Words cannot express what I am feeling about the last Glee episode. It's great to see all homosexual stories treated with respect and dealt with care...you know like Kurt, Blaine, Dave, Santana...oh no wait something doesn't fit in here...oh that's right lesbians don't count...my bad.
Then there's Quinn...our dear sweet little pressed lemon...sweetie your gayness could be seen from outta space and Rachel...honey if your so worried about a bridesmaid not being at your wedding then maybe you should rethink a few things...just a thought.
Ok you guys want angst...so you cannot blame me for what happens.
This is an unusually short chapter and in the spirit of Glee's cliff-hanger I decided to have one of my own! Yay! Get excited!
~~~ Babies ~~~
Grace sat on the floor with Beth and baby David as he played with some of his toys and rolled around not having a care in the world. Grace had decided to get some advice because Sofia's tests results will be back and they'll soon know when she's ovulating and then bam they'll start the IVF treatment. Of course no one knows about this...except for Becky and Hannah.
"So how's everything going?" Grace asked
"What do you mean?"
"With being a mom...is it...everything you thought it would be?" Grace nervously asked and trying to sound nonchalant about it.
Beth gave her a suspicious look but didn't say anything about it.
"Well...it's pretty much the best thing I've ever done. I can't even imagine what my life would be like without him now." Beth honestly replied
Grace just smiled and nodded
"It's exciting...I mean I can't wait till he starts walking and talking...or when he first starts school...falls in love and all of that." Beth continued
"Starts driving" Grace added
"Yeah...no my baby will never drive" Beth replied
Grace just laughed
"That's one thing I am not looking forward to...that and the whole 'sex talk'...his father can do that" Beth added
"Ugh I love Sofia but I'm not sure she's the right one to do that for our kids...but then I don't want to do it either." Grace replied
Beth chuckled and nodded
"It's just awkward I remember my parents trying to talk to me about it. It was so embarrassing"
Grace just gave her a 'bitch, please' look.
"Have you met our mother? I can guarantee you it was worse than what you went through. I had to go through it twice"
"Why twice?" Beth asked in amusement
"Because the first time mom did it I hadn't come out yet so she was talking about a flower or some garden and then there was a bee or a snake and she kept using the word fornication...trust me if I wasn't already gay that explanation alone would have turned me in an instant." Grace cringed
Beth just laughed
"Then I came out and so mom decided to talk to me about lesbian sex...thankfully she and Ma just gave me some pamphlets that time" Grace added
"Wow...I do not envy you" Beth laughed
"Thanks"
"So when are you and Sofia gonna start trying for kids?" Beth asked as she picked David up and placed him on her lap.
"Um...w-well...not right now. Maybe in a few months we'll...start looking into it" Grace mumbled avoiding eye contact she wasn't the world's greatest liar.
Beth just smiled and nodded
"Well good luck for when you two crazy girls start trying"
"Thanks...I'm kinda excited about it you know? Like...before I was so nervous about being a mom...it sounded so...grown up and scary but now...I can't wait to have a gorgeous pregnant wife carrying our baby" Grace gushed
"Aww Gracie...that's adorable" Beth chuckled
Grace just blushed and looked down hiding her smile.
"So she's definitely carrying the baby?" Beth asked
"Absolutely. Nothing on this earth will ever make me change my mind about that. I will never get pregnant" Grace chuckled
"And so are you guys going to use her eggs or yours?" Beth asked
"Well...we figured for our first baby we'll use Sofia's then maybe if we have more we'll use mine" Grace replied
"Sounds like you guys have been doing a lot of planning" Beth nodded
"Yeah...well you kinda have to when you can't just jump into bed one night and then wake up pregnant the next day." Grace replied
"I suppose so."
"What about you and Jeff are you having any more?" Grace asked as she handed David his stuffed toy pig
Beth didn't reply straight away which made Grace look up. She couldn't help but notice the pained look on the blonde woman's face.
"I can't...have any more" Beth finally spoke
Grace looked a little surprised at that.
"After what happened at Halloween...there was...too much damage and...and I had to have a hysterectomy...I haven't told anyone. Jeff knows obviously but..." Beth quietly told her.
"Oh my god Beth I'm...I'm so sorry" Grace replied as she shuffled closer to the woman
"It's ok...I've...come to terms with it...and I have David." Beth shrugged but held back her tears.
Grace nodded but wrapped her arm around the blonde's shoulder pulling her in for a small hug.
~~~ Getting The Missus Permission ~~~
Brittany was sitting in the living room writing down some new routines for her Cheerleaders they were getting ready for their competitions and Brittany was determined to take first place she was even willing to consider taking Sue's crazy idea of using a real cannon.
