A/N: Comments, reviews and suggestions cheerfully received! This is my very first attempt at a certain type of writing…please be gentle.
Disclaimer: I own nothing of Supergirl or the characters.
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The morning sunlight warmed Kara's face as she stood sipping freshly brewed coffee on Cat's balcony. Her mind was swimming with so much that she wondered if she might drown in her own thoughts. Chief among those thoughts was her conversation with Alex about being Supergirl or not. She wondered if fear was keeping her from wearing the suit again and helping the people of National City. Was it fear of what might happen to those she loved…certainly. Was it fear of what might happen to her…definitely. Alex had been correct, she was Supergirl whether she wore the suit again or not; she wouldn't be content to just be Kara Danvers. So now what should she do?
Then there was the whole 'Cat' issue. She definitely had 'feelings' for Cat that went way beyond friendship or the mother thing she'd tried to hide behind. Now that she had acknowledged them to herself, what was she going to do about them? Alex made it sound so easy - just talk to her, tell her how I feel. Kara could feel her heartbeat picking up at the thought of telling Cat what she was feeling.
The more she thought about it though, the more Alex made sense. Cat had gone way above for her; she'd opened up her home, had stayed by her beside, had repeatedly held her tightly. Cat had invested way more than 'motherly' affection in Kara, was it possible that she had the same 'feelings' that Kara did? Taking a sip of her coffee Kara muttered to herself, "Nothing ventured, nothing gained."
"And just what are you thinking of 'venturing' into," Cat asked as she stepped out onto the balcony to join Kara with a very large mug of coffee firmly in her grasp. "If I may be permitted to ask, that is."
"Good morning, Cat." Kara turned and smiled at her, "I'm just thinking about Supergirl…and some other things." Kara turned away hoping Cat didn't see the slight blush as it swept over her face.
"Hmmm," Cat took a seat and continued soaking up the needed caffeine; taking time to think before she spoke. "And what were you thinking about 'Supergirl'?"
Kara didn't answer Cat as she looked out over the city, trying to use sipping her coffee as the reason for her lack of response.
"Your powers are fully back but you haven't put the suit back on and been 'her' again. Are you wondering if you'll ever want to be Supergirl again?" Cat asked ever so gently.
Kara chuckled slightly as she turned to face Cat. "There's no point in trying to hide anything from you is there?"
"Nope," Cat took another sip, "so why bother trying? Why not just tell me what's on your mind?"
Kara moved to take a seat near Cat, "That was one of the things Alex and I talked about last night when we went to my room. I'm not certain if I'm ready to be 'her' again, now or ever for that matter."
Cat sat quietly waiting for Kara to continue when she was ready to. "I'm frightened, Cat, frightened of what people will try to do to those I love and to me too. But Alex said that I won't be happy until I'm being Supergirl; she said I need to be true to who I am, that I was 'her' even before I came out and you named me, that I just hadn't embraced it yet."
"Do you think she was right?" Cat asked.
"Yes, but being Supergirl just scares me." Kara answered. "How can I be a hero if I'm terrified all the time?"
Cat looked at Kara, "A hero isn't a hero because they aren't afraid; a hero is a hero because even though they are afraid they choose to be a hero in spite of their fear. If you wait until you're not afraid before you be the hero you know you are, then you'll never be that hero again. If you weren't afraid, you wouldn't make a great hero. Do you understand what I mean by that?"
Kara nodded her head. "So I guess now that my powers are back and I'm going to return to being Supergirl I guess it's time for me to go back to my own apartment. Thanks so much for all you've done me Cat. I don't know how I would've managed to get this far without you."
Cat smiled at Kara before speaking, "I'm glad you're going to go back to being Supergirl, if you're ready to that is; but why do you need to go back to your apartment just because your powers are back? You still have some emotional healing to do and you're very welcome to stay here while you do it."
Kara's eyes shot wide open, "What about when Carter comes home?"
