I own none of the twilight characters.
For this Outtake I am taking you back to Alice and Edwards first Christmas at the Cullen's.
They have been with them a little under 4 mnths and in that time Edward and Alice have turned 9.
THIS IS NOT PART OF THE STORY I JUST THOUGHT IT WOULD BE NICE TO HEAR FROM THEM AGAIN AS CHILDREN.
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APOV
Where's Bear?
I can see lots of children running to mommas.
I miss momma.
I miss Bear.
I have this funny thing in my tummy like when they took my Edward away.
Eddie smiles now.
Where's Bear?
Momma Esme tells me to sit still; I am jumping up and down in the big car.
She tells me but she smiles; I like Momma Esme.
I miss my momma. I don't know where she went.
Ooh look! A dog with a coat on!
Momma Esme said Bear will be out next; she said after Christmas Eddie is going to go here. I will have that thing in my tummy again.
I bring my hand to my mouth.
Eddie sees and tells me no!
My eyes look out the door; too many people - I can't see Bear, he will get lost.
I got lost going to the yard at that house; I screamed but no one helped me, no one but Eddie.
I love my Eddie.
I miss momma.
Pappa Carlie cries when he talks about momma. I think he knew her.
Momma Esme points to a lot of children and says Bear is coming.
I see him he is smiling. I like Bear's smile.
He is walking with a boy who is smaller than him. The boy he hit is behind him. He looks cross.
Bear sees me and smiles; he waves.
Something in the car is stopping me from getting out. I want to go to Bear.
Momma says he is coming, to stay still.
Bear opens the door and I scream, hands flapping as he smiles and says hi.
He gets in the big car and smiles at Eddie. He smiles back.
I love Eddie.
I miss Momma.
Momma is talking to Bear. He said he played football and that he can be on the team.
Momma Esme smiles.
I miss momma.
Momma Esme says we have a tree at home.
We have trees in the garden. I know we have trees at home.
I watch the trees as Momma Esme drives the big car home.
I like this home, I feel good here.
Eddie said I feel safe. I don't know what that means but I like it.
Momma Esme stops the car and Bear and Eddie get out.
Something is stopping me and I screech.
Bear smiles and presses a button on my seat. I jump into his arms and he laughs.
Bear is strong.
Pappa was strong, I didn't like Pappa but I don't know why?
I run to the house; I run in the door and there is a tree.
I stop; a big tree, not in the floor?
Bear walks past it.
Eddie stops. He puts his hand on my arm.
He says it is fine, he says it is a Christmas tree.
Christmas tree?
I have seen these trees in people's windows and in the shops.
I don't like shops, too many people.
Momma says when Poppa Carlie gets home we will dress it?
Why do you put clothes on a tree?
I turn to Momma Esme and ask.
She smiles. We don't put clothes on it, we put sparkly things on it, she smiles.
Balls, Bear says.
I run to the garden, pick up Bear's funny shape ball and take it back to Momma Esme. She laughs, this is not a ball for the tree, she smiles.
I like Momma Esme.
She is kind and holds Eddie when he cries at night. He wakes me up sounding like me; Poppa Carlie said it's a bad dream.
What's a dream?
Momma Esme said I can help her in the kitchen. Eddie helped Momma in the kitchen.
Where is momma?
Eddie told me we wouldn't see her again that made me...scream. I bit my hand and they put something on my arm and it hurt and I went to sleep.
Momma Esme says she has an apron for me it has pictures of cupcakes on it, but I don't want it on, I don't want it over my head.
She smiles at me, putting the apron on the table, it feels good in my tummy -maybe that is safe?
She puts a colouring book on the table and some pens. I have lots of toys. I want a dolly, a dancing dolly; I have seen dancers in pretty dresses like mine on the big television in the big room.
I have a feeling in my tummy and it's nice.
Momma Esme shouts Eddie and Em-met for a drink. I put my hands on my ears I don't like shouting.
Momma Esme looks sad, she says sorry.
Eddie takes my hands from my ears he says everything is okay, I am safe.
I nod.
I know Eddie will keep me...safe. He told Momma.
Poppa Carlie is here. I can hear his car, it sounds like thunder.
He smiles at Momma Esme and kisses her, he makes her laugh.
I like Poppa Carlie, he makes me laugh.
I don't think Eddie likes Poppa Carlie.
Poppa Carlie stands in front of me and smiles.
He puts his hand on mine, its...nice...safe?
I go to my room and Momma Esme tells me dinner will be soon.