Brittany was so focused on what she was doing that she didn't notice her wife coming home and stand anxiously by the doorway. When it became apparent that she wasn't going to see her Santana moved into the living room and tentatively sat down next to her wife. She quietly cleared her throat and turned slightly to face her.
"Britt-Britt?"
"Hmm?" Was Brittany's response she didn't bother to take her eyes off what she was doing.
"Sweetie? Awesome, gorgeous sexy lady of mine can I talk to you about something?" Santana asked
Brittany raised her eyebrow, placed her pen on the coffee table and slowly turned to look at her wife. Santana was up to something, she had done something or she wants something, these are the things that went through the blonde's mind.
"Yes?"
"Right ok so um...first can I just say how beautiful you look today...a-and not just today but every day. You're like a beacon of...of beautiful...ness and sometimes I just can't stop looking at you because yo-"
"Ok I'm gonna stop you right there Mrs. Lopez-Pierce...just come out with it" Brittany softly chuckled
"Kay...um...I was wondering if it would be alright if...if Emily could come back over so we can finish our work here instead of the office. I know you don't really like her but it would be heaps helpful in the long run so can she?" Santana nervously rambled
Brittany sighed and then gently kissed her wife's cheek before nodding.
"Yes...she can come over...but if she tries anything I may or may not feel the need to put a laxative into her coffee" Brittany replied
Santana just smiled...jealous Brittany can either be incredibly scary or incredibly sexy. Right now it's the latter.
"Thanks Chicken" Santana softly murmured
"You're welcome. Now tell me my sexy lawyer wife is it still illegal for say a coach to have one of her cheerleaders thrown out of a cannon?" Brittany slyly asked
Santana just laughed
"Baby you know it is. The Sylvester Law was passed twenty years ago when one unfortunate Cheerio got her toe blown off." Santana replied
Brittany pouted
"But I need something to win this. For my entire career as a coach I've never won first place because of Coach Sylvester. I don't know how she does it. She's like a hundred years old and she still beats me!" Brittany rambled in frustration.
"You'll think of something. You're amazing at what you do." Santana replied with a kiss
"Maybe I could get some of Rachel's glee kids to sing and perform with my girls. Bethany and Samara are in Glee and on my team. Bethany is an amazing dancer and Samara has a really good voice." Brittany rambled as she wrote a note to remind herself to ask Rachel
Santana just smiled. She loved watching her wife come up with ideas. She just looked so adorable when she got excited about something.
"And yeah ok Amber is like so annoying and wears weird clothes but she can sing." Brittany continued.
"I have no idea who all these kids are but I'm sure whatever you do it will be fucking amazing" Santana stated.
~~~ Dora ~~~
Becky nervously sat in Diane's office as she waited for the older woman to return. She had quickly gone to get them a coffee like they always had during their sessions.
Becky wasn't sure if she was going to tell Diane about what she had uncovered in Valerie's classroom. Because she knew she would think the same as Sofia and that is something she did not want. She didn't want sympathy or pity.
"Sorry about that...the stupid machine has been playing up all week" Diane smiled as she handed the coffee over to Becky
"That's ok"
"So...how have you been? I was sorry to hear that you had to attend a funeral last week" Diane spoke softly as she took her seat.
Becky always thought that Diane had a soft calming voice. It kind of reminded her of what a mother would sound like.
"Yeah...it was my best friend's grandpa...we were all really close." Becky replied
"Death can always help us reflect on our own lives I suppose" Diane mused.
Becky nodded
"Becky I would like to focus our next few sessions talking about your parents" Diane proposed
The blonde looked up and Diane couldn't miss the fear, pain and anger that flashed across Becky's eyes then it quickly disappeared and it was like she could see her walls coming up.
"We've spoken a lot about Valerie and the repercussions of what happened at the Christmas party and we will revisit that but for now I would like for you to talk about your parents."
"There's nothing to talk about" Becky replied defensively.
"Ok...can you tell me about your childhood? What are some of your fondest memories of when you were younger?" Diane asked
Usually when Diane asked this question it didn't take very long for her patients to reply with something. But Becky just sat there. To Diane it looked as though she was trying to think of something but nothing was coming. In the end Becky just shrugged.
"You don't remember anything?" She asked
"It was a long time ago" Becky uttered
"I'm nearly fifty and even I can remember the first time my father taught me how to ride my brand new purple bike." Diane replied
"Good for you" Becky quipped
"Why won't you talk about your parents?" Diane asked
"Why should I? They're not my parents. Parents don't do what they did. Parents don't abandon their children. Quinn and Rachel and even Brittany and Santana are more parents to me than those bastards so why should I spend any of my time talking about them?" Becky asked in anger.
