Nenithiel – Yeah nice to see him sort of back to his usual self.
PhoenixUniverse – It's just going tidy everything up for you. And for the record I always do happy endings no matter what.
Emmakmc – I always planned for him to be the one to kill Azog – with Fili's help of course.
Syeern – You'll find that out at the start of this chapter. And yes Kili will grow stronger from this.
Yshxf – A very long awaited revenge as well!
Mili – Yeah I'm sad this is the end. But I plan to do other Fili Kili fics in the future at some point. I did another one before this called 'My Brothers Soul' which is basically a short Fili/Kili fic if you wanted to check it out.
KiliDragonFriend – I knew the whole rape thing would upset some people but I like adding in controversial stuff with my writing. As for the idea of doing an alternative fic that sounds really cool. If you wanted you could create an account and PM me the fic if you wanted as I think reviews have a word limit to them or something. But yeah at least you get a happy ending (with Fili and Kili I will never do sad endings)
Guest – He has hasn't he? I just want to take him and hug him now.
Guest – Indeed it is sweet! And much deserved!
Everything Will Be Alright
No one said anything as they returned to the mountain. The bodies of Azog, Bolg and the rest of the dead orcs had been piled up and burnt. Kili kept close to Fili's side, not bothering to look where he was even putting his feet. Despite all the bravado he had felt earlier he couldn't stop shaking. Now everyone knew what had happened to him. How Azog had used him and dirtied him. Kili sighed. He didn't mind Fili knowing. Fili hadn't judged him. Fili still loved him. But Thorin? He wasn't so sure.
"Over here lads."
At Oin's voice Kili glanced up. The healer ushered both him and Fili towards two beds in the far corner of the infirmary. As he eased out of his armour Kili winced at how much agony he was in. Glancing over at Fili he knew his brother was in a similar state. Oin pressed a thick cloth to the wound of his chest.
"It's not too deep lad. I doubt it'll scar."
Kili giggled. It's not like it would make any difference if it did. As Fili was fussed over Kili clutched the edges of the bed desperately.
"Kili? Kili what is it?"
Kili shook his head before looking at Fili.
"I…Thorin knows."
Fili nodded slowly, "I know Kee. I was there when Azog told him what he'd done to you."
Kili shook his head again as that familiar fear began to eat away at him again.
"But he knows! He knows that Azog…he knows!"
Fili forced a smile onto his face.
"Kee, Thorin won't care. I promise you."
"But…" Kili was interrupted as Oin handed him a bottle of clear liquid.
"Drink this. It'll help with the pain."
Knowing how bad it would taste Kili braced himself before downing it in one. As the vile tasting tonic forced it's way down his throat he shuddered before pulling his tunic back on. As Fili did the same Kili couldn't help his yawn. He hadn't gotten any sleep last night and his recent injuries had pushed him to the brink of exhaustion. Fili rubbed his back.
"Let's get some sleep Kili."
"But Thorin…"
Fili shushed him, "It'll be alright Kili. I promise."
Kili went to sleep hoping that things would seem better in the morning.
They didn't.
The sick feeling hadn't left his stomach and he rubbed the sleep from his eyes in a futile effort to wake himself up. He said nothing to Fili as he dressed and when there was a knock on the door he couldn't stop himself from jumping. Fili rubbed his arm before glancing at the door.
"Who is it?"
"It's me."
At his uncle's voice Kili began shaking his head.
"No, no I can't see him. Fili please I…I can't. I won't!"
Rubbing his back Fili flashed him a soft smile.
"Kili listen to me. Thorin will not care about what Azog did to you. I promise you."
Kili carried on shaking his head but Fili was moving towards the door. Just as his brother pulled it open Kili backed himself up against the wall. Thorin gave him a tired smile and if he had to guess Kili would have said Thorin hadn't gotten any sleep either.
"Good morning," he glanced over at Fili, "I wondered if I could speak with Kili…alone?"
Fili nodded before taking Kili's hand.
"I'll be right outside Kee. I promise."
To prove his point he walked into the corridor and planted himself opposite the doorway. Kili gave him a small smile which suddenly vanished as Thorin shut the door behind him.
"Kili."
Kili shook his head, "I'm sorry. I so sorry uncle."
"I..?" Thorin shook his head, "Kili I don't understand? Why are you apologising?"
"Because…because of what Azog did to me."
Thorin's face was unreadable and in three long strides he stood right before Kili. As his uncle pulled him in for a hug Kili couldn't help his gasp.
"You have nothing to apologise for Kili," Thorin's voice was starting to waver, "What that piece of filth did wasn't your fault."
"But Fili wouldn't have let it happen. You wouldn't have let it happen. But I did. I did because I'm weak and stupid!"
Thorin said nothing and instead tightened his grip with one arm whilst stroking Kili's hair with the other. Kili clung to his uncles tunic in the hope of muffling his sobs.
"It was horrible," he mumbled, "I couldn't stop him. All I could do was cry. He kept laughing – they all did."
Thorin kissed his forehead before letting go of Kili who held his shaking hands together.
"Listen to me Kili. What happened to you doesn't define who you are as a person. You aren't stupid. You're one of the smartest people I know. And you are far from weak. To have gone through six months of torture at the hands of orcs and to still be standing – never mind still fighting – that takes more than just courage Kili. What Azog did, it's always going to hurt. But I know you're strong enough to stop it from controlling you. To stop it from deciding who you are going to become."
Kili gave a small gulp as Thorin rubbed his arms.
"Was I shocked when I found out that you have been hurt like that? Yes I was. But the second I knew any blame I felt was directed at Azog. I only wish I had been able to make him pay for it. But I'm so very happy that you and your brother did."
Bowing his head Kili nodded as Thorin turned and opened the door.
"Fili, I'd like to speak to you now please."
Kili looked up to see Fili enter. The second his brother was standing beside him he took his hand. Thorin eyed them both and Kili was shocked to see tears in his uncles eyes.
"When I saw you and Azog…" Thorin broke off and stroked Kili's hair, "It was like my nightmares coming true. I was so worried I'd lose you both today. No matter that you are my heirs; you are my family and I would do everything it took to make sure you are both safe and happy. Had I had this attitude several months ago then none of this would have ever happened."
He glanced at the pair, "I know I sometimes allow my temper to get the better of me. But I hope in the future I can control it better. But even if I sometimes can't; know that nothing you can do will ever stop me loving you."
Nodding Kili smiled at Thorin who kissed him and Fili on the forehead before his uncle moved away. Kili didn't say anything until the bedroom door was shut and the sound of Thorin's footsteps died away. When that had happened he sat down on his bed and drew his knees against his chest. Fili rubbed his arm gently.
"Thank you," Kili stammered. Fili raised an eyebrow.
"For what?"
"For…" Kili didn't know what to say. He owed everything to Fili and yet thank you seemed so inadequate. However he gave a nervous swallow and smiled back.
"For being my brother."
So here we are at the end! Big thanks to everyone who has followed/favorited/reviewed or even just read this story because it means the world to me and I love you all so much! Stay tuned in though because I have another Fili/OC fic coming in two or three weeks. Let me know what you all think xxx