"Yes, Carter," Cat was beaming with pride, "it seems that while he and his father were at some science thing in England that Carter got himself noticed by several professors from some renowned school dedicated to those gifted in the areas of science and math and landed himself a one year scholarship to the program if he wants it. He wants it, so I'm going over to take him some clothing and other necessities and sign some forms. So when I come back my huge penthouse will be empty for a whole year."
"That's fantastic!" Kara beamed with joy, "I mean, I'm glad for him but I know you'll really miss him. England is so far away."
"Yes, well," Cat continued, "there are two things I'd like to ask you regarding this whole thing. First, would you accompany me when I travel to England, as my assistant, so that I'm sure we get everything taken care of for him that he needs done. I think we could both use a wee vacation on top of that; we'd only be gone 2 weeks, and I'm paying for the entire thing…don't even try to argue with me, just say 'yes'."
"Ummm, okay, yes!" Kara smiles was massive, "What's the second question?"
"When I came out here and asked you what you were thinking of venturing into, you mentioned Supergirl and 'some other things'" Cat asked looking Kara squarely in the eye, "if I may, what 'other things' were you thinking about venturing into?"
Kara's face blushed quicker than Cat had ever seen anyone turn red; she wondered if Kara blushing was connected to her super speed somehow, it was that fast.
Taking a deep breath and slowly letting it out Kara smiled as she looked Cat directly in the face. "Oh boy, here we go…Cat, I don't know what to say…I mean I know what I want to say, I just don't know how to say it…you've been so amazing to me…and I love my job…and I love being here with you…I just don't want you to feel weird about it if you don't feel the same way…but I was thinking…actually I was hoping that, ummm…"
Cat started to laugh very hard at Kara's fumbling over her words. "Kara! Just spit it out for pity's sake, I'm not getting any younger."
"Right, okay," Kara's face was pale, "So, I was wondering, if maybe you felt differently about me than just a mother-daughter thing? Maybe, kind of interested in me, in a, you know, different way."
Cat was trying her level best to sit quietly while Kara fumbled to get out what she was trying to say. "Kara," Cat's voice was even and gentle, she was really trying not to laugh at Kara's cute behaviour. "Are you asking me if I'm interested in you in a romantic kind of way?"
Kara's face blushed and her eyes went wide as saucers, "Yes…no…I mean yes but if you aren't it's okay."
Cat was grinning, fighting back the temptation to see just how long she could make Kara squirm, "Are you interested in me in a romantic kind of way?"
Kara squirmed visibly, how could she be a superhero if she couldn't even tell someone she cared about that she 'cared' about them. "Yes." She managed to blurt out one small word before she couldn't look at Cat any longer. "But if you don't feel that way too, that's totally okay. I hope I haven't ruined our relationship, I mean how could you feel that way about me, right? You yourself even said that it was a mother kind of thing. Look," Kara stood up as if about to leave, "I'm sorry I even mentioned it and made you feel uncomfortable. If you want me to leave right now I totally get it, I crossed a line and there's no going back over it. You don't have to take me to England with you, now that I've totally ruined our relationship…"
"Kara!" Cat had to raise her voice a bit to get the girl to stop talking, "Please stop talking and sit back down so I can answer you." Kara did as instructed before Cat spoke. "Yes." Cat looked at the bewildered expression in Kara's face. "Did you hear what I just said Kara?"
Kara nodded but said nothing. "Yes, I am interested in you romantically. I tried to hide behind the mother-daughter thing because I figured there was no way you'd feel the same way. Alex called me out on it yesterday, but I told her I didn't want to bring it up with you while you were still dealing with what happened at Cadmus; I didn't want you to feel overwhelmed."
Kara just stared at Cat, wide-eyed, mouth hanging open, unable to speak. "Kara? Are you okay?" Cat was trying to fight back a smirk from creeping across her face.