"Because you need to." Diane simply answered
"Well I don't want too!" Becky yelled
An uncomfortable silence fell on the two as Diane quietly thought about how to approach this situation and Becky just tried to calm down.
"Rebecca I know this is difficult for you. I know that you have been through a lot of pain and heartache but you need to be able to work through this otherwise it will continue to eat away at you." Diane calmly spoke.
Becky took a deep breath and mulled over what Diane had said. She wanted to let it go. She wanted to be completely happy and not have this over her for the rest of her life but it was just hard and it hurt. Diane could see that Becky was contemplating her options she just hoped the blonde would open up.
"I...I remember one Christmas...I think I was like...five or something and I had my heart set on getting a puppy. The kids across the street had a dog and I just wanted one of my own because I was an only child and I just wanted someone to play with. Anyway I came down stairs that morning and there she was...my mother had actually done something nice for once and bought me a puppy. I can't remember what kind of dog it was but she had little floppy ears and was jet black. I called her Dora." Becky finally spoke.
Diane gave her an encouraging smile.
"I was so happy. I took her outside and we played together for hours. My parents wouldn't let me play with any of the other kids because they were 'heathens' so Dora was pretty much my best friend." Becky continued sadly.
"What happened to Dora?" Diane asked
Becky took a deep breath and didn't notice the few tears that had begun to fall.
"A few weeks later my...my father decided that it was too much trouble to have a pet and that I spent too much time outside getting dirty from playing that he got rid of her. I don't know what he did with her I don't want to know. All I know was that I cried for weeks because he had taken my only friend away from me." Becky cried.
Diane felt her own heart clench as she pictured a sweet innocent lonely girl crying in her room after losing someone so special to her. From hearing this one story she knew there was going to be a lot of healing to be done.
~~~ On A Lighter Note ~~~
Charlie came out of the theatre with her usual big smile as she walked up to where Ben had been waiting for her. Charlie had decided to go full steam ahead with her auditions. She was going to be a star and nothing was going to stop her.
"How did you go?" Ben asked
"I blew them away with my talent." Charlie smiled brightly
"You always do" Ben replied with his own smile
"I have a good feeling about this one Ben. The producers seemed a lot more keen and they were actually really nice." Charlie replied
"Who are they? Are they new in the business?" Ben joked
Charlie just laughed
"No...I think most of them had been on the stage. I've never heard of them before but apparently they are really good." Charlie replied
"What are their names?"
"Um there's Nancy Malone, Patrick Hart and Frankie something I forgot his last name. He's the oldest but he looks super distinguished and is a total charmer and would have been an amazing leading man. He's apparently playing the character I auditioned for's father." Charlie gushed
"Should I be worried?" Ben nervously asked
Charlie just laughed
"Ben his like as old as my moms. You have nothing to worry about."
"Good." Ben nodded
"So that's the last audition. Hopefully I hear back from one of them. I mean I have to right?" Charlie asked with a hint of worry and a little touch of doubt.
"Of course you will. You have an amazing voice Charlie and you are an amazing actress. They would be stupid to turn you down" Ben encouraged her.
"Thanks Ben" Charlie blushed ever so slightly.
"Come on let's go get some lunch before I have to go to my ballet rehearsals" Ben held out his hand which Charlie instantly took and entwined their fingers.
~~~ Dreams And Nightmares ~~~
Rachel woke up at two in the morning with a scream startling her wife who nearly fell out of bed from the sudden and loud noise. The brunette sat up panting and sweating her face was pale and she looked terrified.
"Rach honey wants wrong?" Quinn asked after recovering from that loud scream.
Rachel didn't reply she just sat there shivering. Quinn looked concerned as she wrapped her wife up into a big hug and kissed her several times to calm her down.
"Rach?"
"I...I had another nightmare." Rachel quietly sobbed
"Oh sweetie it's ok. It's not real" Quinn tried to sooth her.
"It felt so real." Rachel murmured
"What happened this time?" Quinn asked
"I was...I was waiting for you but you were running late and...and then I called you but...there was this train and you were driving...it felt so real Quinn. I thought I'd lost you forever and then How To Save A Life was playing and...and" Rachel sobbed
Ever since they returned from Lima Rachel had been having these dreams about Quinn dying. Some were about Quinn's heart and others were just random like falling out of a plane or getting killed by a shark or most recently getting hit by a train. Quinn just put these dreams down to Rachel's grief about losing her father and her fear of how precious life can be and that she almost nearly lost her wife earlier that year.
