Thirty Sixth Chapter
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It's been four years now…
It's been four years and my life has totally changed … it has changed that I would never imagine it like this …
Four years ago … I was a teenage girl who had so many dreams … that was fallen in love … that had been hurt by this love …that had lived some tough moments … I was a teenage girl who expected much from life … in spite of everything … of all the pain she felt … all the tears she wiped … all the love she kept … she expected more … more than losing it in the wink of an eye … I still believe … or may be I can no longer believe … I feel lost sometimes … in a vortex … it's hard to put to death all your dreams of a bloomy future … it's harder to lose the only one you loved deeply … to find out that he was cheating on you … to bring to light that he was the most faithful person on earth … to think that you have lost him forever … to know that he was still alive … and that he'll never get back to you … for some reasons you totally ignore …
Shattered … like pieces of glass falling from a smashed window … that's how I feel … it happened so rapidly … I didn't know what was happening in fact … until it had all ended … I can't find words to tell you how lost I feel … I can't even know what I actually feel … it seems just dazzling …
I told him about that cruise … we went on it … we had our best moments ever … we danced together … he whispered that he loved me … and I was truly happy … then that girl appeared … she seemed a normal girl but … she hid a secret under the innocent face … then everything went faster … and I suddenly lost him … he died … that's what they said … he died … I went through such a tough moments … that girl started to send me letters … telling me that she loved him … she was in love of the one I loved most … that she killed him … that she wished to kill me too … that's when I totally lost my mind … Masumi and Sonoko were there … to comfort me … they convinced me somehow that he would never love anyone beside me … that he was always my faithful lover … on his birthday … I went to his house … no one was there … I've put flowers on his doorway … and I cried … until I had no tears … I cried … until I could no longer breathe … I cried …
on that very special day … the day when the cruiser sunk to the sea … we were all there … Kazuha , Hattori-kun and many other people … we stood on the deck and we threw flowers in the memory of all people we have lost on that day … I … once again … brought him flowers … I saw a look-alike of him … I ran toward him … he greeted me and said … that he was a great tantei after all… his name was Kuroba … Kuroba Kaito … if I do remember well … I saw a guy that wore a cap …he was sitting sadly on the deck … near him … the kudo's stood … I walked calmly toward them … he stood up right … got closer to me and said … he did really love you … but he can't be anymore with you … you should move forward on your life … forget about him … and then he walked away …
I've been told later on … that young man was no one else beside him … the one I loved most … he survived … somehow but no one knows … he was back to America … he never returned … he'll never do …
By time … I forgot about him … I got used to live without seeing him … loving him … but I could not help but remember him on his birthday … every year I bought him a gift … I put it on the doorway he would pick it up … it seems I can't live without him after all …
Things turned well for many of us … Kazuha and Hattori were finally engaged … Shiho and Hakuba celebrated their wedding a few time ago … Sonoko and Makoto were preparing their s … Masumi was happily living with her brother … she was getting to know a good guy … but yet he couldn't confess his love … she's sometimes mad of him…Takagi and Sato had already their cute little baby … and things were happily going for everyone … everyone except me …
Isn't enough to feel this pain for four years? … isn't enough ? … I don't even know why … why our love has died …. But … should it really die ?
Four years have already passed …
Four years …
This is the very chapter of the last part of the story … as you may notice it happens four years after the last part … this is Ran's POV … you must have noticed it too … it's a short chapter … another will be posted very soon … probably in four hours … or tomorrow please enjoy … and Shinichi 143 thank you very much … you made my tears fall … I'm truly happy to inspire you … please send me a PM when your fiction is ready … I'm ready to Beta it if you ever wanted … I'm at your service my friend :)