"Ummm, yeah, yeah," Kara shook her head and closed her mouth, "I'm great…ummm…I don't know what to say or do right now."
"Well stop babbling and use your words would be a great place to start." Cat tried to sound serious but she knew the laughter in her voice was betraying her.
"Right, yes, stop babbling," Kara continued to babble, "use my words and say what I'm thinking and feeling, excellent place to start, you're absolutely correct Ms. Grant…" Kara's eyes shot wide when she realized she'd just referred to Cat with the boss title. "I mean 'Cat', yes, 'Cat', I'll use my words."
Cat let out a huge sigh, "Really Kara? Now you're babbling about not babbling!" Cat just broke out laughing as she shook her head at Kara.
Kara stopped babbling and started laughing with Cat when the absurdity of her babbling finally registered with her brain. "Oh dear, I'm sorry for that Cat. I was just so nervous about having this conversation with you."
"Evidently." Cat grinned, "But you've babbled so much I'm not sure we've even had a conversation to be nervous about yet." Cat paused, "Kara, I am interested in you, romantically and I have been for quite some time now. I didn't realize just how deeply I care for you until I nearly lost you."
Kara nodded, afraid to speak in case the babbling person inside her head started spewing again.
"So," Cat continued, "we have a few hurdles we need to work out before we can proceed any further with any kind of relationship. I'm your boss and you're my employee, that's a big one. The age difference is a concern and so is Carter and how he'll feel about it. But most importantly, you've just survived being raped not once but twice, so we need to go slowly, understand?"
Kara nodded that she understood Cat's concerns. "I don't want to make your life any more complicated than it already is, and if you don't want to pursue anything like this with me, I completely understand."
Cat reached over and held Kara's hand, "That's not what I meant by that. What I mean is we can't jump into some relationship like a couple of teenagers, we have to make sure that we take our time and work it out, slowly, so neither of us gets hurt."
"So, you want to be in a relationship with me?" Kara was seeking further confirmation.
"Yes, I do want to be in a romantic relationship with you, Kara. Was that plain enough for you?" Cat asked as she gently stroked the back of Kara's hand with her thumb.
Kara's face lit up light it was Christmas morning and every present under the tree was hers! "Awesome!" Without warning Kara stood up and leaning over she took Cat's chin in her hand and gently lifted her face upward as she leaned in to give Cat a soft and seductive kiss on the lips.
After a momentary hesitation, mostly fuelled by shock, Cat reached up a hand to cup Kara's cheek as she kissed her back. When the kiss ended Kara was still very close to Cat's face, smiling, "Thanks."
"For what?" Cat whispered in response.
"Everything, this, yesterday, today, tomorrow. For being you, for being there for me, for not turning me away even when I babbled and drove you crazy." Kara slowly leaned back in for an even gentler and more seductive kiss. "Thanks."
"You're very welcome." Cat whispered a reply as Kara ended the kiss.
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Alex awoke with the sight of Lucy, lying on her side facing her, just staring with a sweet smile on her face. "It's way too early to be that cheerful." Alex groaned.
"Who says I'm being cheerful? Maybe I'm smiling at you for another reason." Lucy whispered suggestively at Alex.
Alex turned onto her side so she was facing Lucy, a slight grimace passed over her face, her ribs expressing their displeasure at the movement. "So, what exactly are you smiling about, agent Lane?"
"That's assistant director Lane to you agent Danvers." Lucy was trying not to let her smile get the better of the situation.
"Oh…so that's how it's going to be, is it?" Alex raised her eyebrows at Lucy's assertion of rank over her.
"You like it when I assert my authority over you Danvers." Lucy eyes had slightly closed, with a look of seduction in them.
"Well, that depends on the orders, ma'am. If I don't like them I might have to risk a little insubordination and see what happens. See if you've got the stuff to lead or not." The wicked smile on Alex's face made Lucy's face light up.
"I see, agent," Lucy raised up so she was resting on one arm. "So if I ordered you to kiss me, would you follow that order?"
