Such is the passion the want of desire
To burn in the heart with fingers of fire
Wet lashes wrapped up, in a sweet velvet rose
To follow your heart where ever it goes
Such is the passion the heart strings to pull
That the cup runneth over, with emotions so full
To send you to heaven, the stars and above
To make senses reel in the sweet dance of love
Such is the passion in the depths of ones soul
Infuses ones mind and the dreams in the role
Of a lovers sweet kisses, to imprint its mark
Of secret assignations alone in the dark
Such is the passion the fire inside
Shines forth from the eyes, with nowhere to hide
Yet the heart and the mind, will tumble and fall
If signals mistaken, will then wither and stall.
[„Such is the passion the want of desire" - Graham Jones]
Dana was still slumbering when Stella came to her senses. She was dozing with her eyes closed, listening to the soft sound of her lover's breath as she inhaled and exhaled with slightly parted lips, her chest rising and falling evenly.
Stella felt peaceful, engulfed by the warmth and the silence of an early summer morning; the sun was gently caressing her sleep-warm face, bathing the room in a soft glow.
For a brief moment she thought that something was missing but after several moments of pondering over what it might be she took a deep breath and let it go.
Maybe, she thought. It was the sadness that was gone.
For once she didn't feel gloomy and sad after her birthday. It didn't feel quite as frightening as it used to, quietly reminding her that another year had passed and yet nothing had changed. This time was different and maybe it was time for her to accept that things had changed, were starting to change for the better most of the time. Every now and then Stella had thought that she couldn't accept the changes, thinking that it wouldn't last or that she didn't deserve it.
What did she have if it wasn't for the constant fear of failure and the sadness to nurture her? She had got used to the emptiness, had learned to fill it so that it was scary to imagine not living with it. What would she do and how was she supposed to fill it?
She opened her eyes and turned on her side, the sight of Dana's bright red hair glistening in the morning sun warmed her heart, the memories of last night slowly invading her dreamy thoughts.
It was then that Stella knew the answer and that she had started to fill the void inside of her a long time ago; she had started in September the previous year when she had asked a stranger into her home.
She couldn't believe that almost a year had passed and how much had happened in both of their lives; Stella had never been more grateful for moments like this. Sharing a bed with such a wonderful woman, not fighting the urge to get up and make a run for it as soon as she opened her eyes in the morning, no more sleeping with strangers and quietly beating herself up for it whenever she felt weak. Nothing would ever be worth going back to such a place because she finally had everything she needed and there would be so much more.
She still couldn't say it out loud, it sounded strange to her own ears but she knew it deep inside.
A part of her had always been afraid to be happy, telling herself that nothing good ever lasted long. There had always been a small voice inside her head whispering that happiness didn't last and that it could easily be shattered in a matter of seconds. Stella had manipulated herself, making herself believe that she didn't need all the nonsense because she had been terrified of being rejected, disappointed and hurt.
Admitting to being happy suddenly provided a difference, something that she had yet to get used to and accepting that committing to one person did not limit her life in any way.
There had been a long period in her life in which she had strongly believed that she wasn't worthy of any kind of happiness, when she had constantly punished herself with destructive behavior and a lack of self care and it took her a very long time to understand that happiness didn't have to be earned.
Maybe all it took, Stella thought, all it took was another person.
Her fingertips brushed against Dana's, carefully reaching for her hand because she didn't want to wake her just yet.
She had almost forgotten what it felt like to be happy and at peace with herself and she was more than grateful for Dana who reminded her of that on a daily basis, no matter how challenging things were for them. She reached for the small golden letter dangling from her neck and rolled on her back; it felt warm and soft in her hand.
It was probably the most thoughtful and touching gift someone had ever given to her and it meant a lot; it would always remind her of Dana when she wasn't around, much like the bracelet that Stella had given Dana back when things were still a secret.
She loved that it was still fastened around her wrist and that she never seemed to take it off. Stella couldn't help but smile when she remembered the second gift, as Dana had loved calling it.
She unwittingly pressed her thighs together, biting her lip when the images flooded her mind. She had been surprised and excited when she saw what Dana was up to and she couldn't wait to return the favor. All of a sudden she had an idea, remembering that Dana had stepped out of it last night, leaving it on the floor by the bed.
Quietly she slipped out of the bed, picked up the harness and disappeared into the bathroom. She refreshed herself, cleaned the toy and wondered whether to wake Dana or let her sleep in. It was still early and they both deserved to do however they pleased, they were still on vacation after all. In the end she decided that she was too excited to wait any longer and they could still spend most of their precious time lounging in the shades, dozing off whenever it suited them.
