So, I haven't stopped writing this story. As you can probably tell. I just had a break from it. I had some stuff I needed to work out before I could start typing again. I'm so sorry for this and I hope you understand that I really need this. But I'm back! We have to write a story for my English class and it inspired me to pick this back up again so after a couple of really bad blank minded days. I have finished the chapter. But thank you guys for the support and the reviews on my authors note because it helped a lot. I send my gratitude to you all. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this chapter! Make sure to follow, favorite and review! Please! :) haha
Warning: A word in this chapter may be offensive to some people. It's early on in the chapter by the way.
"You know you're practically going into war." Alec stumbles over the bed and takes Magnus down with him. Magnus lies on top of Alec and they both start laughing and blushing. Izzy huffs a sigh and rips Magnus from on top of Alec.
"Keep the PDA to a minimal please! We're going to go against Hodge here and you are going to have sex!" Izzy screams. At the mention of Hodge I freeze in place. The gears in my head turn until I realize who Magnus is sided with. I'm completely still, waiting to hear Magnus walk past me. I hear his light footsteps and clutch the sword that Valentine gave me. I'm glad we got it back. I slide the sword into its sheath. Thank god for Jace and his huge supply of weapons and accessories. I pull the dagger from it being strapped to my leg and with quick and swift movement. I pin Magnus to the wall, pressing the clean blade up to his unscarred neck. One wrong word or movement and his untouched neck will be spilling with dark red blood.
"What the hell Clary?!" Everyone in the room yells at the same time because of my random move.
"You can never trust anyone." I hiss at Magnus and he flinches back.
"Clary what are you doing?!" Alec yells as he grabs at my arm to pull the dagger away from Magnus. But I don't let him win. I keep my eyes on Magnus who is staring right at me. "Clary!" He yells again.
"Don't you start!" I scream at Alec, grabbing the front of his jumper and slamming him against the wall next to Magnus. I unsheathe the second of many daggers from my thigh and press it to Alec's neck. "I had no problem with you Alec!" Magnus eyes dart to Alecs then back to me. "Don't even think about it Magnus or I swear I'll slit your throat." I'm surprised that Jace, Izzy and Simon are being quite about all this. They would usually be screaming at me to stop.
"Let us go Clary! This is crazy!" Alec yells, sinking back into the wall to get the dagger away from his throat.
"You know what's crazy?! That we didn't think twice about Magnus here! He is with Hodge and Jocelyn! He could tell them and sabotage the whole thing."
"You don't know him!"
"Neither do you really! You may be together but there is two sides to someone! To you Alec, he is the bubbly love of your life. To Hodge, Magnus is the weapon against us!" Then I start to shake. Like I just got cold quickly and harshly. My chest tightens like a big hand has clamped down. I can't breathe. I gasp for air and my legs go weak and numb. I collapse onto the floor crying. I don't know if I cut Magnus or Alec on my way down but I don't think about that. All I think about is how I'm going to die from whatever this is. It's like I'm having a heart attack. I feel hands keep me up from falling and lying on the ground. With grunts and unclear words, the hands lift me up onto a chair nearby.
"Put your head between your knees Clary. It will help you breathe." I do as instructed and put my head in between my knees and I can breathe slightly better. Pairs of hands rubs my shoulders to relax me as another rubs my back. Someone leans in front of me and they speak.
"It's okay Clary. I promise. You need to calm down." It's Jace. His voice is till recognizable over my heavy breathing.
"No shit!" I say between every heaving breath. Jace keeps talking and I keep talking too. The arms rubbing my shoulders and back help as about 10 minutes I'm doing better. I'm still shaking and my chest is tight but that's about it. I raise my head and look behind me to see that Magnus and Alec are behind me. I had daggers to their throats but yet they are here, keeping me calm. This is such a mess. I can't find Izzy and Simon anywhere though.
"Where is Izzy and Simon?" I say to Jace, run my hands down my face in hoping that they will stop shaking so much. Jace grabs my hands and hold them in his.
"They went to talk to Hodge and Jocelyn to convince them that we are all for it and what we will be planning to do. We can't exactly talk about our plans in front of them can we?" He smiles slightly to see if it's appropriate and I smile back, telling him that it's okay. I look at his eyes that have always been imprinted in my mind and sigh.
"I'm so sorry Jace." I say leaning my head against his chest.
"Don't apologize. We understand how stressful it is." He replies back, resting his head on top of mine.
"Clary. Do you usually have panic attacks?" Magnus asks coming around to stand next to Jace.
"Panic attacks? I don't have panic attacks." I say standing up and bring Jace with me.
"Then what was that?" Alec says coming around to stand next to his boyfriend.
"I don't know. But I don't have panic attacks." I say shaking my head. I bend down to retrieve my two daggers and strap them to my leg again. My hands are still shaking a bit but overall I'm okay. I still feel shaken up but I can live with it.
"You just had a panic attack." Jace confirms Alec and Magnus's theory. I sigh again and collapse back into the chair. Magnus drops to his knees in front of me with a look of curiosity. I frown at him and he rolls his eyes.
"A good friend of mine had panic attacks. I would always see her have them but she never spoke about them."
"That's because it doesn't matter. This will be the last one I ever have. I'm not made to kill but that's what is in store and I will not back away because some stupid panic attack." Magnus nods in understanding.
"I'll ask her for some tablets that she takes to calm her down." He says patting me on the knee.
"I'm not going to tell you about it Magnus, if that's what you want." I get up again quickly, nearly knocking Magnus over. He shakes his head and swifts raises to his full size again. He towers over me as usual that makes me curse for being so short. I turn to Alec and walk over to him. I take him in for an embrace. I reach out my arm to welcome Magnus in. Alec and Magnus both wrap their arms around me as I let regret flood me.
"I'm sorry guys. I didn't want to hurt you."
"I know." Alec mutters and tightens his grip around me. I look at Magnus to see if I'm forgiven.
"It's okay. You were just trying to protect yourself. That's what we assassins do. But now we have to protect you. But that doesn't mean you can do that again." He chuckles slightly from his last words and I look at Alec in confusion. He might understand his crazy boyfriend's words. But Alec just looks at me and I know that Magnus was saying that for real.
"What do you mean protect me?" I look at Magnus as he calm down from his little chuckle.
"As assassins, we mainly work alone but then you came along. Clary, you are the revolution of our corrupted group. Without you here, nothing would change." He shrugs and we break away from our hug. I look from Alec to Magnus then to Jace.
"What are you trying to change?" I say to them with slight confusion. I know they want everyone out of the group but them but surely they wanted to keep one adult figure to guide them. I thought maybe my mum. That should have a change of heart and she would guide us properly but it seems like they have different plans.
"You're planning to kill my mum aren't you?" I say in slight disbelief that they have come up with this agreement without telling me. I made up this plan!
"Oh yeah. Welcome to the revolution Clary."
Sorry for the mistakes. I didn't have much time to edit it at all! I hope you enjoyed the chapter!