So yeah I know it's been forever. School is continuing to kick my ass and my family got a dog which somehow I've ended up taking care of more than any of them. But I should officially for the next few weeks anyway have more time to update because I broke my foot skateboarding, very, very badly and I'm off work for 9 weeks at least and I may need 1 more surgery. I also broke up with my boyfriend of 9 months. I know it sounds like a country song but unfortunately it's all true. So while I'm off I'll do my best to write some updates but it still bothers me to sit with out my foot up so we'll see what happens. So I will stop with the bull shit and get on with the story.

I didn't want to wake up. The past few nights, sleeping next to Shawn I had slept better than I had in my entire life. I don't want to have to leave for my gig with Fozzy tonight. I reached out for Shawn and frowned when he wasn't there. I opened up my eyes and saw a note.

Chris,

You looked so peaceful so Ash and I thought we should let you sleep. Went to breakfast, will bring you back something.

-me-

I smiled. Being with Shawn is better than I ever hoped for. I was falling in love with him more and more every day I am sure of it. We spent the entire day just lying in bed together with Ash yesterday after we had put Cam back on a plane to Becky. It felt so right. There was a pounding on the door. I got up and wrapped a sheet around myself and walked to the door. I chuckled "What's the matter babe for get your…key." I froze. Standing before me was none other than the chairman of the board "Vince."

"Chris, hi. I'm sorry I thought this was Shawn's room." He said

"Um…no…." I swallowed hard "It is. He's out getting breakfast."

I could see the realization come across Vince's face "I'm, I'm just going to go." Vince walked backwards for a few steps before turning around and walking away.

"Great." Well so much for keeping things quiet. I plopped down on the bed and flipped on the Tv and waited for Shawn to get back. It wasn't five minutes later when I heard the door open.

"Hey look whose awake Ash It's your dad." He walked over to me and gave me a quick kiss "Hey you."

"Hey yourself." I said

"You better start getting ready we have to get going if we're going to get in a work out before the pre-show shooting."

"You're right I'm going to hop in the shower then alright?"

"Ok. Come on Ash let's get you changed." I watched as he took our daughter over to the bed and laid her down. "Ok beautiful let's pick you out something for the show ok? Yeah." I wanted to melt. Wait a minute did I just think of Ash as our daughter? Wow. As Michael J Fox said in Back to the Future, this is heavy.

Shawn and I walked into the arena for RAW. I felt like everyone was staring at us but I'm sure they weren't. There's no possible way that they knew about us already. Luckily we were able to keep Ash up most of the afternoon so she was more than ready to take a nap while we sat through the pre-show meeting. Neither of us had any promos to shoot so we went to the cafeteria to get some food and watch the show until we had to get ready. I sat with Ash while Shawn went to get food for us.

"You know, after attempting suicide it's not nice to not let your friends where you are for 4 days!" Jay yells from behind me. He sits down next to me and slaps me on the back. Then he turns his attention to Ash. "Hey kiddo how's it going."

"Hey stranger." Jeff says sitting on the other side of the table "How's it going."

"Pretty well actually." I say.

"So dude, where the hell have you been for the past 4 days?" Jay asks

"Well I was uh…" I know I should probably keep somewhat quiet about Shawn and I but I know that I won't be able to keep this a secret from them.

"Ya know there's something different about you today…" Jay says scanning my face "Oh my god you got laid!"

My Jay dropped in horror. I couldn't believe he just yelled that out. "How could you possibly…" Shawn walks up holding the food.

"Uh hi guys." He says in a small voice.

Now it was Jay and Jeff's turn to be surprised. "You mean…"

"You…and him."

"Uh huh." I say not being able to help the grin that comes across my face.

"And you guys…"

"Uh huh."

"And it was…"

"UH HUH." I say and start laughing.

"Excuse me I'm sitting right here ya know." Shawn says

"Finally." Jay says

"Yeah it's about time." Jeff says.

