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CH36 – Real Deep

Peeta POV

Could things be any more awkward? Whatever could have happened between me and Katniss looks impossible now. I have ruined any opportunity of something with Katniss. It feels like my whole world has led to that one moment, that one moment that I completely fucked up!

"dude, all hope isn't lost" Finnick try's his hardest to reassure me, but how do you reassure someone who just had the one thing that was keeping them sane in this fucked up world completely push them away? I should have just kept my mouth shut on the kayak back. I should have just enjoyed her company instead of telling her I want to be more. Katniss doesn't understand how long I have waited though, she has always been there. She started at my school in 6th grade and the pre-puberty me couldn't take his eyes off her. Finnick might have only found out 6 days ago but I have liked her since I first laid eyes on her. Katniss had already lost her dad when I met her, I mean she was the new girl at school and word spreads fast so the whole school knew about it by her first week.

Now I'm in 12th grade and I have been chasing after the brown-haired, grey eyed girl for 6 years. To be honest it is pretty sad and I know it. I'm like a crazed stalker, watching her in the hallways of school, glancing at her during class. I actually think I could be classified as a creep. But that doesn't matter anymore because I fucked up that one moment, the one moment that I had been fantasizing about since 6th grade and I fucked it up. Why did I ask her to be more than friends when we have only been on talking terms for 6 fucking days! I'm such a fucking idiot!

"Peeta, 10 minutes ago you were touching her boobs and now you're flipping out that you fucked things up? She let you touch her fucking boobs!" Finnick tells me and it is true. I couldn't have fucked everything up if she let me touch her boobs but still. I groan loudly and flip over in my sling bed so my face is in the pillow.

"I told her I fucking wanted to be more than friends and she rejected me… you can't say that I didn't fuck things up" I say into the pillow and I hear Finnick's chuckle.

"Peeta made his first move on a girl and she turned him down" he says and laughs harder.

"Shut the fuck up!" I say flinging my pillow at him. It hits him right in the head and his laughing dies down. The clears his throat and regains his composure.

"Well… if a girl lets you touch her boobs, she is defiantly not mad" Finnick states and I roll my eyes. Of course he would know this.

"It was a dare! She wasn't allowed to resist, remember?" I say as I flop back down onto my bed.

"But that doesn't mean she wouldn't" Finnick says and I look up at him. He raises his eyebrows at me and I can't help but smirk. Of course Katniss would have resisted if she didn't want me to touch her boobs, she isn't one to follow rules anyway.

"Whatever" I mutter, looking back up to the dark green canvas roof of our tent "wanna go grab some food? I'm starving" I ask Finnick, looking back to him. He has a stupid grin on his face but is looking at the ground.

"Finnick?" I say after he doesn't reply for an extended period of time.

"Umm… I have a date-thing with Annie" he says and I have to look back at the roof to resist from laughing my head off. Finnick Odair on a date?!

"Have I got sand in my ear or did Finnick Odair just say he had a date with Annie Cresta?" I ask him with my eyebrows raised. He looks up to me and rolls his eyes.

"Yeah, you dickhead, I have a date" he says and I begin to laugh. He scoffs and then slumps down onto his bed.

"Is the famous Panem High player, Finnick Odair, finally retiring in his final year of school?" I ask him teasingly and this time I'm the one being hit with a pillow. I begin laughing again and Finnick scowls at me.

"But Annie actually wears clothes! You 2 just seem so completely opposite! She likes books, keeping to herself and staying at home regularly whereas you like sex, having as many people around you as possible and going to parties every night" I say to him and he turns to face me.

"I feel like I want to change when I'm with her, I want to forget about the parties, the girls, the drinks. I want to be with her, she is like a dolphin and I'm a shark that wants to be a dolphin" Finnick says; he was never good with words. "she is so sweet and caring, she is self-conscious and quiet and makes me want to live a life where I don't wonder when the next party is but when the next time I get to be with her is" Finnick says softly and I have to use everything in me not to burst out laughing and begin mocking him about how emotional and fucking deep his words were.

"That's… deep, man…. Real deep" I say, still holding back the laughter.

"Yeah, fuck you! Just because you don't know what it is like because you're a virgin!" Finnick says and I roll my eyes.

"We'll have a great date" I say to Finnick, slightly pissed that he brought this up again.

"I will thanks" Finnick says and with that, he gets up and leaves the tent. Well, fuck.