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"Randy What are you doing?" Cody asked as he watched Randy walk around the room grabbing his things. "I have to go. I need to see John and make sure he is ok!" Randy stated in a fit of anxiousness and worry. Cody walked over and stood in front of Randy blocking his way from the door.

"Randy you can't. If you show up and Wade does not want you there it could make things worse for John, ever think of that?" Cody asked his frightened friend only to see more fear cross Randy's face. "What? You think so? Yeah I guess your right. I just need to make sure he is alright and I can't. That bastard took his phone. I feel it Cody! John's hurting." Randy cried as he sat down onto the sofa.

Randy placed his head into his hands and let the tears flow for his injured loved one. "Please be ok baby. Please be ok." Randy whispered as he rocked with sobs for how empty he as feeling and for the fear he held inside.

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John lay curled up in the bed as he cried, all was lost now. He vowed at that moment to do as Wade wished, he did not want Randy to go through what he just had. He laid battered and bloodied, a bruised and broken man.

Wade walked back into the room and over to John. He locked eyes with the hurting man. John braced himself for the words that were about to come. These were going to be the hardest words he would ever have to speak. Breaking up with Randy was hard but the words he was about to say would break him.

"I, I love you Wade. Forgive me, I am yours." Wade could not believe his ears at first, He just looked down at John. He took his hand and laid it down on John's cheek. John flinched at Wade's touch but he knew he had to get used to being touched by the man who now claimed him.

"Lay there love, I will get the first aid kit to clean your wounds." Wade stated. He didn't really know how to take the words he had so longed too, his fantasy had come true and he didn't care what he had to do to make that happen.

John didn't speak he just allowed a tear to fall. His backside was in so much pain that he would accept help from Satan at this point. Wade removed his hand from John's cheek and walked into the bathroom. He removed a first-aid kit from underneath the sink and stepped back into his bedroom. He sighed as he watched John tremble from his wounds.

Wade sat the kit down onto the bedside table and opened it up. He pulled out some cream for the wounds but first he would have to clean them. He walked back into the bathroom and took out a washcloth and wet it with warm water. Walking back into the bedroom he frowned at the bloody mess he had left John.

"Turn onto your tummy so I can clean you." Wade stated. "God what have I done to you?" Wade thought as he walked closer to John and began to inspect the cuts the belt and his fingernails had left behind. Tears came to his own eyes as he saw the imprints of the belt buckle on John's skin.

John moved gently to his stomach so Wade could wash his back, butt and legs. Wade didn't know where to start, he had left a trail of disastrous marks along John. Gently he began to clean John's back and legs. "Why did you make me do this to you?" Wade asked as he wiped the blood from the wounds and took some cream running it along all visible wounds. "I'm sorry forgive me?" John replied.

John grasped the bed rails once more to keep from crying out in pain as Wade began to wash his crack. Wade let a few more tears fall as he cleaned the blood and cum from John's ass. "All's forgiven love. Let's just move on." Wade whispered. John had his eyes closed and could not see the remorse and guilt Wade was allowing to show. Wade was not going to allow John to see how he felt about the pain he had left behind on the older man.

"There love all done. I will leave you to rest. If you need anything just ask." Wade said, treating John as if he were a true lover. If John was going to play along he was going to allow himself the sweetness of this indulgence. "Th Thank you Wade." John said attempting to lose himself in this horrid play of love and affection.

And that was what it was a horrid play of love, for John only knew one love and that man would always own his heart. No matter what was about to be said or what he as about to do with the other man. The man who had raped him and ripped his world apart.

Wade simply smiled and left the room. He would wait for a few days before he would see if more needed to be done to John to bring him to him...

FRIDAY...

"Good morning love." Wade whispered to a naked John whom he held in his arms. The past few days had been heaven for Wade. John would do and say all the right things. At times it was as if they were truly in love. Well in Wade's eyes anyway.

"Morning Wade" John replied as he wiped the tears Wade could not see. Wade kissed John on his cheek. John turned his head and gave Wade access to his lips. His eyes were closed and Wade could not see the redness from the tears.

John parted his lips to allow Wade's tongue to enter. John tried his best to kiss back but it was hard for him, for no matter how hard he tried it was just not the lips and tongue of the man he long to have them be.

Wade pulled away from the kiss first. He heard John's stomach growl and he wanted to feed him. "Take a shower and I will make you breakfast in bed." Wade stated. John looked at Wade as if he had three eyes. "Hey I know how to cook." Wade pouted and pretended to be upset.

John gave a half smile and stood up from the bed. He was almost healed physically from the rape but emotionally he was far from well. Wade stood from the bed as well and walked over to John. He waited to see what John would do next and was surprised when John kissed his lips.

