things easier as he finally came out of his frozen state just to bring his arms around my back, bringing me more of him. I yielded to my first instinct, taking a deep breath of his skin as quietly as possible before closing my eyes to the feeling of Kendall fingers long traveling through the brown locks of my hair. I swallowed hard as his fingers seemed to descend of themselves on my side barely brushing against my skin revealed by my shirt up slightly before fully realize how bad the situation was.

I closed my eyes again to try to get rid of his enchanting scent of my mind before finally descend quickly from him and my bed recovering my study books. I could easily feel the eyes of the blond on me as I hurried to go to my office to ask my books on it and put as much distance as possible between him and me. That was bad. Worse yet, I thought I was beginning to feel again those familiar feelings. If the last few minutes were not some kind of proof so I do not know what it was.

I cleared clumsily my throat away, leaving a strand of hair behind my ear and made eye contact with Kendall from afar. '' So ... er ... where are the others ? ''

'' The guys are ... in the living room with Tori and Camille. '' Replied Kendall swallowing hard with a raised eyebrow divided between mild confusion and nervousness. Jacks perhaps not but knew their embrace had left some mark on him and he preferred to lie at this stage.

He was pretty freaked out and ashamed for not more embarrassed of the situation to endure. His breaths wedged in his throat as he tried to best to think of some entertaining things like hockey, boys, music, the last song they recorded. All but the beautiful brunette is now in front of him. He could feel himself becoming increasingly frustrated as mild pain against his belt seemed to become more prominent. This was even worse as he thought. Things were not supposed to degenerate like that and even less with Jacks, who was not his current girlfriend.

Hell, he had not even got so close with Jo and they were the couple's oldest of Palm Woods.

'' Camille is here ? I ... uh ... well, I have to see her.'' Exclaimed suddenly Jacks with wide eyes panic before abruptly leaving her room in a gale letting him fall heavily against the bed of brunette with a sigh.

Now he was alone, he allowed himself to sit up a little to see the damage for himself and he inspired a breath hitched as he realized the impact of their embrace to become more and more rigid against his thigh jeans.

'' Shit! '' Hissed nervously between his teeth hurt kicking comfortable on the big bed of Jacks. How he was supposed to do now. He could not out like that and he needed to calm down and fast. He could definitely not risk relieve himself. Not to mention that it would be completely disrespectful for many reasons.

Why is he always felt like that with the brunette. How it was even possible. The number of hug he shared with Jacks were incalculable for him then why did he suddenly reacted like that.
He had never even thought of Jo or any girl like that and it was enough to feel the sinuous body of Jacks against his, feel her warm breath maliciously sweeping his pulse point that he was reacting .

But what was Jacks for him ?

I exploded across the room in an almost frenzied state in search of an actress in question and found that all of the attention had focused on me confused with my hasty entrance.

'' Camille! '' I called current towards the brunette surprising her and the whole group as I abruptly pulled her from the ground in a panicked state before giving her a wild look. '' I have an idea . We will leave ! Now !''

'' What? But uh ... ''

I don't even let her finish as I was training her with me suddenly in a not rushed to our door before continuing through the many stairs of the hotel. Brunette continued to wonder and to fight against my reach to know what was happening but I was content to keep walking as we passed through the lobby to the parking lot.

'' Okay, Jacks! Jaaaaaaacks! Stop! '' Barked Camille finally stopping in front of my Jeep with an impatient shine. '' I can know what is happening with you ? ''

''It's complicated. But I need someone to talk to. '' I said riding behind my steering wheel without even looking brunette before giving her a look squeezed through my windshield. '' I promise to explain everything. Just up ! ''

The actress gave me a clearly reluctant flat and I narrowed my eyes my lips before adding a "pleaaaaase". That seemed to decide the brunette as she shook her head of brown curls before rounding the bumper of my Jeep before reaching for the passenger door. I expected she buckled her belt to make contact and I soon to commit myself on the busy streets of LA.

I needed to get as far away from the hotel as possible. As far as possible from Kendall to gather my thoughts. I could not believe this was happening to me again. How was it even possible! I'm doing real work on my feelings during my stay in Australia and I honestly thought it would not be a problem.

However, it was obvious that I was wrong.

I had not been slow to take the familiar path toward the ground since I knew it would take us about an hour to get there. I could easily feel impatient and gloomy look of Camille during the major part of the journey but it seemed that I was simply unable to say anything. I was looking for my words yet. I wanted to tell her everything. Including the famous incident of the kiss, but part of me felt incredibly guilty and that she was friends with Jo did not made things easier.

