Hermione smiled ''I told her she didn't have to''

''This is Molly Mione, she loves to cook and fuss so let her it will be nice for the kids''

Hermione nodded and drank some of her coffee and smiled ''I guess, Lyra could do with some fun especially after she has been to the doctors and they have finished poking and prodding her, she hates going she breaks her heart every time she has to go''

Tonks smiled sadly ''Is the appointment a follow up from yesterday with what ever happened''

Hermione shrugged ''A mixture of both, we will be discussing whether we should stop her treatment, it turns out that the cancer has spread to her immune cells, making her weak and susceptible to illnesses more than usual and her body won't be able to fight it off as well as we can, it looks like the chemo and radio therapy isn't' changing anything so I had agreed a year ago if it turns out the treatment is shortening her life and making her worse than better than i would stop her going and let her live with out the treatment, hopefully it will let her live a little longer, luckily she will have pain potions that will help her to be comfortable, so I will have to talk to her Doctor at our next appointment''

''Oh right I really am sorry that this is happening to you Mione'' Tonks said smiling at her

''Don't be I guess it's just pay back''

''What makes you think that'' Remus asked in shock

''Well, I have hardly been around for her or Matthew, I've not exactly been a great mother so I guess this is karma it's fate saying that I couldn't' have cared about her in the first place so why should I have the chance to play mother now''

''And i told you that it's ridiculous if that were the case Mione, Matthew would be sick as well, you were not a bad mother. You did all you could to keep them safe you studied hard because you want to be able to care for them you had no choice that is not a bad
mother they know you love them and that they are wanted that is what makes you a good mother'' Harry said pleadingly

''Harry's right Mione this isn't your fault'' Tonks said sadly

Severus shook his head ''From what I witnessed both children seem to adore you and want to do you proud, clearly you are not a bad mother, i wish I had parents like you when I was younger''

Hermione looked at Severus in shock he never talked about his childhood and from what Harry told her it wasn't a happy one so for him to say something like that was shocking but she nodded she knew she was being silly but she couldn't' help but feel like it was her fault ''I know what you're saying and I know deep down it isn't' my fault or pay back but until you have children of your own you won't understand the guilt you feel, you are supposed to be there rock their shield you do all you can for you kids.''

Hermione looked from Tonks to the others before continuing ''You would give your life for them just to see them happy and healthy and when one of your children become sick you feel like you have let them down, you feel like you should be doing something you're the adult you are meant to care for them no matter what, it makes you feel shit and a failure its natural ask any parent who has a child whether there sick or not and you will find that every parent feels like I do''

Hermione shook her head ''Mothers feel it more than a father would since we carried the child for nine months its our instincts I'm not saying that fathers don't feel like mothers do because there are children who have just a father that brings them up but the feeling is a lot stronger for a mother and the mother and child have a bond right from the moment they conceive so no matter what it will always be my fault and her illness is my fault even though I know it isn't' and can't be helped''

Harry nodded ''I feel similar in the sense because I am there Godfather I am supposed to be there to guide them support them and when they are sick I feel helpless it rips me apart if I could I would take her place in a heart beat and I feel like there should be something I can do but there isn't so if I feel like that I cant begin to imagine what it feels like for their Mother who like she said has a bond from the moment they are in the womb''

Tonks, Remus and Severus didn't know what to say because it was true they didn't' have children so they wouldn't understand but got the idea of what she was getting at.

''Nanny, when is Mummy and Uncle Harry going to get here?'' Matthew said as he walked from the living room leaving Lyra to watch TV.

Helen was in the kitchen checking she had everything she would need for tomorrow before she pulled out the batch of ginger bread men before she placed the mince pies into the oven she turned and smiled ''She will be here soon I promise

''Mummy said she is taking us to see Santa today'' Matthew said with a huge smile

''I know, are you excited'' Helen said chuckling at his smile

''I can't wait''

''And what are you going to ask Santa for?''

''For Lyra to get better and to see if we can live with Mummy and Uncle Harry in a nice house and for mummy to not have to leave us again''

Helen felt her heart clench at her Grandson's wish she just smiled ''Oh I'm sure Santa will do his best, now why don't you go in the room and watch some TV I'm sure your Mother will be here soon'' she watched as Matthew ran into the living room leaving her alone in the kitchen, she finally allowed the tears to fall down her face as she thought of her Granddaughter.

Hermione double checked her bag making sure she had all the presents in her bag before she would be leaving to her parents house she looked up and hugged everyone ''I'll see you soon'' once she did that she looked at Severus shyly and gave him a quick hug and kiss on the cheek before pulling away and blushing ''Thank you for making the potions''

Harry hid his smile he noticed that both Remus and Tonks had seen the exchange as well but pretended they never although they would be happy for her since Hermione and Severus both deserved some happiness more than most.

