Let The Wrong One In

by Lok2685

A new Vampire has come and made his home in Fork, a vampire with unusual abilities. He finds a mentor and friend in Carlisle and an unforeseen love with Leah. But when his past intercedes with his future, which road shall he take; revenge or peace.

36. Chapter 36:Emotional Upheaval

Chapter 36: Emotional Upheaval

A/N: I hope you enjoy

Jeremiah's POV

It is a hard thing to discover how much damage a parent can really cause to their children. I know that I had never abused him in any way and God help me if I ever did, he is my son and I love him so very much. But I cant help but feel responsible for everything that is going on, "The Sins of the Father are visited upon the children" is the one statement that keeps on running in my head. It is out fault that he is going through all of this, we caused this and it was our job, no our duty as his parents to help him through; to help him control what he is or it will consume us all.

"What's going on in that beautiful mind of yours?" asked my love, she always had a way of breaking me out of my revelry. We both knew that whenever either one of us had a problem all we had to do was find comfort in the other and it would all go away.

"Just thinking babe," I told her as I looked out the window into the night's sky. This town was really something; of all the places I had been to in this world I could never get over the fact that this small town was the hotbed of a lot of supernatural activity. Vampires and Shape shifters were scattered through out this area more so than probably anywhere else in the world.

"Bullshit love, you are blaming yourself aren't you?" she asked

I sighed, it was the first time in over 15 years that I wished that she didn't know me the way she did, she could read me like a fucking open book.

"I can't help it Lele, we did this to him and it is our fault that he is going through all of this," I told her

She didn't say anything, I just heard her sigh then I sense the weigh of the bed start to lessen and the next thing I knew I felt her arms around my waist and her head on my shoulder blade.

We just stood there for so long that we completely lose track of time, eventually when all the lights from the houses around us had been turned off Leah grab my hand and pull me to our bed. It felt like she was melted to me as I laid on top of her and as I kissed her I felt the tension that was coursing throughout her body, she began to pull on my shirt telling me that she wanted it off; I did the same to her and she complied readily. Half of me was yelling telling me that we shouldn't do this with everything that is going on around us but the other is telling me that I need her, that I need this. I palmed her breast in my hand as I sucked her neck, she had to bite into my shoulder so that when she moaned it would be muffled and she did that a lot. Her hands began to move downwards as she unzipped me and took me in her hands and started to go to work.

"Fuck," I breathed out as she began to go faster and faster, she had this mischievous look on her face, she knew that she always had this affect on me.

"That's so not fair," I said as I nibbled on her ear lobe

"I need you in me now," she commanded as I looked into her pleading eyes; I knew she needed this as much as I did. As she began to wiggle out of her PJ's I saw that she was going commando, the first thing I did was circle her folds with my fingers she had always liked when I teased her a little so I began to rub harder and harder. I looked into the dark chocolate eyes and I saw that she was ready she then took me and slid me in, both of us groaned; I couldn't help but look into her eyes as I went in and out of her. A few times she closed her eyes shut as started biting into her lower lip.

"Harder Daddy, fuck me harder," she whispered into my ear. It wasn't something she always did but from time to time she would talk dirty to me, I'm not going to lie and say that I didn't like, she knew how to use that gutter mouth of hers to turn me on.

So I followed her instructions and I went harder and faster, as I kissed her I tasted her blood that was in her mouth and I knew that she had drawn blood when she had been biting her lip. It was so good and I felt like drinking all of her, but I needed to put my attention on something else so lowered my hand to her ass and I began to squeeze and lift it up so that I could plunge in deeper. It was so rough yet I couldn't help but find it to be one of the most loving experiences that her and I had ever had. It was went on for a long while just like every other time, eventually her body began to convulse, which meant that she wouldn't be longer; as her wall began to close in on me I knew that I would be following her shortly. When I was done letting go it felt like all of the tension was gone, it was just she and I. I placed my head in between her breasts and I began to sob, she wrapped her arms around my head.

