AN: Right... Well i know it took longer than expected, but i think it was worth it... you can really see a change in the writing i thin from the begining of this chap to the end. Cuz i had Writers Block in the first few pages... and then i didn't come the second half :) well it was about 7/8 pages on my word, soi its much longer than the last - like i promised. :D yayness okay i wont keep you anymore, go read it : )

Have fun ;)

Chapter 35:

Broken

The sun was beating down and most students where outside soaking up the warm sunlight while they had the chance… That is to say most, for Liz, Jason, Nicole and Draco where inside studying for their exams, in the Library, which would take place next week. "God damn it… you know what I don't care anymore!" Nicole exclaimed, slamming her book shut and stuffing them into her bag. The other three students looked at her. "What?! Why are we even inside! It's waaarm and I want to take advantage of that", she said as she slung her bag onto her shoulder, looking expectantly at Draco.

He shrugged and stood up, packing away his own books. "Yeah, she's right… Anyways, when was the last time I actually studied?" With that the two turned and walked out side by side.

Jason looked over to Liz, who had already gone back to her book. "You know… I think they're right, maybe we could go out for just a little while…?" He asked, giving her an innocent smile.

Liz shook her head, looking up at him. "Nope. Can't do it, need study… must.not.fail." She muttered, grasping her book.

He smiled at her… "You know… there's been something on my mind lately-"But he was cut off as she slammed her book shut yelling 'SHIT'. "What?" He suddenly asked, staring at her in shock. The librarian shot them an evil glare, and then went back to sorting books.

Liz looked up at him apologetically as she stuffed her books away. "I'm sorry but I'm gunna have to go, I promised Neville I'd help him with potions… sorry!" Then she made a run for it before he was able to stop her.

When she made it up to the Common room she saw Neville walking out. He looked up at her and quickened his pace. "Oh wait Nev! I'm sorry, I completely forgot!" Liz insisted, mentally kicking herself.

"Can't talk… sorry Lizi!" He said as he tried to get past her, but she caught his shoulder, holding him tightly. He looked frightened. Why would he be afraid?, she thought.

She shook him lightly. "Wait Neville, what's wrong… it's not just me forgetting about our study meet is it? There's something more…" She said earnestly.

His eyes widened and he shook his head frantically. "I can't tell you… they made me unable to! Oh I wish I could! It's so very bad Liz!" He said it so fast she made him repeat it two more times to understand what he said while he was glancing nervously around.

"Who?!" She gasped. "Who told you not to tell!?" God damn it! Why was he always the one to find things out, he always was too chicken to tell her what had happened. A few students passed and they both went quiet, the only sound was of the moving stair cases.

He shook his head back and forth. "NO! LIZ I CAN'T SAY!" He screamed… or was that a screech? Well either way it was loud and he managed to break free of her grasp, running down the steps to the ground floor.

"FUCK!" Liz yelled.

Meanwhile, as Jason was climbing the stairs in the Slytherin Common room to his dorm, he heard the door he'd just passed open and then: "Well, well, well, look who's back from the library, boys!"

Jason turned sharply to see Blaize, Crabbe and Goyle standing on the landing just below him. He reached into his robes and snatched up his wand. "What do you want?!" He demanded, wand pointing at Blaize.

"Oh! Snappy today are we?" Blaize mocked. "Well we just wanted to have a little chat, see?" He motioned his brutes forward; they grabbed each of Jason's shoulders.

Jason tried to shake them off, but their grip only tightened more. So he instead clung to his wand, ready for an attack. "Fine… Let's talk." He stated solemnly.

Blaize grinned and turned into his dorm, followed by Jason – who was being lead, or dragged rather, by Crabbe and Goyle. The room was like all Slytherin dorms… dimly lit, with three curtained beds on one wall, and a desk with two chairs on the other… rather dull really, no windows, only the one door. They began steered him toward one of the chairs, and then he was shoved into it. Blaize sat in the one across from him.