But she was also my friend and she was the only one I really wanted to talk about it. Tori was also important for me but Camille was my first friend girl to really take my thoughts and feelings into account. She was also my first real friend unrelated boys. Not to mention that I doubted that Tori could really give me an objective opinion. She hated like the plague Jo and she tended to associate any with sex while Camille was more down-to-earth. And she was friends with Jo. She would probably yell at me and tell me how I was an infamous one person. Basically, I thought it was what I needed. I needed to be reminded that things were and always will be possible between me and Kendall.

'' Okay! What's going on with you ! '' Finally exploded Camille glancing between me and the road. '' And you know even where did you go ? ''

'' As far as possible from the hotel. '' I managed to say in sparking nervousness warily and anxious to Camille.

The actress focused more attention on the brunette at her side. Her jaw was tight, her eyes lowered on the road even if she had caught her throwing ever so often nervous glances from side during their journey. Her hands seemed to shake the wheel of her Jeep into a tight pressure that tells Camille that it must be pretty important.

'' Jacks, tell me what happens! '' Inquired immediately Camille more worried now.

'' I'm trying, okay! '' Barked finally brunette in an explosion before catching a desultory tone and troubled. '' I'm trying ... I'm trying to find the right words. ''

Camille was soon realize where their went as Jacks engaged on a familiar dirt road to the actress. The latter immediately turned to the singer in disapproval. '' What are we doing here ? ''

''Relax. I will not force you to look at another of my ride. '' Assured Jacks managing the first real smile since they were go before giving a brief sideways glance at Camille as she maneuvered to park. '' We will just walk around, I guess. ''

I finally turn the engine down to look at the back of my Jeep for a jacket since it seemed to have a slight cool breeze around us. Camille was soon joined me, shaking her arms around her chest to keep warm and I raised my eyes to heaven before handing her one of my gray hoodie before donning a leather jacket.

'' You were always so many clothes in the back of your car? '' Questioned brunette through the garment over her head.

I shrugged my shoulders and closed the door before flashing a slight smile on Camille. '' I guess I'm used after long surf beach days. We always finish by making a buff on the beach and nights are sometimes cool enough in Australia. ''

'' You rarely talk about your time there. '' Noticed brunette, fitting me like I was not the head of the march aimlessly. Camille gave me a sidelong glance in curiosity. '' Do you miss it ? ''

''Sometimes.''

A new silence fell over us as I tried to find a starting point to explain the situation to Camille. I honestly do not have a clue. The actress had always been the one to initiate the boys conversations and I did not really know how to explain the fact that I thought I had new feelings for my best friend. Frankly, I don't think there was a way to advertise this kind of thing. And I suspected that Camille would in any case surprise anyway.

Finally, I took a long deep breath before risking an uncertain look on the actress. '' What would you say if I told you ... if I may again feelings for Kendall? ''

'' You what? '' Exclaimed the brunette suddenly grabbed my arm to make me come to a halt. She now had an expression on her face shocked literally making me wince again.

I passed my hand on my forehead in my slight confusion before turning my attention to Camille.''I .. yes. I thought I did not feel anything, but there was that kiss, and then, all the time. We were … ''

'' Whoa! Whoa! Kiss ? What kiss? '' Me abruptly interrupted the actress in turmoil. '' When ? Or ? How? Wait, is that Jo knows? ''

''I don't know. Maybe a month or more. '' I replied, shaking my head in a disoriented state before proceeding with a hesitant expression. '' We got into a fight. We shouted at each other and I don't know how but the next second we were on top of each other. And I don't think she knows. ''

'' You fought and eventually you kiss ? '' Camille repeated in disbelief before widening her eyes, swallowing. '' This is bad, Jacks. Very bad.''

I let a frustrated breath through my hands in my hair before resuming my walk to try to entertain me with my emotions. '' You think I don't know? ''

'' Wait, you talked about all the time. What happened ? '' If the brunette hastened to ask with even eyes wide in shock as she caught me on the run.

I winced at the memory before giving a nervous look on the actress. '' I might finish astride him. ''

''YOU WHAT ?''

I raised my hands in defense immediately sign and hastened to explain the situation. '' It was just a tickle fight, okay! I had not realized I was ... well, riding him until I found myself engulfed my nose in his neck. ''

Camille froze my explanation in shock before literally hit her forehead with her palm frantically shaking her head.

