Dean-
I pulled open the front door, hearing footsteps behind me.
"Can you please slow down? I'm pregnant and I can't move that fast", she said from behind me.
I slowed my pace a little, stopping far enough away from the house. I turned to face her and she stopped in her tracks.
"How dare you go against me Alex. I said I didn't want my girls, yes that is including you, any where near her", I growled.
She took a step back.
"Decisions like this need to be made by the both of us. I said no and clearly you don't give a fuck right", I yelled.
"Jon, she is dying", she said.
"I don't care. Do you think she cared if I died or not when she kicked me out on my ass with no money or food? Hell no shelter, huh, you think she gave a fuck?", I yelled.
Lexi looked down.
"Just like I respect the decisions you make, you have to respect mine too", I yelled.
She nodded softly.
"Then seeing Colby and Joe, that was fucked up. You took my best friends and included them in this mess, in our mess", I yelled.
"They're my friends too", she said softly.
"No their not. They're my friends", I yelled without thinking.
She bit her lip and looked down.
"Here is what we're going to do, we are going to go back to that fucking house and get our girls. Then we are getting on a plane and going home", I said, walking past her, stopping at the corner when I realized she wasn't following.
I might be angry, but I wasn't about to leave her alone in this neighborhood. I took a deep breath, wishing I had a cigerette right now. I glanced behind me and she looked around. She took her phone out and then placed it back in her pocket and started towards me. Without looking at me, she past me and I walked behind her slowly.
We walked back into the house and Roman stood.
"You ok babygirl?", he asked her.
"You shouldn't comfort me Roman because according to Dean, we aren't friends", she said, walking towards the room.
Roman and Seth looked at me.
"Jon, we are just as much her friends as we are yours", Roman said.
"It slipped out alright", I said, rolling my shoulders back trying to release the tension there.
"You like making your wife cry don't you", Seth said.
"Well she likes pissing me off", I mumbled.
"You know damn well that was not what she was trying to do. Your mother is dying Jon. This might be the last time you get to tell her how you feel. Lexi was just trying to help", Roman said.
I stuffed my hands into my jean pockets.
"You don't understand, she went against me", I said.
"She told you where she was going in that note. What she shouldn't have done was sneak off the way she did", he said.
"Talk to your mom Jon", Seth said.
I groaned.
"We can wait", Roman said, sitting down.
Seth did the same.
"Fuck, fine", I said.
I started down the hall. I opened the door to the room Lexi had walked into. My mom was holding Amelia. Gracie was on the bed beside her holding a doll.
"Daddy", Gracie said happily.
"There's my big girl", I said, hugging her.
"Look daddy, grandma got me a barbie", she said smiling.
"At least she did something right for once", I said.
Gracie bounced back over to my mom. Lexi looked away and I noticed her wipe her cheeks. My mom placed a hand on top of hers.
"Gracie, lets go help nana Rose with dinner", Lexi said.
"Ok, bye grandma", Gracie said, hugging my mom.
Lexi took Amelia from her. Gracie walked out of the room, Lexi was about to pass me. I tried to kiss her cheek.
"Don't touch me", she mumbled.
I heard the door slam lightly.
"See what you did? My wife went against me and right now neither of us is happy, but I bet you are. Hell you got what you wanted", I said.
"Don't be mad at her, she was just trying to help", she said softly.
"You don't even fucking care that you just ruined my marriage", I shook my head.
"She is too good for you. How did such a sweetheart end up with you? I don't see it", she said, rolling her eyes.
I chuckled.
"I don't know why I let you get to me. You didn't change and you're never going too", I said.
"I should have taken the time to bond with you, to get to know you and to show you even just a little of the love I felt for you", she said.
I swallowed the lump in my throat.
"You're my son Jon and I do love you. I don't know why it was so hard to tell you before, when I kicked you out I did worry. I hoped you were ok and safe, somewhere warm", she said.
I looked away from her.
"Don't do what your father did. Don't run away from your family. Your wife was telling me about your movie, congrats kid", she said.
"I hate you", I said.
She took a deep breath.
"You want to tell me you love me now, after all this time all because your dying and what you just expect me to forgive you. It's not that easy", I said pacing.
"I know", she agreed.
No you don't know. You don't know me or my family. I only came here to get my three girls and now I'm leaving", I said.
"You can go. I just wanted to apologize to you and your wife and to meet my granddaughters", she said.
"So you think it's that easy? I yelled at my wife because that is the only way I know how to communicate and I learned that from you. I don't know how you could do it without feeling like crap after doing it. It kills me to see my wife hurt and knowing she feels like that because of me", I said angry.
She watched me.
"And you're right, I don't know why such a beautiful person like her ended up with me, an asshole", I said.
I brushed my hair back.
"Fuck", I said.
I sighed and looked at her. Tears falling from my eyes.
"I forgive you. I shouldn't, but I need to for my family", I said, wiping my face.
She let a tear slip too. I walked out of the room and went to find Lexi. Finding her in the kitchen. I walked up to her and just wrapped my arms around her and cried. She held me tight to her. Everyone left us alone in the kitchen.
"I've got you my love", she whispered.
"I'm so sorry, I'm sorry", I cried.
"Shh, I know", she kissed my cheek.
I looked at her. She smiled softly and wiped my face.
"Your aunt Rose made us food to go", she said.
I nodded. We packed up the food and went back to the hotel. The guys sensing I needed a moment alone with Lexi, took the girls with them.
"I'm sorry. I took out my anger on you and I said things I shouldn't have", I said, holding her hand, kissing her fingers gently.
"I was just trying to help, but I shouldn't have done it behind your back", she said softly.
"I love you Alexandra Good, with everything in me I love you", I whispered.
She stood and straddled me. I looked up at her.
"And I love you Mr. Grumpy pants", she said smiling.
I chuckled.
"How do you not hate me when I get angry? Most woman would have ran by now and never looked back", I said, my hands slowly unbuttoning her jeans.
"When I see you with the girls or when you look at me and smile, the way you make love to me. When you tell me I'm beautiful. I know that no one else in the world will ever make me feel the way you do", she said.
She lifted my shirt off of me and kissed down my chest. I gently flipped us so I was on top now.
"You make me feel loved and I need you, through the ups and downs. You have me and I know I have you", I said.
I kissed her hard. Pulling away slowly.
"I'm gonna make love to you now", I mumbled against her lips.
"Please do", she whispered.