She didn't say anything at all, normally she would have been like, "It's okay baby, you did nothing wrong we didn't know what we were getting into when we had him but he is son and we will deal with this as a family," but she didn't. It must be so terrifying for her to have seen her baby like that.

I knew what I had to do; there was no way that I was going to let her be with us when this happened. And if she was conscious then they would have killed to be there, so I began kissing the side of her breast then I moved my hand downwards and started to finger her. Her panting become heavier and heavier and when I entered her again I knew that she would be done a lot quicker than the first time. I used my endurance and I began to go at it; she came a bunch of times, I knew that it was time to let go when I heard her start to mumble my name instead of moaning it. Once I was done, I saw that she was so tired that she was already half asleep. I lifted her up and put her in her PJ's back on her and I buttoned up the flannel shirt that she stole from me and used as her own. Then I put on blanket over her and get off of the bed and I put my own pants on and grabbed my jacket and keys and headed out the door.

Chris' POV

You know how they say live everyday like its your last, well that's what I am afraid. There is a beast inside of me that is dying to come out and play, its like there is something crawling inside of me clawing at my skin; trying to consume me, to take over me and I am afraid that I will never be able to come back. So every second that I lay in this bed is one second closer to letting the world see what I really am. I feel like I am being torn in half, one side of me is trying to hold on to the happiness that I had lived in for the last 16 years, the loving family, the great friends, the girl whose arms were wrapped around my waist as she snored. And the other half wanted to let go of everything, I wanted the other half of me to come out and play; I may not have remembered much but I do remember the power and the freedom that came with what I became is something that I so want to feel again. I was faster, stronger, more agile than I had ever believed to be possible. Was this how my father felt his entire time as a vampire? Is this what my mother felt when turned into a wolf? I don't know but I couldn't wait to find out.

What the hell am I saying? Do I really want to become something that people fear? That people shy away from? Then I looked down and saw Bianca in my arms and thought to myself what if she found out what I was? What if I hurt her in my rage? Could I ever recover from that and by the way why is when you count the time does it move like a snail. My mind was racing so much that I couldn't even close my eyes.

Then I heard it, the light pounding of the door

The door opened and I saw the shadow of my father, our eyes met. He was motioning me to follow him, so I lightly took the arm that was draped over me and lifted it up so that I could get up off of the bed. I grabbed the jacket that was on my chair and put my shoes on and I followed the old man out of the house. As we drove in silence, it was complete dark and I couldn't see my dad expect for when the streetlights hit him as we drove through the deserted town. Finally we reached were he wanted to take me; it was the place where they told me what I really was. Was this going to be the place where all of the big moments in my life were going to happen?

Again silence as we walked into the forest

"You remember more then you let on," was the first time that he said to me. It wasn't even a question, had I let on more than I thought

"I've been on this earth a lot longer you or your mother have; I have seen things that no one should ever have to see and I know what it means to have true power to be faster and stronger than anyone else on this earth. So trust me when I tell you that I know how it feels to be you and above all else I know what it is to hide what I really am from the world, from the ones that I love. It's a hard thing when you know that no one alive can kill you well I mean until now. I take it that when you are in that other form, that you are stronger and faster than even me. So right now I want you to be honest with me, do you remember what happened?" he asked me

"Not everything that happened, but I do remember the power and I do remember how much I loved it," I told him; he knew that this much so might as well be completely honest with him

"And you want to experience that again?" he asked

I couldn't believe it, it didn't make sense was he really asking me that question. I know that mom would have done everything in her power to stop me

I nodded but I did it hesitantly

"Look I not going to lie to you and tell you that this is one of my smarter moves and that your mother is on broad with this. If she could do it she would take all away from you, but here is the thing we caused this. I'm not saying that you were a mistake or that I regret the fact that we had you because I don't; I love you are my son, you are all the best parts of Mother and I. this is something that we have to deal with as a family, and it something that I could never take away from you because I know that I would never let anyone take what I am away from me. so I am going to help you so that you can control what you are so that you can experience that power again. I know I am playing with fire but it has to be done; I have to see what you for myself," he told me

And the next thing I knew I heard this snarl come from him, I had never been more scared in my life; then he was gone

"Come on boy, let's see what you are made?" I heard him say

I didn't know what to do so I just did what I did last time but that didn't work and then I remembered that it was Jasper who was fucking with my emotions. I just couldn't do it, I couldn't get so angry that I could shift.

