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Chapter 36

She woke up with the worst headache of all time. She once got her head smacked against a metal door and that headache was nothing compared to the one she had now. What was she thinking drinking two full bottles of vodka on her own? And Pepper and Maria didn't drink much of the other two. She really overestimated her tolerance.

She blinked her eyes open and Steve looked at her with a glint in his eyes. Fuck him for being a morning person. And fuck her for drinking so much vodka last night.

Steve's hand moved under her top to caress her waist. "So how do you want me to fuck you?"

"What?" She squinted her eyes at him and he smirked at her.

"You made me promise you to fuck you the next morning."

Just the thought of getting shoved up and down the mattress made her nauseous. "Oh god. Please don't."

Steve laughed and kissed her forehead before he got out of bed. "I'll get you some painkillers and more water."

She pulled the blanket over her head because it was way too bright. Minutes later someone pulled the blanket away and she saw Steve's beautiful face. Why did he have to look so good after waking up. Oh god, did she even remove her make up? She didn't even remember changing into her pyjama.

"Here, doll." He handed her two pills that she swallowed and took the open water bottle he offered her. She gulped everything down and rested her head back onto her pillow.

She barely noticed that Steve put another water bottle on her nightstand before she fell back to sleep.

She woke up a few hours later alone and already felt much better. She was thirsty and emptied the water bottle in two sips. She checked the time and it was 9:39 am. She pulled her robe over her pyjama and checked the living room for Steve and Bucky. Both weren't there. FRIDAY told her that they were with Tony in his lab. Not in the mood for Tony's shenanigans she took a long hot shower and felt like her old self when she was done getting ready.

She remembered that Matt was coming to the Tower for lunch to meet Bucky. Fuck! She wanted to spend the day in sweat pants but left them in her closet and chose to wear leather pants and a simple shirt since that was probably more professional.

FRIDAY informed her that Matt was already here and Steve and Bucky weren't here yet to greet him. Who knew what Tony did in his lab? She walked to the common floor where someone of Tony's staff had already made Matt a coffee. He got up from his chair at the table when she got into the room.

"Natasha." He kissed her cheek and sat down again.

She took a seat on the other side of the table. "Hi Matt."

"Will your friends be joining us soon?"

"I think so. They're with Tony now. Where's your buddy?"

"Court."

She last time she was alone with Matt was over a year ago when she tried to get into his pants to distract herself from Steve and her feelings for him that she desperately had tried to ignore back then. She was amazed how much she changed during the last year. She couldn't stop telling Steve how much she loved him now and just the thought of another man touching her disgusted her.

Matt smiled kindly at her. "It's nice."

"What?"

He shook his head a little bit and his smile got wider. "That you are in a real relationship."

"That obvious?"

He chuckled. "Well, I am more observant than most people. Being with Captain America must be overwhelming. He's so good..."

"And I am not?"

"No! But people like us have a darkness that others don't have."

"He makes that darkness go away." She admitted quietly. "He made me whole."

"I'm happy for you. You deserve that more than anyone, Natasha."

"There is someone out there who will do that for you too."

He laughed an ugly laugh. "No, there isn't."

She wanted to say something but the elevator doors opened and Steve and Bucky walked out. Her heart did that little jump it did every time she saw her man and she knew that Matt heard it. If she could find someone who would love her without any bounds and conditons so could he.

"Mr. Murdock." Steve walked over to him. "This is Bucky Barnes."

They shook hands and Steve and Bucky sat down on each of her side. Matt mostly wanted to talk to Bucky about normal things to get to know him. They had a nice lunch and Matt said that next time when Nelson was there as well they would talk about legal actions. But he did mention that they planned to contact the Attorney General to get her to grant Bucky immunity. Steve looked hopeful while Bucky didn't seemed very convinced that would happen.

"We should eventually reveal the Winter Soldier's real identity to get the public's compassion. That way the Justice Departement might feel pressured to pardon you, . You are a victim here." Matt said when they walked him to the elevator. "And if not we could still get a deal if you give them information about HYDRA. Current powerful members."

Bucky sighed. "It's all very clouded in my head. I'll try to remember."

Matt left with the promise to call them soon to set up another meeting. They walked back to the dinning table to talk about Matt's plan more.

"How did you get a free pass?" Bucky asked her when she filled his cup with tea.

"By working for SHIELD." She explained and a shiver ran down her spine when she thought about the state she was in when Clint bought her to the state. "Fury convinced the World Council to leave me alone if I worked for SHIELD. Five years later I got a letter from the AG that gave me immunity for my good work for SHIELD."

"Too bad SHIELD's gone." Bucky said while staring into his mug.