'' So let me summarize if I understand. You. And Kendall. You've kissed. Then, you had a not later melee moment that just now. '' Camille summed up by making quotation mark with fingers making me shake my head in apprehension before literally startled to explode. '' HEY, YOU DON'T HAVE THOUGHT OF ME SAYING ALL THIS BEFORE? ''

'' I WAS panic, OK? '' I would lash my turn before doing a double-take in achieving. I immediately frowned my eyebrows on the actress. '' Wait, you're angry against me because I told you anything before ? ''

'' Hey, this is serious! I'm your best friend, I'll call you. '' Replied Camille furiously pointing at me making me just watch her in disbelief.

I shrugged a gaping eyebrow before raising my arms in outrage. '' No, Camille! That's not the problem! You're supposed to tell me how I'm horrible. I kissed Kendall, who is in a relationship with your friend Jo. ''

Camille watched Jacks silently as she could see how much she seemed to take a toll on brunette before realizing that was all about. She had picked her because she thought she would take the part of Jo. Jacks was just amazing. Even after all that, she still fought her feelings. '' If you were hoping that I tell you all this and then you are mistaken you for someone. '' Camille replied, crossing her arms over her chest with a sharp glance at her friend. '' I would not say what you want to hear. ''

Jacks gave a look shared between disbelief and frustration on Camille before turning on her heel, releasing an exasperated groan. The actress remained unperturbed her as Jacks finally stopped a run sitting on the ground hardens before bringing her knees against her chest. Camille softened her gaze on brunette before quickly making her way to her side. She would sit in turn on the floor before gently bumping her shoulder with that of Jacks to make the look with troubled eyes.

'' You love him, is not it? '' Asked Camille already knowing the answer. She just wanted to get a real answer to the brunette.

Camille knew that things would probably be much more complicated from the moment Jacks confess her true content of her feelings but she could not help take her side. While Jo was a great friend for her, Jacks and she had lived many things together. She was her first real friend since she had arrived at the Palm Woods and the actress had to admit she had made things much easier for her.
Making real friends in the world of celebrity was not as easy as we thought. And the fact that Jacks was probably the most simple and honest girl Camille was given to meet the certainly made things simpler for her.

She could see the Jacks watch a moment in pure silently biting hard on her lower lip before nodding her head slowly swallowing. '' I think so. I ... I just can't deny how I feel. While I realize it as ... ''

Camille could see the look of Jacks become distant at the mere thought of how Kendall made her feel and she could not help but let a smile on her own lips knowingly. Logan had the gift of felt different too. As a kind of parallel world.

However, the dreamy look of Jacks was soon to fall into a deep sense of sadness sparking a confused eyebrow conscious of Camille. '' Jacks ... ''

'' But he is in love with Jo. '' Said Brunette interrupting Camille before turning towards the latter with a heart-breaking look. '' How am I to fall in love again with him? ''

'' Perhaps you have always been, Jacks. '' Tried Camille with a knowing look collecting a deep look of Jacks as she turned her attention away. Camille watched the brunette of the corner of her eye before pinching her lips in uncertainty. '' Are you sure he really likes Jo ? ''

Jacks furrowed her eyebrows to immediately thought before shaking her head. '' That's obvious. They have been together for a long time now. And we agreed that kiss was a mistake. ''

''A mistake ?''

Camille could not help but reject her head back in indignation this time. Seriously, it was their take how long before they finally realized that they were made for each other. Although if she took the example of her relationship with Logan that was not particularly glorious. Logan was so indecisive and she could see that this seemed to be a trait he shared with Jacks. She had always known that he and she had always been close in a different sense of her relationship with Kendall. Logan and Jacks complemented simply. They had this understanding about the stupidity of their friends and generally worked together to solve problems that the boys were talking.

Camille had also learned that Jacks confided great confidence in Logan. The fact that he was the only one with whom she had really kept in touch and explaining the real reason for her departure was the proof.

''Well yes ! A mistake. '' Backed Jacks herself up strongly before sweeping the dirt from her jeans with a determined look. '' As my feelings. It was all a mistake. Back here, the kiss, my feelings. Everything is just not right direction. ''

'' Wait, wait! How can you say that ! '' Exclaimed Camille, rising in turn shared between the urge to knock some sense into the minds of her friend and just slap her. '' Jacks, I've never seen as honest about something. You can't continue to ignore all seem as good to you. ''

'' And why not! '' Replied the brunette with a haunted look in her eyes prompting the actress to lift her arms up in disbelief.

'' So tell me, what are you gonna do ? Ignore him again? Stay away ? Leave in Australia while you're there! '' Barked suddenly Camille looking more angry than ever.

