We got something to celebrate guys. Or at least I do. BECAUSE THEY MADE A MISTAKE! THEY MESSED UP MY NAME WITH THE ONE OF ANOTHER GIRL. I'M IN THE NATIONAL BALLET!

So this is for you. For being so amazing and believing in me and being willing to wait for me. I love you guys.

Some of you might've noticed, but I posted a new story. It's called Found You. It's a Kogan of course, with Kendall as a vampire and Logan as a human. It sounds cliché, I know, but I swear this is going to be different than other stories. It means a lot to me if you would check it out.

Lastly, I noticed over 80 people are following this story. 80! You know how awesome that is?

Making Up

Logan and I woke up at six in the morning, because James and Carlos stormed into the room, both looking very excited. "C'mon, wake up! We're gonna go see the babies!" Carlos said excitedly and pulled the blankets off of us.

Logan muttered something and grabbed onto me tighter when he was hit by the cold, pushing his body against mine. I shook my head, trying to clear my vision and see what James and Carlos were doing. Or standing. Or to see anything at all.

"Come on! Don't you wanna see Kegan, Logan?" James tempted him.

"No, go away" He said and wrapped both his arms and legs around me.

I raised my eyebrows and looked down at Logan who'd closed his eyes again. I turned at James and Carlos and saw them both staring at Logan with raised eyebrows and wide eyes. "Is he like that every morning?" Carlos asked me.

"This? This is nothing, dude. Besides, it's too easy to get him awake" I smirked and started tickling Logan's side, making him squirm and squeak and roll away from me. He almost rolled off the bed, but I grabbed him just in time. I didn't need any more scars on him.
"Very effective" James said impressed. "I should try that sometime"

"Oh please! I'm always the one who has to get you out of your bed, you know how hard that is?"

Carlos brought in.

"Kendall, tell him I'm not that bad!" James shouted.

"I've to side with Carlos on this one, you're even worse than Logan. And that says something"

"Hey!" Logan said sleepily.

"Finally! He's awake! Can we go see the babies now?" Carlos asked impatiently.

"No" Logan said stubbornly. "This is payback, for yesterday morning" He stuck his tongue out at Carlos and rolled back on his side, hiding his face in my chest.

"Fine, we'll just go without you" He said and grabbed James' hand before turning around and marching out of the room.

"I knew that would work" Logan said happily and pulled the blankets back up, snuggling back against me and closed his eyes.

I chuckled and wrapped my arms around him, enjoying having him in my arms for a few minutes longer. But not too long, because I really wanted to see Kegan. I kissed his forehead, before I slowly started pushing him away. "No" Logan pouted and gripped on my shirt.

"I want to see Kegan, Logan" I told him and pried his fingers of my shirt.

He sighed and got up too. We quickly got dressed and brushed our teeth. Logan held my hand when we walked upstairs.

I wondered if anything changed today, probably not something bad since he was doing so well, but maybe something nice. Something that would make us happy for a change. We still didn't know the color of his eyes, now that was something that would make me happy. Especially when he had Logan's eyes. I would never get tired of those and I loved to see how they turned out on Keira. I wouldn't really mind if he'd my green eyes, but more brown would just be... amazing.

We walked back into the room and one look at Kegan told me everything I needed to know. Something did change. Something wonderful and awesome and amazing.

"No incubator!" Logan whispered, looking at Kegan in awe. He was frozen next to me and then I realized Logan hadn't touched him yet. Now I thought of it, he must've been pretty sad. First he has to walk around with Kegan inside his stomach for 7 months, unable to touch him, and when he's finally out of him Kegan is put into a big, fake womb made of glass that makes it impossible for us to touch him. I was lucky enough to be here when the nurse showed up to change him, but Logan somehow missed that every time.

I pushed him softly in his back. "Go on" I whispered and placed a kiss on his temple.

But instead of letting go of my hand to run over to our son he pulled me with him, as if he was scared something might happen. The only thing that could happen was that he burned his hand, because instead of the incubator, Kegan was lying under a big lamp. I liked it better. A lamp was warm and light and allowed us to touch our baby. I suddenly felt a lot more love for lamps.

