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ஜ Chapter 34: NO more risk ஜ
-patient´s point of view-
Surprised jerking of heads was to be seen as the automatic doors of the front of the hospital opened.
It was still morning, the sun´s rays had only started touching the glass windows of the hospital a little while ago and made everything seem orange inside the waiting room.
A nurse was sitting behind the front desk, busily typing away on a keyboard while a patient was waiting for his document.
Her head snapped up when she spotted the raven rushing into the main hall.
The doors didn´t even have time to open fully before the raven was already standing in front of the desk, slaming his hands on top of it.
His breathing was ragged as if he had been running and he seemed to be hectic.
"Kururi Orihara, which room?!"
The nurse, who had been about to greet the informant blinked surprised at the words and her brows furrowed instead.
She turned away fom the patient she had been searching something for shortly and folded her hands.
"Sir, I´m afraid I can´t give out that information unless you are a-"
"I´m her brother! Now quit wasting my time and tell me where she is!" Izaya almost barked at the woman who flinched ever so slightly. She frowned a bit, obviously displeased by the way the raven was acting, only to glance at the raven as she turned around again to face her computer.
"Sorry," she said, raising her hand to point at the patient before the desk.
"But this patient was first, you will have to wait just a little bit."
For a second the raven´s expression simply fell-
"DON`T FUCK WITH ME!"
"Izaya-" interrupted by a familiar voice Izaya felt something wrap around him and tug him backwards.
"Calm down-" Izaya frowned at the calm words of the blond behind him.
Tch- of course, he could remain, cool, it was not his precious brother that got shot after all-
"Don´t you dare tell me to calm down!" Izaya hissed, trying to get out of the blond´s hold.
"Izaya, listen-" but the informant didn´t even intend to do that in the slightest, instead he kept squirming in the debt collector´s hold.
"My sister got shot and this stupid bitch doesn´t tell me where she is!" he yelled-
Meanwhile probably all of the patients in the waiting room were looking at the two of them.
"Izaya, you getting there a minute or two earlier won´t change anything about the condition your sister is in-!" Shizuo said, wishing he could have avoided this topic as he immediately felt the raven tense in his arms.
-20 minutes earlier. Shizuo´s point view-
"...shot..?" the blond mumbled, his eyes widening. But the raven didnt answer, instead he seemed to unfreezy from his frozen state as he quickly bowed down to grab his phone once more, almost letting it drop again as he quickly brought it up to his ear.
"What happened?!" the raven near yelled, his voice creaking in the middle of it-
Deafening silence met the blond as the raven received his answer from the phone.
He didn´t dare to say a single word as Izaya listened.
"So she is in artificial coma now..." the words made the blond cringe slightly. It hurt to watch the raven like this.
He wished he could do something but what?
"Iza-" the blond didn´t get to finish his sentence as the raven suddenly stormed past him, heading straight for the door.
-Present. Shizuo´s point of view.-
They had come here instantly after that phone call ended.
"It won´t help her if you flip out." Shizuo mumbled once more, tugging the raven´s head under his chin.
A soft nod was all that he received from the raven in his arms as he looked at the woman sitting behind the desk.
"Kururi Orihara?" he asked once more, making the woman blink.
The nurse was quiet for a moment, her brow furrowed and mouth still slightly open as if to retort something, but then a sigh escaped her lips instead.
She set the file she had been about to give the patient down and turned to the monitor at her side. Typing in the name, she scanned the information quickly.
"She is in room 206, but it´s probably best to-" Izaya didn´t even hear the rest anymore. His ears perked at the information and he practically shoved himself away from the blond, almost flying up the flight of stairs as he dashed towards the room.
Shizuo looked at the woman with a nod as a sign of thanking her before running after the raven. Izaya was already out of sight as he ran up the stairs.
One, two, three he took at once, only to quickly arrive at the second floor´s hall and find the raven standing there in front of a door.
His hand was already on the doorknob, but he didn´t twist it.
Shizuo frowned a slight bit, approaching his lover.