Jason felt the hands of Crabbe and Goyle release his shoulders as they went to stand stupidly behind Blaize; who was smirking… this smirk was oddly triumphant, as if he'd finally found what he was looking for, the one thing to hurt Jason the most… He didn't like it. His instincts told him to attack the smug Slytherin across the table, but he knew better… he'd wait till they took the first 'swing' before he took any chances. "Well Frost, I see you're getting better at sticking up for yourself around us… last time we all had a chat like this I seem to remember you being quite hurt. I hope you recovered well…?" Zabini shot him a wicked smile as he played with the cuff of his sleeve.

Jason glared at the other boy, wanting nothing more than to curse him and be done with it. "As much as I love sitting and chatting with you, I have something of importance to take care of … so if you have a main reason for this get together, well I suggest you get to it." He wasn't about to be mocked for this whole conversation, he actually wanted to know what Blaize was so pleased about.

Blaize's smirk only widened and he leaned back in his chair. "I'm ready to strike a deal with you… and you will agree!" He said simply, his gaze moving to Jason's face.

Jason's eyes showed confusion and caution as he stared back at his house mate. "What makes you so sure I'll agree…. And what am I agreeing to…?" He asked slowly, never letting his eyes leave Blaize… he didn't trust him at all.

Blaize grinned, a rather smug grin, but still a grin. "Well, that's what I've finally figured out! You see, your agreement is that you will break everything off with that Martin girl that you have…" He paused and looked into Jason's eyes, as his grin widened. "And you will join us… you will become one of the 'wanna be death eaters' or so your little pet calls us." His grin then turned into an evil looking smirk as he sat up triumphantly in his seat.

Jason stood, slowly at first, and then nearly charged at the boy in front of him. "Don't call her that!" He whispered fiercely into Zabini's face, digging his wand into his throat. "I will never agree to this sick joke!" He nearly yelled. That's when two large hands grabbed him, pulling him back into his seat, and held him there as he struggled to attack Blaize.

But Blaize did not seem deterred by this at all; in fact he seemed perfectly at ease as he let out a little chuckle. "That's the catch my friend, see, if you want to keep her safe you'll just have to leave her." He watched as Jason stopped struggling to listen to him, and then continued. "You see, if you don't leave her… well, summer's coming soon… and we know a few EX death eaters just waiting to get their hands on a little blood traitor like her… so if you don't agree you'll know for the rest of your life that you were the cause of her misery." He clasped his hands together. "What say you?"

Jason felt as if his world had fallen down around him, he felt numb… Did he just threaten what I think he threatened?, he asked himself… he opened his mouth, then closed it… then came to a decision. "You'd all be put away; you'd all be throwing your own lives away! I don't believe you'd do it." He said bluntly, numbly…

Blaize glared at him, how could he actually think that? How could he be so naive? "Well, you will be the one living with the knowledge that you could have stopped this … And, on another note, do you really think we're so innocent? We aren't like you Frost, we're true Slytherins… we do anything to get our way, don't you remember?" He asked as he stood up, towering over Jason. "You will help us all get back the death eaters, and you WILL leave her… or she will pay for your idiocy, and remember… it may not just be her life that's in danger, all those that she loves too… you can save her from this pain, Frost… all you need to do is bind yourself to this agreement. Or are you too selfish to save her?" Blaize berated him, as the words fell out of his mouth… each one coated in hatred.

Jason saw that Blaize meant what he said… Jason could see it in his eyes… But how could he do this to her? He'd already done it once… and he knew she'd hate him for ever if he did so again. Although… maybe she IS better off without me… maybe she'll be safer, she'd move on… wouldn't she? "Alright… I agree." He whispered, feeling himself breaking in two as he said it.

Blaize smiled. "Good… now if you'd be… so kind, please say it out loud, state what you've agreed to… and say your full name, it will bind you to it… Magic is useful like that." He leaned against the desk, looking expectantly at Jason.

