Yes I do know this is a short chapter,
but it leads into something good...such as something
that Jeff keeps from Kel and everything will explode!
Well I would like to think of it that way really.
Ok so THANK YOU TO ALL MY PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME!
I cannot express how much
I love you guys and how much
I just...there are no more words!
Much love and Peace!!
Hattress!
NO: I DO NOT OWN THE WRESTLERS
YES: I DO OWN KELLIE!
Waking up in Jeff's arms is still the greatest feeling ever; well besides waking up to fresh coffee, but this is still the best thing. I woke up before him, looking out into the night sky. The moon looked so perfect on him, it just fit him so well. Watching him in the light just made him seem more interesting, just made him seem so much more amazing then the way he was.
"Something, is on your mind..." he muttered through half closed eyes. It's now or never Kel, do it now or you will never tell him. Things like that kept running in my mind. I clicked my tongue ring.
"Who says something is on my mind loves?" I chuckled. Of coarse something was on my mind, was I going to leave or stay? His laughed rumbled in his chest when I couldn't stop staring at his semi-long red, and purple hair. My hand reached out pushing small curls behind his ear.
"Your face is doing that weird look again." he murmured, his large hand reaching to touch my cheek. His callous thumb rubbing over my face, up to my pierced lip. I bit the ring watching as he did the same.
"I can leave babe." I dropped the bomb, "Yesterday Vince told me I can stay till Wrestlemania or leave in two weeks."
His eyes shot open, I guess that got his attention. I knew that me leaving would mean something bad, and bad what not on his list when it involved me. His hands reached over to my face planting a kiss on my lips.
"You're going to stay?" he asked, his voice filled with this hope that I was going to break down in a heart beat. I bit my bottom lip sticking my ring between my teeth. What the hell was I going to do?
"Babe...Jeff...." I stammer, I don't know how the hell to say anything, "I don't know. I may stay until Wrestlemania." I let him know some of the truth. I mean I was thinking about it....REALLY thinking about it. Was it worth my time to be here? There was no reason for me to be here, I mean it's not like I made friends that will make me want to be here...well except for Jeff, Matt, and Maria...oh and John...and Mickie, and Hope and...ok I guess that I do have some people here, but what about my family back at home, the bar? For me, leaving would be the best choice, but I don't know at all yet what I want to do.
"But what about coming back? I mean you do like it here right? I bet he would let us be in a story line or something." his voice was filled with hope, and a hope that I might actually destroy.
"Jeff I'll see, you know me, this isn't my life." I held the puppy dog tone in my voice, making me even want to cry. Would he still want to be with me after all this time, and after all the things I've put him through? Truthfully this was not what I had in mind in telling him that I was leaving...not at all.
"What about us then?" he asked. The dreaded question...that damn question that I was trying to avoid just for now. My mouth opened, but nothing was coming out, but sounds and mumbled.
"I want us to be together...I mean it could go back to the way it was..you know me at home and you coming back to me?" I was half convincing myself that things could go back to normal.
"I guess we can...but would you think about staying?" he asked. Those lovely hands of his brushing up on my neck, sending chills all down my spine. God it was like being in some kind of heaven...just perfect, but how long will this heaven last?
"Thinking...I will do that, but I am not guaranteeing anything. Do you understand?" I felt my voice quiver with the lie that came out. Did he really thing that I would think about it? I made up my mind no matter what...I'm just praying that he will understand and things will get back to normal when I leave.
"You suck," he muttered as his lips lingered dangerously close to mine, "I guess I am forced to go with the flow." with that he kissed me.
Time went by slowly after that, but at least Jeff went back to sleep, we had an early morning flight to go on to Texas for a house show. I wish though I could have fallen asleep just like he did, but no my mind had to be up and aware of every thing around me. I sat and watched the sun go up; watching the rays of the sun warm the earth once more.
It was another day. a brand new day, but for some reason, I was counting down the days until Wrestlemania. I looked over to my boyfriend once more, and my mind was made up. I was at least going to stay until Mania...then after that...I was going home.