"I can't Dad, last time it was Jasper who made me change," I told him

"Son it wasn't Jasper who did this, it was you, it will always be you he just pushed you in the right direction," he told me

I just thought about what my Dad had just told me but the more and more I pondered it I just couldn't get over the fact that I couldn't do this on my own. I mean I am a reserved individual for the most part and I knew that I didn't have the abilities of Jasper or the control of my emotions like my Dad did.

"Maybe we are looking at this from the wrong perspective, maybe we have to try something instead of me trying to scare you into changing. You remember Maggie, right?" he asked me

I nodded; anytime I thought about my Irish family I always picture Uncle Liam and Aunt Siobhan but Maggie was always there, we weren't close at all. I mean I called her Aunt Maggie but that was more for the purposes of respect that I was taught to give my elders but it wasn't because I ever saw her as that. She and my Mother never got along so I only ever saw her a few times throughout my life. Aunt Siobhan and Uncle Liam that was another story, they came a few times a year, mostly during the holidays though.

"Maggie and I were together for awhile, as in we were a couple but this was before I ever met your mother or even knew of the existence of her kind. It was when I was new to the life, it was a period of time where I had no control over my emotions, of course you know that I don't remember anything before you were one but I talked with everyone and they gave me the rundown of my life especially Maggie who describe to me the time we sent together. And the reason why she never comes around anymore is because she is still in love with me, I'm not trying to tell you this so it seems like I have woman falling love with me all over I am just telling you because your Mother knows this and those kind do not get along mainly because since you were born she has on several occasions tired to get me to leave you and your Mother to be with her. Obviously I love your Mother more than life itself; she is my world, she is the other half of my heart and soul but so are you son. You are the best of me, I am so proud of you for everything you have ever done in your life. So I would never leave you guys for her, see for as great of a person she, she could never be your Mother. Anyways, she told me about the anger issues I had when I met them and how she helped me to overcome them so that I could control them. She then taught me everything all over again so that if I ever came into a situation where I lost control of my emotions that I knew what I had to do to control them better. So now I am going to teach you the same techniques that I was taught, I don't know maybe you will be able to shift but I am guaranteeing you anything; remember this is the first lesson and not everyone is able to grasp control of their emotions in one try," he told me

All of these revelations that he had told really didn't surprise me, I mean the more and more I thought about it I knew that it all made. Why Maggie never came around, how my Father is able to be in such control of who he is and how he truly felt about my Mother. I mean I know he loved her so much, you could tell by the way he just stared at her sometimes but I never really heard him put it into words. Although I did know that he had told her all of this, because my Mother is the type of person that wants to know every single thing and when she didn't know she would pester you into telling her.

"Okay now I want you to sit down on the ground Indian style and then I want you to close your eyes, I will instruct you on what you need to do next," he told me

I followed his instructions to the tee, I wondered whether or not he was staring at me, so I opened my eyes and saw that was seated in the same position that I was

"Didn't I tell you to close your eyes?" he asked, I knew that he was saying that in a joking manner. It felt nice to laugh about something but the last couple of days had been anything but that.

After a few moments of humor it was down to business, he started to give me instructions, which I followed instantly

After a few hours of this I was able to feel the emotion coursing through my body and I could sense the ability to make myself have emotion that I wanted. The only subject that we didn't touch was sex, which I was thankful for because that would be the strangest experience that him and I would ever have and we both wanted no part of it.

