Mandy
tues. oct. 18th
it was the morning of tues. oct. 18th. I was in the bathroom of king's binging. I heard someone come in and stopped eating but cleared my throat so they'd know I was in here.
"it's ok it's just me. er. I mean. It's rachel. From glee," she said.
"yeah I know who you are," I said.
"oh. What are you doing? I mean besides the obvious. Which is being in the bathroom between 2 and 3 a.m."
"eating. What are you doing?"
"not eating."
"oh."
it got quiet for a minute.
Then: "you eat at this hr.? Well obviously but I mean. Why here?" rachel asked.
"no I binge, at this hr. cause I don't want anyone to know what happens after."
"oh. I get it. I can't fukin sleep."
"so you cam here."
"yeah I came here. My god. I'd do anything to get some sleep."
I remembered those days.
"when was the last time? You ate?" I asked.
"it's every 2 days now. Since...uh...whenever that was. My memory's not great either. I'm surprised I remember song lyrics. I'm sorry you probably want some privacy. I'll go. Back to my place. Or i'll. Be in the store or something," rachel answered.
"yeah actually I do thanks."
"ok."
she left closing the door behind her. It got quiet again. I finished then went out into the store and looked for her feeling high. It didn't take me long to find her.
"hey," I said.
"hi. Is it always this quiet here?" she asked.
"At this hr. yeah."
"why do you lok so happy?"
"i'm um. I'm high. Look it up."
"ok. Well since i'm here I might as well do some shopping. Let's see I need...oh airborne. And emergen c."
"ya know...if you want my sister rose can get you some."
"i have money amanda," rachel said.
"no. it's never 'amanda'. Ever," I said: "and don't ask."
"ok."
we continued walking.
"um btw," she began.
"yes?"
"i um I won't tell. I get the sense you wouldn't want anyone else to know."
"ok thank you."
"yeah. And you too. For offering for your sister to get me some."
"yeah."
I smiled. She'd said 'get' not 'buy'. Rose would've liked this too.