First of all I would like to say that my 17th birthday has been hella awesome. I got some of the greatest gifts and had a wonderful party with some friends. Second your reviews are amazing. Makes me want to write more each day, im so grateful for the positive feedback I get. Third here's some more. It's long, i hope you like!

"So do I be straight forward with what I want to ask you or say it nicely?" Spencer asked, sitting down on a seat next to Ashley's bed.

"Well saying it nicely is always, well… nice. Yet being straight up is probably better," Ashley responded.

"Okay straight up it is," Spencer nodded.

"Like a G," Ashley winked, and then realized this was no time for jokes, but humor is needed every once in a while.

Spencer sat still for a minute and looked up to think what she was going to ask. She actually knew, she was just mentally preparing herself for answers.

"First of all, I would like to say that I DO care about you. I sent you an email that you obviously haven't seen. Second, what made you start … you know…start using drugs?" Spencer asked. "And why would you do that to me? It hurt badly."

The last question stabbed Ashley in the heart. She knew she hurt Spencer badly, but to have to hear it come out of Spencer's mouth hurt Ashley even more.

Spencer saw the hurt in Ashley's eyes, but she couldn't feel to bad because her girl has hurt her way to much in the past month.

"Spencer I really don't know why I started using drugs. All I know is that it started when I went to WA. I'm pretty sure it went down like this," Ashley started telling the story of how it all started.

I got to the airport and they greeted me there. They seemed so excited to see me. Lexi was the usual kind of calm one, and Nikole well she was probably high, or so it seemed.

"So how's life dawg, I mean you got a girl or boy? You wanna party later? O dude we have so much to catch up on," Nikole asked.

That was thing Nikole said to me. Asking me if I wanted to party. You know I like parties and with you around I love them even more.

The two got into a little tiff and I told them they never changed. I believe more words were exactly this.

"Wow you guys haven't changed much, well yes I have a girl, Spencer Carlin, love of my life, and o hell I'd LOVE to party later, but right now I need to go call Spence. And then, unpack at your house I believe Lexi, then we'll go party." Ash answered

I ended up staying at Nikole's that week, because well… you'll find out later. If I remember right, I called you and you had jumped over your bed for the phone or something. I told you I was going to go to a party and you told me not to party too hard. So I told you I wouldn't.

"Ok, soooo…" Spencer said impatiently.

"So hold on, just let me tell my story please," Ashley said. There were no tears flowing yet, but Ashley was sure there would be soon.

So we arrive at the party and that's when everything took place.

"Ok Ash, you really haven't seemed to happy since you got here, you want something to lighten up your mood," Nicole asked.

"Like what," Ashley wondered.

"Nikki, DON'T" Lexi said.

"Lexi, bug off. Well Ash, I got some hero in last night, you want to go shoot up?" Nikole asked.

"God damn you Nikki," Lexi said.

"Lexi, FUCK OFF seriously I wasn't even asking you, I already know your answer, so what do you say Ash," Nikole wanted to know.

"Um, I'm not sure if I should," Ash answered.

"O calm on, it will make you 110 more happier, and its so much better than the alcohol they have here," Nikole was persuading Ash.

"Um."

She started thinking about Spencer, but then thought that Spencer would never find out, she looked at Lexi who was pissed and then looked back at Nikole was had the look of "say yes" on her face.

"Ok fine, but only this once," Ash gave in.

"Sweet lets go," Nikole said.

Both girls went upstairs to shoot up and Lexi stayed down stairs shaking her head and went and got herself a drink.

Ashley looked over and saw that Spencer had started to cry. Spencer started shaking her head, and Ashley couldn't bare to look at her anymore.

"Ashley, you THOUGHT of me when you did this. YOU THOUGHT OF ME!!! Thinking I would never find out, meaning you would never tell me. How can I ever be able to trust you again? Did you ever think of how worried I was about you; you didn't call me for TWO DAYS after that party. I bet you lied to me about that too. About why you didn't call me for two days," Spencer snapped.

"… I'm sorry… Can I please finish?" Ashley said.

" Sorry will never fix this Ash and yes you can finish, but don't blame me if I walk out," Spencer stated.

Okay so I woke up, two days later. The first time I guess just knocked me out for a really long time. Well when I did wake up you were the first person to pop into my head.

I looked at my phone and saw that I had 32 missed phone calls from you. Shows me that you really love me.

Nikole had walked into the room and told me that the heroine was the reason I was out for two days. And I guess I was funny as hell, before I passed out.

"You don't need that to be funny as hell," Spencer mumbled.

Ashley had caught it though and smiled.

I asked her what I did, and she told me this.

"Oh you want to know, you made some stupid jokes that made everyone laugh for no reason. Then you hopped up on a table and started dancing to 'Jump on it', then you passed out and I brought you up here," Nikole laughed.

Nikole had then told me she needed to into town and get some "China White" which is another type of heroine. I didn't want to go with her, but I had felt an urge for some more.

Spencer you were right. I did sorta like to you about why I didn't call for two days. I told you I got sick. Technically I did, and I was passed out for two days. So I dodged the truth.

Spencer got up and started to walk out.

"Spencer please, stay"

"Ya, Ashley like I want to stay and hear all of the rest of this. Your addicted to drugs I get it, you don't need me anymore, cause you have your little friends," Spencer said through tears.

"It's not like that at all!" Ashley yelled.

"Well then what is it like?" Spencer asked.

"If you'd sit down and listen to the rest then maybe you'd be able to help me figure it out," Ashley snapped.

"You need to figure it out on your OWN Ashley. I can help you recover, but I can't help you figure out why you didn't just stick with the answer 'No'. Your so much smarter, I don't freaking get it," Spencer stated.

With that she walked out. Ashley started to sob a bit and she looked down at her stomach. When she did though she saw a bunch of red. Ashley freaked out and pushed the nurse button on her remote.

More later, and the talk will finish later too.