She felt Steve tense beside her. He sometimes told her that he wasn't so sure anymore if getting completely rid of SHIELD was such a good idea. They lost a lot of resources and influence that way. With SHIELD Bucky's situation would have been so much easier to solve.

"I'm not so sure that it's completely gone." Both men looked at her. "Have you heard from Coulson in the last months, Steve?"

"No but we weren't really that close."

"I haven't heard from him. Or Clint. And he was our handler for years. He was one out of three people who stood up for me when I joined the agency."

"You think Coulson is bringing SHIELD back?"

She took a sip from her tea. "Yes. Everytime I bring the topic up to Hill she acts all weird and changes the topic."

Countless emotions flickered over his face. "What if HYDRA is still in SHIELD?"

"Steve, Coulson is your number one fanboy. And he's jewish. I don't think he'll let HYDRA get a foot in the door."

Steve seemed to think about what she said and Bucky excused himself to test out Tony's gym floor. He hadn't had much chance to excerise in their apartment in Brookly and she knew that he was getting ansty and needed to power himself out.

She took Steve back to their floor and let him make love to her gently in their bedroom. They took their time to reach the finish line and just enjoyed moving as one.

He kissed every inch of her face before he pulled out and she moaned at the loss of him. She wrapped herself around him and rested her cheek on his chest.

"You're the perfect pillow."

She could feel the vibrations going through his body when he laughed. "Glad to be of service, Ma'am."

She lazily drew circles over his chest and bathed in the warmth and comfort he gave her. "You know I was so hellbent on not giving into my feelings back then." She admitted. "I was such an idiot." She rubbed her cheek against his skin and Steve brushed his fingers through her hair. " Your love was all I ever needed. I hope you know how much I love you."

He kissed the top of her head. "I do know that. And I love you too. More than I ever thought I could possibly love someone."

She looked up at him and his eyes were full of love and affection. She had to swallow and cupped his cheek to make him kiss her. He leaned down to press his lips against hers. He rolled her onto her back and gave her quick kisses that turned into long and deep ones that made her crave for more. She was getting wet again and slid her hands between them to line him up at her entrance.

He looked at her for permission and when she nodded he slid his tongue into her mouth while entering her again. They both moaned into the kiss and rocked against each other. He sat up on his knees after a few deep thursts and pulled her into his lap. He rubbed on every sweet spot in that position and she had to wrap her arms around his neck for balance. He gripped her waist to help her move up and down. They kissed the whole time while he fucked up into her to meet her movements. He managed to fuck her long enough to make her without any extra stimulation to her clit. She never knew she could come only from penetrative sex until Steve. She didn't think it was Dr. Erskine main goal with the superserum but she thanked the man for giving Steve a stamina out of this world. She opened her eyes when she came down from her high and Steve was looking at her with awe in his eyes. She could see that he struggled to hold his orgasm off.

"So beautiful." He rapsed in his deep voice and moved one hand from her waist between her legs. She was still sensitive and the touch made her gasped. "Come for me, Nat. One more time. Come with me." He began to circle her clit and she could feel her second orgasm approaching.

"Oh fuck." She moaned and could barely think. His cock inside her and his fingers on her clit made her almost delirious.

"Steve!" She cried out.

"That's it." He growled against her neck. "Again. Come on." He pressed down hard on her clit while thrusting up into her and she was gone. His hand on her waist gripped her so tight that she would probably bruise but she didn't care because she could feel him pulse inside her and he came with her name on his lips.

They plopped down on the mattress both sweaty and deeply sated. She turned her head to Steve who was already looking at her. He was always looking at her. "That was amazing."

He grinned. That smug bastard! "It really was. How is so perfect every single time?"

"It's because we're in love." She thought about this before and that was the only reason she could come up with. Sex and love together were spectacular. Or maybe it was just Steve.

He brushed her hair behind her ear. "That must be it."

They took a nap to recharge and left the Tower to take a walk around Midtown. Steve held her hand the whole time and lifted it from time to time to his lips. They checked out a new book store that was also an art gallery and stopped for cheese cake on their way back.

Maria was waiting for them when the elevator doors opened on their floor. She had that look on her face she had everytime back at SHIELD when she debriefed them for a mission.

"What do you want, Hill?" She was a bit annoyed that she interrupted her made out session with Steve. She had planned to watch some movie with Steve and make out on the couch like teenagers since Bucky was doing something with Sam.

"CIA called." She handed them both files. "They need you both for a mission."

"What kind of mission?" Steve asked and flipped his file open.

She did the same and read over the file. Rumlow was spotted around Central Africa working with various terror groups. Everett Ross was leading the task force with Sharon Carter as his deputy.

She glanced at Steve and could see by the expression on his face that he saw her name as well. She remembered how pissed Steve was when he found out that his neighbour Kate wasn't who she said she was. This mission would probably be awkward as hell.

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