"Yes ma'am," Alex whispered as she moved in for a chaste kiss on Lucy's cheek.
"Hmmm," Lucy responded to the touch. "So if I ordered you to lay flat on your back, would you follow that order too?"
Alex saluted Lucy as she slowly rolled onto her back. Lucy inched closer to Alex so that their bodies were barely brushing up against one another.
"Very obedient, agent." Lucy leaned over and kissed Alex softly on the lips. "So, now if I order you to raise your arms above your head and keep them there until I give you permission to lower them, would you obey that order as well?"
Slowly Alex raised her arms above her head, but when her left arm got higher, her ribs protested the movement and she winced in pain. Stopping the movement she raised her right arm only and let her left fall to her side.
"I see, being insubordinate already?" Lucy grinned at Alex. "I'm pretty sure that you need to be disciplined for that, agent Danvers. How best to punish you I wonder?"
"Ma'am," Alex tried to be semi-serious as she was playing along with Lucy's little game. "I intend no insubordination, it seems my injury is influencing my ability to obey your commands."
"Yes, I suppose that could be the case." Lucy did have a slight look of concern for Alex's pain on her face. "I'll let this one slide, this time, agent. You may keep your left arm at your side. The next time don't expect me to be so forgiving."
"Yes ma'am, I'm sorry ma'am. I'll do my best ma'am." The smirk on Alex's face nearly caused Lucy to burst out laughing, but she was all about control right now. Control of herself but also control of Alex.
"Close your eyes agent." Lucy ordered. "I expect them to remain closed until I give you permission to open, is that understood?"
Alex's face flushed with colour as she anticipated what Lucy might have instore for her while her eyes were closed. "Yes ma'am." With one last longing look Alex slowly closed her eyes and slowly released the breath she'd been holding for way too long.
Lucy smiled at Alex as she lay still ,waiting for her to do whatever she'd planned on doing. Lucy just let Alex lay there, waiting for her, as her eyes roamed over Alex's soft features and then slowly journeyed down her body as it lay still covered by blankets.
Lucy leaned in and ghosted a kiss over Alex's lips, barely touching them with hers, hot breath brushing over Alex's open mouth. It made Alex gasp as she inhaled. "So agent, here are my orders, listen carefully as any act of insubordination will be met with swift correction. Do not move unless I tell you to, do not try to touch me with any part of your body, do not open your eyes unless I instruct you to do so, you aren't allowed to speak unless I ask you a question, nor are you allowed to make any sounds unless I give you permission to, and finally, and here's the big one, you're not allowed to come until I order you to. Do you understand my orders, agent?"
Alex nodded as a weak but anticipatory "Yes ma'am" crept from between her lips.
With that Lucy began to sweetly lay kisses over Alex's head and neck. Sucking gently on her earlobe, roaming freely over her face and neck with warm, sensual kisses before she finally found her way to kiss Alex on the mouth.
At first the kisses were soft and gentle, loving in fact and Alex responded in fashion. Slowly Lucy's tongue began to press against Alex's lips, encouraging them to open. But Alex was smarter than that and didn't move her lips at all to allow Lucy access.
Surprised, Lucy pulled back from her ministrations to Alex's lips and smiling she said, "Well done agent Danvers, you're obeying my instructions to the letter." Alex didn't flinch or move a muscle. "You are permitted to kiss me back and respond to my non-verbal directions."
Alex tried not to smile, smiling was moving her lips and movement wasn't permitted. Lucy grinned wickedly at the level of compliance being attempted by her lover before she plunged back in for a deeper kiss, tongue pressing into Alex's mouth when it opened. Passionately they kissed like this for several minutes before Lucy stopped suddenly.
"You're not a bad kisser, agent, but clearly more training is required." Lucy said in a soft but commanding tone.