I look through my big window, my head is better, I can think.
Momma Esme said to Poppa Carlie I am like this because I am going out, seeing new things. She said I would be able to go to a school; I have never been to a school. I hope I go to Bear's school - I can sit with Eddie and Bear in the school.
Momma said I have to learn numbers and letters first, I know a few; Eddie and Mrs Cope told me some.
Eddie tells me its dinner time, he holds out his hand and I take it, I think I know what safe is now I feel something in me when I am with Momma Esme and Poppa Carlie it's the same thing I feel when I am with Eddie.
Poppa Carlie took me to a nice lady she smiled and asked questions she didn't get cross when I screamed or when I bit my hand.
Eddie was sad I bit my hand.
Poppa Carlie said I was special, that I just needed help to know what 'feelings ' were I get confused I feel things in me and I don't know what they are and it scares me when they all come at once.
Momma Esme said I just need to be loved, Poppa Carlie shouted, that scared me I screamed and bit my hand, Eddie shouted and said bad words I ran and hid in a small room with fluffy towels.
Poppa Carlie found me he had red eyes like Eddie, he said he was sorry he shouted.
I had bad thoughts that night they made me wake up and cry are they bad dreams?
Momma Esme shows me a picture with numbers on it, she says I have been living in my house for four months and that soon it would be Christmas.
We eat dinner and its yummy I love chicken and mashed potatoes.
Poppa Carlie brings in a big box and puts it down on the floor, I can see sparkly things, pretty things but I don't touch.
Bear picks a sparkly long thing up and tries to put it on my head, I don't like it.
He smiles and puts it back in the box.
Momma Esme picks up a ball its red she tells me, she shows me closer and I can see me in it, I giggle pressing my finger on it it turns in her hand.
Momma Esme says its a bauble.
Bear and Eddie laugh and Poppa Carlie hits them on the head, he laughs.
The tree is big and I want to help put the babbles on the tree.
The tree feels sharp on my fingers I don't want to touch it so Momma Esme tells me to show her where I want to put the babbles.
When Poppa Carlie says its finished he presses a button, there are lots of lights on the tree they look like candles.
I blow but they don't go out, I blow again and Momma Esme tells me they are pretend candles.
I don't know what pretend is but they won't blow out.
Momma Esme tells me it is bed time, I go to bed and have nice thoughts of pretty shiny things and lights.
When I open my eyes it is all white outside, fluffy things are falling from the sky and I don't know what it is, Eddie says its snowing.
I sit on a chair near the window and watch the 'snow' fall past the window it looks pretty everything in the garden looks pretty.
Bear makes me jump he is shouting "Ho ho ho Merry Christmas" I put my hands on my ears Eddie laughs and shakes his head taking my hands and holding them down.
He says it is okay just Em-mett being Em-mett whatever that means?
Momma Esme looks nice she has a fluffy robe on its sparkly and white like outside.
Bear is standing in front of the tree I watch him then I see them, lots of boxes everywhere they are shiny and different colours big ones and small ones.
I get off the chair and sit in front of the tree looking at the boxes.
Bear says they are gifts?
Eddie sits down beside me and holds my hands he says they are Em-metts Christmas gifts.
Poppa Carlie says no they are all our gifts he says Santa brings all good boys and girls gifts...I will have to remember that!
Eddie looks sad he says he will have no gifts then because he is bad.
Poppa Carlie sits with us he says Eddie is a good boy for looking after me in that house and that he is a brave boy for living here.
Eddie smiles, Eddie hugs Poppa Carlie and their eyes are red.
Poppa Carlie gives Eddie one of the boxes its big and shiny.
Eddie pulls off the paper; A bicycle Eddie played on a bicycle at the house until a big boy took it off him, Eddie shouted and I cried.
Eddie hugs Poppa Carlie and Momma Esme.
Bear has a small box in his hand he gives it to Eddie.
Eddie smiles when he opens it; Poppa Carlie says its a catcher mitt I don't know what that is but Eddie smiles.
Momma Esme picks up a big box and puts it in front of me.
I look at Eddie he smiles so I pull off the shiny paper; I like shiny paper.
Inside the box is a doll she is in a dress and have shoes on with ribbons; she is a dancing doll...I have a dancing doll.
I bounce on my legs and give Poppa and Momma a hug.
"Thank you Momma, Thank you Poppa" I whisper...
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Ok slightly misty eyed I loved writing from Alices point of view, she see's things so simple and clear. I hope I did her justice.