Logan reached out for Kegan, but unlike me he didn't hesitate to touch him and took one of Kegan's little hands between his thumb and index finger. He looked back at me for a second, a big smile plastered on his face and wonder written in his eyes. However, he quickly turned back to Kegan and continued touching him. It took a while before I found out he was examining Kegan like he did with Keira when he first saw her. He was counting fingers and toes and looking for other odds. I saw him relaxing when he didn't find any.

I chuckled softly and put an arm around his waist, letting my other hand rest on top of Kegan's head, caressing his baby soft skin with my thumb. Logan leaned into me while still having his hands on our son.

"I do have good ideas sometimes, you know" Carlos said smugly from the other side of the room.

Logan jumped and hit his head against my chin. "Ow!" He whined and grabbed the back of his head.

"Yeah, like that felt good to me" I muttered grumpy and rubbed my chin.

"Sorry" Logan said apologetically and kissed my chin.
"You guys are disgustingly cute" Carlos stated and crunched his nose.

"Why thank you" Logan said and bowed.

"I wasn't talking about you" Carlos snapped, before looking at me. "I was talking about Kendall" He said and winked.

James choked on his water. "Excuse me?"

"You're joking, right?" Logan asked at the same moment.

I just raised my eyes. We weren't going to do this again, right?

"Jeez, guys! I'm just kidding!" Carlos laughed and patted James' head.

"Yeah, well, it's not funny. You're/he's mine" James and Logan said at the same time.

"Did you just say 'you're mine'? Because he's not. You have the blonde, I want this one" James told Logan seriously and wrapped his arms around Carlos' waist.

"I said 'he is', you idiot. 'He' as in Kendall?"

"Why would you want to have that rather than Carlos?" James asked incredulously, making Carlos blush.

"I'm not a that!" I said offended.

Logan leaned his back against my chest and I automatically wrapped my arms around his waist. "I know you're not a that. And I love Kendall more than you"

I grinned and put my chin on top of his head. "Do you really mean that?" Carlos asked pouting, using his own version of the puppy dog eyes. "Then I love Kendall more than I love you too" He said and smirked when everyone was shocked again.

"Dude, Carlos, I think-" I started.

"Oh! No, this time I didn't mean it like that!" He said quickly. James visibly relaxed and pulled Carlos in his lap. "I thought the comparison wouldn't be correct anymore if I said James. I thought I could choose between Kendall or Logan" He said. Logan stuck his tongue out at him, before turning around and snuggling his head in my chest, a clear sign he was done with this discussion.

I kissed his forehead and then sat back in my chair, pulling Logan with me. He wrapped his arms around my neck and buried his face in the crook of my neck. I heard him yawning and he relaxed his body against mine. I had the idea that he would be asleep again soon.

And indeed I felt him calming down and his breathing evening out. Not ten minutes later he was asleep. That was when James decided to drop a bomb. "Hey, did you tell Logan about what happened already?"

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"What caused us all to be here in the first place? The splinters in his body? That he can't get pregnant anymore?"

I frowned. "No, I didn't, but how do you know?"

"Your mom told me, I asked her about it yesterday and she thought you wouldn't mind if we knew"
"No, I don't mind" I mumbled, glancing down at Logan to make sure her was still sleeping.

"When are you going to tell him?"

"Soon, I guess"

"He's not going to like it"

"I figured"

James nodded and looked at Carlos who was standing at the baby girl's bed, ready to pick her up.

"Did you talk to a doctor already?" I asked when I remembered her burn.

"We did. Yesterday, after you left. He started the treatment yesterday and I think it's working, because she didn't at all wake up during the night. So no pain"

I grinned. "That's good"

James smirked too and turned back to Carlos who was now sitting next to me with the baby in his arms. "Do you have a name already?" I asked.

"Yes" Carlos replied.

"... And?"

"We're not gonna tell you yet. Not until we signed that last paper tomorrow at noon"

I could live with that and looked away from them, back to Kegan. It was almost like he was awake. He was once again moving his arms and legs and smacked his lips a few time. I just hoped he would open his eyes soon.

Then I remembered something else. "Hey, guys, why are we here so early? It's six thirty!"