Alex resisted the temptation to nod her head or open her mouth to acknowledge the comment from Lucy. Lucy watched with pleasure at the level of self-control Alex was exhibiting, wondering if roles were reversed could she be capable of the same.
Gingerly Lucy passed her hand over the blankets that were covering Alex's naked body. She loved that Alex slept naked, as if ready for a morning romp in the sheets, or even a middle of the night one…she made a mental note to try that one night.
Alex drew in a deep breath as her body responded to the slight caress from Lucy. Her body was aching for the sensation of Lucy's hands actually on her, but she was determined to be 'obedient' in this little game they were playing, lying perfectly still.
Lucy gently rose to her knees and gently grabbing the sheets she very slowly began to slide them off of Alex, exposing her beautiful nude form to the morning air. Lucy grinned at the sight of Alex's nipples going hard in response to the exposure to the air. She could sense Alex's pleasure at the physiological response her body was having.
Lucy leaned over and began to lick Alex's nipples, one then the other, watching them get harder and harder, watching Alex try not to move in response to her mouth on her breasts. "Do you like this, agent?" Lucy asked as she renewed her exploration of Alex's breasts.
"Y-y-yesss ma'am." Alex managed to groan out a response.
"That's too bad." Lucy smirked as she pulled away from them. "I have other things to do."
Alex tried desperately not to moan out loud over the removal of Lucy's mouth from her breasts but failed miserably.
"Oh!" Lucy's voice was filled with fake consternation. "Did you just release a moan without permission, agent Danvers?"
"Sorry ma'am, it won't happen again." Alex answered trying not to smile or move.
Lucy gave one of Alex's breasts a gently flick with a fingernail, "See that it doesn't, agent. I'm not fond of insubordination and if it happens again it will be met with a swift reprisal."
"Yes ma'am." Alex thought she might come undone before she 'came' undone.
Lucy lifted the sheet that lay atop Alex's stomach and tucked her head underneath it, kissing and licking Alex's taut abdomen, dipping her tongue lightly at her bellybutton causing Alex's muscles to contract. Lucy knew it was an involuntary response and Alex had barely moved so no 'discipline' would be forthcoming.
Crawling on her hands and knees, under the sheet, Lucy continued to make her way with her mouth down towards Alex's core. When she arrived her nose barely brushed against the neatly trimmed curls, the wind from her exhale causing them to move ever so slightly. Alex didn't flinch. Lucy grinned. Now it was going to be a battle of wills, Alex's determination to not disobey, Lucy's persistent attempts to break that stubborn will. Game on.
Pulling the sheet off of her head, Lucy descended the bed so that she was at Alex's feet, slowly she pulled the remainder of the sheet down Alex's body, staring up at her naked form, willing and waiting for whatever Lucy had planned for her. "Spread your legs open wide, agent."
Alex obeyed the order, slowly, very slowly, causing Lucy to raise an eyebrow at the cheeky level of obedience. "Yes, ma'am." Alex was barely able to utter in reply to the command.
Placing a hand on each of Alex's ankles, Lucy slowly began her ascent up her legs. Caressing, rubbing, kissing one leg then the other. Until she finally reached her destination – Alex's core. Lucy smiled as she noticed the glistening hairs; Alex was very wet in anticipation. Slowly Lucy trailed her hand up Alex, beginning at her entrance and ending at her clitoris. Pausing she ever so slightly rubbed the nub before dragging her hand back down. "My, you are expectant, aren't you agent?" Lucy muttered as she felt the moisture surrounding Alex's labia.
"Y-y-y-yessss ma'aaaam." Alex barely managed to speak the words without her hips moving and betraying her self-control.
Slowly Lucy pressed her fingers between the lips of Alex's centre, where she once again traced her hand up and then back down. Alex's hips and back arched the tiniest amount and Alex had to hold her breath so as not to moan against orders.
"Good girl," Lucy whispered, her breath breezing over the hairs on top of Alex's core. It was more than Alex could handle as her hips moved upward in search of Lucy's mouth.
