AN- I'm back from Mexico and had an amazing time. A big thanks to everyone who as reviewed and read this story and been so patient waiting for the next chapter while I was away.

Hope you like it. xx

Chapter 35

MINE! (Bella POV)

I sat in the car between Esme and Edward my guaze focused purely on my hands sat in my lap. I don't know what made me agree to this, how did I know I could trust the people at Jane's clinic I didn't know any of them, how'd I know they wouldn't go and fetch Charlie to come and get me and take me away. I had finally began to trust the Cullen's after spending a week with them I realised that there was no way they would hurt me, and I had to trust that they knew what was best and would protect me from anything that may go wrong.

As I finally felt the car slow down I lifted my head to see Jane turn right into a parking lot going round the back of the building. The building looked familiar to me as a realised I had been here only a couple of days ago. Once the engine shut off everyone began climbing out of the car, but I couldn't make myself follow suit, I was frozen in my seat my limbs shaking violently I changed my mind I didn't want to do this any more.

Edward turned realising I wasn't behind him and sat back in the car glancing at me warily.

"Bella?" He asked cautiously.

I shook my head in response trying to control my shaking but not really being successful Edward grabbed a hold of my hands wrapping them in his big bulky ones. I tensed at the contact I was already on edge and the physical contact was slowly pushing me over it.

"Bella listen I know this is hard for you but we are all here to help you in what ever way we can, and if that means me not letting go of your hand for a second then so be it." Edward told me giving my hands a squeeze.

We must have sat in that car for the next twenty minutes, Edward sat patiently next to me never letting go of my hands and so slowly the shaking subsided and I was able to start thinking a little clearer again.

Finally I was able to speak "I'm sorry" I whispered out.

"You have nothing to apologise for, now are you ready to go inside?" He asked quietly.

Taking a deep breath I nodded my head, "Please don't let go" I said I knew I needed him now more than ever before.

We both awkwardly climbed out the car and was surprised to see Jane, Carlisle and Esme stood waiting in the freezing cold outside the car and I immediately felt guilty for making them wait for me. Nobody said anything but Esme came up to my other side grabbing a hold of my other side and we followed Jane into the building, while Carlisle brought up the rear. Being surrounded by people who cared and wanted the best for me was so surreal but I knew that he couldn't get to me.

I was taken to a private room and given a hospital gown to change into Edward glanced at me as I still had tight hold of his hand at this point.

"Tell you what, you need to get changed I'll stand with my back to you so I can't see anything but you can see me at all times and that way you're not on your own." Edward reasoned as I slowly loosened my death grip on his hand.

Edward walked over to the window on the other side of the room while I kept my eyes on his back the whole time I was changing once I was wearing the gown and slipped on the dressing gown before walking over to Edward and standing next to him taking his hand in mine once again which he squeezed reassuringly.

We were both stood there as Jane, Carlisle and Esme walked into the room, I didn't want to really face any of them but Edward tugged on my hand and turned us around so we faced them.

Smiling gently Jane began to talk "Ok Bella, your doctor will be here in a minute along with a nurse. They know your history and so won't have to ask you any more questions. There job will be to check you over physically, taking blood, as well as a number of x-rays and a physical exam…" Jane paused as she said this.

I involuntarily shook at the mention of the physical exam which I was sure everyone noticed in the room.

"Bella, it's up to you how many of us you want in the room with you it can be none, one or all of us. You can stop any of the tests at any point whether it be for a breather or even if you have had enough ok." Carlisle said.

Taking a deep shuddering breath "Please don't leave" I whispered.

"That's not going to happen Bella," Esme reassured.

A that point there was a knock at the door and two females walked in one had shoulder length mousy brown hair with deep blue eyes and a gentle smile she was wearing a white lab coat so I assumed she must be the doctor. The second woman was shorter no much taller than Alice with Blonde hair and was wearing blue scrubs. I took an involuntary step backwards partially hiding myself behind Edward.

"Hello Bella my name is Dr Granger but please call me Maggie, and this a Julie." She said her voice calm and soothing.

"Hi" I whispered back.

"Ok so is everyone staying or…" Maggie began before I interrupted.

"Please don't make them leave please" I said the panic clear in my voice.

"Calm down Bella, I have no intention of making any of them leave if that's not what you want." She reassured.

I took a calming breath nodding my head to show I had heard her.

"Ok Bella why don't you climb up onto the bed and we can begin." Maggie suggested.

Edward squeezed my hand in reassurance before leading me over to the bed and helping me climb on top once I was settled he tried to move away from me but my grip on his hand tightened. I saw him look at Carlisle silently asking for help.

"Its ok if Bella wants this young man to stay next to her, then we can work around him its no trouble." Julie said smiling down at me.

I once again nodded my head as Edward squeezed my hand again and sank into the chair next to the bed.

Over the next hour or so, Maggie and Julie prodded and poked me, they took a ton of blood as well as placing me on a heart monitor which they left running and periodically took my blood pressure. They had begun recording all the scars and bruises starting at my toes and working there way up I tried my best to tune out there conversations keeping my eyes trained on Edward but every so often a touch would bring me crashing back to reality and I would move away from their touch.