She stepped into the harness, putting the toy in place before she covered her body with a short silk robe, returning to the bedroom where Dana was still sleeping soundly. Stella crawled onto the bed, slowly getting used to the strange feeling. She couldn't quite remember the last time she had actually worn such a thing but she knew that Irene had used it with her a few times, thinking that she was probably more at ease and skilled with it.
Stella was laying on her side, wondering which position she'd like to try because she hadn't been capable of making such a decision last night but maybe it was time to stop thinking and just go with it. She wasn't sure what Dana's reaction might be; first of all she had to wake her, making sure this was what she wanted.
She hovered above Dana, their bodies still separated by a thin blanket and a silk robe. Stella's hands were placed on either side of her body, gently lowering a bit of her weight onto Dana's sleeping form. She breathed a feather-light kiss against the soft skin of her neck, repeating the action until she had covered every inch that she could reach and Dana slowly woke from her slumber.
Scully's senses were slowly roused from sleep, causing her to smile into her pillow and squirm beneath Stella. She briefly remembered what she had done last night, a soft blush creeping into her cheeks but then she thought that Stella hadn't minded at all and, as far as she could tell with half of her still being asleep, Stella didn't seem put off at all.
„Good morning," Stella whispered against her skin when she felt Scully stirring.
Stella kissed her neck, slowly moving to the soft spot behind her ear where the skin was warm and inviting. She nibbled at the skin, sucking and teasing until Scully softly hummed into the pillow before she turned her head a little.
„I want to be grumpy cause you're waking me so early but I think I like this," she whispered.
„Good to know," Stella replied, leaving gentle kisses in her wake; her lips touching every inch of her spine, pushing the blanket aside. She moved off Dana, sitting between her legs with a mischievous grin on her face. She felt the fabric of the harness and the toy between her legs, brushing against her private parts in a rather delicious way. She waited for Dana to turn around, closely watching her reaction and it didn't take long for her to break out into a smile.
„It's my gift, who said I couldn't enjoy it?"
Scully bit her lip and propped herself up on her elbows, her fatigue vanishing the moment she realized what Stella was up to. She now found herself in Stella's position, admiring the same view she'd had a couple of hours ago and it was hotter than she had anticipated. She felt a soft tingle in her lower belly, breathing through her nose while she considered all the possibilities. There was something she had in mind, something she had thought about the moment she had unwrapped the unremarkable parcel three days after ordering the strap-on online.
She moved forward, pushing herself up on her knees to meet Stella where she was waiting. She didn't care that she was naked, the blanket sliding off her body. She cupped Stella's face and kissed her, tenderly pressing her naked form against Stella. She could feel the toy, smiling into the kiss.
„I was hoping you would," Scully whispered, slowly nudging Stella off the bed.
Scully looked up at her, untying her robe. She sat on the edge of the bed, kissing the skin of her toned tummy before she slid to the floor, kneeling in front of Stella; the robe had fallen off her shoulders already, pooling by their feet.
Scully kissed each hipbone before turned her attention to the fake dick in front of her. She had done it so many times before though it seemed somewhat strange to do it to another woman. She pushed all kinds of worries away and started taking the rubber into her mouth, slowly lubricating it. She moved slowly, taking it deeper into her mouth each time.
„Shit," Stella whispered, feeling slightly dumbfounded until her senses slowly returned to her, more intense than before.
She looked down at Dana giving her a blowjob and it was such an incredibly hot thing to witness that she thought she was going to burst, her clit swelling a little more every time Scully moved her head.
Stella tangled her hands in Dana's hair, holding it back with both hands. She saw her flushed cheeks, her hands working the dildo while kept sucking her off. Stella inhaled slowly; she had meant to be in charge of this but that had quickly slipped from her grasped. She concentrated on the thrill and the arousal that was gathering in her lower belly, allowing the moment to happen a little while longer.
Scully closed her eyes, a faint hum escaping the back of her throat. Doing this to Stella was just as hot as she had imagined; she felt her pussy swell, the wetness dripping from her center, her clit begging for attention. She was barely able to resist the urge to reach down between her own legs and rub her throbbing clit but she didn't want to take that away from her, still wanted her to know that she was in charge this time.
She felt Stella's hands in her hair, tugging a little harder every now and then but Scully found it rather encouraging. At some point Stella pulled her up, capturing her mouth in a messy kiss with teeth clashing and tongues teasing. Stella kissed her hard, her hand gripping her by the hairline in her neck. Scully tilted her head back, softly moaning when Stella's mouth met the exposed neck of her skin.
„Turn around," Stella hissed in her ear. „On your knees."