"Izaya..?" he mumbled softly, not wanting to scare the raven that seemed to be in deep thoughts.
"Shizuo..." the raven mumbled back, but not turning away from the door.
"What... what if.." he faded out, not letting Shizuo catch his further words.
"If? What if?" he repeated, hoping to receive an answer, but the raven kept his head low, just shaking it softly.
And that´s when he saw it.
A teardrop.
"Shizuo," the raven started once more, his voice obviously shaking as he turned his head slightly to look at the blond with teary eyes.
"What if she is dead Shizuo?"
Izaya knew it. Torakichi had said before that Kururi is just in an artificial coma and that they operated on her. But... her condition was critical.
He said so.
That was 20 minutes ago. What if complications occured while he was hurrying here?
He couldn´t do this again. He couldn´t see someone die, just because of him, just because-
"What if she died already-" Izaya asked, trying to keep his voice from breaking.
Shizuo´s eyes widened.
"What if-"
Surprised the raven gasped when he felt the blond push past him.
He didn´t even get to ask what he was doing, because suddenly there was a hand on his own on top of the door knob and Shizuo slammed the door open.
Eyes wide Izaya stared into the room, a single tear rolling down his face as he spotted his little sister in a white bed.
Machines were attached to her, and a contiuous beeping sound was filling the room´s silence, hinting, that her heart was beating.
"See?" the informant suddenly caugt the almost whispered, but definitely relieved sounding words from Shizuo behind him. "She is still alive."
Izaya gulped, quickly bringing up his arm to rub away his tears with his right hand´s sleeve while nodding softly.
Hesitant he stepped into the room.
"Do you... do you think she can hear us?" he mumbled, having reached the bed.
Softly he let his hand trail down to Kururi´s on the bed.
"Maybe, I don´t know." Shizuo mumbled, watching the pale girl.
Izaya nodded and closed his eyes, just sitting down on a chair next to the bed as he wrapped both his arms around the cold hand of his sister.
"...Why did you shove me, Shizu-chan? That was mean." he suddenly mumbled, keeping his eyes closed.
The blond shrugged slightly as he slowly stepped inside the room as well.
"Would wondering about what is in here have done anything good for you?" he asked instead of answering, but the raven understood and shook his head.
"Iza-nii!"
Startled Shizuo turned around- just in time to see a girl standing next to an old man in the doorframe rush past him.
Sobbing was to be heard from the girl as she clung to her older brother. Shizuo´s eyes softened as he watched Izaya wrapp his arms softly around his sister.
The girl´s shoulders were shaking as she was caught in a tender hug.
"Hey.. hey it´s okay.. She is going to be fine." Izaya whispered, trying to comfort his sister.
"She got shot Iza-nii.. There was so much blood.. they said they don´t know yet if she is going to survive it..." sobs wracked the lithe body a she told the raven what happened.
In response the raven just hugged the girl tighter.
"Shh, calm down Mairu. It´s going to be okay." the girl shook her head sobbing. Izaya set up a slight smile, while moving his hands to either side of Mairu´s cheeks.
"Mairu," he started speaking calmly. "She will be fine okay? You know, the actual probability of surviving a gunshot to the body is 80 -90%."
...
"80-90%?" the girl repeated disbelieving.
"Yep, that´s actually true. Google it if you want. And you know Kururi, she wouldn´t leave you alone, now would she?" he tried, making the girl nod slightly.
Still a little teary eyed she glanced at her sister.
"You gotta wake up soon Kururi." she mumbled.
"You were never the type to speak a lot, but you will make me lonely if you sleep all the time." she tried to joke, rubbing the tears away.
Shizuo looked at the scene in front of him, but what else drew his attention in was something that was still in the door frame.
That old man.
He was sure, that man... he was the one that told him where Izaya was when he searched for him after Ryouske set them up.
He was the one Izaya said he shouldn´t talk to. The same man that he saw Izaya visit in the old part of the town when he started watching him.
And another thing did strike him as odd a bit.