"Down girl!" Lucy commanded at Alex's disobedience in moving.
Alex let out a long slow breath as she willed her hips to relax and return to the mattress.
"It seems you're struggling to be obedient agent. Should I stop before any further instances of insubordination occur?" Lucy whispered the words against the hairs on Alex, causing them to move with the breeze and Alex's breath to hitch as she fought with all she had to remain perfectly still.
"I obey at the pleasure of the assistant director, ma'am." Alex managed to speak.
"Good." Lucy responded to Alex. "Let's find out just how obedient you can be." With that statement, Lucy's tongue dove deep into Alex's folds, licking and sucking, tongue darting in and out of Alex's entrance. All the while Alex remained completely still…barely.
Lucy's eyes had been watching Alex's face as her expressions betrayed her; she was using every ounce of self-control under extreme circumstances; it was time for Lucy to have a little pity on her subordinate. "Alex, you may move your hips and make noise if you want to, but no words and no coming until I give you permission. If you disobey, I stop. Is that clear?"
"Yes, ma'am, crystal clear." With that Alex began to freely moan and her hips began to rhythmically move in time with Lucy's tongue.
It felt like an eternity for Alex as she was so close to coming but had to hold it back until Lucy gave her permission. Lucy didn't make it easy for Alex either; sometimes her tongue was firm and pointed, darting in and out of her entrance; other times is was soft and flat as she licked her way up and down.
Alex's moans were growing in volume as each moment passed without Lucy giving her permission for release. "Shhhh…less volume agent, or I stop."
It was all Alex could do, she was about to be insubordinate and not only move to grab Lucy's hair and hold her in place, but she was more than ready to come.
"Come for me Alex! Open your eyes, look at me, and come hard for me!" Lucy ordered as she plunged her tongue deeper into Alex.
Alex did as ordered and came as hard as a freight train, her head shot back, her eyes slammed shut and her hips rose in response to Lucy's tongue. Crying out Lucy's name over and over, Alex came not once but twice in quick succession.
Lucy slowed her tongue as she allowed Alex to ride out the final waves of her orgasms and settle back onto the bed. When Alex was still Lucy wiped her mouth on the sheets as she climbed up and lay down beside Alex whose eyes were still closed and a look of intense satisfaction was on her face.
When Alex finally opened her eyes and saw Lucy staring at her with a gigantic smile and love in her eyes. "Oh my god! Lucy that was the most amazing sex!"
"Thanks Alex, I love you too." Lucy said as she lay down beside Alex, resting her head into Alex's shoulder, her fingers smoothly running over Alex's belly.
Love! Alex thought, she loves me? Really, she loves me? Holy shit!
"Did you just tell me that you love me, Lucy?" Alex gently asked, hoping she'd heard correctly.
"Yes, you heard me correctly, I love you Alex." Lucy lifted her head to look Alex in the face when she said it.
"Wow!" Was all Alex could say; not because she didn't feel the same way but because she was still recovering.
"That's it, 'Wow' is all you can say to my admission of love?" Lucy smiled at Alex, knowing it was because she'd totally ruined her and she was still recovering.
"After those orgasms I think my brain shut off! But yes, I love you too Lucy." Alex lifted her hand to cup Lucy's cheek. "Let me show you just how much." With that Alex flipped Lucy onto her back and began to demonstrate in tangible ways just how much she loved her.
"She said 'Yes'!" Kara shouted as she burst into Alex's room without knocking. "And I'm going to England with her!" Kara stopped short in her tracks when she saw what was going on in bed between Alex and Lucy. "Oh shit! Sorry!" Faster than super speed could allow, Kara had turned and left the room, shutting the door behind her.
Lucy and Alex just looked at each other and started laughing out loud. "Danvers, your sister is too much sometimes."
Alex kissed Lucy, "You have no idea, absolutely no idea whatsoever. Now, where was I…"