"That's it for today," he eventually said

I opened my eyes and saw that he was now standing and that he was checking his watch

"What time is it?" I asked him as soon as I was on my feet and had made my way over to him

"Umm 3 in the morning, I think that it was best if we head back to the house before your Mother and Bianca wake up. By the way how are you feeling?" he asked me

"Better", I answered honestly

"Yeah that's what usually happens, Maggie said that as soon as your gain any amount of control over your emotions that the first thing you feel is utter relief as if all of your problems seem to go away," he said to me

I nodded

"That's exactly how I feel right now," I told him

"The next step is the hardest, that is when we start to expand the threshold of your emotions, be prepared my son because tomorrow or even later today if you like we will do this all over again but be warned that you will be the angriest you will ever be probably more than what you felt when you changed. Maybe it will cause the change to occur all over again, who knows? But one thing is for sure, you will want to rip someone's head off," he told me as we walked back to the car.

The car back was silent expect for the sound of the radio, the wonders of Satellite radio; we could listen to anything that we wanted, eventually I stop on this rock station that we would always listen to whenever we were in the car together

We got home a few minutes later and we quietly walked to the stairs, we embraced

"It will be okay son, we are always going to be here for you and we will never let you to go through this alone," he whispered

"Thanks Dad," is all I could say without the crying session would begin. It knew that if I did shed tears would not be those of sadness or fear, they would be tears of joy; that my family would always be there was something that made me feel an enormous sense of pride.

I walked up to my room and I quietly opened the door and went inside

I took my jacket off and placed it on the chair

"Where did you go?" asked Bianca

"Fuck woman, can you try not to scare me to death," I told her trying not to raise my voice, which would wake me Mom up and would put my Dad in trouble, but then I remembered that the both of them have superhuman hearing so they probably heard everything that I had ever done in this room, what I thought.

"Well what the fuck do you think you did to me, I wake to find that you are gone and when I walked around a little bit I see that you are gone and so is your Dad's car. I expect when I fall asleep in your arms that I would also wake up in them and not be alone," she said to me. It might have been a whisper but it was far worse than if she had yelled it.

I put my head down and I walked over to the bed and laid down next to her, I stroked her cheek with the back of my hand

"I'm sorry for worrying you, I know that I shouldn't have down that and I am sorry for that. My Dad wanted to talked to me for a while so we drove around time for a few hours and eventually we just stopped and talked. B there is something that is going that I haven't told you about but I promise that I will," I told her

"You know that you could tell me anything and that I will never judge; so don't hide for me," she told me. I knew that she was pleading with me to tell her what was going on, she is so smart that I know that she has been picking up on the tension that I had been carrying around the last couple of days.

"I know and you know that I tell you everything without even thinking about it, so with that being said I have to keep this to myself for a little while. Know that it is not something that I can tell you, it is something that I have to show you and that until I am able to control it I won't be able to let you in on everything that has been going out of fear of hurting you," I told her

She sighed; she knew that I was being honest, which meant that she could argue with me.

"You better or I will never speak with you again," she threatened

I nodded

"And one more thing, I could be doing this with any other guy in this town so with that being said don't feel like you can take me or this for granted," she told me, I knew that the worst was over and that she was back to being herself.

"Trust me I won't and you don't have to worry I could never do this with anyone else," I said as I laid on my back and wrapped my arms around her. I could feel her melt into me, like all the fears that she had were completely gone and we were just two kids that had known everything about each other instead of two people that had secrets driving a wedge between them.

"Goodnight baby," she said to me

She never called me that, had we gotten into a relationship without me knowing. Then I looked down at her and saw that she was sleeping peacefully and I just let go of all of the questions in my head and followed her into the dream world.

Jeremiah's POV

I heard not only the closing of Chris' door as he entered the room but I also heard some of the conversation that he was having with Bianca; I didn't stick around too long because I knew that they had to work through their problems together and that neither his mother or I should interfere. I entered the room and I knew instantly that Leah was awake.