Severus was startled when he found his arms full of Hermione he felt his cheeks get warm when she kissed his cheek and he was pleased she pulled away quick enough for he instantly felt his member twitch from having a lovely body pushed into him he couldn't' help but notice she seemed to be the perfect fit for him he shook his head and adjusted his leg under the table to hide his arousal ''Like i said don't' worry it was nothing'' he said waving his hand dismissing her.

Hermione smiled ''I know but thank you anyway, i have left you guys your presents together on the table in the library and the ones for the Weasley's, Albus and Minerva are on the sofa could you make sure they get them''

Tonks smiled ''We will make sure they all get there presents'' she winked at Harry she had given Harry the presents from themselves, Molly, Arthur Albus and Minerva to him before they went to see Hermione's Graduation.

Harry nodded to Tonks ''Right then let's get going because if I know Matthew he will be like a bottle of pop nagging mum about when were coming and talking her ear off about visiting Santa''

Hermione laughed with the others ''Oh i forgot about Santa bugger it is going to be rammed you do know that don't you''

Harry smirked ''Oh yes it is going to be full of screaming children and busy parents rushing getting last minute presents for Christmas''

Hermione sighed ''Wonderful just what I need, well let's get going then see you all soon'' Hermione waved to them all before she took Harry's arm and apparated out of their home and into her parents back garden.

Hermione took in a deep breath when she saw her parents house she was shaking from excitement knowing her kids are behind those doors she felt Harry put his arm around her and smile she smiled back and walked towards the house she opened the house and was hit with the smell of gingerbread and mince pies.

Hermione knew her mother would have been up since the crack of dawn baking she smirked when she walked towards the living room she walked along the hall and to the arch that lead them into the room.

Hermione smiled when she saw Matthew sat with his legs to his side on the sofa while Lyra was on the left doing the same she then noticed her father reading the paper and her mother watching what looked to be the Grinch with the kids she smirked and both she and Harry approached the back of the sofa.

She held her hand up telling him to cover their eyes on three she held each finger up and on three they leant over she covered Lyra's while Harry covered Matthews she saw them jump and chuckle.

''How dare you watch this film without me or your uncle Harry I am hurt''

''MUM!'' both kids yelled in excitement

Hermione chuckled as she hugged her daughter she stood up on the sofa ''Hello sweetheart''

Harry gave a high five to Matthew and walked around allowing him to greet his mother he looked over and was pulled into a hug by the woman he sees as his mother ''Hey mum'' he shook his fathers hand while he was clapped on his shoulder by him.

Hermione fought back the tears as she pulled back ''And how are you feeling miss, hmm I heard of your trip to the Hospital''

''I'm ok, and uncle Harry came with your friend Severus to see if I was ok''

Hermione smiled ''I know Severus told me he met you and your uncle Harry told me earlier''

''So because I'm ok can we still go see Santa'' Lyra said joining her hands together in front of her

Hermione chuckled ''Well if you don't get down of your Grandmothers sofa you won't be alive to see Santa''

Lyra jumped down ''Can we please''

''I don't' see why not we will go a little bit later'' Hermione turned around to see her son ''Don't your old mum get a hug or haven't I been missed' she said smirking and holding her arms out to her son Matthew was what people call a proper Mummy's boy but she didn't care she loved it.

Matthew rushed into his mothers arms burrowing his head into her stomach as he closed his eyes he missed his mother like crazy ''Your not that old mum and I missed you lots'' he said as he continued to hug her.

Hermione hugged her son back and kissed him on top his head ''Awe thank you my little prince''

''Hey I'm not little I'm seven in five days''

''Oh I'm sorry I'll have to call you my big prince or my prince''

''How about none''

Hermione chuckled ''Less of the cheek you, i can't help it I your my handsome prince like I can't help it if your sister is my pretty little Princess''

Matthew rolled his eyes at his mother but was still smiling

''And don't roll your eyes at me young man'' Hermione said sternly but letting a little smile out

''Why you do it all the time, can't help it if I'm like you''

Harry laughed ''He has a point Mione''

''Shut it you''

Harry chuckled as he hugged Lyra back and let her go he finally sat down on the sofa ''So the Grinch really wasn't there anything else on'' Harry said as he fake pouting

Hermione her mother and father all laughed at Harry ''Oh Harry stop pouting we know you don't like this film much but you're not a child''

Harry chuckled ''Well the Grinch is boring why not watch Rudolph or Home Alone''

''Because Home alone isn't really a Christmassy film its sad because his parents leave him alone that isn't a happy film'' Lyra said looking at her uncle ''No child should be all alone on Christmas.''