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Chapter 37

'Kensi?' Deeks asked carefully when he saw her sitting in the chair in Damian's room. 'Why are you sitting here? Didn't you hear Olivia cry?' Kensi didn't respond. She kept staring at a picture. When Deeks took a closer look at the picture, he saw she was looking at a picture of her, Damian and Mark. Damian looked around the same age Olivia was now.

'Kensi, didn't you hear our daughter cry?' Deeks repeated and again he didn't get a response from her. Deeks sighed frustrated and he took Olivia downstairs.

'Don't mind your mommy, Livvie,' he told his daughter. 'Today is one of mommy's sad days. But daddy is here right now. We can play together and have fun. We'll just give mommy some Damian-time.' Deeks stroked her little head and he sat down on the couch, laying Olivia next to him. He started to rub her belly gently and then he started to tickle her. The biggest smile he had ever seen appeared on Olivia's little face. Just like that Deeks forgot all his worries. He was with his little girl.

Kensi came downstairs around dinner timer. Deeks was cooking and Olivia was laying in the playpen, with Monty in front of it like a real guard dog.

'Dinner's almost ready,' Deeks told her casually. Kensi nodded as a reply and she glance at Olivia in the playpen.

'I really didn't hear her, Deeks,' she said sadly and Deeks noticed her trembling lip. He pulled her close to him and he put a kiss on her forehead.

'It's okay,' he told her, even if he didn't really felt like that. What if there had been something wrong with their daughter? 'Next time I'll stay home and maybe you could get the groceries…also to get out of the house some more.' Kensi slowly nodded and Deeks continued with their dinner. He knew Kensi wasn't going to get more out of the house. If anything, she would stay more inside. Deeks noticed that Kensi started to spend more and more inside in Damian's room. He knew it was hard for her to see Olivia grow up and realize that she might never see Damian grow up. He had thought about suggesting to Kensi to go see Dr. Jones again but he already knew Kensi didn't want to go to her anymore. She had enough of talking about her feelings and how much she missed Damian. That she missed him more every day that Olivia got to grow up with them.

But this concerned his daughter and she deserved more than the best. She deserved a mother that loved her unconditionally; who most of all showed her love to her daughter.

'And the brave knight Damian rode as fast as he could to save the beautiful princess Olivia,' Kensi told Olivia, who was laying in Kensi's arms, ready to go to bed. 'The evil king wanted to keep Princess Olivia all to himself but our brave knight wouldn't let that happen. He pulled out his sword; ready to fight the evil king…The evil king grabbed his own sword and looked at Knight Damian. The determined look of knight Damian didn't go past the evil king and he became a bit scared. He might be the evil king but he wasn't as brave as brave knight Damian. Knight Damian was ready for the fight and in a few seconds he disarmed the evil knight. He put his sword against the evil king's throat…'

'And then the good king and queen came in to arrest the evil king,' Deeks continued as he walked into the nursery. 'The evil king had to go to court and was thrown into the dungeons for life.' Kensi smiled weakly and she looked at Olivia, who was staring back at her. Deeks stood next to them.

'I thought we needed a good, realistic ending,' he told Kensi. 'Since she's only a month old. Let's keep her view on the world innocent.'

'Sure,' Kensi said and she put Olivia down in the crib. Then she looked at Deeks and Deeks nodded before walking out of the room. Kensi placed the stuffed rabbit next to Olivia.

'I have got a thousand kisses in my head,' Kensi sang softly to Olivia. The little girl's eyes started to close slowly. 'And if you want them – come quickly. They are all for you – a promise is a promise. Because I love you so much. A kiss on your cheek, a kiss on your hair. Kiss to say: we belong…' Calmed by her mother's voice, Olivia fell asleep.

When Kensi walked into the living room, Deeks was in the kitchen, cleaning up all the stuff they used for dinner. Kensi grabbed cloth to clean the table. In silence they cleaned the kitchen and living room. They stared at each other when they were both finished. Both not knowing what to do or say next. Then Kensi took a step towards Deeks, grabbing his hands.

'I'm sorry for screwing up, today,' she told him and Deeks sighed.

'It's not just today,' he told her and he pulled his hands back, walking to the couch. Kensi watched him walk away before going after him.

'It isn't easy for me, you know,' she told him and to her surprise Deeks looked angrily at her.

'Yeah I know,' he replied. 'But do you also know it isn't easy for me? Because right now, you're only concerned about yourself while you have a child you should be concerned about! Has it ever occurred to you that she needs you as well? It's not only Damian who needs you. Olivia and I need you as well!' Kensi looked dumbfounded at him.

'I know…' she said slowly.

'Do you really know?' Deeks asked and Kensi looked away from him. Deeks was right. She did think about Damian all the time, forgetting about Deeks and Olivia. But she couldn't help it. Damian was on her mind all the time.

'Maybe we should leave for a couple of days,' Deeks suggested. Kensi looked at him for a long time and then she nodded.