"That was an awful thing that you did," she said to me

I sighed deeply and walked over to the bed and took my shoes off

"I'm really sorry love but he needed this more than you could ever know," I told her

"Don't worry I'll be fine I just wished you would have told me," she said

"Well if I did then you would have stopped me," I told her

"Fair enough, but we make these decisions as a couple whether or not they come out the way we wanted it we know that we will do this as a family," she told me

I nodded

"Exactly what the hell happened out there?" she asked

I told her that what happened in the forest and how I used the techniques that Maggie had taught me and showed them to our son.

"Did you guys make any head? She asked, I looked over at her and saw that she was no longer wearing the flannel. She was topless with just her P.J's on.

"You didn't think I would be playing fair, did you?" she asked

"I guess not, anyways we made progress. I mean we are no where near the point where he has complete control of his emotions, which would lead to him being able to control what he is. I mean no offense to you my darling or anyone who can do what you do but we are dealing with a huge other beast literally and figuratively. From what everyone has described to me about what he can do I know that his powers levels got to be off the charts. He is probably faster and stronger than all of us, the body and mind need to be conditioned to the point where the amount of power he is dealing with doesn't consume him" I responded

"Come to bed baby, we will deal with all of this later," she said to me

I nodded and went over to her, the smile on her face grew as my lips got closer to hers. Then "I" got closer to her, I knew that I had to repay her for what I did tonight.

"Why is it that every time after we have sex, you smell so much better than before we do it?" she asked me

"It's cause I have your scent all over me," I answered

"Good answer," she stated

"You know, I thought so too," I said

"We have to do this more often," she said

"Leah, we do it two to three times a day," I told her

"Well don't you want it more often?" she asked

"Leah, if we did it as many times as I want to then we would never leave the house," I responded

"I kinda like that idea," she said, I knew that there was this dumb grin on her face

"Leah," is all I said. I didn't even need to say more she knew that we couldn't do that

We didn't speak for a while after that, I just let her lay in my arms. I then began to feel her tighten her grip on me.

"Shh baby, it's going to be alright. I love you," I whispered into her hair

"I love you too honeybunny," she said

"We will deal with this as a family I promise," I told her

"Okay I just don't want to lose our son," she said to me

"I know but you have to have faith in the fact that he will always be our son regardless of what happens. All we can do is let it all play out and maybe just maybe the chips will fall in our favor," I said

"I remember when he could fit in the palm of my hand," she said

"He will always be our son Leah but remember all children grow up. Did you really think that he would stay your little boy forever?" I asked

"No," she said

The lair

"Leah, our son is our son regardless of his age, he is just bigger, faster and stronger than he use to be," I told her

"Sure sure," she said

I just shook my head as I began to feel her body relax to the point where I knew that it was only a matter of time before she was completely out.

I just sat back and began to recall the events that have led to this point in our lives, it was going to be a long night of thinking.

Chris's POV

The next few weeks passed by quicker than I thought they would, I went back to school a few days after that night with my Dad in the forest. The problem was that Bianca didn't go back till I did, which made the rumors start. That we went to Vegas and got married, that she was pregnant, that I killed her and was burying the body; they couldn't believe that we were sick, I mean my parents had to sit in the principal's office and explain that we had caught a bug and that we weren't in school because of it. I still hadn't told Bianca what was really going on and I knew that she was starting to become frustrated by everything. I told that I would tell her as soon as I could but that was like placing a band-aid on a broken bone, it wasn't going to do jack shit. Every night she slept in my room, i knew that my parents didn't like it but my Mom was a lot more understanding of it than I thought she would be, I think that she might have gone through the same thing that Bianca was going through but she didn't want to admit it or even talk about it. I knew that my Dad never would have worried her this much so it would have to have been someone else but I didn't have the heart to bring up any pain from my Mother's pass, she has had enough pain for several lifetimes.