When ever that happened they would stop doing what ever it was and would wait until I was relaxed enough for them to continue. Once they had finished cataloguing my bruises they stepped away and left the room, Esme was the first to reach my bed and pulled me into a tight hug I surprised my self by not flinching at her touch and just took comfort in her hug I even let go of Edward's hand to wrap my arms around her back as well.

Once Esme pulled away I sat myself up a bit further on the bed not being able to get off as I was still attached to the machines.

"Here Bella have a drink of water." Carlisle said sitting down at the bottom of the bed.

I took the bottle and drank small slips.

"You've done incredibly well and we're so proud of you, I think you'll be having some x-rays next." Carlisle said.

I looked into his eyes that meant I had to leave the room and go else where with other people around I started to panic my breathing coming in sharp gasps.

"Bella, its ok, you've had x-rays before, it's nothing to worry about and I promise we will be there where not going to leave you alone Bella." Carlisle said.

I managed to calm my breathing down after realising that I didn't have to go alone at which point Maggie, Julie and Jane walked back into the room. I hadn't even realised Jane had left the room and Julie was pushing a wheelchair. Carlisle and Esme got up off the bed to give more space but Edward remained where he was.

"Ok Bella lets unhook you and were going to take a range of x-rays to see what has been broken over the years." Maggie said as Julie began unhooking me from the heart monitor.

"Sorry Bella but its policy for you to use the wheelchair." Julie said sympathetically.

"I'd rather walk if that's ok." I said quietly hoping she wouldn't be angry.

I surprised that Edward was the one to answer "Get in the chair Bella and I'll push you, I'm guessing it will be the only time I'll ever be able to push you around." He said smiling at me.

I just stared at him unsure of what to say before finally allowing a small smile in return and then complying with what he wanted and sat in the chair as he pushed me through the hospital. Esme and Carlisle took either side of the chair and so I was still cocooned in my little safe bubble as if no one would ever be able to reach me again.

We all entered the x-ray suit and I got up onto the table, Esme, Carlisle and Edward were each given a vest to wear along with Julie.

"Bella, Edward won't be able to hold your hand but none of us will ever be out of your sight ok?" Carlisle asked preparing me for what happened.

I nodded my consent as Julie settled me into the desired position. I lost tract of the amount of x-rays they took and all the different positions I was placed into. By the end of it I was feeling exhausted and I wanted everything to be over and back at the Cullen's, yet I knew the worst was still to come.

Once settled back in the room Maggie came and sat on the side of the bed next to me,

"Now Bella this will probably be the hardest part for you, but it is possibly the most important ok." Maggie explained.

I nodded my head "Urm, if its ok id rather Carlisle and Edward not be in room." I said I couldn't have them in the room yet I didn't want to upset either of them.

"Of course we don't mind Bella we will go and grab a coffee." Carlisle said before he and Edward left the room.

Edward turned at the door looking at me giving me a reassuring smile before following his father.

"Ok Bella just lay down and place your legs in the stirrups for me." Julie instructed helping me get positioned.

I did as was asked but couldn't stop the tears from falling from my eyes, both Jane and Esme sat on either side of the bed each taking a hand as Esme gently stroked my hair and wiping away my tears.

"Right Bella I'm going to begin, would you like to explain what I am going to do?" Maggie asked glancing at me.

"No just do it." I gasped out, finding it hard to talk.

"Just take deep breaths Bella." Esme encouraged never taking her eyes off me.

For the next twenty minutes Maggie and Julie prodded and poked me in the one place I never want to be touched again, there was aspects that were truly painful and I couldn't help but gasp in pain. Yet Maggie and Julie were only ever gentle. Once they were done and Julie helped me to lower my legs. I instinctively curled up into a ball pulling my legs up to my chest and rocking myself backwards and forwards Esme tried to comfort me but I couldn't bare her to touch me at the minute and so pulled away from her touch but I felt her sit on the bed next to me and never left my side.

"We will give her some time I'll tell Carlisle and Edward to wait as well." Jane told Esme as the door opened and the other three women left the room.

I felt Esme lay down next to me and pull me towards her wrapping her arms around me I tried to struggle away except she didn't loosen her grip this time, in the end I just gave up and cried and cried until there was nothing else left in me. We never once spoke and for that I was thankful I had nothing else to say, there was nothing anyone could say to make me feel better at the minute.

I heard the door open again and assuming it was Carlisle or Edward I didn't bother to move I felt Esme sit up beside me then gasp there was a thumping sound as I felt Esme move from the bed but I heard someone fall to the floor. I turned round to see Esme lying unconscious face down on the floor there was a pair of familiar black boots standing near by, I slowly raised my head until I met those cool calculating eyes I hoped never to see ever again.

"So much as say one word and I will kill you here and now. Get up and let's go we have a lot of catching up to do." He growled an evil smile playing on his lips.

There was no one else here Edward and Carlisle had left because I had asked them to, what choice did I have. I did as he asked as he dragged me from the room my last view of Esme laying on the floor knowing that it would be the last time I'd ever see her again.

AN- Beofre you all throw the pitch forks at me I always intended for this to happen. Things like this never go away just like that. The next few chapters will be quite tough to read but please just bear with me.
Let me know what you thin I should be updating again on Sunday or Monday depending on when I finish up with the next chapter.