This is Us Chapter 37: First Time, a wrestling fanfic

Chapter 37

Cody broke the kiss and Jenna rested her forehead against his chest, listening to his heart beat rapidly after what she had just told him."You still love me?" he mumbled. "After everything I did to you, and to Mandy, you still love me?" he asked as he pulled away from her and watched tears continue to stream down her face. She nodded and looked down at the ground; all of the pent up emotion that she had been holding in since she found out about him and Layla came pouring out.

"I can't stop. I've tried; these last six months have been hell, Cody. I can't stop loving you; I don't know how," she said before a sob left her mouth and she turned away from him. He quickly grabbed her arm and pulled her close to him. He looked down at her sad brown eyes, still filled with tears and sincerity.

"Jen..." he said as his blue eyes searched her dark brown ones. They had been through so much since they were teenagers, from quickly eloping, to losing their first baby, she left in the middle of the night and they were reunited finally eight years later and vowed to stay together. The birth of Mandy brought them closer, but something was still missing for Cody and he had messed everything up. Through all of that, she still loved him?

"What are we going to do about this?" he asked softly, still trying to hold her close to his side.

Jenna pulled away and looked down at the ground. "Nothing. We can't do anything; the damage had already been done and we need to move on-"

"But you just said that you still loved me."

"Yeah, but you didn't say it back," she said softly as she walked away from him, leaving him outside the restaurant in the dark, alone with his thoughts. She was right; he didn't say it back. But surely she must know he still loved her and that he couldn't stop either? Right?

"Everything all right?" Randy growled softly in Jenna's ear as she sat back down next to him. She nodded and rested her head on his shoulder just as Cody walked back into the room. Normally he would have shot Randy a glare, but he forgot about Randy right now and wondered what Jenna had planned to do with him now that she had finally confessed that she still loved him. Would she tell Randy to hit the road and try to reconcile with Cody? If she wanted to do that, what would Cody do with Layla? He had made her some promises, let her move in, and their baby was due to come next month.

Layla let out a loud sigh and Cody took this as his cue to sit down next to his new girlfriend. She immediately started whispering questions about how much longer they had to be here. She was tired and wanted to sleep, she had heartburn and just plain didn't want to be here anymore tonight. She was also tired of the wide eye stare that his daughter kept giving her. The little girl knew something wasn't right about Layla and her dad.

"We'll leave soon," he told her quietly as felt someone tugging at his sleeve. He looked down and smiled as he saw his daughter standing there, practically begging for his attention. Cody picked the little girl up and set her on his lap. While he was listening to Mandy rattle on about something funny Uncle Ted had said, he caught Jenna's eye. She quickly looked away and went back to listening to Randy. Cody had a funny feeling that Jenna's confession tonight was just the beginning of some drama.

Later that night, after Randy had tucked Mandy into bed and Jenna said good night to her parents, they were finally alone at last. He was standing behind her while her parents were walking out, and as soon as the door shut, he wrapped his arms around her waist and picked her up. She rolled her pretty brown eyes at him while he carried her down the hallway to her bedroom. He softly kicked the bedroom door shut behind them and gently laid her on the bed. Hovering above her for a few minutes, he smiled as he took her all in. He used to think Cody was such a lucky son of a bitch; it was amusing to Randy now that he was considered the lucky one as he bent down and captured Jenna's mouth in a soft, but urgent kiss. "Jenna...I've missed you..." he whispered in her ear as his hands started to wander down to her hips, holding her in place underneath him. "Did you miss me?" he asked softly as he smirked at her and his hands started to wander from her hips to the hem of her shirt; slowly and teasingly, he moved his big hands across her stomach and up to her breasts.

She nodded and pulled him close for a kiss. Her mind was still reeling from what had happened earlier outside the restaurant with Cody tonight. She had let him kiss her and confessed that she still loved him. Of course she was still going to love him. No matter what he had done to her, he was always going to be the 'first'. The first everything...

Flashback – Sophmore Year

She gently pushed him away and asked in a husky voice, "Wanna see my room?" She turned away from him and started up the stairs. He forced himself not to throw her over shoulder and bolt up the stairs. Maybe it was really going to happen right now, a guy can dream anyways.

He followed her up the stairs and into her room. She went over to the stereo, put a cd on and made sure she hit 'repeat'. This was their song tonight. She sat down on the bed, motioning for him to come sit next to her. He stood in front of her, playing with her hair before he gently pushed her back on the bed and crawled on top of her. She put her arms around his neck while his mouth explored her neck, softly nipping at a sensitive spot.

We're both looking for something We've been afraid to find It's easier to be broken It's easier to hide Looking at you, holding my breath, For once in my life, I'm scared to death, I'm taking a chance, letting you inside.

She moved her hands down to the hem of his tank top and slowly started pulling it up his back and over his head. Once it was off and thrown on the floor, she started planting small kisses on his muscular chest and arms. He stared down at her with lust in his eyes. Was this really going to happen right now? They had been messing around for months, taking their time together. But both of them felt something pulling them together, not knowing what force was pulling them together, they just went with it.

