A few-hours later and Adam had awoken. He wandered downstairs, still half-asleep. Kirsty and Jess were sat in the living-room together having a laugh together as Adam enetered. They both looked-at him.
"Ah hello sleepy-head." Kirsty said sweetly as she stood-up to go and greet-him with a kiss and a cuddle.
"Heyyy." He said, mid-yawn.
"Heyyy wakey-wakey." She said with a cheeky-smile as her hands rested on his shoulders, then she kissed-him.
"Kirsty and I need to talk to you." Jess butted-in, purposely interupting their-kiss, just to be cheeky.
Adam placed his hands on Kirsty's waist as Jess disturbed their kiss. "Oh...Okayyy, talk to me about what?" Adam asked.
Kirsty sighed, he was still half-asleep. "Lucy Darlin'." She said softly as she took his hand then sat on the sofa, waiting for Adam to sit next to her.
"Lucy, what about her? Is she okay?" Adam asked, slightly panicked, as he sat-down next to Kirsty.
"Sweetheart she's fine." Kirsty informed him as she placed her hand onto Adam's knee. "We were talking-about our plan to adopt her."
"No, no, no, that was Your plan Kirst, Not-Mine." Adam stated.
"I know Darlin' I'm sorry, yeah, yeah, My plan." She corrected herslef as her hand-reached-up to Adam's hair, and softly played with-it.
There was an awkward-silence, and Kirsty inparticularly was feeling the awkwardness, it was what she wanted, not Adam, and she didn't have the history that Adam and Jess did. She wasn't jealous, but it was a strange feeling for Kirsty, talking about kids to Adam and Jess when they had infact lost a child of their own.
Kirsty stood-up. "Soo, who wants a coffee?" She asked, and Jess and Adam both-nodded.
"De-caff." Adam added-in before Kirsty headed towards the kitchen to make the drinks for the three of them.
Adam and Jess both turned their necks to look at each-other. "Adam, it's your choice if you want to adopt Lucy, not-mine." Jess blurted-out, but she felt-that-it just-had to be said, she didn't want Adam thinking that he had to okay everything to do with baby's with her before taking-any-action. Adam was with Kirsty now, and as-far-as Jess was concerned, it was Adam and Kirsty's decision asto what they did/didn't do. Not hers.
"I know it's my choice Jess, but I don't want you, or anyone for that matter, thinking that I've forgotten about Harry, because I haven't. I really haven't Jess." Adam told-her truthfully.
"I know you haven't Ad, and I know having Lucy will only make you love-him more. But I think we're both ready to move-on from-him now. Yes we can still remember-him, and celebrate his birthdays...and his life..."
She trailed-off, unable to finish the sentence-off due to the emotion that the last-few-words had brought to her.
"Oh Jess, you think we're ready to move-on but yet we're both sat here close to tears...I wouldn't call-that-moving-on Jess, would you? Adopting Lucy will only bring-back memories-of him. Adopting her, it won't be my chance-to move-on from Harry, Jess. She'll just be a cover-up, a sign that life isn't so bad for us anymore. But that won't be the truth, and that's not fair on Lucy, for a start." Adam told Jess, the tears building-up in the back of both his eyes and Jess'. Except Adam managed to hold the tears-in better than Jess had-done, as a tear-rolled-down her cheek.
The room went deadly-silent at Kirsty's entrance, and Kirsty spotted that the two of them had been talking, and were obviously both quite-emotional. She quietly sat-down next to Adam as he leaned-forwards and placed his head into his hands. Kirsty put her hand on his back and gently-rubbed-it as the tears that had been holding-back fianlly fell-from Adam's eyes. Nothing was spoken for 3 Minutes as Kirsty flicked between both Adam and Jess, making-sure that they were both-okay.
Eventually, Kirsty spoke-up. "Are you two gonna be okay?" She asked them both as the tears began to dry-up a little.
