Chapter 35:

Destiny :

Later that evening after spending the entire day following Korsak around and learning the ropes of her new job Jane instead of going home decided to invite Maura to pick her up and to join her on the roof.

Around 8 pm her forearms resting on the edge of the building Jane was admiring the lights of city remembering the first time she took Maura on the roof of her old precinct. It was months ago and she still remembered it very clearly : Maura and her were supposed to go on their first official date after already spending a lot of time together at Maura's house. Unfortunately Jane had to stay late and watch hours of surveillance tape in relation with a murder investigation. Closing her eyes feeling the wind on her face Jane remembered how she felt when Maura walked into the squad room with her dinner. She remembered taking Maura on that roof and having dinner with her falling in love with her a little bit more every second. Back then things were easy, they hadn't talked about their future, jealousy or even sex yet but Jane knew right after taking Maura home that she was the one.

Tonight Jane felt the exact same certainty. After 9 months of relationship Maura and her had been through rough things, even dramatic events but they always seemed to overcome every challenges making their relationship stronger. Yes standing on that roof Jane had no doubt that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Maura, for better and for worse until death do them part.

Pushing the door giving her access to the roof Maura immediately saw Jane and couldn't help but noticing how peaceful she looked watching over the city.

"Jane?" Maura asked walking towards Jane.

"Maura, you're here." Turning around seeing the smile on Maura's face, that smile that took her breath away every time.

Inviting Maura to join her at the edge of the building, wrapping her arms around her Jane felt shivers down her spine. Holding Maura in her arms looking down at the beautiful city she had sworn to protect Jane never felt to complete in her entire life. Standing here Jane suddenly felt that every terrible things that happened to her, or to them as a couple were now just bad memories, but memories that should never be forgotten because it lead them right here right now, to that very special moment that Jane knew was going to change their lives for ever.

"Do you remember the first time I took on on a roof like this?"Resting her head on Maura's shoulder smelling her perfume Jane knew that Maura wouldn't have forgotten that evening but wanted to hear her tell it to her, she needed to know how Maura felt that night.

"Of course I remember. Even if we had spend a lot of time together we never had went on a real date Unfortunately you got called on a double homicide and spend the evening watching surveillance tapes looking for a suspect. So I decided to bring you dinner knowing that would probably skip dinner if I didn't. I remember that you took me here telling me that it was your safe place, that you came here when you needed to think."

"Do you remember how you felt?"

"Yes, I felt grateful that you trusted me enough to take me here, to share this place with you. I remember the night was beautiful just like tonight and the stars were shining so much tat we barely needed artificial light. I remember being so nervous that I couldn't stop talking but you never complained. You ate your dinner and listening to me looking at me like if I were the most gorgeous woman on earth. You made me feel beautiful that night and important and when we went into the elevator afterwards, even before you took me to the morgue and we were holding hands, I knew right there that you were the one. " Talking about that first date Maura could recall with precision how she felt because she was still feeling the exact same way.

Even after 9 months of dating she still felt like the most beautiful woman in the world. Jane had this way of looking at her with such love and devotion that would made Maura feel like the most important woman in the world. That's one of the thing Maura loved about Jane, not only she made her feel safe but she truly listened to her and cared about her feelings, she was attentive and patient with her which was more than she could say about her parents or anyone else for that matter. Maura knew that could be herself with Jane, that she didn't need to censor herself or act differently and somehow it made her free to be more herself without feeling ashamed of it or embarrassed like she felt her entire life.

"I felt the same and I still do." Jane replied taking a step back and a deep breath.

"Jane..."Watching her girlfriend going down on one knee taking a small box of her pocket Maura's heart stopped. She couldn't breath or apprehend what was happening.

"Maura, I'm crazy about you. I don't know how I fell in love with you or what you did to seduce me, but all I know is that I was so lost and I found myself when I found you. I don't believe in destiny, I think that we are born with free will and that we make our own choices and build our own paths but I feel that you and me were destined to meet. I remember how my life was before we met, I remember sleeping with all those women and waking up every morning a bit more miserable feeling that I was loosing a little bit of my soul every time I had sex with someone new. I'm not exaggerating when I'm saying that I was literally drowning, drowning in my own crap, in my own inability to trust or to love and I never thought I would ever be able to recover. Fortunately you came along and without judging me you gave me a chance. You taught me to love, to trust and give myself to you without hoping for anything back, you literally brought me back to life Maura. I don't have many certainties but the thing I know for sure is that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, loving you, taking care of you, showing you every day that I'm worthy of the trust you put in me. " Taking a deep breath, tears running down her cheek Jane opened the little blue box and finally said those words Maura had been dying to hear for months."Doctor Maura Isles, will you do me the extreme honor or becoming my wife?"

Looking down at Jane, seeing the tears streaming down her cheek Maura burst in tears as well. After everything they went through since they started dating Maura finally felt that this was the happy ending they both wanted and deserved.

"Yes Detective Rizzoli I'll marry you." Maura replied kneeling in front of Jane.

Pushing the ring on her finger Jane never felt so proud in her entire life. Being with Maura was probably the hardest thing she ever did in her entire life, trusting her, loving her changing who she was for her but it also felt like the most natural thing she ever did. Obviously Jane had wanted to ask Maura to marry her for a long time but didn't believe they were ready. Up until today she felt that they were both to immature to get married, that they needed to learn to talk to each other, and to trust each other if they wanted to spend the rest of their lives together. Also after the shooting Jane didn't feel like herself anymore. She felt so diminished having to let Maura dress her and cut her meal, not to mention she had those terrible nightmares and was scared to death to go back to work. Luckily for her Jane had Maura by herse side helping her, supporting her in her recovery and today as she was working her first day as Detective Jane realized that she didn't need to be completely healed to ask Maura to marry her. All she needed was to trust Maura and her ability to help her knowing that no matter how many curves balls destiny would throw at them they would always overcome them because they were a team.

So guys, I wrote so many proposal chapters that it's getting pretty boring. So I see this story coming to an end. I can see up to 5 chapters before I finish it. I know you guys don't review as much as you used to and that's a pretty good indicator that it's time for me to end this story but giving it the ending it deserves! As always ideas and reviews are more than welcome!