"I'm right here baby. I'm not going anywhere" Quinn whispered
"You don't know that Quinn. No one knows that." Rachel cried
"Rachel listen to me. You and me are a forever deal ok. That's all there is to it" Quinn replied as she held her wife.
They stayed like that for a while until Rachel's eyes began to droop. Quinn gave her one more kiss before they both fell back to sleep.
Later that morning thankfully there were no more nightmares Rachel sluggishly made her breakfast while Quinn was in the shower. It was her first day back at work today after taking some time off. She was looking forward to going back and seeing her students and keeping her mind off her dad but she also dreaded it because there was a lot to catch up on after being away for two weeks.
Charlie was already up and getting ready for college for that day she was a bundle of energy as she pretty much bounced around the kitchen.
"Why are you so chipper today?" Rachel asked her youngest.
"No reason. I've just got a good feeling that I'll hear from one of my auditions." Charlie replied
"Yeah? How did they go?"
"Great. You'd be proud" Charlie smiled
"I'm always proud of you" Rachel replied as she cupped her daughter's cheek.
"Well you'll be even more proud when I get a role" Charlie added
"Who's getting a roll? I want a roll...with bacon" Quinn said as she entered the room
"Not food mom...I mean a role in a musical" Charlie chuckled
"Oh" Quinn sighed sadly.
"And nice try but no bacon for you" Rachel added
"So not fair" Quinn huffed
"So which part are you hoping to get?" Rachel asked as she ignored her wife pouting in the corner.
"Well at first I was itching to be the next Sally Bowles because you know how much I love Judy's offspring and Liza was simply perfect in that role but now I'm kinda hoping I get the part of a troubled school girl who falls in love with the son of a preacher man and has to fight for their love...I could totally play that." Charlie rambled excitedly.
Rachel just smiled she loved that her daughter had such a strong passion for what she loved. Charlie was an amazing performer and Rachel wasn't just saying that because she was her daughter she was just really talented.
In fact there had been many a times when her talent had come between them especially when Charlie was in high school and was the star of her Glee club. Because Rachel worked at a different high school to the one her children attended it meant that Charlie and Rachel were at some point competitors. Quinn was not a fan of this time. The amount of Diva tantrums and storm outs she had to put up with from both brunettes was just to the point of absurdity. Quinn even contemplated sabotaging both her wife and daughter just to end the drama. She secretly loved the fact that the year they were up against each other neither of them won. If one did and the other didn't well it would have been hell.
"I'm sure you'll get something and no matter what it is, you will be perfect" Quinn spoke up.
"Thanks mom...well I better get going otherwise I'll be late to class. Love you guys" Charlie rambled as she hurried out the door.
"Bye sweetie" Rachel called out.
"How are you feeling this morning Rach?" Quinn softly asked as she stood close to her wife and brushed a few stray hairs out of her eyes.
"Better...last night...I'm sorry for waking you up" Rachel mumbled
"Don't be silly. It's my job as your knight in shining armour" Quinn smiled softly
"You would look quite dashing in an armour suit." Rachel replied with a fake British accent
"Well I would need to be for the likes of my fair maiden" Quinn replied with a giggle.
Rachel just smiled and pulled her wife in for a kiss.
~~~ Family ~~~
Maya was helping Ally pack away her toys as they got ready to go food shopping. They had been busy that day making lots of different art work they had sat outside by the pool and did some painting and chalk drawings. Ally had a lot of fun making lots of pictures for everyone. They were just about ready when Maya told Ally to quickly go and get her cardigan before they left.
"Ok mommy" Ally replied as she ran off to her room
Maya pretty much stumbled over her own feet and nearly fell over the kitchen table when she heard what Ally had called her. She wasn't completely sure she had heard it right but she couldn't help but feel kinda warm and fuzzy inside it also made her worried and unsure about what it all meant.
Ally didn't even notice that she had said it. It just came out of her mouth and that was that. She came back into the kitchen with one arm sticking through her cardigan and the other was twisted around her. Maya shook herself out of her shock and bent down to help the girl put her top on properly.
"Thanks" Ally smiled
"You're welcome sweetie…ready to go?" Maya asked trying not to let the last few minutes affect her
Ally nodded and held her hand out for Maya to take. The pair had a great time shopping but Maya couldn't stop thinking about what Ally had called her. She didn't do it again that day but it plagued her mind the entire time. She had to admit it did sound nice hearing Ally call her mommy. But it also made Maya feel slightly uncomfortable because she felt like she was imposing and becoming far too emotionally invested. What if things don't turn out with Toby? Maya didn't want to even think about having to say goodbye to Ally or even Toby for that matter. She loved those two…they were her family.