We had also been working more and more on trying to get me to control my emotions, I knew that Mom wanted to be there as much as she could, which meant every single time. But after the first session that she came to she stopped going, I knew that she didn't to see me this way; so angry, so full of emotional upheaval as my Dad called it. It was just the two of us in the forest most afternoons after I had finished my homework. I knew I was getting better and better this everyday, but I didn't think that I was ready to have control over changing. I knew that I could get myself so angry that I could do it but it wouldn't have been able to control therefore I didn't even want to try. Last week Jake and Uncle Seth started coming with us, just in case Dad said that I was almost ready to have control over it; I wasn't so sure about it but I trusted him.

"Okay, I think that you are ready," he said to me

I nodded, but I did it hesitantly.

"Guys I need you to change," he said to Jake and Uncle Seth

They nodded and ran off into the forest, a few seconds later they came back as wolves.

"Son are you ready?" he asked

"I'm as ready as I'll ever be," I told him

He nodded and got into a defensive position

I began to let the emotions course through me letting the stronger emotions envelope me; anger, sadness, utter joy they all went through my body. I began to see it, I began to feel it; he was coming out to play. I felt my body start to convulse but it was like I was no longer in charge; it was like I was playing a video game, I could do anything I wanted to do but I wouldn't feel any of it. I looked down at my Father and saw that he looked half worried and half amazed. Jake and Uncle Seth looked ready for battle.

"Okay now I want you to start to channel your emotions and tie them your body," he told me

I didn't know what the hell he was talking about, so I just started thinking about moving my body forward without wanting to kill anything. My feet moved, I looked down at them in amazement that it actually worked.

"Okay, that was great now I want you to start to get a feel of your surroundings," he told me

Now this I could do, I started to look around and began to see where everything was. I squinted my eyes and saw that I could see several miles into the forest; I saw the line where the Quileute broader was. I could smell Jake and Uncle Seth but not my Father, then I remembered what he told me, that he didn't leave a scent, I could also smell the trees and the animals around us.

"You are smelling everything, aren't you?" he asked

I nodded

"Now I want you to try and talk," he said

I tired to get my vocal cords to work but I just couldn't, I looked at him and I shook his head.

"Its okay don't worry about that, we will try that later," he told me

I nodded

"Holy crap, this is really working"

"I know I didn't think that this was possible"

I whipped my head in the direction of the sounds but I saw Jake and Uncle Seth just standing there, looking at me.

I looked back at my Dad, who was reading the whole situation

"Were you guys just talking?" he asked them

They both nodded

He then looked over at me

"You heard their conversation, did you?" he asked

I nodded

"Holy shit dude you can hear us?" asked a voice

I looked over and saw that it was Uncle Seth who was talking

I nodded

"Wow," is all my father could say

We all just stood there for a long while

"Are you tired?" asked Dad

I shook my head, I felt great

"Can you run?" he asked

I nodded

He smiled and then I saw him begin to trot deeper into the forest, he then looked back and me and motioned for me to follow him. I did, at first it took me some time to get a feel for my legs but eventually I began to run like any normal person would. I didn't see him but he was talking the entire time so I just followed the sound of his face, then I began to notice that I was right next to him.

"Good, you are almost as fast as me," he said

Then he stopped

"I want to see how strong you are," he said he point to a tree

I went over to it and then I looked back at him and he nodded

So I punched the tree, it buckled and I saw that it was about to tumble over

"Wow, I knew it you are twice as strong as Emmett," he said

I smiled

This went on for a long while, he put me through of all these steps to see what I could and couldn't do. We established that my strength and speed were as fast as any of the family and twice as strong as anyone.

"Okay now, I want you to let go of all your emotions," he said

I relaxed myself, then I began to think about how to do that. So I just stopped thinking. Then all of sudden I began to feel sleepy, I just closed my eyes and went to sleep.