Nodding numbly Jason said; "I, Jason Alexzander Frost, have committed to an agreement that states I will become a follower, and leave behind the life I know now… to show that I am devoted to the Dark Lord." He felt the magic in him bind to the agreement… maybe this is like what all the Death Eaters had to do…? He wondered… and he knew now that it was for the best anyway, he'd be protecting Liz… and he'd sworn to himself never to let her get hurt, even if it coasted him his own freedom…

Blaize smiled. "Well then, go and finish what you've started, my little friend." With that said, Jason nodded and stood. Apparently the two 'brutes' had let him go, for their hands were no longer clamped on his shoulders.

Jason walked slowly to the door, and down the steps. He didn't really know what to think, should he be happy that he's saved her? Angered that he threw everything they had away, his life, her life… no, not her life, he'd given Liz her life by ending their friendship and relationship… but then why did this hurt so much? "Jason… you look like you're about to cry, what's wrong?" He looked up to see Liz coming down the stairs towards him, he hadn't even noticed he'd left his common room – let alone made it to the main hall.

Jason looked up into her worried face, worry for him… he couldn't bear it much longer, one way or another he'd killed someone… he'd killed himself, or the real him, for her… to save her he gave up his own beliefs and … his own rights… was there a point in living?

"Jay, what's wrong?… you haven't said anything… I'm getting scared." He felt her small arms wrap around him, and knew this would be the last embrace they shared.

Jason lifted up her face from his chest and kissed her, softly, yet passionately… even with a hint of desperation. She could detect something was wrong… he'd never kissed her like this, he'd never really kissed her much… they always hugged… but they'd only shared one other kiss before this one.

Jason pulled back after a few moments, and saw her eyes open… a certain wonder, and a fear was held in them. Jason bit back his tears as he thought of it… they'd only ever had the two kisses… the first kiss… when they got together… and the last kiss when he was going to crush her… he knew it would shatter her already mended heart. He felt her hand brush his silver hair from his face, and caught it before she actually touched his face. "I have to do something." He choked out, as he pushed her away from himself… You're saving her, You're saving her! He reminded himself.

She looked worried. "What is it Jason?… you can tell me anything, remember?" Liz said desperately. He could hear the fear in her voice.

He looked away and then hiding his true feelings he thought of how he wished he could kill Blaize, so when he turned back to face her she saw a burning hate in his eyes. "Do you really think I can tell you anything?!" He yelled, causing some other students around to scatter… She nodded numbly. "Well then, here it is! You asked for it Martin! I've just been playing with your mind this whole time, I actually hate you! I've never 'loved' you, it was always a game between me and my house mates you see? We had this bet going on how long I could keep a Gryffindor as my little pet, but you bore me… even that kiss bored me, you disgust me and I've come here to put an end to all this… once and for all!" He said every word with as much hate as he could muster, and looked her square in the face as he said it. Jason could see her heart break as he said it… all he wanted to do was hold her, and tell her it'd be okay… but not now, not ever again…

Tears leaked out of her eyes as she stared up into the face of the boy she loved… she couldn't believe it! All this time… he'd hated her? How could he do that to her… had he really wanted to hurt her the other day, like Neville thought? And was that attack on her planned by him?! She couldn't bare the thoughts and she felt herself shatter, felt herself falling into a world of utter darkness. And she was drowning in her tears, and he was just standing there… "Jason… I loved you…" she whispered to him, as the tears fell into her hands.

Jason felt his eyes grow wet, and felt his heart splitting… How was this a good idea?! "Well that's funny… 'cause… Liz…" He looked up at her as he lost control and some tears spilled out of his eyes. "I hate YOU!" He whispered back, then smirked and turned away… he couldn't bare to look at her like that… he had to run…

She watched as her best friend… and her love… turned his back and walked away. She heard some people call her name from a distance… but she couldn't see right, with the tears spilling down her face… She felt two pairs of arms wrap around her and felt someone wipe away her tears… "Fred…" She mumbled as he hugged her tightly to him. "It was all a lie… a sick game… he's broken me for good now Fred… there's so much pain!" she choked out.

"I'm going to kill him", both twins said together.

AN: So what did ya think? I'm finally getting the third year finished up... and i think two more chaps and its done... i know this chap may not have been expected, but hey! it was part of my plot so i can't go back on that... I hate myself for it though... but w/e it makes things more intresting now, yayness? or nayness?