CHAPTER 36
One more month had gone by and it was time for another visitation with Jax. I didn't get as anxious going to see him like I did in the beginning.
When I got there the officers patted me down like usual and asked me the same boring questions. I mean they see me once a week, it's frustrating.
"Ma'am, how are you this week?" One of the female officers asks me as I wait for the visitation room to open – she normally works the same shift I visit.
"I'm okay, thank you. Keeping busy" I tell her and she smiles.
"No little one this time?" she asks
"No, I think the last time was too traumatic for him" I say laughing lightly.
The last time I brought Abel they had to body scan him and I have to take off most of his clothes which obviously I had no problem with because it's the rules but Abel did not agree.
When the door opened and Jax was sitting in his usual spot. When I got to him we hugged tight and held for a little while and Inhaled him.
"Hey baby, how are you?" he says when we let go and I sit down next to him
"Feeling fat." I said honestly and he laughed.
"You look beautiful babe" he tells me and I blush.
"I'm sorry I didn't bring Abel it's just easier if Gemma can come with me"
He shakes his head and smiles. "Don't worry about it babe, I got plenty of more time in here to see him"
"He's starting to walk now and say a few things - I just want you to see it" I say and without noticing how it affects him as he has his head down.
"Shit sorry baby I didn't meant to rub it in like that" I tell him grabbing a hold of his hands.
"No, I want to hear these things it's just hard y'know?"
"Yeah" I say in sympathy
"So I've actually been meaning to ask you, remember the note I left you when we got arrested" he says and I nod hoping he's not going to mention the letters. "Did you find the letters I was talking about?" he asks. Shit.
"Oh …" I say trying to think what the hell I can say "Yeah, I read them – nothing special, just sweet letters." I tell him telling him only half the truth.
"Yeah?" he asks and I nod at him and smile. "You still haven't mentioned them to anyone?" he asks again.
"No, of course not." I tell him feeling guilty for lying
"Okay, I just didn't know what was gonna be in them y'know?"
"What did you think would be in them?" I ask him wondering if he had the slightest of idea what John really talked about.
"Not sure, the way she said she wanted me to know John like she did. I dunno I guess I was just over thinking it." He says and kisses my hand.
"Are you sleeping any better?" he asks changing the subject and he sounds so sweet. When me and Jax last spoke on the phone I explained to him how I was tired more than often due to the baby moving around too much during dark hours.
"On and off" I say shrugging my shoulders.
"Can you smoke shit when you're pregnant? Help you relax."
"Seriosuly? Like weed?" I ask him and he shrugs his shoulder. "Unless you want our child to come out with three arms and one leg then no." I tell him laughing
"With a mother like you I highly doubt that." He says and I blush again.
"You are one of a kind Teller" I say stroking his stubble and he winks and me I get butterflies and the baby starts doing backflips.
"Here" I say to him and grab his hand and put it on my stomach. "You feel that?"
"Woahh, that's crazy"
"Yeah, pretty amazing actually, … I mean it is now, not through the night." I say
"You're six months now right?" he asks and I nod
"You know it would be kind cute if you wrote letters, don't you think?" I ask him nicely
"Have you been inspired by the Irish romance?" he says jokingly with the biggest grin on his face.
"No, it's just I think it's nice to be able to read something as many times as you want, and you can give me updates on what you are doing at the time you are writing"
"I'll write to you" he tells me grinning from ear to ear.
"You will?" I ask him giving him back a big grin
"Yeah – I just gotta figure out how to write phone sex"
"Jax!" I yell at his and playfully slap him on the arm.
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When I got back to Gemma's she was calling me through to the bedroom from the moment I walked through the door.
"What is it?!" I ask when I get closer. When I entered the room Gemma was sat on the floor with Abel standing in front of her.
"Oh my god Abel"
"Are you gonna walk for mommy?" Gemma asks him and I sit down on the floor best I can opposite Gemma in front of Abel.
"Come here baby" I cue at him and he starts taking a couple of steps. "C'mon you can do it!" I encourage him and he starts taking a few more steps until he reaches my arms and drops himself into them.
"Good job!" I tell him and smother his face with kisses.
"Jax would be so proud" Gemma says and it makes me start to tear up.
"Cara, don't cry" Gemma tells me and comes closer next to me and starts rubbing my back
"He's just growing too fast before Jax can even see" I say wiping my eyes
"Babies do that darling" she says and I give her a glare "Sorry" she then says
"We've only got another eleven months to go" I say sarcastically and Gemma starts laughing, I laugh with her then Abel does too. Oh what a dysfunctional life I live.