John fought back the bile that rose in his throat. He wanted only to kiss the lips of his Goldie. John gather his things for his shower. "Here. I want us to have a day in bed so you will only need your boxers." Wade stated as he removed the sweats and shirt from John's hands. "Oh Alright what ever you wish." John said in a childlike frightened voice. He didn't like what Wade was insinuating.

John understood all to well what was to come later because Wade had told him on the day he was raped that John would be giving himself to him willingly. And sadly John knew that it was just what he as going to do.

"Shower and get back in bed. I will be right back with your food." Wade stated. He had showered early this morning because he had plans for today and one of those was finally getting everything he wanted, A receptive John in his bed.

John nodded his head and walked into the bathroom where he showered, shaved and dressed in his gray boxers. He really wanted to put on his sweats but knew Wade would be angry with him if he did. The house was warm yet he felt cold. He walked from the bathroom and back into the bedroom. He climbed back into the bed and noticed Wade had placed on clean black satin sheets.

He pulled the comforter up to his neck trying his best to keep his body from trembling. He looked over to the window for the first time. For reasons he could not explain as sense of calmness came from there. He was drawn to the window yet didn't know why.

What John didn't know was that Randy stood beside the window and out of sight. Randy fought with himself for days over going to check on John. He lost the battle with himself that morning and ended up over at Wade's. Which was where he now stood at Wade's bedroom window. The window was cracked open for the unseasonably warm breeze that was flowing through. Wade had opened it that morning while John had slept.

Now Randy stood there where he could hear and see everything. So far he had heard nothing but caught a glimpse of John laying in bed with the covers pulled up tightly to his chin. He ducked when he heard the door open he took a peak at what he saw and frowned.

Wade was on his way over to the bed with a try of food for John to have breakfast in bed. Randy tried to withhold his jealousy when John smiled at Wade but damn that was just too hard for the him. What was John thinking? Why was he smiling at the man who was hurting them? Randy frowned but continued to watch on...

"Here love. I hope you like eggs and whole wheat toast. I brought you orange juice so you can keep your strength up." Wade said sweetly. John smiled and looked at Wade. "Thank you it looks good." John said. Wade sat the tray down and sat down with John. "Here open wide." Wade stated as he picked up a piece of bacon.

"Wade I can feed myself." John laughed. "Yeah I know but I want too. Open!" Wade commanded. John flinched at the harsh tone and opened his mouth to allow Wade to feed him. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you." Wade said at the look on John's face. John nodded his head and took a bite of the pork.

They sat in silence as Wade fed John and himself. Wade wiped of John's mouth and sat the dishes to the side. "That was good Wade. Thank you." John said with a smile. Wade knew the smile was not real but he was willing to play along in the hopes that John would one day have true feeling for him if John played the role long enough.

"Welcome John. Now relax I'm going to take these dishes back down to the sink and clean up. Make yourself comfy." Wade said and pick up the tray. John nodded and leaned back into the bed he watched Wade leave the room.

"Forgive me Goldie." John whispered. He sat in silence for a moment to gather the courage for what he was about to do. Moments later John sighed and stood up from the bed. Randy watched through the window as John lit several candles and turned down the lights. "Oh baby. What are you doing?" Randy thought to himself as he looked on. He noticed John had a slight limp. Wade had caused the limp he just knew it.

John jumped as the door to the bedroom opened. Wade's breath hitched at the sight of the room. It was completely romantic as red English rose peddles lined the floor to the bed where John now lay. Wade slowly made his way into the room and over to the bed.

"Wade, make love to me?" John asked. Wade's heart skipped a beat and his stomach did a happy dance. He felt as if he had just won the trillion dollar lottery. "Yes John. Oh yes Love I will make love to you." Wade stated. John removed his boxers and Wade stripped from his robe that he had been wearing.

"No this can't be! This can't be!" Randy screamed into his mind as Wade removed the lube from the drawer and began to prep John. Randy watched in horror as John held onto Wade tightly as Wade entered into him. His ears burned with every pleasurable moan that escaped his baby boys lips. Randy was in hell an all too real hell as he watched John willingly cum for Wade.

Wade laid down on top of John and kissed his lips as he came. "Mine!" Wade growled. "Yes yours! Always yours!" John cried. Knowing his true love had seen the whole thing...

Hearing those words Randy ran and ran. Running to nowhere he ended up at the beach, He did the only thing he could do. He picked up a rock and threw it out into the ocean as he screamed...

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A\N: I want to say sorry for the long delay in updates. My work weeks have became more hectic and I find I don't get to write as much as I would like. Thank you all for being so understanding and sticking with me...love always Mj :)