~~~ Babies, Babies, Babies ~~~
Grace sat down with Sofia on their couch with the folder of the sperm donor they were going to use. They had picked someone who was athletic like Grace, Jewish like Grace and had brown hair like Grace.
"So we find out about your tests tomorrow?" Grace asked
"Yep…then all systems go!" Sofia grinned
"This is really happening isn't it?" Grace couldn't contain her smile
"It really fucking is" Sofia replied
"Ok well first of all you need to start watching your language I don't want my kid to have a swear word be the first thing they say." Grace informed her
Sofia playfully rolled her eyes and just nodded
"Yes mom"
Grace just laughed and lightly slapped her on the arm
"Hey…you know when I'm pregnant you can't do that anymore." Sofia replied
"God you're gonna milk this for all it's worth aren't you?" Grace cringed
"You know it." Sofia smirked
Grace just shook her head and went for a surprise tickle attack. Sofia let out a loud shriek as she tried to get away but failed when the floor got in her way and she ended up falling off the couch and had Grace land on top of her pinning her down.
"I give! I give!" Sofia laughed
Grace stopped and smiled triumphantly as she sat straddled on her wife's hips. Sofia brought her hands up to rest on Grace's thighs as both of them caught their breath back.
"Hey Gracie" Sofia spoke up
"Yeah?"
"Wanna go have sex?" She asked
Grace just laughed at her bluntness the nodded making Sofia smile. The Latina made a move to get up but Grace didn't making it impossible for Sofia to move. She gave her wife a questioning look but all she got in return was a playful and lustful look from Grace.
"Here? On the living room floor?" Sofia asked
Grace just shrugged
"Why not? Once the baby comes we can't do that anymore…we might as well take advantage of what we can do now" Grace simply replied.
"I like the way you think" Sofia smirked and then grabbed Grace's top and pulled her down to kiss her.
~~~ First Comes Love, Then Comes Marriage, Then Comes A Big Fuck You ~~~
Sofia was on a high the last few months have been nothing but good. First the wedding then the awesome honeymoon and now she and Gracie were starting to start a family. Ok yes there was the horrible death of Leroy which still didn't seem real but as of this moment in her life nothing could bring her down. She was literally on top of the world. So naturally the universe had to drop a fucking bomb.
Sofia sat in the doctor's lunch room eating her sandwich and reading some medical stuff. Sure she was always tired when she got home and she spent long hours at the hospital now but she loved being a doctor.
Finishing off her food she was a little startled when Gloria sat down opposite her at the small table.
"Hey" She greeted her
"Sofia can we um...can we talk for a moment?" Gloria asked sounding serious.
"Yeah sure what's up?" Sofia replied not sure what to expect from her tone. Gloria was very rarely so serious.
Gloria looked around the room to make sure they were alone.
"It's about your test results" She replied bringing a folder up onto the table.
"W-What about them?"
Gloria sighed and opened the file slowly pushing it over to the Latina. Sofia picked it up and quickly read over it. Her face and heart fell once she realized what was in front of her.
"I'm sorry honey" She said sadly
"T-This can't be right...I want it done again. I want an ultra sound" Sofia demanded
"I've run the tests twice there is no margin for error. These tests are very specific an ultra sound would just confirm it. I'm sorry but...I know how much you wanted to have children...maybe your wife coul-"
"No Gracie would never...it's why I was...this isn't fair!" Sofia yelled in anger
"Sofia-"
"No! No you can't just sit there and tell me I can't get pregnant! This doesn't mean I can't have kids!" Sofia yelled
"It doesn't your right. But it does say that if you a bicornuate uterus and you know that, that means you would have a high, very high risk of not being able to carry the baby to full term. It will either end up in miscarriage or stillborn or it could even kill you. It's far too risky and you know that. Your body can't handle a pregnancy. I'm sorry." Gloria told her calmly but forcibly.
Sofia sat there trying not to explode or implode she was so angry and devastated right now she didn't know what to do. She knew she was right. If she went ahead and did the IVF treatments there would be severe high risks of it ending badly but she didn't want to believe that this was happening to her. It wasn't fair and it was like some sick twisted joke that the universe had concocted up.
"Sofia" Gloria brought her out of her trance.
She hadn't noticed that she was already crying. Not knowing what to do she stood up and ran out of the room. She ran out of the hospital and into her car. She had no idea what she was doing she just needed to get away. She needed to hit something or break something…anything! It felt like her world was crashing in on her and there was nothing she could do to change it. All of her dreams of a family in an instant were cruelly ripped away.