'Maybe you're right…' she told him. 'Maybe I should…' Deeks wanted to object but Kensi didn't gave him a chance. 'I could go and visit Gabby. I called her a few times but it's been a while since I visited her. She would also like it…' Deeks wanted to tell her that he didn't meant that. That he wanted to go with all three of them. But Kensi looked so pleased with the idea that he didn't say a thing. If she wanted to leave so badly, she could. He wasn't going to stop her. Not anymore.

Most of the wall was covered in blood. One trail of blood had made it all the way down the stairs. It was a horrible sight. Not something a sixteen-year-old should see. But she had seen it. Deeks glanced at the girl at the back of the ambulance. The paramedics were checking her over. Her mother was holding her hand tightly.

'Rick Ayson, forty-eight years old,' Rose told the team when they arrived at the body. 'Stabbed to death and as you might already know found by his daughter.' Deeks looked at the body and shook his head. No child should see this violence.

'What is the time of death?' Callen asked.

'Around eleven o'clock,' Rose answered. 'I'll be able to tell you more precise after the autopsy.' She gestured two guys to come and they took away the body. Sam pulled out his phone and called Eric, putting it on speaker.

'Alright, Rick Ayson, married to Tess Ayson and the father of Noa Ayson. Last year he left the Navy to be with his family. He was currently working at his brother's company. Ayson doesn't have a record.'

'Why was he home?' Callen asked. 'If he had a job, you would expect him there.'

'Noa Ayson was the reason. She asked him to be home when she got out of school. Apparently she had a bad day at school. But when she got home…'

'It got even worse,' Kensi added.

'Did we get anything on the brother's company?' Deeks asked.

'A small cleaning company. They have contracts with a few other legit companies. Liam Ayson is the owner and arranged the job for his brother. Liam told us that Rick was a good worker. Always on time, mostly happy. It was like he knew his brother.'

'Alright, we will go to the brother and talk to him,' Callen said, looking at Sam. 'And Deeks and Kensi, you go talk with the wife and daughter.' Kensi nodded but Deeks looked at Callen. He didn't know if it was a good idea to let Kensi talk with the daughter whose father was just murder. But before he could say anything Callen and Sam were already on their way to the car and Kensi to Ayson's family.

'Are you coming, Deeks?' she asked casually.

'I knew something was off when I saw the front door unlocked,' Noa told Kensi. 'My parents never leave the front door unlocked, only the back door. My dad is…was really paranoid about that. Always double checking the locks and stuff…but I just walked inside, not thinking about it. I shouted for him because I knew he was home. He promised me he would be and my dad never breaks any of his promises. But he didn't answer…because he was…and I got mad. Really mad and I shouted all kind of horrible things about him…Only he couldn't answer me because he was dead. I was so mad and he was dead…' Noa broke down in tears and Kensi placed her hand on the teenager's back.

'You didn't know,' she told the girl. 'Your dad never broke a promise and now it was like he did break the promise. I would have been mad too. But Noa, can you remember anything else out of the ordinary? Did you see someone on your way home? A car?'

'Maybe,' Noa sobbed. 'How do I know which car is suspicious? But there was this old car and all the people in the street have kind of new ones. But I have no idea what kind of car. I wasn't paying attention to the cars driving in the street. I wanted to go home and be comforted by my dad!'

'What happened at school that you wanted to go home and speak to your dad?' Kensi asked. Noa glanced at the floor.

'It seems so stupid…' she sobbed. 'I had a fight with my boyfriend…and I need my dad to be there for me…I still need him to be there for me…' Noa looked at Kensi with tears rolling over her cheeks. 'What am I going to do without him?' Kensi pulled the teenager in a hug.

'You're going to be okay,' Kensi said soothingly.

'I should be with my daughter,' Tess urged Deeks and she wanted to walk back to the ambulance but Deeks stopped her.

'My partner is with her,' he said. 'Noa will be fine. Now can you tell me if your husband has enemies or been into a fight with someone?' Tess took a deep breath and started to pace. She ran her hand through her hair.

'Not that I know of,' she answered. 'Rick was very protective over us. He wanted to keep us out of everything. I didn't know that he was leaving the Navy till the day he left. He always took care of us. There was nothing I worried about…'

'Did you receive weird phone calls, letters or e-mails?' Deeks asked. Tess shook her head.

'Not that I know,' she told him. 'Again: Rick took care of that. He took care of everything. He made sure I didn't worry…or Noa for that matter. Last year she was worried about passing her tests and you should have seen Rick, giving her the best pep talk. You could see the confidence grow in Noa….I really should see Noa now.'

'Mrs. Ayson, we need to know where you were at the time of death,' Deeks said and Tess looked shocked at him. 'We don't suspect you, but we need to know.'

'I was at work,' Tess told him. 'You have thirty kids who can confirm that. And maybe some other teachers. Can I now go to my daughter?' Deeks nodded and Tess hurried away. Soon Kensi came walking towards her.

'You're okay?' he asked worried.

'I want to catch this bastard,' Kensi answered.

TBC.

It's weird...I have no more chapters left to write. I finished writing the story.
And both my sister and I are quite nervous...