Nobody's POV

Time went on but it didn't help Ally or Dougie. She was convinced it wasn't Doug's fault after all, she thought she had fallen in love's trap like a fool and now she had decided to close her heart again, at least for a while, at least until Dougie was finally off her head… And that was going to take a while.

Frankie hadn't moved yet, though there were many boxes with her stuff in Doug's living room, but they both were too busy with their bands, they were waiting for a more peaceful moment. Meanwhile, Dougie was having a really hard time trying to stay away from Ally. He couldn't forget the moment he kissed her, it'd be one of the best things that had ever happened to him, but he wanted to try his best to be a good boyfriend for once. He'd stayed away from Ally for too long, he didn't even had a photograph of her and he couldn't visit her after their fight, she'd probably kick his ass or something like that.

Danny and Dougie hadn't talked about their fight, they actually weren't talking much, Harry and Tom could feel there was something different, but they didn't know what it was, they didn't know about their fight, and things were getting a little bit uncomfortable. Both of them had written many songs lately, loved inspired Danny's song while sorrow was in all of Dougie's melodies.

Doug still didn't know about Jazzie and Danny, while Tom was suspecting it and Harry already knew, he'd caught them kissing in a closet and almost run to Doug to tell him, but they stopped him and Danny was paying him to keep his mouth shout… Of course Harry wouldn't say anything away after promising it to Jazzie, but Danny didn't know about that…

Ally's POV

My grades were excellent, I think no one had better grades than I did. Well, when you have so much free time and a troubled mind that you want to keep shut, studying is a good option. Susan had bought me a piano but I didn't find it interesting anymore, playing had always connected me to my feelings and they were something I was running away from.

The bell rang and I almost run outside. Jazzie followed me, which I didn't want. I put my skateboard on the floor and rode away from school.

"Ally, wait, you haven't talked to me for like a month!" Jazzie said as she run by my side.

"Oh, yeah? I haven't noticed it" How could I even look at you when you are so alike to Dougie? It was a torture to have to sit by her side every morning of the week.

"You haven't noticed it? Oh, come on, what's going on? I thought we were friends"

"Sure, we are…"

"Can you stop, please? I can't talk and run at the same time"

I sighed and stopped. She put a hand over her chest, breathing heavily.

"Thanks"

"You're welcome. What do you want?"

"I want my friend back" she said annoyed… Well, I wasn't being to friendly really.

"Look, I don't really think that's such a good idea"

"I know things didn't work out between my brother and you, but it doesn't mean we cant be friends"

"Maybe I cant be your friend"

"Why not?"

"Haven't you ever looked at yourself in the mirror? It's so obvious you are his sister, you are so similar. I cant look at you, you remind me too much of him"

"But you were the best friend I had here. Please, Ally. I'll cut my hair, I promise, but please… I miss you"

I closed my eyes and touched my hands. I focused in the great times I'd had with her, how happy I'd been to have her as my friends, how funny she was, how loyal… I opened my eyes and couldn't help thinking of Dougie the moment I saw her.

"I miss you too"

"Does that mean we can be friends?"

"I don't know, Jazz… I need time" I left her there, she didn't follow me this time.

I didn't come back home, I wasn't spending too much time there lately, Susan asked too many questions, mums could see very easily when their kids –though I wasn't really her daughter- are going through bad times, and I didn't want to answer any of them, I just wanted to be left alone. So I'd found a great place, in a top of a heal, kind of far away from the city, in a place with many trees, kind of a huge park. I sat there and turned on my Ipod. I tried to let music persuade me, relax me, 'Song 2' by Blur was playing. I was suddenly annoyed, everything kept reminding me of what happened; the phrase 'well, I lie and I'm easy' made me think about this whole Dougie-thing again; how I'd never been completely honest with him, always lying and hiding things, and how easy I'd fallen in love with him when I knew he was out of my league. I changed song quickly, hoping not to have to stand a love song and, of course, I'd deleted all of the song from McFLY. I thought I was safe when 'With Me Tonight' by The Used started, but the phrase 'I need you, you don't need me' hurt me deeply, making me think about Dougie again. I threw my Ipod away angrily, hoping some minutes later that it wasn't broken.

I took a big breath as I put my arms around me. 'No, I'm not going to cry' I thought. It was ironic how Dougie had made me cry so much while I had spend 17 years in a living hell but I'd never cried that much.

I felt horrible, not only because today had been one of those days when I couldn't help thinking of him, no matter how hard I tried to avoid it… The nightmares were back and I was very tired. The nights seemed longer and harder, every sad feeling had come back to my mind.

'I need a friend' I thought 'I need Jazzie'

Does anybody know the songs I mentioned? They are cool, check them out :)

I may upload two chapters tomorrow as a gift for my friend who's leaving to United States. I'm going to miss you :(

Dont hate me, things will get better soon, I swear :D