"We have to go do all that stuff today and we needed you two to watch your godchild"

I smirked widely when I realized what they were saying. I was now officially a godparent. I expected they would ask me and Logan, sure, but it wasn't official until now. "Awesome. And we will watch her, of course"

"Great. But we don't have to go for another two hours so..."

"You woke us two hours too early?" I asked unbelievably.

"Yeah, well, we figured you wouldn't really mind. And we still have some explaining to do about the last year, so why don't you wake Logan up so we can get that out of the way" James said. Carlos hung his head so I couldn't see his expression while still looking at the little girl in front of him.

I decided to say nothing and nudged Logan softly until he woke up. He glared at me and tried to lay back and close his eyes again, but I didn't let him. "You can sleep later, Logie. I promise" I mumbled in his ear and softly pushed him off my lap. I got up too and grabbed our chairs to bring them over to where James and Carlos were sitting next to their future daughter. I figured it was better to sit close to them instead of on the other side of the room.

Carlos sat back in his chair next to James, both were looking nervously at each other. "We don't know exactly where to begin" Carlos said softly.

"The first time Logan and I noticed something was going on was when came to you to tell you we wanted to move" I said, remembering how surprised I was when they went with it without any objections.

"Oh yeah" Carlos smiled sadly. "Well, I think that for us it started around the time Keira was born"

I frowned. I didn't like thinking about that time at all. But it did make sense. I had been so busy with Logan around that time that I didn't really notice what else was going on around me. "Then start with telling us that"

"Okay. Then here we go" James said and took a deep breath. "When Logan was talking again and getting back to being his normal self, we started to notice how happy you two were with Keira. It was kinda hard on us at first, because for the first time you two did something without us. We were happy for you, honestly, but it was just… weird. Especially because Carlos and I had been talking about children even before you got pregnant with her"

Already so much pieces were clicking in my brain. It made a lot m ore sense now, I didn't understand everything yet, but I now had an idea where this was going. "So the day after James and I got married, we signed ourselves up for adoption. We were on that list for about-"

"Wait, what list?" I asked confused.

"There's a list with people in California that want to adopt a child. The higher you get on that list, the more change you have to get chosen. That lady that advised us told us it could take years before someone would chose us as the parents for the child people didn't want to raise their selves. However, we got chosen a month before Keira's birthday" James finished and glanced at Carlos for a moment.

Carlos went on. "It was the day after you came to us to talk about moving out of the Palm Woods"

"That is why you were so eager to go along with it!" I said. "That makes sense"

Both our friends smiled a little. "We were pretty happy after that, unfortunately it only lasted two months"

"Oh god" Logan whimpered. I looked at him confused, worried something was wrong with him, but he was just looking at James and Carlos with tears appearing in his eyes. "I'm so sorry, guys, but it wasn't on purpose, I swear. We just didn't know and we, it just happened and then you lost it and…"

"We know, Logan. We're not mad"

"I'm lost" I told them.

"We heard the adoption got canceled. Six hours later you and Logan come marching in telling us you would get what we wanted… for the second time" James explained emotionlessly.

I stared at my friends with open mouth. I couldn't even imagine how that must have felt. That they lost their child on the day we found out we were getting Kegan. That was just… cruel. And unfair. I realized that even if we'd known about this back then, there was nothing we could've done about it, but still… Doing this to our friends was just not right. I ran a hand through my hair and looked down at my hands.

I was supposed to be the one to take care of my little group of friends, but now they told me this, I saw that I'd done a pretty shitty job. I should've just made them tell us what was going on so we could've helped them with this. I guess Logan was right when he said I'm oblivious to almost anything besides him and Keira and now Kegan. I didn't mean to, I really didn't. James and Carlos meant just as much to me as Katie and mom. Two more people I was practically ignoring. When did I became such a bad friend?

"I'm sorry" I said softly, because honestly, I didn't know what else to tell him.