The second day he watched the flea on his observing job he saw how he got a mail from his sisters, saying that he will die and stuff.
He always had the impression that the siblings were on bad terms, but now he felt as though that wasn´t the case at all.
"Iza-nii, are you coming back to us now..?" the words caught the blond of guard and he looked back at the sister.
Izaya blinked. "What do you mean?" he asked, suddenly turning stiff.
"Kururi, she knew." the girl whispered, making the raven frown a little.
"Huh?" Shizuo looked at the raven, just as confused as the raven himself was, he guessed.
The girl tightened her fists on her lap, looking at her brother.
"We know both what you did Iza-nii, when you went away. We know that you were protectig us all along when you left us years ago. We know you gave grandfather money so he would take good care of us and be able to keep that yakusa guy away from us!" the girl stated, tears gathering in her eyees once more as the raven could do nothing but stare at her dumbfounded.
"Mairu... I don´t know where you got that idea, from, but I left voluntarily, I-"
"We know that´s not true!" she cried, "We know they threatened you to do something to us if you don´t work for them! Grandfather told us ages ago!"
The cut up photos.
Now it made sense. He had almost forgotten about it, but weren´t there those cut up photo´s on Izaya´s desk when he was being sick?
Shizuo went down to check on the flea and saw those pics. He didn´t think they would be a threatening mail.
Wait- forced to work-?
"We played along with you, we acted as if we hated you because it would be easier for you to pretend you don´t give a shit about us if we act the same." Mairu cried, bringing up her right wrist to rub at her eyes.
"We sent you a mail everyday so you know we are thinking about you all the time, and that we are alright." he hicupped.
"But grandpa said it´s going to be over now." she stated, making the raven frown.
"He said everything is going to be fine soon because you will stop working for those guys!"
"Mairu..." the girl fell silent.
And the informant did too.
Shizuo didn´t understand.
Izaya was going to stop being an informant? He was going to quit his job?
He frowned.
But if he was being threatened to keep at it, then how did he plan on quitting?
Something didn´t make sense here.
Not at all.
Wait.
Then that old man-
"You are Izaya´s grandfather?" Shizuo suddenly realized his eyes widening as he stared at the old man in the doorway.
Izaya snapped his head towards them as he heard the blond speak.
The old guy nodded.
"That´s right, I am Izaya´s grandfather, Torakichi. I believe we met before didn´t we?" the old man smiled slightly. The blond nodded hesitantly, this new information confusing him just slightly.
"Yeah we did. When I searched for Izaya you knew where he was. How...?"
The old man smiled and opened his mouth, as if about to reply, but before even as much as a word could leave the guy´s lips Izaya was interrupting him.
"Shut up." it were only two words, but they sure sounded like a slice through the air as the informant hissed them.
The grandfather closed his mouth again, glancing now at the raven instead of the blond.
Blinking Shizuo turned around to look at his lover.
"Shut up?" he repeated Izaya´s words.
"Exactly. That old guy should just shut up." the raven spat, his eyes narrowing.
A confused frown spread over the blond´s features. "Why? He is your grandfather isn´t he?"
"It doesn´t matter who he is, this is none of your business Shizuo."
What?
Shizuo thoguht the raven was joking. What the hell was he saying?!
"Are you fucking kidding me?!" The hell it didn´t concern him!
What the hell was he talking about? They promised not to keep any secrets anymore from now on, Izaya even agreed to tell him today night everything that he had kept hidden! And now this?!
"It doesn't concern you, Shizuo!" A vein popped at Shizuo´s forhead.
A few seconds that might have felt as if they were as long as an eternity passed by as the two simply stared at each other.
Shizuo didn´t know why Izaya was suddenly giving him this bullshit- but he had to learn from what he knew about the flea.
The last time he heard that kind of bullshit from Izaya about something not concerning him was when he ended up crying in the bathroom.
He had been lying then for some stupid reason.
Taking a shaky breath Shizuo tried to cool down.