I look over at Shawn. He's looking down and his checks with a nice flush too them. "Could it be that the great heart break kid is actually blushing?" Jay says

"I bet that's not the only thing that makes his face get all flushed huh Chris?" Jeff says

"Ok, ok that's enough guys I didn't tease you." I say in a pleading voice.

"Oh no way we've been waiting for months for this you've got lots of built up teasing."

In true baby fashion the second I went to take a bite of my food Ash woke up and decided she wanted to eat too. "Shawn hon, can you hand me her bottle out of the diaper bag there." I asked. As soon as I said the words I regretted it. Jay and Jeff broke out into a chorus of awww's. Immature bastards.

"Yeah sure." Shawn said he reached down and unzipped the top of the diaper bag and pulled out the bottle of the side pocket and handed it to me.

"Come here baby." I said pulling my daughter out of her carrier and resting her against my arm sitting across my legs. "You hungry?" I ask holding up her bottle for her to see. "Ok her you go." I watch as she takes the bottle in her mouth and starts to eat. I take my free hand and run my fingers over her forehead. I look up briefly to see that Shawn is looking at me. "What."

"Nothing, you're just are really getting the hang of this dad thing that's all."

"I sure hope so."

"One things for sure she's going to be daddy's girl. I can just see you when she goes on her first date." Shawn says laughing.

"Oh don't even talk about that. Besides that's not going to be for another 30 years anyway. At least you'll be there to keep me from completely killing the guy."

"Keep you from killing him…I'd have first dibs." Shawn starts to laugh. It makes my heart feel all warm to see how much he cares about her.

"Oh go on and kiss him junior we know you want to." Again there's something about that man that never seizes to put a smile on my face. Shawn had a goofy smile on his face but looks slightly alarmed when I reach out and grab his shirt and pull him in for a kiss. Jay and Jeff erupt into cheers.

"Ha ha, very funny guys." I say then something that caught our attention. Vince was talking in the ring. And he was talking about Brett Heart. And he wasn't saying anything good either. He even managed to show some clips of a DVD. I reached out and grab Shawn's hand. "Shawn?" When he didn't answer me I tried again. "Shawn? Babe, are you ok?"

Shawn's face looked pale "What the hell is he doing?" His face then turned angry. I squeezed his hand trying to get his attention but his eyes were glued to the TV. "I've got to put a stop to this."

What just happened? I can't believe this. I shouldn't be surprised that Vince would do something like that. But why now, why after all these years would he attack me and more importantly Brett. That's why I went out there. I couldn't let him bad mouth Brett's memory. I didn't know anyone else was able to get a copy of the Brett's DVD but obviously Vince did. I didn't think he would react like that. What the hell am I going to now? I've been in this business long enough to know that you don't want to be on Vinny Mac's bad side and I think I just made it there. I walk in to the locker room and Chris is sitting on the bench. He looks up when I walk in. "Shawn…I"

I sit down and pull the and dvd player that is on a cart over in front of me. I pulled Brett's DVD out of my bag. "I was contacted about a year ago by paramount about wanting to put out a Brett Heart DVD. Because I am the executor of his estate they had to contact me about releasing old footage of Brett. They had sent me a copy of the finished product about a month ago and I couldn't bring myself to watch it." I open the case and hesitate for a moment before putting it in the DVD player and hit play. With in seconds I'm transported back 10 years. That all too familiar ache starts to creep up on me. Chris must have noticed because he moves closer to me and wraps his arms around me offering comfort. A tear slides now my face and Chris reaches up and wipes it away. I wish I could ignore the twinge of guilt in my heart right now. "God I miss him."

"I know." Chris squeezed me tighter and I move myself further into his embrace. Being with Chris feels so right, I never thought that it could be like this again. But then there's Brett. I wish I knew how to let it go. I want to move on I really do but every time I think of him I have this ache that won't go away and I don't want to hurt over him anymore.