"It's okay. We're over that now. It took a while but we pulled through" Carlos said with a smile. I had no idea why he was smiling. How could he be smiling when he went through this? "Anyway, we were good for a while. Sad, but holding on better than I thought. We actually got closer because of this"

"Yeah, we saw that too. I figured something good happened between you guys. Not something like that" Logan told them. He looked at James. "Only then it got worse"

James sighed and looked down. "That was my fault. You two got married and were expecting again and sickeningly happy together. You can pretty much blame me for everything what happened in that few months. I was jealous. I couldn't take it we couldn't be as perfect as you seemed to be"

"Seemed?" I asked with raised eyebrows, making all of them laugh. Only it wasn't meant as a joke. I meant it. To me my relationship with Logan was pretty perfect.

"You guys never fought once. No complaining about each other, no arguments, never was either of you even annoyed by the other! It was driving me insane and the only thing I wanted to see was that you guys have flaws too, but neither of you ever lost his temper. I wanted Carlos and me to be just as perfect as you guys, but it just doesn't work that way" He sighed; having this out of his system was probably a relieve. Carlos took his hand and started playing with his fingers

I looked at him, thinking deeply. I actually understood him. Something I never expected. What he said made sense and I was almost sure I would've done the same in his situation.

"So that is practically it" Carlos said. "Any questions?"

Logan chuckled and shook his head. I opened my mouth to say something when the door opened and the nurse came in. I had to remember to ask for her name so I didn't have to call her 'the nurse' all the time. She checked up on Kegan first, before she came over to us with a bottle in her hands. "Who can I give this to?" She asked smiling. Carlos got up eagerly and took it from her. It was like he forgot all about what just happened. It must be so easy to have a mind that's easily distracted.

While Carlos picked the still unnamed baby up from her crib to feed her Logan got up too and went back to Kegan. He leaned over him and placed a kiss on his forehead. Our baby wriggled a little, but seemed to like his daddy's hands on his body because he didn't cry. I watched them for a while, until I felt someone's hand on my shoulder. "I wanna talk to you" James mumbled and went out of the room.

I got up too and followed him, wondering what he wanted. He was standing in the deserted hallway outside the room. It was a little weird, because for the last few days, Katie or mom would sit here with Keira while the other was watching Kegan inside. There was always someone, but now they were all home. I hoped they would come soon. I missed Keira.

"So…" I started. "What's up?"

"I wanted to apologize. For doing the things I did. For flirting with Logan and hurting you with it. You know why I did it, but it's still no excuse"

"You know? I'm not mad. I kinda understand where you come from and honestly believe I would've done the same thing. Anything that could possibly take even the tiniest bit of pain away"

He looked at me with tears in his eyes. "I hate myself for it"

"Why? I'm impressed you guys managed to get through this on your own. Lots of people would've given up. I think I couldn't have done it, at least not without any help from you guys"

"Carlos didn't do the things I did" He mumbled.

"You're a different person"

"Still, he didn't hurt anyone"

"You didn't either"

"I hurt you"

"No, you didn't"

"Yes I did. Kendall, I'm not stupid. I saw the looks in your eyes every time I was near Logan"

"It's true I didn't really like it, but you didn't hurt me. Logan didn't notice what you were doing until I told him. I knew he wasn't reacting to anything you did. I didn't care what you did as long as he didn't respond to you. I was mad at you because you were hurting Carlos"

"I don't hit on Logan, Kendall. I really don't. I love Carlos. All that I did was only to prove to myself we weren't the only ones with problems. I never really meant to hurt either of you, especially Carlos. I just didn't put that much thought in the whole plan as I should've done"

"No one's relationship is perfect, James. We fight too sometimes. I've to admit it's not often, but we do. Mostly about what you heard us fighting about a few days ago, that I'm too overprotective and that Logan's too stubborn. But smaller things too, like who was supposed to do the laundry or grocery shopping"

He smiled a little, recognizing the things I told him. It was normal stuff, things every couple fought about. He was probably thinking back to the times he and Carlos had those. "Thanks, Kendall"

I smiled and held my arms open. "When was the last time we hugged?"

He laughed, but stepped closer to allow the hug. I was glad we had this talk. It was genuine and I believed that now we might go back to what we once were. Friends. It had been a long time since I really thought of James as a friend. There had been so much going on that I never realized it, but now that we were on one line again I felt better about all this. I'd missed him as a friend.

"Let's go back inside" I said and patted his shoulder. He pulled away and we went back inside, we had a family to take care of.