Feeling alive all over again, As deep as the sky, under my skin Like being in love, she says For the first time Maybe I'm wrong, But I'm feeling right where I belong With you tonight Like being in love To feel for the first time

He leaned down and kissed her gently on the lips before poking at her mouth with his tongue for access to hers. His mouth vibrated a little with the small sigh that tried coming out of her mouth. His one hand was tangled in her hair, the other one wandering down her side to her stomach so he could lift her shirt up and explore. She didn't protest when his hand went under the hem of her shirt and traveled up her stomach, finally finding her breasts. He gently pinched one nipple, enjoying the gasp of breath she let out in his ear. She pushed against him, sitting up as she pulled her shirt off.

The world that I see inside you Waiting to come to life Waking me up to dreaming Reality in your eyes Looking at you, Holding my breath, For once in my life I'm scared to death, I'm taking a chance, Letting you inside.

His arms snaked around her back, fingers fumbling with the clasps on her bra. She kissed his neck while he continued to fumble, after what felt like an eternity to him, he finally got the damn thing unhooked and off of her. He sat back and took her all in; from her beautiful brown eyes, full, soft lips, her long silky hair, her amazing tanned body. He was a lucky guy to be able to get this far with someone like her. She reached out her hand and tugged gently at his shorts, smirking at him, bringing him back to reality. He smiled as he felt her hand unbutton his shorts and pull the zipper down. As his shorts dropped to the ground, her hand was busy pulling his boxer shorts down as he ran his fingers threw her hair. His boxers joined his shorts on the floor. There he stood in front of her, vulnerable. This was the farthest they had gone yet, he wondered if she was brave enough to take it farther.

I'm feeling alive all over again As deep as the sky that's under my skin Like being in love, she says, for the first time Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right Where I belong with you tonight Like being in love to feel for the first time We're crashing Into the unknown We're lost in this But it feels like home

She ran her fingers up and down his chest and he unbuttoned the button on her shorts and undid the zipper, lifting her hips off the bed so he could pull them off. He smiled as he watched her lay on the bed in just her panties, waiting for him to continue. He bent his head down by the top of her panties and pulled them off of her and down her legs with his teeth. She giggled at the sight of him doing that.

He climbed on top of her, kissing her neck and she wrapped her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist; she could feel how hard his length was against her thigh. She started to question how brave she really was feeling right. Could she really go through with this? He continued his attack on her neck, occasionally moving his mouth down to kiss her chest, teasing her nipples with a soft bite and then worked his way back up her neck.

His hands wandered over her body, one slipped in between her thighs. She shivered against him as one finger slipped inside of her. Working his finger in and out of her, he whispered in her ear, "Do you like that?" She could only nod her head as he slipped a second one in. It was painful, but at the same time it felt good; her mouth claimed his in a passionate kiss, her tongue dominating his mouth. He had to be inside her soon or he was going to explode right there on her thigh. He slipped his fingers out of her and brought them to his mouth, tasting her on his fingers as he smiled. He pushed himself off of her, looking around for his shorts. He found them, taking a condom out of his wallet. She stared at him with wide eyes as he put the condom on his throbbing cock. He climbed back on top of her, hovering above her, leaning down to kiss her softly on the lips. His eyes never left hers. "Are you sure you want to do this?" he whispered. "Yes, I'm sure" she whispered back.

He pushed her legs apart, slipping a finger inside her one more time just to make sure she was ready for him. She was. He kissed her hard on the mouth as he pushed his way inside of her. She cried out as she felt him enter her. "I didn't mean to hurt you….just a little bit longer and it will feel better, I promise" he said as he began moving in and out of her slowly, not wanting to go too fast and cause her to cry out in pain again.

We're both looking for something We've been afraid to find It's easier to be broken It's easier to hide

He felt himself break threw her virginity as she cried out in pain again; he stopped and looked into her eyes to see if she wanted him to stop. She smiled a tiny smile at him that he took as an ok to continue. He leaned down and kissed her again, very softly as he moved his way inside and out of her, thrusting gently. He felt his release coming as he picked up his pace a little.

Looking at you, holding my breath, For once in my life, I'm scared to death, I'm taking a chance, letting you inside.

He felt it coming on faster now; he buried his face in her neck and bit gently as he finally got his release. They laid there quietly for a few seconds; him breathing heavily by her ear, her with tears running down her face from the unfamiliar pain she was feeling. He slid out of her, and off the bed to throw the condom in the wastebasket. He climbed back into the bed and wrapped his arms around her, bringing her head to his chest. He kissed the top of her head as they lay there silently wrapped in each others arms. He let go out her just for a second as he pulled the blanket up around her. He whispered, "I think I love you, Jenna." She looked up at him and smiled a little through the discomfort she was feeling right now. "I think I love you too, Cody." He smiled and kissed her gently on the lips.