Jess nodded, but it was a lie, as just seconds afterwards she ran-upstairs to the room that used to belong to Harry, but was now Nita's. She sat on the bed and cried-her eyes-out. Adam wanted to follow-her, but Kirsty stopped-him.
"Give her some-space Ad, she needs some-space, you both-do.
Adam stood-up, still in tears slightly. "But I need to see-her, I need to check that she's alright, I need to..." He began, but Kirsty interupted him.
"No, no you don't Ad." She said softly as she stood-up and walked-over to him, placing her-hands onto either side of his neck. "If you go up-there, you'll only make-each-other worse. You'll both remind each-other of what-happened, and we won't get anywhere."
"But, she's crying!" Adam couldn't help-it, he was always protective-over Jess and would most-probably continue-to-be for the rest-of his life.
"I know she is, but you both need some-time alone, which is why I'm going to check that she's okay now. She's had her time-alone, now you need some time to calm-yourself-down. I want-you to sit-down, stop those tears, and think about the happier-times with Harry...alright sweetheart?" Kirsty told-him, and Adam nodded-in agreement as he sat-back-down onto the sofa.
Kirsty then ran-up the stairs and found Jess in Harry's room, sat on the bed. "Oh Jess." She said as she walked-over to her and sat down-next to her, putting an arm around her, then cuddling-her.
"I'm so sorry!" Jess cried, and Kirsty pulled-her in for a hug.
"Hey what's there to be sorry about? You have nothing to apologise for Jess, you've done nothing-wrong." Kirsty sympathised as she hughed-her.
"I have though, I've done-everything wrong Kirsty."
"Like what?"
"I blamed-Adam for Harry's-death, I ran-away from it all, left him to grieve on his own, when what he really needed was for me to be there by-his-side, grieving with him. I mean, thank-goodness that you came-along Kirsty, because goodness knows where he'd be without-you. He had no-one left. His parents are gone, his brother has gone, he has no-other family, he's lost his son, and he lost-me, and it was all my fault. That's what I did wrong Kirsty!" She said, struggling to get her words-out clearly as she cried floods-of-tears.
"Jess, don't blame yourself, Adam doens't, I don't, and neither does anyone-else. You have no reason to blame-yourself, so don't put yourself through that torture Jess, you don't need-it."
Jess released herself from Kirsty grip, and smiled, weakly and tearfully. "Thanks Kirsty, you've been great with all of this." Jess told her meaningfully.
"Anytime Jess. If you or Adam need anything, absoultely anything, then you just let-me-know. I love-Adam-Trueman with all my heart, and as-long as I'm making-him-happy, then I don't care what I have to do, I'll do it."
What Jess and Kirsty hadn't realised was that Adam had appeared in the door-way just as Jess had thanked Kirsty and had heard that last-bit from Kirsty.
He smiled sweetly as the last-few tears fell from his face. "I Love-You too Kirsty Clements." He said softly as he sat down on the bed next to her. "Can we go and see Lucy tomorrow? All three-of-us. I'm not saying yes or anything like-that Kirst, but I might aswell go and spend-some-time with her, it's the least I can do for the woman I love so much." Adam said, refusing to let anymore tears fall from his face as he leaned-in and kissed Kirsty on the lips.
Jess smiled at the two of them kissing. Eventually, Kirsty pulled-away and smiled widely at Adam with happiness as the touched foreheads and her hand touched against his cheek.
"I'm so proud of you Adam. You know that? I Love-You." Kirsty told-him before they kissed-again, for a long-while, as Jess looked at a picture of Harry that was on the bed-side cabinet and smiled with sadness. He was in a better-place now, and she could miss-him, knowing that the time he spent with herself and Adam were the best-times a young-boy could-ever-have. Finally, Jess and Adam felt as they could take their grief onto the next-step, appreciating what they had, and what they have-now, instead of missing what they don't have. Finally, they felt as though they could move-on from Harry. But he would always be in their hearts.
I hope that tugged at your heart-strings a little! :) Please Review. :)