Chapter 34: Last Words
ben...
days...weeks...months...maybe a year has gone by now...is this a reason?...am I really a whore?...I don't know...everything is fucking with my head now...oh god it hurts...well...all of my meds are gone...there's no more sanity for me...now...I live my final hours...today at least...I won't live for long soon...I don't care if I die...no one will miss me..."sigh" I can't live on like this...I just can't...all of my friends are just bugs to me...what am I?...why am I here?...is there a reason for me to live?...I can't feel me body anymore...even when I hurt myself I don't feel pain...but my heart still beats...and now...the end is near...for I was born for dying...
Back to the present...I am here now with heroinebrine...
Ben: ...
Carrie: come on...we have to go now...it all doesn't matter now. you have to go home.
...
Ben: home?
I said in disgust...for I have no home...
Ben: there is no home for me...not anymore...
Carrie: ?
Ben: I know...because I had no home to live in...all of my family is gone...and the ones who took care of me aren't even my real parents...all they care is money...they don't care if i'm there son...they don't even know my real name for god sake...
Carrie: Real name?
Ben: "sigh"...My name isn't Ben Creed...my real name is Owanka kte...Meaning Black Coal...my real family are Native Americans...I may look white to you but I was born that way...my family was killed off...massacred...yes...even in the 21st century white people still kill for the fun...there's a lot of secrets you don't know...and the sex part...
Carrie: ...
Ben: I know your lying...
she shrugged...
Ben: if I did had sex with all the girls then that would mean that I would be erased from my existence...but i'm still here...
Carrie: ...
Ben: it's all a lie...lies...
Carrie: "sigh"...yes...I did lie...because I wanted you safe...
Ben: ?
Carrie: if they find out your a virgin then it would mean that humans would be born from the mobs itself...in the future if this happened...we would be evil itself...wars will lead to death...rebellions rise up...you see...if we all fight each other all this...would be nothing but exalted remains...burned in ashes...
Ben: but...what about...
Carrie: sindy...no...all she would want from you is love...she's been lonely a lot...she has no one but her own sister...
Ben: I didn't mean her...I mean Ella...
Carrie: oh that?...i'm very sorry to do that...
then Ella came out
Ella: what's going on?
Ben: ?
Carrie: I did an illusion just to make you believe that living here isn't good...seemed that out figured it out by now...
Ella: Illusion? what Illusion?
Ben: uhh...nevermind...
I shrugged myself...Heroinebrine may be evil and creepy...but she is a nice person...I understand why she is protecting me...
Ben: I understand...
Carrie: ...
Ella: hmm? understand what?...
Ben: that i'm still a virgin...
Ella: what?...
Carrie: uh...Ben?...
Ella: what do you mean virgin?...
Ben: ...
I then figured it out...I remember that night...
Ben: oh no...don't tell me...
Ella: ?
Ben: did I sleep with you Ella?
Ella: WHAT!? NO! oh god no...I just got curious that a cute hot boy like you is still a virgin!
Ben: oh...my apologies.
Carrie: hehe...
she smirked a little...
Ben: shut up...
Ella: where is everyone?...
Carrie: about that...
Ben: ...
Ella: what happened?
Carrie: they did leave for odd reasons...but I don't know...
Ben: I...did have a vision tho...
Carrie: of what?
Ben: I see that archer is elsewhere with a...another girl...but...she was a bit unusual...
I didn't want to explain so...
Ben: i'll tell you later...for now...we do gotta leave...
Carrie: "sigh"...
Ben: what now?
Carrie: ...
then she shrugged...very nervously...
Carrie: I wanted you only...to go...out with me?...
Ben: o.o
Ella: ...
then ella just said
Ella: have fun...
then she went back into her room...
Carrie: ...
Ben: "sigh"
I sighed and told heroinebrine...
Ben: look...I need some space with women now...we can be friends tho...not into that kind of relationship...
Carrie: oh...i'm sorry...I know how you feel...
the she hugged me like a brother...not like a girlish way...
Ben: uh...Carrie?
Carrie: hmm?
Ben: can you tell me...why are you different from other women? you really act more...well...like a boy to be honest...
Carrie: oh...
then she stopped hugging me...then...
Carrie: well...I may act like a guy to you...but i'm bisexual...I like women, I like men...I really don't care...
Ben: oh...
Carrie: ...
Ben: so...you like me?
Carrie: I once did...but...I really don't like to talk about it...
Ben: you can tell me...after all...all of my secrets are known
...
Carrie: "sigh"
she pulled out a note from her pocket...she gave it to me...there was a heart on it...
Carrie: I wanted to give this to you while we were in the nether...but now it really doesn't matter...
Ben: ...
I opened the note...inside was two papers...I grabbed the one with the words...the note said:
Dear Ben...
I know you really don't know me...and I don't know you much...but I just wanted to say that ever since we met...I have this feeling that I haven't felt for a long time...but inside I feel like your the one...everyday...no...not as a lover or partner...but a hero...yes I love...and I mean it...I noticed that you didn't look at yourself a lot lately...so instead of using a mirror... I drew you...who you look like...I know it really doesn't do much but that is you...your age doesn't matter because you never age from that spell...yes...I made you like this...to reveal your true person...in the real world you look like a kid...but now...you are a true warrior...and no one will never doubt you...again...I love you...like a friend, like family, like lover...no matter what situation your in I will be there...
XOXO...
P.S.- I'm not the best of drawing people...but this is what it came as a result...
there was a kiss mark on the note...
I looked at the other paper...and I saw...me...I was...well...what looks like a tall young looking Warrior...with a sword...and my face and appearal...well...I really couldn't explain it...but it looks like something from an anime...
I look to say something...but...she was gone...and that was the last time I saw her...
Ella: uh...
I see that ella was looking at me...
Ella: are you alright?
Ben: yeah...just feel a bit funny that's all...
Ella: well if-
"CRASH"
something went booming through the door...I looked and see a big blade in front of my eyes...it was the Juggernaut that Yanna was talking about...I thought this was the last time I would live...but...I feel nothing but aggression...then...my eyes started to burn...and I grabbed the blade and pushed it through...
"BOOM"
it fell down...I looked at me hands...and they were bleeding but...the hands itself...glowed...then the scars are gone...
the thing got back up...trying to strike again...
Ella: BEN!
I looked at ella and she threw a diamond sword...I grabbed it...then...
well...The Battle Begins...
Authors note: well looks like an epic battle begins next chapter... O_O lol...the next chapter will be more than 5,000 words or so on...so it might take awhile for me to update...which might come to an end...no worries...this is just the beginning :) like and favorite for this final minecraft story I will ever make...keyword "might"...have fun :)