"I'm sorry I know you probably don't like seeing me all torn up about some other guy."

"Hey it's totally understandable, you loved him and he died, he died way to young. I don't blame you at all."

"Thank you. I can't believe Vince would say those things. Why would he feel the need to do that after all these years? I don't even have a clue how he got a copy of this anyway."

"Maybe we should go talk to him."

I sigh "I don't know, some how I don't think that would help." I start rubbing my head with my hands. Chris turns my head toward him.

"I wish there was something I could do to make you're pain go away."

"Just you being here helps a lot." Chris gets this totally cute goofy smile on his face. He grabs my suit coat and pulls me toward him.

"Come here." He pulls me into a kiss. My hand finds it's way up to Chris bare chest. He moans slightly and pushes me so I'm laying down on the bench.

The door opens and Stephanie and Hunter walk in "Shawn I swear I didn't know he was…OHHH I'm sorry."

"Perfect timing as usual Steph."

"So that's why you've been avoiding us for the past few days." Stephanie says the grin on her face growing by the minute. Oh dear lord I'm never going to hear the end of this.

"It's about time you two ass holes ended up on the same page for once." Hunter says

"So we've been told." Chris mutters

"We're we really that bad?" I ask

"Honey Maria knew." Stephanie

"Wow I guess we were." Chris says chuckling

"Well you guys are just going to have to be careful around my father."

"Gees with the stunt he pulled tonight you don't think he…nah…he couldn't possibly know." Hunter says

"Dear god that would be a disaster." I say

"He knows." Chris says in a small voice "He came by this morning when you were out getting breakfast and I answered the door…in the bed sheet."

"You've stirred up a bloody hornets nest now." Hunter says

"Why didn't you tell me about this?"

"I didn't see it as that big of a deal. In fact would someone mind explaining to me why it is a big deal?

"Well you know how my father is about relationships in the company, you saw what happened to Hunter and I and I'm his daughter."

"But he hasn't made a big deal about Jay and Jeff being together." Chris points out.

"Trust me he will. Jeff's not technically back working for the company yet. And Shawn can personally vouch for the fact that he is especially sensitive to having two men wresters dating." Stephanie says, she could see by the look on Chris's face that he didn't understand so she continued "If two men in the company were to date and it were ever to get made public people would have a hard time believing any feud that they would have together. It's the same thing with the men and women if you are trying to do a romantic story line the last thing you want people to know is that one of the people is married or something like that."

"And what does this have to do with you." Chris says looking at me

"Well, Vince obviously saw something between Brett and I. That's why he was constantly putting us against each other trying to keep us at each others throats. That's why he allowed me to do the "screw job" spot. He wanted to get us away from each other for that very reason. But it backfired. That day Brett was being filmed for A&E Biography. And after the match he came after me and we exchanged heated words which ended with me blurting out that I loved him. I don't know who was more surprised him or me. We were so wrapped up in our own little world at that point we forgot about everyone else around us, including the cameras that caught the whole thing on tape." I say

"My father paid a million dollars to get the tape and keep the crew quiet. And he completely wigged out about inter-company dating." Stephanie says

Chris sighs. "I can't believe this. And you yelled at me for not telling you Vince came by. This was kind of an important piece of information don't you think."

I put my head down and run my hands over my hair. "You're right."

"So…what do we do now?" Chris asks

What do we do now? What do we do now? What DO we do now? The thing is I don't have the foggiest idea what to do. I just hope that if Vince is angry which he obviously is that he directs his anger toward me and not anyone else. It would rip my guts out if he hurt Chris because of this. Damn it. Why is it that when things are going perfectly and things are how I've wanted them for so long something has to come along and fuck it up? "I don't know, I really don't know." I say

"Well maybe it won't be as bad as you guys thing it will be. I mean we all know Vinny Mac. He gets mad and explodes and then gets over it. I'm sure this will all blow over."

"I sure as hell hope you're right." I say. Some how I have a feeling were in for a ride.