Chapter 5: Living With a Spell

Willow turned towards Xander, "You're a vampire and you are cursed with a soul!"

Xander looked in horror, "You have to reverse this. You really have to. Buffy can't live out her life as a vampire and I can't stand not to have Anya. You don't even have Tara. Come on Willow you have to reverse this."

Willow frowned and stated, "I don't even know if we can get the supplies I need from the Magic Box."

Xander practically fell to his knees pleading with her, "You have to try. Now go. I'll see you at my house, in the basement."

He pushed Willow back towards the Magic Box and then screamed as he quickly ran under a tree noticing his hand was burned. He looked up at the sun, which had peeked from behind the clouds and then watched as it went behind the clouds. Xander took off running quickly eager to get to safety before meeting the sun again. He wasn't anxious to turn to dust before Willow could reverse the spell.

Buffy kicked her feet in English class sighing, as she felt so empty inside. Something great was missing and it was ripping her in two. She wished she could figure out what it was. Perhaps she could talk to Giles about it in an hour or so. Her heart was breaking but she couldn't remember why. She and Riley were ok. She didn't really love him but that's no reason for heartbreak. Perhaps it was just as Giles had explained last week to her when she said she was empty, she was still learning to live without her Sire.

She could feel Spike, Xander and Drusilla still but no Angelus. She sighed. She knew it was for the best he was dusted but it had hurt like no tomorrow when her sire had met his end. She felt for a minute towards Spike and grinned as she felt his presence acknowledge hers. She had never met Spike before. Spike had always been there in her thoughts and she longed for the day she would meet him.

He had been sired by Drusilla. They were together according to legends but she could never sense Dru near Spike. Usually as soon as Buffy tried to sense Dru, she would come across a wall. She could never sense Xander either but she figured that was because Xander was a bad vampire. He was weak and pathetic. With Spike she never hit the wall and only felt comfort and amusement. She bet he was hot.

In all the pictures she saw of him he was hot. She wondered if he could sense her desire to have him come see her if she willed it strong enough. She tried sensing him but figured either he had closed the connection or was preoccupied. She sighed then yawned as she watched the hours tick by until she got to go training. She missed being able to go in the sunlight and she hoped it would stay cloudy enough for her to get safely to the Magic Box without having to pull out her trusty black blanket.

Xander brought all the ingredients to Willow to redo the spell. Willow carefully tried to follow the instructions to undo it but nothing was turning out. The water was not boiling right, and the magic was not flowing through her. She couldn't even manage to do a simple assist spell. She had found the spell by hand instead of having any magic to flip the pages. She could only hope the spell would work for a non-magical person.'

She couldn't figure out why she had no magic. She could only guess she had never cursed Angelus so therefore, she never grew as a witch. She sighed as she looked at Xander and admitted, "I don't think I can fix this. I don't have enough power. We need help."

Xander hollered at her, "What do you mean you don't have enough power? I've seen you fix things merely saying a word and you can't even undo a spell you did?"

Willow frowned, "I need to go see Giles. You stay here. Giles will help me."

Willow took off running not even waiting for Xander to respond. She just had to make this right.

Willow sat at the table after telling Giles what exactly she had done. Giles frowned, "Willow I'm not sure anyone can undo this spell. You did it only you aren't magical here. I have no idea what all you did but I think it's permanent."

Willow sobbed, "No, Buffy's a vampire because of me, as is Xander. Anya and Xander are broken up because of this spell, I'm not even with Tara. Has anyone heard of Dawn even?"

Giles looked at Willow with a blank face, "Who's Dawn?"

Willow just cried harder, "Buffy's little sister made by the monks for her to protect. I need help Giles. Can't the coven help me?"

Giles frowned watching the girl in front of him crying, "No, the coven can't help non magical people. I'm afraid whatever you did, it's permanent."

Xander wandered into the shop as he shouted in fear, "What's permanent?"

Giles replied calmly not sure he even believed Willow, "Willow and you apparently did some spell and Willow isn't magical here at all. She has no power to undo some spell like that and since it's been casted by Willow I doubt it can be undone. So I told her she needed to just deal with it because it's permanent."

Xander kicked a chair and punched the wall leaving a mark stating loudly, "This is not permanent. This whole thing is a spell. Willow and I wanted to make Spike disappear and casted a spell to make it like Spike never came to Sunnydale and now I'm a vampire so is Buffy. Willow is non-magical and not with Tara. I'm not with Anya, you aren't in England and everything is messed up. Something has to fix it."

Giles shrugged not really understanding the issues but figuring it was perhaps just a shared dreams of sorts. Even if it wasn't a dream, there was really nothing he could do about it. Just then Buffy came into the room with a heavy blanket over her had with it smoking as she sighed, "I never should have went to school today. I was laughed at for having to run under a blanket. I hate being a vampire. It's so annoying."

Giles looked sympathetic towards her, "Well let's go train shall we? Those vampire reflexes are useful in your fighting skills."

Buffy grinned nodding, "Just wait til you see the round kick I was able to pull off last night. I felt like I was flying…" They disappeared together in the back training room leaving Anya, Xander and Willow at the table.

Stay tune for part 2.