"Why are you being so secretive?" he asked, lips in a tight line and probably sounding angry, but at least he could restrain him self to a level to not yell at the flea again or say things he didn´t mean.
"I´m not being secretive. You don´t need to know this." Izaya just evaded the qestion and got up from his place on the chair next to the bed.
Mairu looked at him, obviously slightly worried and seemed as if she was about to say something but decided it would be better to keep her mouth shut.
The raven approached the blond.
"You always keep things from me Izaya." the blond mumbled, fists tightening next to his body. "It pisses me off you know." he growled, not once breaking the eye contact with the informant.
"As I said, it doesn´t concern you." he glared back, stuffing his hands into his favourite coat´s pockets.
He had absolutely no intention to drag Shizuo any further into this mess he created himself.
Shotaro died because he thought he could follow these guys because he was too curious for his own good and wasn´t scared of any consequences.
Now he was scared. He actually knew now what it meant to be scared.
But he still didn´t get any smarter.
He had set an asassin on Shiki.
And now Kururi got shot.
He wasn´t dumb.
He knew what it meant.
Game over.
Who knew if that assasin was even still alive.
He was going to get fucked by this mess he created.
His sister already got dragged into it and he feared nothing more than Mairu and Torakichi also getting dragged into this further than they were.
But Shizuo knew nothing.
Shizuo was never really on Shiki´s field of vision.
Noone, at least in the yakusa should know about their real relationship.. or better his true feelings for the blond.
So now...
Right now, Shizuo was safe. As long as he stayed stupid and didn´t get any information, he was safe.
"It doesn´t concern you Shizuo. Not in the slightest." he repeated.
"Izaya maybe-" Izaya turned his head to glare at his grandfather.
NO.
He wasn´t going to let him ruin anything here-
"Just shut up for once okay?!" he snapped-
That old geezer was pissing him off! Always, really fucking always having the wrong timing!
"Izaya, you know, I think it would be better if you-" but Shizuo didn´t get to speak further either.
"God can´t all of you just shut up for a second?!" he hated it- he hated how everyone was just freaking doing what they wanted, just getting themselves mixed up with him more and more- "Why do you always want to talk about everything?! What good will it do, huh?!"
He was sick of dragging everyone down with him!
He was sick of trying to pretend everything was okay when it was obviously not!
"Izaya, I don't know what you´re doing but this whole secrecy will lead to nothing!"
Nothing.
Ah, that was true.
Actually for once that brute was right.
Izaya, who had been about to reply something, or rather retort something with sarcasm stopped halfway, actually thinking about what the blond said.
... he was right wasn´t he?
This whole thing and plan and everything he was doing and keeping secret would lead to nothing anyway.
NO matter what he did.
The outcome was decided now anyway, wasn´t it?
There was only one way.. to fix this entire mess..wasn´t there...?
...
He fell silent.
The blond noticed the change in Izaya´s attitude.
But it wasn´t a change that he liked at all.
"Izaya?"
He didn´t know why, but somehow his guts told him that the raven had thought of something. And it wasn´t something he would like.
"Hey-"
"Maybe you are right." The blond blinked when the raven spoke again. Cooly this time.
He wasn´t angry anymore.
"What do you mean?" Shizuo remembered what he had said, of course he did, but somehow he got a feeling Izaya meant it in a whole different way.
"This won´t lead anywhere anyway." The raven answered, his face expressionless, all former anger or any feeling at all wiped of his face.
"I can´t stay with you."
...
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Blank-
What did he-
"..wait, what?" Shizuo felt like someone had just punched him into the pit of his stomach.
He was reading this wrong right?
He had to-
"... you are joking right?" Shizuo tried, his voice way more breathy than he wanted it to be.
But Izaya just kept looking at him with a cold glance.
Dropping the last line with a cruely cold expression.
"It´s over Shizu-chan."
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Ahahahahaha~ I see fear in my readers- I see it bloom~ Just slightly, slightly they start to wonder if this story will end as well as they thought it would~ ;3
Chapters left until the end: 3
Look forward to: Chapter 35: Sacrifice
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