Scully obeyed, crawling onto the bed with her knees slightly parted. She felt Stella behind her, easily closing the distance between them. Scully felt the moist cock pressing into her back when Stella wrapped her arms around her, pulling her flush against her back.
Her breath felt hot against her neck, her chest heaving. Stella cupped her breasts, fondling them until Scully arched into the tough.
„Ungh," she breathed through gritted teeth when Stella's fingers worked her sensitive nipples, bordering on the edge of painful but Scully found herself craving more. One hand travelled to her throat, pulling her back until her head leaned against Stella's shoulder, leaving her entirely at Stella's mercy.
„You like that?" Stella breathed in her ear and Scully shuddered.
Stella sucked the soft skin, pretty sure she'd be leaving marks and this time it was exactly what she wanted. Scully turned her head further to meet her for a kiss, swallowing their moans while the pleasure built in her lower belly.
Stella's hand travelled to her clit, dipping into the wetness.
„Fuck, you're so wet," Stella breathed, rubbing her clit in slow circles.
Scully met her hand with each move, trying to increase the friction. Stella reached between them with her free hand where the toy was still pressed against Dana's back and reached between her legs, pushing two fingers into her to make sure she'd be ready.
Scully cried out, felt both of Stella's hands working her slow but deliberate. Her fingers gently exploring the tight walls.
„Oh God…" Scully cried, trembling in Stella's arms when she came.
She bowed down, leaning on her elbows while she tried to catch her breath. It was only a matter of seconds until Stella moved behind her, her tongue running through the slick and swollen folds.
Scully felt overwhelmed but that slowly started to turn into pleasure, preparing her aching body for another orgasm. Stella leaned above her, the cock against her ass with Stella's gorgeous tits pressing against her back. She kissed the part between Dana's should blades once, teasing the skin with her teeth.
„You want it?" she asked, trying to control her breathing.
„Yes," Scully almost begged.
„Tell me," Stella said with a smile on her face.
She leaned back on her knees, slowly running the cock through Dana's swollen folds to make sure it would be ready.
„I want… I want you to fuck me. Now," she breathed and turned her head to the side, her cheek resting against the blanket. Stella gently guided the tip of the dildo into her, giving her a few seconds to get used to the intrusion before she repeated the action, moving in a little deeper with each thrust.
A strangled moan escaped Dana's lips when she felt the cock filling her, Stella thrusting into her. Scully fisted the sheets, trying to find something to hold on to while the wetness dripped from her center and the hot pleasure curled her toes. Every coherent thought was wiped from Scully's mind when Stella hit just the right spot. They soon found their rhythm, with Dana meeting every single thrust.
Stella felt her own clit ache with need, the material of the harness creating a delicious friction though not enough for her liking. She reached for Dana's clit, teasing her a little more. As much as he wanted to make her come once more she didn't want it to end, withdrawing her hand before she would tumble over the edge.
Her left hand grabbed Scully by the hips while her right hand traced the outline of her spine, her fingernails scratching the slick skin without breaking the skin. She didn't want to hurt Dana but it rewarded her with a shudder, her moans slowing to a trickle. Stella knew it wouldn't take much longer, her hand wandering to her ass, gently outlining the curve of it.
„Fuuuu…" Scully cried into the pillow when Stella gently slipped a finger into her ass, the blazing pleasure immediately drowning her with a shattering orgasm. Stella pulled out of her, softly giggling into Scully's shoulder after they slumped onto the bed, trying to gather their wits and catch their breaths.
Stella stripped off the toy and put it aside, cuddling up to where Dana was still trembling. Scully covered her face with both hands, laughing. It took her a few moments to catch her breath, then she turned towards Stella and kissed her.
She wanted to say something but her mind was still blank though she still had enough strength to keep going. Without breaking the kiss she pushed Stella on her back, slowly fingering until she got the desperately needed release that she had been craving all morning.
„Promise me never to hide anything from me," Stella whispered a little while later.
Scully looked up, confused for an instant. Her hand kept drawing slow circles on Stella's lower back, an everlasting connection that tied them to each other after having spent all morning having sex.
„Never be ashamed of anything," Stella clarified. „I want to know what you like and what makes you feel good."
„In bed or in general?" Scully asks, playing dumb on purpose.
„Especially in bed," Stella said and laughed, kissing her.
„Okay," Scully nodded, her mind immediately wandering.
„So," Stella said, her hand tracing the outline of her curves. „Is there anything you'd like to share?"
„After everything you just did?" Scully laughed, her hand lazily motioning to their naked bodies.
Stella shrugged.
„Maybe…"
„Just tell me," Stella demanded, feeling excited and curious all of a sudden.
„Right," Scully said and leaned in to whisper something in Stella's ear.