I had never seen her like this. Except for rehearsals of her roles. Only this time, she was sincere and she made me a little scared.

But even more, I could not help thinking how she had managed to pierce through my mind. How she knew it was what I wanted to do first. The fact that she knew me both scared me. I did not like me reveal much.

'' Well, what do you suggest then? '' I retorted, clearly overwhelmed by it all. '' Because to tell him how I feel is definitely not an option. And look again changing its perfect couple does not interest me either. ''

'' Well, why not, right? '' Barked Camille in turn making me take a step back in perplexity. '' Why would he say that bad ? ''

I wide my eyes to her proposal in disbelief and mild panic at the mere simple thought before categorically shake my head. '' Are you lost your mind ? He has a girlfriend and he is my best friend. ''

'' How long are you going to give you that apology ? '' Snapped curtly Camille as she tried to catch me since I was already making my way to the Jeep. '' Jacks! Jacks, listen to me! ''

I felt her firm grip on my forearm forcing me to turn around just to meet her eyes smoldering. '' You're in love with Kendall and no matter how you want to deny it, it does not go like that. You have to give you a reason. ''

'' So what? '' I asked with a sarcastic laugh. '' Either I act on my feelings or so, I look the perfect couple from a distance ? Yeah, thank you but I think I'll pass. ''

I filled the rest gap between us and the car shortly before opening the door in anger. I climbed quickly in the driver's seat in anger before savagely hit my steering wheel in frustration. I was so absorbed in my state of rage and anger that I had not even realized that tears now streaming down my cheeks or as Camille was now at my side watching me intently with a pained look.

I could feel my fists and my palms become red and painful of my shots as my jerky breaths and I finally let them slide along the wheel as I put my forehead against the steering wheel center in a sob. I felt so confused and annoyed me with myself right now. Not only I had just cracked but I also wept before Camille. I allowed the actress to see a new feature of my personality which I was not particularly proud. I hated crying but I hated even more to crack people.

In that moment, I felt weak more than ever before and I hated it. I was not an easy person to cry. I remembered that when we announced our parents James and me they were divorced, I remained completely stoic. Shocked, lost and sad of course but I remained unmoved. I did not cry once. Even when I had learned that I had this damn disease or my parents almost had lied to me my whole life on it. I just stayed stoic and cashed that came along the way.

Only, it seems that my situation with Kendall was enough to break my wall and all my barriers. He always had his own way to weave a way through my walls but I never thought it would happen at this point. Suddenly I felt a hand along my back before suddenly pull in Camille's arms. The actress tightened her grip on me as if I were broken at any time and I soon to let me go without any conditions.

We remained like that for a long time before I decided I'd rather cry. Without noticing, I tore myself away from the embrace of Camille before settling back behind the wheel. I instantly lit the engine leaving Camille watching me carefully under those long black eyelashes before I commit myself to the dirt road. None of us did not say anything on the way back. I assumed that we had had enough excitement for the day. I did not know really what to think of it. I wanted to talk to Camille because I thought she would tell me how much it was bad but it turned out she did the opposite and now I was just more lost than before.

Finally, after forty minutes silent and tense, we entered again into the familiar and luxurious environment of Los Angeles. I released a deep sigh, stopping at a red light before hitting my elbow on the windowsill as I ran my fingers over the side of my hair in fatigue.

'' What you going to do ? '' The timid voice and calm of Camille slightly surprised me and I turned my head towards her to look into uncertainty.

I bit the inside of my cheek eyeing a moment the fire go from red to green before I commit myself again on the road. '' Kendall think I have no feelings for him. I want it to stay that way. ''

'' Then you'll again ignore things! '' Concludes hard Camille making me give her a passing glance in sadness. '' Jacks, it will hurt you. ''

'' It's better than losing him completely. '' I reminded a tone low and defeated. '' I can't lose him again, Camille. ''

Camille sighed slightly pulling her hair in frustration before giving me a look in defeat. '' I don't like it. But ... if you need to talk about how you feel then I'll be there. ''

I nodded my head leaving a smile on my lips in force before the recognition postpone my eyes on the big hotel before us. I pledged myself reluctantly in the parking lot of the Palm Woods before finally stop the engine with a sigh.

I gave an uncertain glance at Camille before finally down along the brunette.

We walked into the lobby without a word before the brunette gave me a curious look telling me that things would return to normal between us. '' What do you think are the others ? ''

''I don't know. Lets go see.''