Monday January 4, 2016

My alarm clock went off at 6:30 this morning. I groaned and didn't want to wake up, but I knew I had to because I start school today at Denver University. I set my clock an hour and a half before I had to leave so I can have enough time to get ready, get the baby ready, and eat. I laid in my bed thinking but I finally convinced myself to get up.

An hour later I was done getting ready. Brendan was still sleeping so I didn't bother waking him up and have him be cranky all day. Instead I made sure to put everything he would need in my diaper bag since he'll be with the Walsh's all day. I put two bottles of my breast milk in there, some baby food, diapers, wipes, extra clothing, and a few other things in it. It was time to go if I want to make it to my class on time, so I gently placed the sleeping child in his car seat with a blanket on top of him and headed out. I did a quick baby hand off with him and Spencer's mother and headed straight to the college.

I had thirty minutes before my class starts so I decided to get something to eat since I didn't get a chance to at home. I bought a coffee and a scone and headed to the building where my first class is since it's on the other side of the campus. I was ten minutes early when I arrived, so I just sat and waited for it to begin. We were given cards telling us where we sat. A few minutes later, people started to come in slowly and someone sat down to the left of me.

"Hi." I heard a male voice say. "I'm Josh."

I glanced up off my phone and saw a light brown haired guy with dark brown eyes sitting next to me. I gave him a friendly smile. "Hi, I'm Teddy."

"So Teddy, are you new to Denver? I've never seen you around."

"I actually transferred so I could be closer to home."

"Oh, where did you transfer from?" He asked.

"You're going to think I'm crazy but from Yale."

He started to laugh. "You were at Yale and then wanted to come to Denver? That's crazy. Yale is the better school."

"It wasn't my plan. I wish I was at Yale right now. But you would understand why I switched if you knew why I did."

"Then what is your reason for switching?"

"I'm not going to tell some guy I met five minutes ago my life story."

"How is it your life story? All I want to know is why you switched."

"I'm still not going to tell some guy I just met why. You will judge me."

"No I won't. Why don't you tell me over lunch?" He suggested.

"Are you asking me out because I have a boyfriend?"

"No, just two friends having lunch together."

"Yeah but we're not friends."

"Let's change that over lunch."

"No thanks, I'm going to be with one of my friends."

"How did you already make a friend if this is your first day here?"

"All you need to know is my name, that's it." I saw out professor walk in. I put my phone on silent and turned on my laptop, ready to learn.

After the class was over, it was 11:00. My next class isn't until 12:30, so I have about an hour and a half to waste. I sent Skylar a text to see if we could meet up, but she sent me a text saying she's still in class and won't be out for another thirty minutes. I mainly hung out in the student store until she got out. In the mean time, I was texting Desiree, my old Yale roommate.

T: I miss Yale!

D: I miss you! Maybe you can come back next year.

T: I wish, but I can't.

I sighed and put my phone back in my bag, I hate Denver, I want to be at Yale, my dream school, not here. More importantly I want to be near Spencer.

A few hours later, I got out of my first class and it's time to pick up the baby from the Walsh's. I missed him like crazy and kept thinking of him in all my classes; I just don't know how I'll do this, go to school.

"Thanks for watching him for me." I said.

"Yeah, no problem, I love this little guy. There hasn't been a baby in the family Since Spencer. How was your first day back at school?"

"Hated it, absolutely hated it and I missed the baby so much."

"It'll get easier."

"More like harder." I murmured to myself. "I better go. Thanks for watching him again."

"You're welcome. Same time tomorrow?"

"Umm… probably."

When I got back home, I gave Brendan a bottle and laid him down in his crib so I could go do my homework. Spencer tried calling me while I was in the middle of working, but I ignored his call since I'm not even close of being done. I don't know what time I went to sleep that night, but I woke up and it was 9:30.

"Crap, I guess I'm not going to my first class today."

Saturday January 9, 2016

"Teddy, how was your first week back at school?" Dad asked when I entered the house.

I sighed and took my jacket off hanging it on the coat rack. "I don't think I can do this. I'm already sleep deprive, from caring for Brendan to studying my ass off. I stay up late each night doing my assignments and then have to wake up early. I'm lucky if I get to bed by one."

"Teddy, I know you can do this."

"How do you know?"

"Because you're a Duncan."

"That doesn't mean anything."

"Hey, I never thought I could fight cancer, never the less get cancer, but look at me. It's slowly shrinking."

"But that and this are totally different."

"Teddy, many young mothers go to college, work, plus care for a child all at the same time. I'm pretty sure if they can do that without help by family, then you can. You are very fortunate you don't have to work too."

I let out a breath. "I guess you're right..."

"Hey Teddy, look at that." Dad pointed out. "Brendan's crawling."

I quickly looked up and saw him crawling all across the room. "Aw, Yay Jelly Belly!" I said in an excited tone clapping. I walked over to him and picked him up. "You're such a big boy now, I'm so proud of you!" I gave him a kiss and placed him back on the floor. "You know since he was born premature, I would have thought he would be late with crawling, walking, talking, but he's pretty early."

"He is seven months now and babies can crawl between six and a year."

"Yeah but he should only be five months. That's why I thought he would be late with all his mile stones, but he's not."

"How big is he now?"

"He weighs about 14 pounds but like I said before, he is supposed to be five months not seven."

"That sounds right."

I saw mom walk in the room.

"Oh hi Sweetie, how are you?" She asked.

I shrugged. "Tired, really tired. I haven't been getting much sleep this week."

"That's understandable."

"Oh mom I was wondering. Since I have to have like eight hundred hours of intern/ volunteer credits for my major, could you see if I could maybe get an internship or something at the news studio during the summer?"

"I'll see what I can do."

"Thanks."

"Now I'm off to work. I'll be back later."